Lifes tragically hard
more things going wrong

Sometimes I do wonder
how sorrowful
the lyrics would be
if written as a song

A song of great love
friendship
contentment
and trust

Of passion
happiness
beauty
and
lust

Of illness  
tragedy
loneliness
and fear

Of anger
confusion
and heartbreak
over the one I hold dear

What sad lyrics they'd be
If my life with you
were a song

Let me pretend our life is normal
there's no illness here
as I lay beneath the covers

With you
My dear

Under the covers
on a chilled mornings day
Outside beyond our window
children are at play
Freshly brewed coffee
drifting in on the air

As we lay
beneath the covers
without a care

Spring flowers bloom
their perfume
dancing in on the breeze
Hear the Kookaburras laughing
outside in the trees
Dogs bark in the distance
a few streets away

But under the covers
nice and cosy
is where we shall stay

Till it's time to get started
on our day ahead
But for now I'm quite content
under the covers with you
in our bed

Your hands and fingers
so very strong
Yet filled with tenderness
as you strumned my song
A wonderful guitarist
I loved to watch you play
As the music notes
played
carried you away
To a place so peaceful
it was beautiful to see
As you strummed the piece of music you'd written
for me

You came into my life
aged 4

Such a sweet wee thing
and to this heart
of mine
much pleasure
you did bring

I had laughter
and love
with my little boy
But girls
bring a different joy

You really were
a lovely girl
You put my life
into a whirl

We did crafts
dress ups
had days
filled with fun
Your hair
shone golden
when out in the sun

Now you're an adult
Into a lovely young lady
you've grown
with a husband
and a baby girl
A family of your own

So now I have a grandaughter
to give me years
of pleasure
and I'm sure just like her mum
she'll give me memories I'll forever treasure

I meet a baby girl today
Who stole my heart
carried it away
All it took was to see her face
and my heart was
taken to a special place
A place filled with
love
hugs
and smiles
So much love
it stretched for miles
It's a wonderful place
where these hearts go
If your wondering how I know
Because
it's a Nana's heart
you see
And that heart filled
with so much love
Well that heart
belongs to
Me

Sit
say nothing
just let things go
Extra stress not needed
as our lives
find there flow

A well oiled machine
that's how we work
you and me
Unyielding emotions
take there toll
everything has a fee

Not sure I'd have coped
been able see these years through
There is no one  
who helps me
the way that you do

You give me strength
where I lack
I always know you've got my back
You make this life
a little lighter
sad
dark times
a little brighter

Thanks so much
for all you do
Thanks little sister
I love you

For 15yrs we had a love
pure and true
Love so perfect
I feel bound to you
Like intertwining vines
of a wisteria
My heart shatters
a million times over
knowing you can never
be my forever

Soon the time will come
for you to leave this place
of chaos and confusion
Not knowing
what is real
or
what is delusion

We may meet again
In another time and place
Forever in my heart
You have a special space

With all that is happening
I'd  live this life
a thousand times
over
over
again

So I could have you once more
not only as my lover
but also as my friend

What life once was
Is life no more
Sadness came calling at the door
A story told
A tragic tale  
One that leaves you fatigued and pale

Once a social butterfly
Wings now broken and torn
Torn pieces carried away on the wind
With every piece gone you mourn

At what cost
A true love lost
Leaves ones heart
shattered and bleeding
So many emotions
you can't control
has got your head reeling

Close your eyes
make a wish
  for this life to have a happy ending
But this one wish
will dissolve like mist
For the loss and grief are still pending

I cradle your love
within my heart
A perfect gentleman you were
from the very start

Your aura so beautiful
bright and strong
I knew
in your life
I belonged

Friends
lovers
soulmates
you mean the world to me
You left my spirit
untouched
wild
and free

One thing about our love
is no mask
did we wear
Any issue needed solving
the other always there

We never fort
never argued
Our hearts sung the same song

Maybe our love was too perfect
because illness came along

For you and I
   would have journeyed
into old age together
Watching our children  
their families
on journeys
to wherever

So sad that you won't be
by my side
We'd talked
often of grandchildren
watching them grow and thrive

Our grandchildren will always know how much you mean to me
But our journey
into old age
together
Is something
that was never
meant to be

