sour jaw pain
i will never gain
a hopeful dream
i clench my jaw in my sleep and caused ear pain. i only know how to explain it as sour
anxiety held in
it hurts but
it moves like t.v. static
crackling like wood in fire
crawling like larvae
breathe in and out
making the mind clear and empty
but the cracking of my jaw
echoes in the quiet room
is your classroom ever just super quiet? but you have tmj tension (extreme version), so...
Any time I think of her
my jaw locks
and my teeth press
into a viscous snarl
as if I've become some beast
And I would bite
with words I've held tight
sinking teeth into flesh
and getting it where it hurts
Maybe I am a rabid animal
who's too dangerous to trust
but what does that mean when
you're the one who made me this way
Do you still love me like you once did?
Im starting to feel like you don't.
Where did those feelings fly off to?
I want to change for you but I won't.
Am I able to turn around and avoid a collision?
If not we will be left with more careless aches.
Is there enough courage inside these bones to be better?
Still making the same stupid mistakes.
Are you tired of my selfishness yet?
I can tell you are by the tightness in your jaw.
Didn't I warn you to stay far away?
It seems my ice is too thick to completely thaw.
I was right
The curve of her jaw
Does not fit into
The palm of my hand
Like yours did.
Throbbing jawbone aches
Such excruciating pain
Leaves me motionless
My jaw and teeth hurt so bad... I get my wisdom teeth taken out 5/24. I'm scared but at this point anything would be better.
bones and word-sentence-paragraph structure ache under skin and i shiver / rattling to disrupt the quiet of me /
the cage of my ribs, the fence of my teeth / hold tight my words / hold tighter my heart /
a raw feeling / a disquiet / good morning i have opened my eyes / good morning i have written down my day /
pen-to-paper / word-to-throat-to-mouth /
good night i close my eyes to erase my day
The good. The bad. The ****
All happening in the same location
My bed was taken
Preoccupied by sweat
The bed wet
I have a hot box
I'll rock your socks off
But only if I like you
I'll get some head but you gotta be good
Men made me hate ***
Too fast. No pleasure
I don't like to feel rushed
I like it slow, hard, rough
Choke me while you slide it in slow
Do your best to let me know
Own this cat
Not too many can do that
Only 2 have proven that
But I took Miss Kitty back
She straightened up real fast
Now she hasn't had that
Jaw dropping, leggin popping
Ouuu can I have your babies?
Nah, keep that ****** on daddy
I ain't tryna be crazy
Knock out ***
Make sure I walk funky for 2 days
I've had a lot of ***
I've been high from it
Some might call that addiction
But it has to be the right person or its a waste of skill
I want to showcase this pornstar worthy talent
With someone who had magic to share with me
I want to be pretzelized
Push my legs back as far as they will go
Make me feel it in my stomach
Eat my car until tears of pure satisfaction leak from my eyes
Sensational ecstasy 10x
It's magical . As it should be.
Poem 7— Self Preservation