Dear you, I know you hate the way clothes fit but you run around calling out confidence, you hypocrite. Stop covering your face with hair people just don't care.
Dear you, I know you count the numbers and your days praying you'd be lighter so small you might float away.
Dear you, I know in the mirror you're not gentle hurling abuse at the person in the reflection are you hoping through rejection she'll change? Even when you don't say the words they linger in your throat waiting to -
Dear you, hating yourself is easy you're full of questions and hate 'put down the plate' hating yourself is getting into bed in darkness and listening to raindrops
Dear me, please stop. You're tired of fighting everyone and then yourself You're tired of catching your reflection looking at you for some validation i'm yearning for love and i'm tired of starvation
Dear you, you will get out of bed and open the blinds, you will make it better I'm sorry for all i've put you through
Dear you, step-by-step unacounted for, I will look after you.
My books and poems don’t excite me Neither does the soft gushing of the Aegean sea but the presence of you-
My brushes and paints are now lost on me Neither does the inspiration from the sky but when you’re nearby-
My words fall out all at once clumsily but when you’re near me my thoughts flutter around your mind my words build an eloquent house around your sentences art grows from my tips and all I want to do is paint your lips
My palette is static as my mind but when you’re near me the colours change their hue
Like the flying chaos of the world I am soothed by the presence of you
You called me beautiful and I think about it every night Twisting and turning in my sheets I fell in love with you slowly then all at once You called me smart and ****** and you blushed I fell in love with you so easily
I will not forget when you lay in my bed till 5 am I wanted you you talked the night away eating chips Wishing I didn’t have to leave you It felt for real You said you were glad you met me I wanted to say so much more
I will not forget when your eyes lingered over my lips I should have told you I fell in love with you long before and now I’ve left but darling I will not forget
I’m in the pool dancing and then I’m not My mind is far and my body is static I stand there but where? I’m so lost but I haven’t moved
I’m at the bar talking and then I’m not My mind is travelling and my body is marble the words stop coming because I’m not here But where am I?
I’m reading, devouring the chapter and then I’m Not My eyes glitter over and my body remains
I travelled away but I don’t know where Any empty true nothing The world moved and progressed The people around me walked and talked But I stood there fixed Thinking of nothing Going anti clock wise in a wave of progression
I’m disassociating again. I don’t know why I don’t know where And all I seem to do is glare maybe into the nothingness , maybe into the past
I’m writing rhymes in my pad and then I’m not the pen and the lines evanesce I’d like to come back.