#stuff poems on Hello Poetry

CP May 2014

I'm afraid

I'm afraid of being betrayed
By those who I love
So I stand in the shade
I dream of
Better days, unafraid,
Of being dismayed

I'm afraid of being alone
The grey unknown
Has been shown
The darkness is now my throne
My isolation is my crown
It rests upon my brow
I've become a clown

I'm afraid of my self
I sit alone on a shelf
Collecting dust
I want to combust
Who do I even trust?

My fears have moulded to my skin
Each inhale
Can cause me to derail

                                  My tale has made me pale
                                  For my fears are like a veil
                                    I have made my own jail

#fear #depression #lonely #afraid #whatever #alone #anxiety #im #i #am #sorry #done #isolated #just #stuff #stressed #yeah #cp

CP May 2014

Drifting

Drifting away from the stars
 I watch my decisions sway  
Look at all this decay
I cannot make my mind

Drifting away from the suns
 I am confined and resigned  
My fate is designed 
When the stars aligned
 I am just so blind
Drifting behind

 I want to be reassigned from mankind  
Maybe one day I’ll find my mind  
Maybe it will be refined, defined
But today I’m drifting  
Shifting in this world  
A peal in an underworld

Drifting away from the cosmos 
Maybe one day it will be clear
 But right now it’s foggy and dark  
I just want to disembark
 I may be quitting but right now I’m just

drifting

#poem #poetry #sad #depressed #anxiety #dark #i #and #existential #*** #bit #tried #eh #anyway #stuff #stressed #crisis #drifting #cp

CP May 2014

You ask me

You ask me why do I cry
I cannot lie
my heart is shattered into two
You ask me why am I so blue
I'll tell you why my dear
I'm all out of tears from the years I spent crying over you

I value my life as much as you valued mine
If I die tomorrow my dear would you miss me
I sighed and cried, yet I didn't not see you

This strong willow tree is nothing but a shrub
This strong wolf is nothing but a pup
This rainbow has no luck
That swan is nothing but a duck
This strong woman is nothing but a fragile girl

You ask me why do I cry
I cannot lie
my heart is shattered into constellations
because of your creations
across the sky they lie
watch the pieces shine
but it is all lies
they're all dead inside

Elizabeth mikol May 2014

Untitled <\3

I tried.
I tried to forget that summer
I tried to stop thinking about you
I tried to let it go
I tried to like other boys

I learned.
I learned other boys are cruel
I learned other boys are rough
I learned other boys are to much
I learned other boys are controlling

I question.
I question why you don't call me out on these
I question why you don't realize these are about you
I question why you don't just ******* talk to me
I question why you don't give this a shot

I sigh.

Because I know I will forever be a silly little girl who likes the shadow of a boy who will never come back for me though I've grown and changed and still feel a flame in the pit of my stomach every time I see anything with your name pop onto my screen

Forgotten and forgetting

#love #friends #relationships #past #summer #new #wish #bye #lettinggo #stuff #uneasy #rough #tbh

Daylight 4U2C May 2014

Giving Trees and Cruelties

I gave away my branches,
I gave away my leaves,
you chopped me up for housing,
then ran off,
leaving me.

I gave away my dirt,
and gave away my air,
I gave away the water,
you said you'd none to spare.

I gave away my patterns,
I gave away my age,
I gave away all I had,
and you'd just take and take.

And now that I have nothing,
I sit alone, and cry
I think how I am now a stump,
and you didn't even say goodbye.

I don't know why,
I give stuff to you.
I tell the others,
it's just what I do.
But I'm ready to jump,
right over the ledge.
You keep laughing,
and pushing me off the edge.
Then you come back around,
asking for solace.
I'd have hit the ground by now,
but i won't get stuck in the past.
So whether or not hurting me was your goal,
Take that you ***!
Being a bully isn't cool.

:3

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HopelesslyHopeful May 2014

if only thoughts counted

you love me in drug store flowers and one dollar teddy bears you bought off the street but i love you in things i can never afford

#love #and #stuff