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888 · Mar 2023
No disturbance (intro)
xavier thomas Mar 2023
Yeah, shining though
Jealous, but have history with me smiling though
Gave anything you need, yet spit on my name though
Gave myself some space, I know the lies you told
Used to be there for you at your highest lows
Used to come over just to watch episodes on HBO
Now it’s just silent, the convo’s are more personal
Drink all the energy vs. pour life for growth
No longer will I be your shoulder to cry on
All the love given from you was just for show
All the love became false, this not my first rodeo
879 · Jun 2021
Paradise
xavier thomas Jun 2021
You may not have been a lifetime partner,
But you’re a lifetime experience
In another lifetime
879 · Dec 2020
Mess around 👄
xavier thomas Dec 2020
Come here,

Let me taste & bite softly into those lips little lady
Juicy like my favorite candy,
that’s a “Now & Later”.
Kissing on my neck, giving me hickeys
Loving my scent, always stealing my hoodies.
Grab you, squeeze you, spank you, thank you
No one else deserves this treatment like you do.
I want you to focus, watch, & observe
Lick, slurp, oh I struck a nerve.
Please you, please you, keeps you so eager
Those jeans cause trouble the way them cheeks just sit up.
In public so sweet, but my private lil’ freak
I peep you trying to play me for keeps.
Attractive, Delicious, Teasing, Yummy
Keep you around cause you stay stunning.
Bragging to others you’re taken & that I’m your man
I like that cause I needed boo thang like you on my hands.
College Days
878 · Jul 2023
Gym Rat
xavier thomas Jul 2023
Are we here dedicated to the grind & gains?
Or
Are we here dedicated to the pics & liked views?
872 · Dec 2022
It’s not my job
xavier thomas Dec 2022
It’s not my job to clean up your past issues.
That’s yours.
I cleaned my side of the mess already.
Do your part now.
864 · Jan 2023
Didn’t love mine
xavier thomas Jan 2023
You wasn’t appreciative enough.
So now, you’re back trying to create
a new spark under the same burnt stick
you blew out already.
We are not ignited anymore .
846 · May 2022
doesn’t hurt
xavier thomas May 2022
I can’t wait
for the day
I
open up to her,
knowing
she will never
use my past
as
ammunition
845 · May 2021
Untitled
xavier thomas May 2021
Her love heals my soul
Her sweet morning mocha skin  
Her joy sets the tempo
Her support helps my pain
Her character is a *** symbol

Her last name carry under mine
xavier thomas Mar 2020
If it’s easy
For you to act up
Then it’s easy
For you to act right
Period
Keep acting a fool
822 · Jun 2023
Exercise
xavier thomas Jun 2023
Promise I would learn to respect myself
Sometimes I feel I failed myself
Where we’re going? I’m not sure
Hope love just lies ahead

Life is changing , yet we’re still here
Spoke life into these words
And the path feels unclear
You taught me & the children, “Believe in faith”
I feel closer, but not close enough

Can you show me the way please ?
Can you show me how to grow?
Can you show me how to grow?
Oh, I’m trying to reach the door

Can you show me the way please ?
Can you show me how to grow?
Give me a sign I’m getting closer to you
Oh, I’m trying to reach the door

I wrote those covenants to myself to not break those promises
Mostly for you, few for me
To learn how to love you peacefully
I wrote those covenants to myself to not break those promises
Mostly for you, few for me
To learn how to love you peacefully

Stay so close to you
Don’t want to disappoint you
Stay so close to you
Don’t want to disappoint you

Stay so close to you
Don’t want to disappoint you
Stay so close to you
Don’t want to disappoint you
812 · Apr 2021
Coco 🍫
xavier thomas Apr 2021
She told me that I’m her favorite chocolate

I told her to give me a kiss
808 · Mar 2023
Soul is Tied
xavier thomas Mar 2023
There must have been an angel close near by
Something heavenly brought you to me
You must carry life
It’s the journey of love

There must have been an angel close near by
Something heavenly brought you to me
Angel let me see you
Angel let me see you

Angel guide you to my heart
Come my way…
How much joy of life inside?
A lot to say…

When you were led to me
You knew I was the one for you
I swear the heavens will see your soul’s complete
My eyes all on you
Ah-yeah-yeah-yeah-ah, mmm, mmm
I’ll project you in the journey of life

I give you this brand new life
Soul is tied
I give you this brand new life
Soul is tied