Why was I giving
such a perfect love
Then have it so cruely
taken away

I really thought
my perfect love
by my side would forever stay

Is this what life throws at you
in order to make you strong
Some of life's challenges
are just nasty
and feel so wrong

I don't want you
to leave me
on this earth all alone
Everythings so twisted
makes my body
as cold as stone

Some days are so dark
for me
I think of ways
for us to go together
But then I think of our children  
their love I truly treasure

So I try to see the good things
that I have in what is my life
And to be there
for our children
in the good times
and when there's strife

I know that I can't leave this place
So I shall carry on
with a broken heart
And love you
till the very end
Until death do us part

Our once baron land
nothing but blackened sand

Tis now a place of beauty

So come take my hand
so we may stroll through our garden forever
Along the crazy paving pathway
We shall stroll through our garden togeather 
   
Flowerbeds of

Salvia
Delphinium
Coneflower
Cosmos
Alyssum
daisies
Aster
Clavillia
Hollyhock
Poppies

Just to name a few

So come sit with me my love
on our swingseat made for two

First time I saw you
across the room
your face so handsome
it made my heart swoon
For 11yrs I admired you
from a far
Till one night while out
we meet at a bar
We talked and danced
til about 3
No one existed
it was just you and me
We moved in together
a house in the bush
it had an orchard a dam
you could even fish
Your 2 kids my 1
together makes 3
we had ourselves an instant family
Our kids rode bikes,camped
we had so much fun
Days during the summer
at the dam in the sun
It felt as if my life
had only just begun
And it all started
because you made my
heart swoon
When I saw that handsome face of yours across the room

Your face so handsome
near or far
Features like
a well sculptured land
Etched in my memories forever
How I'd love to carry you away
on a silver lined cloud
curled up beside you

They say it's better
to have loved
and lost
Then to never have loved at all
But sometimes
I do wonder
as I watch you
crumble and fall
To see you vanish
before me
and not able to do a thing
I feel little pockets of madness
starting to creep in
To terrified to look 
to far ahead
Life without you
fills me with dread
So I deal with life
one day at a time
Feeling my way through
as if I am blind
But to NEVER know
what it is to love
Really would be sad
And what we had was
unconditional love
And to have experienced that
I'm truly glad
So it is better to have
loved and lost
Then never to have loved at all
Even if that means that everyday
I have to watch you
crumble and fall

Large boulder rocks everywhere
Water so clear mussels attached to riverbank's
Laughter racing home made boats

I have a friend
She is my Forever
A friend since childhood
She's like a precious treasure
Unfortunately she lives far away
But with video chat we can talk
face to face nearly every day

I have a friend
She is my Sun
So calm and gentle
She's full of fun
When I'm feeling bleak
My mood dark as night
She comes bringing her rays of sunshine
and surrounds me with her light

I have a friend
She is my Knight In Shining Armour
A friend who's talkative and vibrant
She's a real charmer
She always seems to know when I'm feeling sad and blue
She takes me away on what we call a pampering rescue

I have a friend
She is my smile
I've had this friend for quite a while
Time will pass maybe 6months or more
Next minute she'll be at my door
With a big smile and lots of charm
ready to greet me with open arms

I have a friend, My best friend
She is my sister
If she were to ever leave
I would truly miss her
She is so full of love, support and care
and no matter what she's always there
She helps me so
and life at times isn't much fun
And one day I hope to repay her for everything she has done

Some days life overwhelms me
Some days I wish I could climb into a cloud and float away

I glimp fragments of you
while you sleep
This sad heart
it does weep

Perfect love
now in the past
A beautiful union
never meant to last

Eyes look at me
with an intensity
of things that use to be

Makes my heart yern
for the melodies
your fingers
once played upon my skin
Precious
tender
melodies
drawn from deep within

I see you hiding
just beyond my reach
Behind
Sad
Confused eyes
Your beautiful mouth
Know with out speech

So sad my aching heart
every day we're togeather
Closer comes the day
when we shall part

