Living a life worth writing about is not about risking it all together. You don't need to go jumping out of airplanes or off of cliffs. You don't need to conquer all of your fears and break all of your bones. You just need to take chances, give second ones, fall in love, fall out, sneak out of your house, go for long drives, kiss the person your parents don't approve of, drink coffee for the taste, and feel EVERYTHING that life brings your way. Taste the tears that roll down your cheeks from happiness, wipe away the ones from sadness, shake uncontrollably from excitement, tell people how you feel for God's sake! Don't hide what comes naturally and you will live the most amazing life and trust me, your stories will be beautiful.

By Chloe Elizabeth

Sometimes,
I stand in the airport
and wait for you
to walk off an airplane
and into my life again

But you can't buy plane tickets
with all the stars in the universe
and you can't make someone come back
if they don't want to

By Chloe Elizabeth

Sometimes, you're going to blame yourself. You're going to get angry at yourself and upset at "what you have done" because it's "your fault." People go after things that they want, often overlooking what they need, leaving them set up for a failure that they will take the blame for when it is no one's fault. It's okay do go after the one you love because you want them. Life is too short to walk away from rarities. But, when you're sitting on your bed and they're gone because the feelings you felt before simply vanished, it's okay. Don't hate yourself for something that you can't control. Cry because it hurts and cry because you have every right to be upset, but remember that people who love each other are not always meant to be together and again, it's okay. They will live and you will live and everyone will love again because I do not believe in a person's soul mate. I believe that every person can fall in love with countless amounts of different people and there is a lot of beauty in that; in the amount of love we are capable of storing and at times, losing, but still having enough left over to love someone else just the same, if not more.

By Chloe Elizabeth

These painted walls
will always fill my lungs
and with every breath I take,
there is a small piece of the child
who grew up within them

By Chloe Elizabeth

With my eyes,
I told him what my mouth couldn't pronounce

By Chloe Elizabeth

I crawl into this place
where he is not real
and the things he did to me
never happened

I curl up
and enjoy the comfort
that I have found in this place
and I forget the truth
so that I can pretend
that the pain isn't there

By Chloe Elizabeth

I drank away the thought of you
while you drank up your confidence
for the girl with the red nail polish
and dark brown hair

By Chloe Elizabeth

My heart was on the floor
and my feet were submerged
in too many tears

It barely felt real

It was so hard to believe,
but the proof was in the pain,
so I had to believe it

The way it hurt was real enough

And the truth is,
I'm not the only one who suffered

I'm not the only one who will suffer

You hunt the weak will powered
and you take advantage of their generous hands,
giving you everything you don't deserve

You said it yourself,
"You can't resist me"
and you were right

I couldn't

So you beat my love with your careless heart
until it was in pieces

But it survived
because things that are broken can be fixed
but you're not broken you're burning

And I'm all out of tears

By Chloe Elizabeth

You're so caught up
in your own mind
that you realize you've missed something
that you can't get back

By Chloe Elizabeth

If I have learned anything
in the sixteen years
that I have existed,
it's to:
1. Drink coffee even if it's just because you like the taste
2. Wake up early but sleep in when you want to because the world can wait for you
3. Take chances
4. Give second chances
5. Get piercings, they'll heal
6. So will broken hearts
7. Go for walks because life is moving too fast to run
8. Listen to live music when you can
9. It's not karma if you haven't done anything wrong
10. Don't beat yourself up over the bruises on your heart when someone else put them there
11. People are just people, don't be afraid to say something
12. Read
13. Love
14. Love again
15. It's okay to go somewhere by yourself, enjoy it, drink your tea in peace and watch everyone else around you
16. Growing up is not a trap

By Chloe Elizabeth

Dear You,

I've spent a lot of different days and a lot of different nights feeling so many different things about you. There were lots of good things because when you were good, you were wonderful. However, when you were bad, it was traumatizing. It was not my skin that you bruised, it was my heart.

At first, I thought it was unfair that you decided to disappear for three days, leaving me worried and upset, or that when you came back, you left me for reasons that I soon learned were lies when you had a new girl two days later. I thought it was unfair when you stood me up the first time. But when I was sitting by myself in a booth at 12:30 p.m on a Tuesday afternoon because you decided to stand me up for the second time, when I was letting you in to my heart again, that was truly the most unfair moment of my entire life.