It is clear
From the start!
See the journey is filled with love
See this journey is full with love

Angel guide you to my heart
So, come my way…
How much joy of life inside?
A lot to say…

I give you this brand new life
Soul is tied
I give you this brand new life
Soul is tied
I give you this brand new life
Soul is tied
I give you this brand new life
Soul is tied

I give you this brand new life
Soul is tied
I give you this brand new life
Soul is tied

I’ll protect you in this journey called love
Every life time, babe
It must have been an Angel close near by
From above
Bringing you love
Bringing you love

I give you this brand new life
Soul is tied
799 · Mar 2021
Deep inside🤭
xavier thomas Mar 2021
Discovering
Energy
Empathy
Prefer

Intimacy
Need
Spark
Infatuation
Do it
******
798 · May 2023
Where I’ve been…
xavier thomas May 2023
She wanna know my routine
And if my story’s clean
She wanna know what I’m doin’
And if I cheat
She says it’s all intentional
It’s killing me
I care about her heart & soul
But she’s not for me

You know we do a lot of back & forth
You know the moments been high, then really low
I unknowingly been guilt tripping myself
You know you accuse me fast like a pro
You know you have lack of trust in me
You know you treat me cold and that’s really cold
Those DMs, you were choosing me
You know at a time you were my Queen

I wanna ask you somethin, ask you somethin before I go.
What’s with the double-standards being in your favor for?
Anything said or done is a problem, it’s hysterical
And the more I think about it, it’s just getting old
I walked away quietly , thought we could build some trust
Since we’re separated , I won’t hit you up
We can find some peace from each other with no rush
Maybe someday time can change the
narrative between us
797 · Feb 2023
Therapy
xavier thomas Feb 2023
Me: "I'm going to acknowledge you, first."
Her: "I'm going to trust you, more."
796 · Dec 2021
#37
xavier thomas Dec 2021
#37
Dear Jesus,

Happy birthday once again king! I am so proud & thrilled to celebrate your day + happy to be alive to enjoy it with my own family. It’s not a day that goes by when I think about what you have done for us.
So this year, we will be thankful as our attention is on you.
Today we will sing your name
Today we will glorify your presence
Today we will honor your love

Since today’s your day,
I just have to ask…
What would you like this year for your birthday?

December 25, 2021
795 · Jan 14
📱💬 sweet
xavier thomas Jan 14
You should come and pull up just kick back, while you relax
Lets engage that, then create
that, what a wild life
just a shy girl with all the right vibes
can’t replace that

Pull up come kick back, while you relax
We can unpack, then create that
I have a sweet tooth, you’re a sweet snack
Babe it can be us,
make good flashbacks
794 · May 2023
Greatest Peace Boo
xavier thomas May 2023
If I want you, if I want you now
Will you give me, will you give me the chance?
If I want you, If I want you to show love
Will you give me the greatest version of you?

You give away, you give away the greatest peace boo
You give away, you’re giving the greatest peace boo
So good to me

Listen to the rainstorm and it never felt so calm before
Listen to the rainstorm smooth as you
Listen to the rainstorm and you’ve never felt so good before
Give away something that’s peaceful boo

You give away the greatest peace boo
That’s why I’m choosing you
You give away the greatest peace boo
So good to me

I enjoy every moment of you
So wash me in your rain
Anything you want me to do
Just don’t let me wash away

Listen to the rainstorm and you’ve never felt so calm before
Listen to the rainstorm, you’re so smooth
Listen to the rainstorm and I’ve never felt so good before
Give away something that’s peaceful boo

You give the greatest peace boo
It’s why I have to choose you
You give away, just giving the greatest peace boo
So so so good to me

You have a valuable heart
Every time, I know you’re way too good for me
Every morning is forgiveness,
every night you have me reminisce
Will you give me the chance?
Will you give me, will you give me
The greatest version of you?
785 · Jun 2023
Thank you✌🏾
xavier thomas Jun 2023
For pushing me away
Cause I found someone who’s prepared to stay
Can’t save you
778 · Apr 2022
Forgive or Forget?
xavier thomas Apr 2022
When I was younger,
I couldn’t understand why
I forgave so quickly. I despised it.
Now, I’m thankful I forgive quickly.
Keeping that negativity in
your temple is too much.
763 · Mar 2022
Don’t love 💔 (pt.2)
xavier thomas Mar 2022
Don’t do me, don’t play me
Don’t use me, mentally abuse me
Just admit you’re not for me
Don’t lie & say you gave me your love

