You told me to give you time
Because the past girls in your life changed you
I understand
You have trust issues

So i waited
Willingly i waited
I even told you
I'll wait til you're ready

But i realised that i was waiting for nothing
Because you did nothing

You told me to wait for you
But you never once bothered to try

I waited for you to open the doors of your heart
I waited during the bad days
The heavy rain
The cold nights
You never let me in once
Nor be there with me

So i guess i can never make you trust me
Despite how loyal i was even when we are thousands of miles away
I waited for you
But you never cared

I was the fool that thinking making i could make you trust
Make you open the door

But I couldn't
You never wanted me
I wasted my time
And yet
Here i am
Still waiting
Even though you're long gone

To my family
i'm sorry for being distant
it's not that i don't love you
i do love you
but it's better off for me to be alone
for us not to have a close bond
so that when i die
you won't be filled with remorse
so that you won't be disappointed in me
for leaving you
for killing myself
so let me leave you
so i can leave myself

It doesn't matter how far you are
I will still love you for you
Even if we aren't physically together
My feelings won't change
It will never fade
But what worries me is that
What if I'm the only one
That will keep on loving you
From a far
When you're out there
who knows
What you are doing
Loving someone one
Which is not me
The fear of you having someone else out there
Worries me
But regardless the situation
I will still love you
So i beg
Deep inside
That you will love me 
Only me
Til the end of time

It's been a month
Look at me
I'm doing fine without you
Look at me
Smiling and you're not the reason anymore
Look at me
I got a new haircut
Look at me
I've gained some weight
since the last time you saw me
Look at me
There's been so many changes
Since you left
Look at me
Look into my eyes
No matter how hard i try to lie
You'll  Know im not fine without you
Look at me
I miss you
And i want you
To look at me once again

Losing you was painful
Heartbreaking
And i don't know what else to say

You're not mine to keep
But that won't stop me from loving you
So I'll keep on loving you
From a distance
Watching you
From afar
Praying
And hoping
For the best that you'll do
In life
And your future
I love you
Always

you've moved on
but i have not
someday,
i know i will let go
but for now,
i will still love you
and i will keep loving you
til the end of time
i will love you
always
even if i've moved on

I'm reading all of our old messages
And imagining those days
Reliving those memories
I cant help it but to smile
And laugh
Such a wonderful moment
And yet
It hurts so much
That I'm crying
Crazy how its just old messages
But im still able to remember vividly of those days
Just through texts

I've kept a picture of us
At the back of my phone
And i was asked so many times,
"Why do you still have his picture,
When he's long gone?"

All i could say is That
in the picture
I could see myself
Truly happy
When i was with him

Maybe I shouldn't hold on
But that picture
Reminds me of the time
I've been genuinely happy