Your beauty caught my eye
My feeling got caught up
Laughs tears  and moments we shared

You were the star in my sky
I could get so lost in you
Let be the supper glue for your heart

I was just pawn  to your queen
Nothing more   then bottle cap to remove
I let  myself  to see past the stars
But  your beauty  was a cancer to my soul

At times i wish  i could be someone else .I need break those chains. I wish you knew how u are. You are so quick  to hurt but forget to heal. So fast  to judge but without any logic. I still give you power to cut me. There are times i just want walk away,turn my back and let the night in. You should be the e sun in my sky but your are so quick tearing me apart ripping my heart from inside out. I wish my words had meaning but there just lost bc you never  knew me.

A heart not made of stone
I wake up see  to my weakness took over
The words cut deep inside
Its  like a cancer that never goes away
We can't change how we play the hand
But we can remove that negative
I wish you  could see your self
But what would it matter
You can't see past your world

They say people come and go.
Do they see the pawns they got left behind
My words  are left on  the ground

Life can beat you down to  you are nothing
We have fallen but some can't find a  way to  get back up
My body is cut  from the inside with the  mistakes of  the past

Open your  eyes look deep inside
A story is waiting to be told
Leave the pain behind to move forward
But what will we have to think about
We play this game called cat and mouse

I can t think
Only about how you taste
I wonder if  you knew the feeling

I walked so many miles
Looking for you
You never saw it coming

I can see it still beating in my hand

You never knew how it would feel
To have your heart ripped out

So weak and helpless
Maybe  i should give it back
It taste too good not too

The world is full of those who don't understand you. At times i full like i have hide who i am. I  don't  want be sheep but always look for change.  Those who care will see the good rather then bad. The ones who  are fake will never see nothing more then what they see with there two eyes.  Love  logic and understanding are keys to life. We spend so much time being negative but  forget to see the light threw darkest days. At times i feel the negative over takes the soul  and keeps eating away.

It is give and take
but  u never understood me
I was just the dirt under your shoes
I stayed  and always saw the good
My mind always  told me walk away
But my heart was too caring
I always  had your back
I  fallen for caring your weight
you could never see past the image u wanted  to see
There was no magic to wipe away your views
You hated who I  was  deep inside
But you never seem  to mind the kindest i should  to you
I felt stuck in this quick sand hoping for change
I am just the dirt under your shoes

The door slammed
The night was cold
I can't  deal with no logic
They say  the strong can forgive
Then why are so many so weak
My heart is flawed
But yet so kind
Can this  be weakness
To my  wolf who walks alone
A heart that cares
You wanted me to be  the nail
In end you were just  the wind blowing  smoke
On this faded dream.

A warm touch
The voice that turns tears into light
I never seen it
Did i  miss it
Or was just stuck in my own world
The head on my heart
Hand to  hold under the stars
The missing link to my soul
I am just in dream  that never saw love

They say we can't  help who we love. I ask myself why did  i care?  It hard to see the moon past the sun. I had so much hope in my heart.  My heart never stopped loving you.  I wanted be  the glue to  put your heart back together. My words  were more then words. I was blind my by own thoughts but now i have fallen and see that wound will heal.

Why do care i ask myself
It must be weakness inside my heart
To care when i should walk away
I always look inside the good
But it is bad that takes over  like cancer
So many words
But to you it was just dirt on you shoes
I thought  it could something great
I wanted be glue to your heart
I was battle  i could never won
In end i was just sucker on  your stick

I feel alone on this island
I feel nothing but pain
The blood flows from my heart
As my thoughts rush out
There is no sound
Only thing i hear is lies you told
But know i am alone on this island
Is this how it feels
I am looking at the world outside from in
People say they care
Where my life boat
I ask why me but in my heart
I am just alone wolf stuck on this island

My weakness is  that I cared
We  can't  help who we love
I care about  things  i shouldn't
I should  just walked away and  broke those chains
Why waste my time
Why waste my heart
Does this make me better person to care
When you never gave it your 100%
I can  never settle  for less
Why did i not hear  my mind cry out
My heart was playing tricks with inner thoughts
I stand here and still care  
In end the it want drives my complex soul

I must be living in my world to think things  will change. I  keep love and  hope in  my heart but  i see now it was just my mind playing with my heart.  I  wish i could be that guy in your life make you smile. I could put  back together  your broken heart but  in end  you use to it broken.  i smile when i think  the world slows down but is this lost image in my head . I my eyes  never been open  i was lost in your beauty . The beauty  is my weakness  that is like cancer to soul.  I don't  think people see way i do but i need more then PHD for this work.