Say anything & everything, just having your way over here
It’s the fake love for me that won’t keep me here
If you ghost me but play like you love me publicly,
Then are we really together?
There’s no happy ending in this fairytale called- “forever”

Never felt,
Never felt love where you stood
Never felt,
Never felt love where you stood
759 · Apr 2022
Dating like🙄…
xavier thomas Apr 2022
I’m amazed by your intuition
knowing everything else,
but doesn’t know a single thing
when I ask -“So tell me about yourself?”
745 · May 2021
hot spot
xavier thomas May 2021
we snuggle
keep it tight
freaky in the day
wild during nights
736 · Mar 2023
No disturbance (pt.2)
xavier thomas Mar 2023
Navigate through life, hoping the transition flows
Don’t know where I’ll end up as I grow old
Maybe the quicker I grow old, God will call me home
Last time I thought like this I was home alone
Asking the Lord to take me home, feeling unknown
Thinking people would like me better on my tomb stone
But I’ve grown, just not on my own, God set the tone
712 · Apr 2021
Warned pt.2 ❌
xavier thomas Apr 2021
Pray to bed
Protect your crown
Cause nightmare crawlers
Coming to ware you out

So brothers & sisters
Begin to stand
One solution
Keep faith, Amen

Been warned...
Been warned...
Been warned...
Been warned...
698 · Nov 2020
Golden
xavier thomas Nov 2020
Gangs came recruiting
Stirring up trouble
Our lives were a gamble
Lets run away
We moved south to Kentucky
Home-town got ******
Our home was unsafe
Childhood memories vanish away

We watch the news
& settled down
Saw people dying
All in the streets
Was once was Paradise, now turned into a ghost-town
Meanwhile,

Gangs came recruiting
Stirring up trouble
Our lives were a gamble
Lets run away
We moved south to Kentucky
Home-town got ******
Our home was unsafe
Childhood memories vanish away
We were just kids from the south-side of Chicago
Blessed by the grace of God to quickly escape the gang life
698 · Mar 2022
Last Choice
xavier thomas Mar 2022
Even though I understand,
I’m getting tired of understanding
Done being your last
689 · Nov 2019
Bond
xavier thomas Nov 2019
When I wake up in the morning, you’re the first thing that’s on my mind.
I get out of bed, stretch real good, & yawn real loud so that you can hear me breathing.
I rush to the bathroom, quickly brush my teeth, wash my face, & run straight for you.
Running down the hallway, staring at your door, only to open it slowly to see if you’re awake.
I peek my head around the corner...
You’re eyes open as they lock onto mines with such joy.
Happiness appears on your face, reaching out for me.
Happiness upon my face, as my heart skips a beat.
Amazed with such excitement, I run as fast as I can screaming out a laugher.
We hug & kiss knowing that’s one of my favorite things.
When I wake up in the morning, our first words are:
—“I love you mommy”
—“I love baby”
xavier thomas Jul 2023
You’re first, not last, simply everything
And the peace to all of my dreams
You’re my light, my boo, my North Star
You’re so desirable, that’s how you are.

I know it’s only, only one like you
There’s no copy that could ever replace you
Love, you’re what I’ve been waiting on
Keep your heart lifted forevermore
You’re first, not the last, simply everything

From you, I’ve learned so many things
A partner so wise, knowledge you bring
A joy so new it’s carries a pursuit of happiness this way.
You’re voice sings to me every brand new day

I crave your ways that I
Will stay by your side till I die
This is my reality, however, can’t believe it’s not a dream
You’re first, not last, simply everything

I know it’s only, only one like you
There’s no copy that could ever replace you
Love, it’s a real reality
But feels like a deep dream
You’re first, not the last, just simply everything
670 · Sep 2020
Ms. Libra ♎️
xavier thomas Sep 2020
Ms. Flight attendant,
long time no see, love.
I miss you.
Queen from the west-side.
First-Lady flying across the country just to see me & only me.
Putting a smile on my face, Making me feel like I was your #1 priority.
As soon as you landed in my town,
You made sure to Text-Call- or FaceTime
-No matter where I be.
I stop by to listen to your every need & hold long night intellectual conversation.
While, you give me- “The blacker the berry, the sweeter the juice” Inglewood love.

