lack of motivation life gets overwhelming where am i consciously thoughts are unpleasing they tell me "chin up" but it's not that easy swear it's like a disease only can rely on me
tell me , am i setting myself up to fail? just wanna make it , don't tell me the ship has sailed spinning in circles , ******* life derailed just take my *** to jail problems too big it broke the scale
i'm losing myself ; can no longer feel is anything left even real? lost control soon as i took my hands off the wheel swear i'm so low , how is this ideal?
gasping for air if i took my last breath who would care? death and despair why can't i just disappear
ripped apart from reality the page tears fell to my knees so i say a prayer why is happiness having an affair
how can i find myself try to rewire my brain force feed me pills to get rid of the pain think i'm going insane i'm not that picture perfect don't pick me up and put me in a frame compared to you , we are not the same
stuck in a slump this is a speed bump fall back down just to get up than i shrug life's got me ****** up but negativity i will unplug
sweep these feelings under a rug squash depression like a bug don't come around if you ain't got no love
least i know my way back home where the flowers bloom the fireflies glow when i take a midnight stroll if i get lost along the way i'll search for the words i wrote and sing along to the tune that goes
"you might hit me with throws and the low blows put me on a ledge keep me on my toes but this is not the life i chose if i'm down only god knows i'll find the glasses colored with rose"
The back and forth pace behind the seal to individuality a blurred plastic vision of a mystery that could be joy or utter sadness that maddens or utter madness that saddens the very soul of the soul and the only spark that lives within this state of mind, now may remain or may not, on the other side