I was just  stone on your path
The words  crushed  by lies  you told
I couldn't  be  your star in your star
You never  saw night past  the day
My heart  was nothing more then  a  cheap toy
A dream of you but all it was just smoke
I was so blind but know  i can see image that is you
I wish deep my heart  i knew the words  to say
I just got  put back together my heart  on this cold day

I wish it was different
We grew so far apart
I always put my hand out
But  you are so blinded to see it
I never  stopped loving you
But  the sadness of not knowing  you  rips my soul apart
They have been some up and downs
But  what  is life without the falls
I just wish i could be there  to pick u up
We are half but in my heart you were  a whole
My words seem have no value
But my heart never stopped caring
We can't  change the things that were done or words that were said
But we can move forward on too better road to see the hope

I wish could hear  the word love
If heard it  from u
It would just  be wind blowing in the air
I ask  myself
Why do  i care?
My heart keeps this hope of love and understanding
But my mind is so torn from  the negative out look you have of me
Could I be something great in  your eyes
Or is this just fate
I been stuck on this island  looking in
I am just outsider  who  is just  second class in your life

In visions of the dark night
        I have dreamed of joy departed-
      But a waking dream of life and light
        Hath left me broken-hearted.

      Ah! what is not a dream by day
        To him whose eyes are cast
      On things around him with a ray
        Turned back upon the past?

      That holy dream- that holy dream,
        While all the world were chiding,
      Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
        A lonely spirit guiding.

      What though that light, thro' storm and night,
        So trembled from afar-
      What could there be more purely bright
        In Truth's day-star?

The battle is not always won but we keep fighting. The deck is always stacked but we can't give up hope. There been times i want give up and just walk away but i say to myself i beat cancer.

it is always dark before the sun
My heart never  felt the same
The pain leave mark on my chest
A moment lost but tied together with lies
I can;t turn back time
It was too late fix your broken heart
I was no doc but need a degree put this back together
We don't  think of  things we  lose
We are so stuck not thinking
Only thoughts of needs of what we want
We had something great but now its gone
Just like magic trick in the wind

Why  give your number?
If  you were just  going  slam door
Time that was wasted

why did  have battle the past?
If  i never hurt you
All i wanted  was be glue to your broken heart

Why did i care?
When i just wanted say goodbye
When you were adding up all  the reason to say goodbye
It wasn't  the mix of words but  i was just too good for you

I been on this frontline
We  miss out on the good
We  can t see  the  night past  the sun
My eyes wide open this was just wrong path

At times it great being single  and other times i feel like is love really out there, I don't   want be one those people who  gives up and starts putting up great wall. I been on this frontline but i keep taking the hits from last guy or the other person  idea of perfect. I see couple holding hands in my own thoughts i think to myself  where is my queen. I am just joker in this deck of cards? The best feeling is holding someone close letting  everything go.  I am just hopeless  on this road called love................

I  got keep  hope  alive
Deep my heart  i never stopped loving you
All i wanted  was  to hold  u
Be the reason you smile
I just want be  your shooting star in your sky
i  forget the world when i look at you
The deck is stacked and all i want  was be ur king
In my eyes you  are my perfect ending

I tend  not live in past
I live and learn as my words heal
I made some  mistake but  have wipe the dirt off my face
People live in past as way learn or rub mistakes in face of others
My words are my bullets
My pain is wake up call to move forward
It is easy rub someone face in the dirt
I don't  live in the past but  my words tell the story

it is easy to go in past and pick apart the things that went wrong. Its like playing back movie picking over looking the miss steps. We strive move forward but to keep moving we must learn from the negative to make it positive

I wish  could feel same
When i think of you is it  just a dream
The feeling of two hearts  as one
The pain that i feel when it all comes to an end
I learn from this and look back on my past
Why should i care  when all you is rip my heart apart
Is this just faded image  or i am stuck in this world alone
One min you cared and next  you left like bad magic trick
We love but forget its more then just words
I find my self lost deep in my own thoughts

I hate the fact  that i feel like i am second class in your life. it been while since  I heard  the word love. So many hang ups and lack of respect just rips threw my heart. You are so blind by your image and wants you forget to look outside the box. This bed full but no not full of people but lies and problems you run from. I wish you could understand me see me for who  I was deep inside... I am broken inside and can't keep bang my head on this brick wall.