Soulmate, Lover, Confidant, Friend
By your side I shall be
till the very end

Dreamt of growing
old with you
The pair of us
wrinkled and gray
In our garden
surrounded by
grandchildren and flowers
Thought our life
would end this way
But illness has come
On a solitary journey you travel
I'm here
watching you
trying desperately
not to unravel
So in my memories
forever young
you will be
While I get to keep living
When all I ever wanted
was just
you and me
My thoughts
overwhelming  
My heart filled with dismay
But it doesn't matter
how much I wish
it's not going to help you stay
So I shall just sit here
holding your hand
Telling you
I love you
and hoping you understand

You sit at our kitchen table
Guitar in your hand
Playing beautiful melodies of love
And tunes from far away lands
Then at night you play with a rock band Hells Bells is their name
Music blaring
Heads are thrashing
The whole room goes insane
At the end of the night you pack up your gear
Head on out the door
Home to your sweet darling
To play your beautiful melodies once more

Touch so gentle and tender
Body and soul complete surrender
Lips so soft caress the skin
Close your eyes
and just give in
Arms and legs
Pull you near
Fingers tangled in your hair
All lifes worries fade away
In the grips of passion
you shall stay
Lust so hungry
an urge so great
Fast and frenzied
you just can't wait
Overwhelming sensations
Why put up a fight
Whole body tingling
Afternoon delight

Almost a year has past since you've been gone,
I always thought when growing up you and I would go on and on,
We'll out live our husbands that's what you'd always say,
It really broke my heart the day you past away,
We were going to grow old together get a house for just
us two,
One with a big varanda and an even bigger view,
Where we'd sit in our rocking chairs and let the old yarns fly,
About memories we cherished from years gone by,
But you left me and I miss you,
You were my sister you were my friend,
The one that I'd go to if I needed to mend,
I wish I could have one minute to tell you how I feel,
I'd have taken on your pain if it had helped you to heal,
So where ever your spirit may be my message to you
Sheree is
I love you and I miss you

The song of a magpie
Brings special memories to me
Staying at Nana's house
The sound of the sea
My sister & I
our cousin Johnny
Playing chasey  
Hide and seek
The wind in our hair
There were gardens of roses
Pathways everywhere
Summers always mild
You could feel the ocean breeze
Wanting to play more
When Nana called us
in for tea
Hugs from Nana
As we were tucked in tight
Into our beds to sleep for the night
I love to hear the Magpies sing
And appreciate the beautiful memories they bring

Forgotten memories
passion and lust
Shattered shards of broken hearts
crumble to dust
Dust drifts gently through the
ghosts of yesterdays
atmosphere

Caressing stars
along the way so
bright and clear

Silence surrounds me
As I lay here beneath the earth
Surrounded by soil
Black fertile soil
Feels as if I've been here
forever trapped
Buried in the darkness
Buried by lifes burdens
If only I could reach the surface
Break through
Though to the sunshine
the fresh air
Fresh air that shall fill my lungs
Fill my lungs
and bring me back to life
To a life I once had
Life filled with color
And sounds of happiness
Instead I lay here stagnant
trapped beneath the earth
In silence

Unconditional love

Is love pure and true

Unconditional love

Is the love I have with you

Your whole heart giving

And received in return

To trust someone completely

a hard lesson learned

Not to worry about their past

Or have yours thrown in your face

To wipe the slate clean

Is the love that we all dream

To be so connected

almost reading

each others minds

Finishing each others sentences

is something we do all the time

To love someone completely

no matter how much they

change

Weight gain,gray hair, whatever

you love them just the same

People go their whole lives

trying to find unconditional love

You and I have been so lucky

and for that

I thank the heavens above

To give birth to a child
is a wonderful thing

The waterfall of emotions
The love it does bring

Your world is charged
forever more

Long sleepless nights
are in store

As fatigue
a messy house
set on in
You'll not really know
where the hell to begin

Baby will eventually settle down  
Order, routine
will come round

You'll laugh and cry
They'll melt your heart

You'll love them
like know other
from the very start

As they grow
from toddlers to teens
they may change into someone
you've never seen

Their teen years
may drive you insane
But their hormones go nuts
so they're really not to blame

Fill their world with
Hugs, laughter and fun
Cherish your child
as if they're the only one

Talk at the table
when you all sit for tea
Help them grow
to be the best
they can be