The hardest part of everything that happened is that I feel like I lost someone. We were not like this in the beginning...you were not like this. You changed into someone who I could no longer recognize and the truth is that you were probably always the same person just putting on a show for me, telling me all the right things, kissing me all the right ways and making me feel all the right feelings. I stopped being angry at you and I just started missing the boy I thought you were when I first met you at that party, when you put your arm around me and I felt special. You have to be quite the horrible person to treat me how you treated me and I don't understand why I deserved it. Well, I didn't and I hope that one day, you'll wake up or sip your french vanilla coffee or put on your shoes and suddenly realize that I didn't deserve what you did. I hope at in this moment you'll miss me. All I ever did was fall for you which I didn't know was such a crime.

I feel like a fool for giving you more chances than you deserved and it stings remembering how you just threw them away. You purposely set out to hurt me, maybe not in the beginning, but by the end it was intentional. It ***** being on both ends of your tricks, being the girl you ditched for another and being the girl that you ditched someone else for. I never knew what you were doing until it all unraveled in front of me.

Just so you know, you may have broken my heart and shattered my trust and every time I have plans with someone I'm going to be afraid that they are not going to show up but I'm still going to go. You didn't shatter who I am as a person and I'm not going to let you destroy my hope that someone else will treat me better than you did. Someone once told me that if I don't want to get hurt then I  need to put a wall up and be cold to people trying to break it down but I don't believe them anymore. I want to wear my heart on my sleeve and I want to give people chances and second chances and hell, third chances even, because in the end, if I loved, that's all that matters and sometimes that's all you can do. You can't make someone love you. I can make you into poetry, but I cannot make you love me. I cannot make you come back and I don't want to anymore, anyway. I'm letting you go, not for you, for me, because I get it, you don't want me in your life, I just need to stop hoping that one day you will. I'm leaving you behind and I'm not ever coming back. You don't deserve it. You didn't deserve my hand, or my lips, or my heart and you especially didn't deserve all my tears because I shouldn't be crying over someone like you.

Just like you did, I took a small piece of your heart as well and it's always going to be there. You're always going to be a part of me. You're always going to be a little piece of who I am tomorrow. It sounds cliche but you taught me a lot and I'm always going to carry those lessons with me. Your intentions might have been to break me down until there was nothing left but no one can break my happiness and no one, not even you, especially not you, can break my love.

Goodbye.

Sincerely,
Me

You broke me once
and then shattered all the pieces
to break me even more

By Chloe Elizabeth

A part of me is hoping
that you don't show up tomorrow
so I can finally be done
and let go of you,
let go of us.
But I am also sincerely,
genuinely wishing that you do
because I don't want us to die
and I don't want to let you slip from my hands
that always held yours.

By Chloe Elizabeth

If leaving is what you truly want,
then I will hold the door open for you
even if it means falling down the back of it when you leave
and never seeing you walk through it ever again
and I just hope that when you're free,
you will love someone again
even if it's not me
and that they will love you so much harder
because when someone says "I love you more"
they mean it.
Trust me

By Chloe Elizabeth

People should be more grateful of who they are
and I don't mean the little things, I'm talking about the big picture.
Yes, life is made up of the details,
but you should step outside,
go to the edge of the water
or your city
or town,
listen to the world around you,
feel the world on your skin,
look at how beautiful this ****** up world actually is,
and be so ******* grateful that you are able to be a part of it.
But for some reason,
for some mind blowing reason,
humans are completely incapable of realizing
how wonderful their life actually is.
And no, not the life they live,
but the fact that they are actually alive.
The life that beats in their heart even when they are asleep.

By Chloe Elizabeth

What hurts the most is I know things must come to an end but I can't bring myself to be the one to say those words. When the phone hangs up and your voice is gone, I'll be lost.

By Chloe Elizabeth

I will stand outside
in the cold
for six hours
if it means I get to see you
when all the minutes have passed

Even if that means kissing you
with my frostbitten lips

By Chloe Elizabeth

I went for a run today
and sat in the place where we used to stay
and watch the sun go down
for hours until the water
was too dark to see

And I picked up a stone
and skipped it for you
because you taught me how

And I could see the outline of our bodies
still sitting on that log
where I thought we could stay forever

But they were just ghosts
and I watched
as they slowly faded away
along with our voices
and the promises you made

By Chloe Elizabeth

They say
don't rely on someone's love
to make you feel whole

But maybe
we do need someone's love
to make us whole

Ever thought about that?

By Chloe Elizabeth

I still find pieces of you
in everything I do

By Chloe Elizabeth

Sometimes, I cry
and I don't even know
what I'm sad about
anymore

I'm just crying
about being sad

By Chloe Elizabeth

Most days,
it feels like you never existed at all.

But,
you did.

You just don't exist in my life anymore,
you exist in hers.

By Chloe Elizabeth