It doesn't matter what you said
i get a grip when i lose my step
its not that easy to break me

we are all silhouettes against the sun
shadows on a hill
pebbles rolling down a stream
and one more empty space to fill

is the pain really worth the prize
is the suspense really worth the surprise
the path darkens
the light in front gets brighter
but i am going nowhere

your gaze
puts sunlight underneath my skin

I'm ready to step out
i guess i always was
but was too scared
to face the fact that
i am not the only person on this planet
with a life worth living

i am ready for sacrifice
of time, money, and comfort
i am ready to be free
of the fickle judgements of others
i am ready to reach out
and enjoy me
and pour into others
and pray for real
and be legit
and dream
and work
and fight
and make life a journey
of thought and sacrifice
and love

maybe
all i've ever wanted is for someone to hold my hand
and to know that they will never let go
maybe
you are just too busy being right
to see how badly i need help
maybe
I've tried to fill the fissures in my heart
with music and school for too long
maybe
the reason im doing my project on personality is so
i can find a way to change mine
maybe
im terrified of the next moment
when you might slam me down
the second i open up

maybe i don't want to be the smartest
maybe i don't want to be just like you

maybe
i cry tears that you had no idea were even there
maybe i need a friend who means it for once

but one thing i am sure of
i was wrong when i thought
that i could find that friend
in you

I Know that i am Beautiful
I Know that my heart is Sacred Ground
I Know i have a Strong, Free Voice
and I Know there is None Like Me to be Found

"Thank you."

"I love you"

"I'm sorry."

"God Bless You!"*

So overused, so overlooked
These phrases should only be said if they are meant with *the whole heart

Those Girls Who

wear too much make up
spit when they talk
think flirting will get them somewhere
complain about everything
lie, gossip, cheat
take too many selfies, then edit them until you can't tell what you are looking at
only care about what they're saying
have no clue what personal space is
live at Starbucks
know who your crush is, then take him away
say they don't judge, but are always silently judging
say they hate drama, then go kiss their friends date
laugh at their own jokes
laugh at old folks
chat during sad parts in movies
read your texts but never text back
and can't read your face when you're too sad to speak

what's wrong with me
everything

what's wrong with her
almost everything

what's wrong with you & me
her

Im too much of a mess
i've always known it
but i guess
i was just avoiding it
because no one has offered
to hold my hand
for me
when it feels heavy

how many faces have passed by
i can not count

what each face's life was like
i cannot tell

but i can imagine

what a privilege to be amongst so many
intricate lives

but they don't see me
or remember me

but that is perfect
i like it that way

not about me

im a bench sitter
a face rememberer
a open eyer
life ponderer

a people watcher

I know I'm almost gone
and i really don't care

I know I'm fading away
but that's totally fine

walking through life with your head down
gets boring after a while

starting fights
spewing lies
more wrong is accepted as right
every second of my life

My
mirror
will
be
the
death
of
me

I am the Child playing in the puddles
made by the stale water
dripping from the castle walls
covered with moss and grime

I've memorized the rooms inside
and I still play inside them
even though there is only one object of worth
amongst the cobwebs and ancient wax

A shattered mirror
with half the shards scattered on the floor
I found a boy inside those shards
The perfect one for me

I also found a girl
***** and free
the complete opposite of the boy
who stares back at me

after sitting in that room alone
examining the glass
I'll wander down the silent, mournful halls
and wish that my life was different

that I had hope
and love somewhere out there
waiting for me
maybe my boy in the mirror
or maybe it will always be
*just me

You know you are dying*

when

music no longer brings you joy

sunsets dont make you smile

you give no thought to a rainbow

and pushing yourself isn't worthwhile

when

a survivor's beautiful story

doesn't make you cry

and nothing comes out of your mouth

but lies

when

your tears are redder than your eyes

you scream so loud but no one hears

and you could fill the deepest pit

with half of all your fears

No, not beautiful
No, not ugly
Just more average than average

The only problem is that
I don't know, and can't control, what it's showing
Normal? I have no idea

And I know I'll never see it myself
I just wish I could
And know what to change

The biggest miscommunications
Happen with my face

Yes, I feel stupid: glaring at you and making you think I want to ****** someone, when it's only the sun in my eyes

No, you did nothing wrong!