I love you son
from the bottom of my heart
This I have done
from the very start
From the day you were born
you turned my world
upside down
A little ball of energy
always running round
Your lashes long
Your eyes so blue
Your hair golden ringlets
How could I not
love you
Sometimes you'd walk
round with a blanket
over your head
And I would read you stories
when I tucked you into bed
There were also
tantrums
and
naughtiness
that comes when you are young
And on some of these occasions
you got a smack on your
***
Then one day
we became a family of 5
Where we lived was wonderful
it made you feel alive
You kids could
swim
camp
even climb the old oak tree
Occasionally you'd fall
and get a scrape or two
on your knee
We'd spend hours walking
at The Roleypools
That's all our favourite place
It really was a wonderful sight
to see the smiles
on your face
We also did star gazing
through the binoculars
at the moon
You kids grew up so fast
the time past to soon
One day I came home
to find a young lady
sitting
on the lounge room chair
So shy and so quiet
you'd hardly know that she was there
Slowly she's opened up to us
and come out of her shell
Be coming part of our family
this she has done well
Our son at Araluen
proposed down on one knee
She graciously excepted
her face glowing with glee
Now they live in a place
of their own
walking distance from the sea
Happily just the two of them
and their pussycat
Libby

Lovers side by side
Watching the sunset
feeling the tide

I love your hands
So beautiful
So strong
The way your fingers dance
upon the fretboard
as you play a song
The tenderness in your fingers
as they caress my cheek
something you always do
before drifting off to sleep
The warmth
of your hand
as I take yours in mine
As we stroll through the bush
birds singing
the weather fine
How gentle they are
As you hold
our grandbaby in your arms
Nurturing
full of love
and always so calm
Playing the guitar
made your hands strong
I love their beautiful shape
your loving fingers long

I wish
I wish
upon a star
That I could gather you
in my arms
and take you far
Far far away
On a cloud made for two
A special cloud
for me
and for you
Away from these lands
filled with anguish and pain
To lands with no illness
where you'd have good health again
To lands where together
we'd grow
old
and grey
As husband and wife
forever we'd stay

We lived in an old home
with a
big fire place
Perfect for our children
who could run and play
in its big open space
Their laughter wonderful
as they rode though the bush
They'd climbed tress
build cubbies
go camping
do whatever they wished
You could even drop a line
in the dam
and try to catch a fish
Bush out the back
Orchard out the front
The kids would canoe
Dive off the pontoon
Even go on a big frog hunt
Life in the hills was perfect
an awsome place
for our children to play
Days swimming
and snockling  
Wanting their friends
to come and stay
It's a place they hold dear
to their hearts
It was really sad to leave
and make a new start
But they have wonderful memories
of the old house in the bush
I'm so glad
our children grew up there
and could do
whatever they wished

Memories intact

amongst
the  chaos  in   your   head
     
                                           

Your words sit silent in a mouth which no longer speaks

Frustration and anger

show

behind coNfuSEd eyes  

Features at times expressionless
A canvas blank
Void of colours

Take my hand
I shall guide you
Watch out for you
Protect you
Be your voice
So you are heard
Understood
Cared for
Loved

You lie on top of the earth
basking in the sun
Warming your flesh through
to your bone's
Sunlight blanketing
everything in it's heat
Flowers of winter are overflowing
Colors bursting through
vibrant against the  
nakedness of the tree's
The aroma of a sunny winters day
fills the air
The hum of nature all around
surrounding you with their
musical rhythms
Dragon flies
birds
bee's
butterflies
Each dancing to their own beat
The earth and sky
A haven of activity
Tranquility at its most divine

You live in a world
That is your own
Filled with love and support
Your never alone

Like the Enchanted Rose
In cased in glass
With every petal that falls
A layer of you is lost
The person you were
has payed a huge cost

This journey is something
we have to endeavor
It's a road that you and I shall travel together

We're learning skills to cope
Living day by day
We have my sisters help
Making hard days seem ok

If you have that special someone
in your life
Be it your partner, lover, husband
or wife
If you really do love them tell them so
Don't let a day go by without letting  them know
Never take for granted the one you love
If your both healthy and happy
Thank the lord above

Your walk elegant
as if in a dream
A vision of loveliness
is how you are seen

Long and lean your body
with a big loving heart
Knew you were special
from the very start

Our brothers a lucky man
to have fallen for you
How you love him back
For him
A dream come true

When it comes to love
2 things are a must
Your relationship
has both
they are
friendship
and
trust

