The simplicity
of a short but blunt
and simple poem
can temporarily
cast out the
demons that
roam inside
my head

Sometimes the person
you want isn't always the
person that you need

9:49 AM
21/8/22

I wonder if you have forgotten me,
if I have withered from your sunflower
like a petal ready to discard?
Do I still cross your mind or
am I a forgotten memory
lost to the winters of time?
I still think about you from time to time-
I guess I have a harder time shedding
these petals I still hold dear
to this sunflower.

Am I any good for you anymore?
Do my words still make you smile?
Do you still dread my goodbyes?
or have they lost all meaning?

The shadow has lifted
releasing the light of life-
my soul is freed from darkness.
I feel alive again,
now my only fear is
until when?

time doesn’t heal.
it is a scheming wound
stretching out like the universe itself
until it crunches back into you;
an imploding reality.

I have been living
just north of nowhere and south
of everything else

4:03 PM
29/7/19

It's not about what you lose,
it's about what you learned
from what you lose.

stop carrying the
baggage of the past to an
unwritten future

6:31 PM
8/10/20

Sometimes I write
about women who
might not even exist.
“She” is a figment of my imagination
and “she” is perfect in all the ways
that I can’t comprehend,
but I sure as hell try
to write it down.
I sure hope that one day
I will meet her.

If the stars
were to fall with
every thought of you,
the sky would surely turn
to darkness and despair.

If the stars
were to shine with
every thought of you,
the sky would surely turn
to the heavens above.

Why is it that the
promises we cannot keep
sound the prettiest?

10:19 PM
5/12/20

Sometimes
it feels like
the only way forward
is a U-turn
back towards yesterday-
heading for the past.
For it is there
where my heart
doesn't want to leave.

I just want to say
from the bottom of my heart:
thank you for your love

8:35 PM
31/5/2019

What strange power
the sunflowers have that,
once you walk among them,
your worries just fade away.
Like the countless sunflowers that
rise and fall,
we are born carefree
until our sun sets
one last time.

Do not forget that
you are a force of nature-
fire, ice and wind

6:03 PM
6/6/19

I'm standing outside
under your star in the sky
please don't fade away

Hey kid,
I am missing you
more than usual tonight.
It's cold, it's dark, and I am sitting here
watching the winter storm all alone.
It's pouring out there-
it's heavier than the night itself.
Distant thunder bellows in the distance
but it's sure to be at my doorstep soon.
As for me, I am warm-
I can thank the comfort you give me
and your joy you radiate for that.
I am missing you
more than usual.

Our tongues paint
watercolors over our bodies-
each stroke, more intricate than the last.
Fingers slide across smooth canvases,
and we are left with abstract
works of art.

We don't have much time,
so spend it with someone who
wants to give you theirs.

11:05 PM
29/10/19

I fed the wolf too well
and now the beast barely
fits its sheep's clothing.
And now, the wolf must
hunt again to satisfy
its darker side.

I didn't believe
in soulmates until I met
your beautiful soul

1:10 PM
17/7/19

Sitting in the bar
in that town
you used to live in-
wishing you were sitting at that stool
of where we first met.
I would pull up a seat
let the sparks ignite
and do it all over
again.

We have nothing
in common?
We had a history
in common,
a history when we thought
we had everything
in common.

As long as your love
is absent from your heart,
nothing can save
nor help you.

I love you so much
that I would share my toilet
paper with you, babe

10:50 PM
12/3/20

Your heart isn’t true;
not anymore.
And now this feeling of blue
leaves me unsure
because I can’t believe you;
can’t see you the same no more.

All I want
for Christmas
is for my bed not to be
as cold as it has been
this year.

Why do I still crave
validation from people
who I've never met?

7:10 PM
18/2/20

Mother Earth, she aches-
the more we are heating, the
more she is bleeding

10:03 PM
15/7/19

some days the rain falls
just a little too loud for
me to hear my heart

1:36 AM
8/9/19

There's so much darkness
between us that the shadows
are afraid of the dark.

I ache for skies I have not seen,
and for people I have not met.
But most of all,
I ache for you.

You don't have to do
much to make my life smile-
I'll never forget

11:20 AM
2/7/22

Tomorrow
is tomorrow
is tomorrow
is tomorrow-
if only i could
become unstuck.

Love is a fickle
yet transcendent drug.
Beware its highs and lows
for the side effects
far outweigh
the addiction.

I have not been whole
in quite some time.
Too many nights spent
pouring my soul into songs
in hopes to fill those holes
you all left in me long ago;
words, chords and harmonies
that will never bring you back,
nor will it undo the past
or take me back in time.
And yet at this very hour,
these songs are stuck in my head
and I have no resistance
to their siren call.

Who left you
so broken that your
eyes now cut deeper than
the sharpest knife?
We are left with such hatred
weighed upon our hearts
and all we can do
is laugh.

When some days
are not so bad as others
but you’re still drinking
and miserable.
The inching hatred
of who you are
but not what you’ve done-
that’s depression.

Remember all the
good times you had and all the
things you hoped to be?

11:16 PM
14/9/20

Dear diary;
I am constantly
finding myself being
devoured by every memory
that I
have ever had.

They are
dreams and
nothing more.
Impossible ones-
simply illusions
that have worn
out over time.

The devil must
live in the ocean.
That is why the costal cities
are nests of sin and squalor.

It is so easy to think
that you’re never going
to find someone like him-
until you find someone better.
It is so easy to think things
will never be like before
Until they are.
It is too easy to think
we’ll never get that fairy-tale love-
that happily ever after just like
they have in the movies-
until one one day we find it.
But you’re not at the end
of your story yet-
just remember that the
happily ever after is always
at the end.

Sweet sunflower,
I watch you from afar.
Your petals wither and
all I want to do is shine light into your heart.
All alone in a bed of thorns you are-
I want to plant more like you and
nurture them as if they too were
the apple of my eye.

I love you
louder than
the city that never sleeps.
New York,
it's got nothing on us,
baby.

And then you held me
like you'd never let me go-
I wish you hadn't

7:09 PM
30/6/19

It isn't always the light
at the end of the tunnel
or a brand new
sunrise
you see at first.
No, the first light
usually comes
in the form
of a person
during dark times.

Dear Diary;
Today is for the chocolate lovers
and the hopeless romantics.
This year,
I am not one of them.

Couldn't sleep again-
I woke up feeling lonely-
It's only Monday.

6:32 PM
11/2/20