Please see past the anger, sadness, or shock that you may see
That isn't me! I'm so much better

If I could leave my consciousness
And travel across my heart
I would see every rock and every drop
As a work of art

At the beginning I might find
A fairly nuetral place
There's never sun and never rain
And too much empty space

But soon the journey isn't smooth
Rises and falls that you might call extreme
One moment snow, the next mad heat
The former like a dream

The next chapter is more puzzling
So many routes to choose
Along one road I gained so much
The other had much to lose

At the end I saw a mountain wall
Streching as far as east to west
I knew I had to climb it
And at the top let my feet rest

When I finally turned around
I could see all the places I'd been

But then I tripped and fell off the edge

*Since then I have not been seen

I hate it how
I only thankYou
And acknowledge You
When everything is great

What happened to dedication?

A restless yearning
Won't stop burning
Behind my eyes
Inside my legs

Yes I can
It's who I am
Inside my heart
Lives in my mind

You'll never know your accusations
Are what provide motivation
In my anger
Amongst my memories

Saddness ***** my voice out
Guilt steals my air
Tragedy poisens my tears
Because of Crying I no longer care

Ramblers in the wilderness
We cant find what we need
Get a little restless from the searching
Get a little worn down in the swing
Like a bull chasing the matador
is a man left to his own schemes
Everbody needs someone beside 'em
shining like a lighthouse from the sea

                                             - NEEDTOBREATHE

puppet

Everyone has anger issues

Because anger is an issue

Darkness

That's all there is in this world

False teachers
False preachers
False call-themselves-believers

Have no idea how discouraged anyone else is

When they try to force them to confess and repent

As if oppression is how you give light to someone

In a world of only

Darkness

You grabbed my heart faster than a fat kid grabs cake

Yet walked away slower than internet explorer can load

Why love if were going to lose

Why give us a choice if we can't choose

And why ask us to tell the truth when we can't discern from the lies

What use to us are tears if they won't fall from our eyes

They only fade
Never die
Not until the day
We fly

Are the walls to lock you in
or keep the others away?

And if the doors were to be opened
would you leave or would you stay?

The comfort of your misery you cherish dearly

And you haven't started dreaming
'cause you're still fast asleep

                                                    -For King & Country
                                                       *Run Wild (feat. Lecrae)

"You sounded great up there."
"You totally failed, but I don't want to be a dream-crusher so I'll lie"

Smiles at you when someone compliments you on how you did
"You're lucky that I even let you sing up there, even if you're horrible"

"I look forward to hearing you next week"
*"JK, I'm not coming back again, no way"

Because we're on the run
Won't stop until we're free
And life will catch us by the tail
Every chance it sees
Let's shut the door
Dim the lights
And hide from everything

Tried to be myself for one day
Also tried to be friendly

Which one? I can't do both

Is there really a guy out there
Who doesn't care what I look like
And will love me anyway

Girls say that there is all the time

All of them wear mini shorts and don't have to **** in their belly look good in a tight shirt

Like they know what they're talking about

Is there really a genuine man out there
Or will society contaminate him before I find him

If you want me to change myself so badly, why don't you help me?

I know what it's like
to see the other point of view
on life

You love it now
but you won't later

It hurts you
There is no one you can trust
On the other side

So please turn back around again

Only saw you once
On the metro
You looked like you needed help
I felt like I could have helped you

Never even talked
But our eyes did meet
You looked like you needed hope
But you looked away before I could smile

Pull up to the platform
I opened my mouth to speak
You just picked up your bag
And left

Fell in love
With someone
I had never even met
And it hurt

*Badly

chorus:*
Why did I worry
And why did I sin
And why was I just so conceited
And why did I roll in the mud of the world for so long

Why was I angry
And why did I cry
And why did I judge those I hated
And why did I waste love on those that I didn't care for

Even when darkness knew what I feared
He knew what I needed

I enjoy the solitude
The drawn curtain, being alone

I don't need a friend
Unless the shadows count

I can smile, have a conversation
with myself

A guitar in my lap
A song in my head

I enjoy the solitude

He sat inside his shopping cart
underneath his favorite tree
As a pine needle fell by his head
He thought about how
Christmases used to be

The Christmas tree decorated
with tinsel, ornaments, and candy canes
And Christmas morning discovering bright packages
filled with little toy planes

But he snapped back to reality
away from memories too painful to recall
so he gathered up the plastic bags
and slept amongst them all

As I watch the world being help captive by dreams that can never be fulfilled in this life, chasing the darkness and everything that surrounds all the emptiness hidden inside. Well I won't stop showing this hope that is holding this passion so deep in my heart to tell all the world of Your love and affection and the plan that You've had from the start. So I will continue to fight, until the world comes alive.

                                                                           - Jeremy Camp