Illness seeps in
Taking all in its path
Leaving only a shell of what was

Shattered hearts
Tears wept
Broken dreams
Memories forgotten

But Hey
Life must go on

Right :)

A fabulous day
to be had was in store
At Mash Brewery I casualy
strolled through the door
Our tables real long
30 + ladies are here
Eating lunch and chatting
with a wine,cider or beer
Then I spy the birthday girl
a friend I hold dear
Like all the other ladies
I bring birthday cheer
Then a call "all aboard"
gotta skull down my drink
To much of this  
I'll end up feeling real stink
So out of the brewery
single file we go
To our white disco bus
with our Kiwi driver Joe
With a smile to our driver
I say "Kiora Bro"
Then we're off on our journey
to different Swan Valley locations
There's laughter even a waterslide to release some of life's frustrations
Then all to soon my journey
must end
Then I hear a voice say
"Come to Guildford my friend"
More then happy to ablige
It's back to my seat
with a skip in my stride
At the Guildford Tavern I decide l'd love to go the whole way
And on my girlfriends couch
tonight is where I shall stay
Today I'm having respite
so my sister I call to see
if in the morning
she's able to come and get me
She's more than happy
Glad I'm having fun
I love my sister
she's my number one
So off on our bus down
the Highway we roar
Singing
"Girls just wanna have fun "
we let our voices soar
With our trusty driver Joe
in our white bus
with the disco light
We laugh, sing and dance
our voices carrying into the night.

There's times
of extreme happiness
Lifes filled with
song
dance
and sound

There's times
of extreme anger
Please keep your eyes to the ground

There's times
his face            diStoRts
     with        
    HOSTILITY            
He's so filled with rage

His behavior he can not help
His behavior he can not gauge

There's times
of great confusion
About his life
he hasn't got a clue

There's times
of not remembering
The face of his best friend
and
his mother too

There's times
his body aches
from the constant walking
he must do

There's times
of great fatigue
from taking care of you

There's times
people tell me
I should put him in a home
But how do I do that and leave him there alone

Anyway

that's not going to happen

Cause he's  staying right here

With his wife
who loves him

and his
sister in law
who holds him dear

My journey to you
so very long
Men I'd dated
never singing the right song
Then one day
you were there
Leather jacket
Long blonde hair
I felt as if I was in a dream
You had the best **** mullet
I'd ever seen
You're handsome face
it did frame
You wore your mullet
without shame
Farrah Fawcett hair
my jeans real tight
Who could've known
we'd fit just right
The first time we meet
that majestic night

You'd known each other a few years
With each other you were at ease
You decided you wanted more
Entering her world like a cool
summer breeze
Time spent together
was a soft glowing light
Sweet words whispered
walks hand in hand
long conversations into the night
You made her feel safe and secure
with your charisma and charm
Introducing her to your family
Walking in arm in arm
When asked to meet her family
it caused you stress and alarm
Insecurities got the better of you
You panicked about what to do
So any sort of relationship
was shut down, snuffed out
out of the blue
Life's far to short and this I know
Not to take the reins of life and give somthings ago
People who like you for who you are
do not come round to often
So the dislike and disapproval of yourself needs to somewhat soften  
You put her in a dismal place
 extinguishing that flame
You didn't call, didn't text
you did nothing
So she thought she was to blame
You should have thought long and hard before saying you'd give
things ago
Instead you came in
Made her heart flutter
Then left her feeling low

I had a little headache
Slightly increasen over time
Nothing really
UNTIL NOW
11.30pm
I'm not fine
My throat is harsh
My ears do sing
with a gentle humming pain
Excruciating is my head
Body shivers
in my bed
Tonsillitis has come a calling
Like a torturis leeching stain
Creeping in  
Your unaware
It's so unfair
Then swallows you whole
In a torrent of fevers, delirium
right down to your soul

Broken, shattered, filled with pain
My love for you will never wane

Happiness, fullfillment, being by your side
Something the universe it seems would not abide

Illness, taking everything
Nothings ever been the same
So cruel is this illness
You can't even speak my name

Exhausted through lack of sleep
Pain in my heart running deep
Mental fatigue is so great
Sometimes I feel
I'll completely break

By your side I will always be
Even when you don't remember me