Its  new  year
I look back at past
I am on this road of hope looking for  you change
I  just wanted love and hope
You will never  understand me or see the good in me
I  want more then gifts  just  want you be my mom
be  the sun threw my darkest days
you are so stuck on the past
I have keep walking moving forward
the words  cut my skin and burned hole in my heart
I try so hard  make things better but end up lost at the end

We are so far apart
I wish i could  turn back time
I see the good threw the bad
I can't live in this past
You are fading away
I wish i could  be hand pick you up
I wish u  saw how things are
You are just lost in your own world
I am  just outsider  looking in

The holidays are hard for me  I think about the times we shared and love u showed me. You never asked for anything but was always there for me. I think of you tears roll down my face . I wish we could spend another holiday together. I will always love you in my heart you were like mother to me. i miss you nana rip

I wish that i could take back the kindest i shared
You are  so closed  mind   and stuck in the past
I can't  live in world  where its  one way
I have take step back look see the world from outside looking in
I am nothing to then  you then just another step
My heart is too kind for you
I wish i could walk and slam door in your face
You never see how u are  blind by your own self
It  is time to remove this cancer out of my life
And  stop being the hammer to the nail

They say diamonds are forever
You are just a Ray of sunshine
A understanding mind with a heart of gold
The up and downs but always saw  good rather then  the bad
The words flow from soul as this poem unfolds
I fallen but  you always gave  me ur hand pick me back up
I  am not perfect but you always saw something great
The memories we shared  i will hold close  to my heart
You are a Ray  of sunshine on this road we walk

I am random but heart of gold
Love or hate me kind of person
I walk on glass for people i love
A dream of love in world that  has been so cold
I am misunderstood but to see me is something great
I want grow  and look at world outside of the box
My words are from my heart
I have open soul but my story is still going on
I fall but get back up see another day
I am me in this nutshell

it warms my heart  that u saw me
My heart and words all wrapped in one
A complex thoughts  but so thankful to those who take look into my mind
The feeling u get when someone else  understands  how you feel
The warmth and feedback of others
I just hope i can get this tree grow and become great
This is me love or hate me
I am lost coconut looking for his tree

I gave  you my hand and hopes of something  great. They say it all starts with a seed . You walked past with no care. days and years  go by with no hello or a goodbye. We walk the floor as we pass each other in my heart you will never know me. You think  u see me but  only image you wanted see. A smile but masked by smoke that is around  you. I rather keep moving forward  bc sometimes a tree can't  grow with no love

The time stops when I  think of you.  The dark sky covers my soul but when we talk  you are  the sun in my day. The beauty that is you takes my breath away and gives me hope to something  great, i wish i could be warmth that flows threw your heart. I look back at ups and downs but i never stopped loving you. Your smile when i look  at you takes all the pain way.  I dream  night of  holding  you close and leaving the world behind . You are just the   only star in my sky.

The more you like yourself, the less you are like anyone else, which makes you unique.
Walt Disney

Why do we get married if all we do  is lie and cheat
Love can't  grow in the dark
Light shines above not smoke and fade dreams
So many words but  truth is all that can be seen
Once love and endless walks
Now it is just cold and hated words
Know  i see that the cheapest ones are always ones you pay the most for

Where is she  my heart still wonders. I  look at other couples holding hands  and ask where is she. I wake up at night with the thought of warmth of another where is she. Is my heart not good enough or has the idea  is just dream where is she. I wish  we could  be  holding hands walking threw the store with no care in world  where is she. I  thought my self should i keeping  dreaming or walk another part  where is she. Love warmth  care kindness and endless moments but  i think to myself where is she?

She doesn't   eat green eggs and ham
So positive but full of light
A smile  and head of her time
Her story is not done or has yet to be  told
The warmth of kindness and understanding is something so great
A duck always seeing the hope but never giving up
A few words but always makes other shines
I wish i could be more like you
A heart of gold and  drive that never ends