One thing I can say is, you stay ready.
Hit different
No wonder why you call yourself ~ Lolly
What is your secret Miss thing???  👀

(Hope you & baby boy doing well during this pandemic.)
669 · May 2023
Hurt identity
xavier thomas May 2023
Internally I blame self-consciously self-inflict imaginary damage to lower my bright soul into a box
externally unconsciously making
my body sick
blaming other elements
around me
as seasons change
When I think about it,
I replay your words
I shouldn’t have to answer to
knowing truthfully I did nothing wrong to make you think I’m untrustworthy or that I’m a threat.
But because guilt exist,
It causes me to think I actually did you wrong.
667 · Jul 2021
*Muah*…*Muah* 💋
xavier thomas Jul 2021
When I kiss both your lips
She’s my *** symbol
665 · Aug 2020
Ms. Aquarius ♒️
xavier thomas Aug 2020
Used to meet by the food court after class off campus,
Then we head back to your house.
You supported my life unconditionally being involved,
That was how you express your love after all.
The bond we still have was no puppy love
It’s dynamic, I know.

You tell your parents you’re with the girls tonight
So you could stay with me
all night long.

You know you play too much
Say anything to me in order to stay.
You know you play too much
I swear you're so clingy in every way.
What is your secret Ms. Thang?👀
659 · Jun 2023
Keep it pushing
xavier thomas Jun 2023
My Boy just went through his girl phone & owweeeee he went from standing up to sitting on the floor….

I’ll see you at the gym my boy ✌🏾
645 · Apr 2021
Wind
xavier thomas Apr 2021
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Blow my mind
Let me get that flow with you
632 · Oct 2020
Ms. Sagittarius ♐️
xavier thomas Oct 2020
My favorite,

It’s too late, your gone...
You been heavy on my mind
for quite some time.

Yet it’s to late, you’re gone...
I was hoping to be your man
But I guess it wasn't in Gods' plan

So it’s to late, you’re gone...
Feelings were left
From the last text message we sent

But it’s too late, you’re gone...
I’ll love you from a distance,
So our friendship continues to co-exist
You were worth it-No regrets
631 · Sep 2021
Let me shoot 🏀 pt. 2
xavier thomas Sep 2021
Me-
“D” UP! “D” UP! put them hands up, hands up.
And I’m robbing folks on the pass if they slip up.
Don’t allow nobody to pass by you, move your feet.
Don’t go for every reach, just keep them in front of you my G.

They dealing with a team full of experts.
Juice & I will double-team, so squad be on high alert.
Make them work, cut off those passing lanes and
once they turn the ball over, we’ll be gone in an instant.


Juice-
Aye, look at these wanna be play makers.
Zay steal that, now pass that.
Cause I’m about to lob that to my boy Doug.
BOOM!!! I see you Doug with the 360 alley-oop dunk!

YOOO! Ball is thrown in, watch for the pass and skip!

Me-
No worries I got the ball my guy, don’t trip.
Here Juice! Run 54-hip.

Juice-
Aww snap! Time to ****!
I’m about to put the boys in their feels!

Cross-over stepper, step-back decker.
I’m a G.O.A.T. getter, nobody does it better.
Weak mismatches and easy pass dishes.
Pick & role to the pocket, they can’t stop this.

Zay-
Man, we about to hurt these fools on the other end too.
About to get tortured as we break their hearts in shambles.
And when we rock them and stop them at the rim, it’s straight blocking.
Even if they try to shoot, BLOCKA, BLOCKA, BLOCKA!

Juice-
It is what it is fam, to bad they about to lose.

Zay-
At the end of the day, what the hell they gonna do?

Juice-
Now this is epic. We got them looking pathetic.
I said what I said, ain’t no room to be apologetic.
Game-Time
629 · Jan 2021
Personal meeting (pt.2)
xavier thomas Jan 2021
Cut off more sins, I divorced it
Had to change courses, paint a better portrait
Devil was handing out distortions
Tried to control me with his poison
God bless me with his endorsements
+ added wings as an extra bonus
Got caught up in the world & my flesh having an entanglement
But now, nothing can touch me when I’m in my element
Devil tried to make me feel guilty
Bringing up my past so I feel personal pity
Taking form so he can trick me
Shifty messy, petty, & he filthy
Thought he had me, that snake slippery
He wants me so bad, he really miss me
Fighting my battles, spiritually I been busy
I’m winning this war, I’m winning this victory
Story told by my best friend
608 · Mar 2022
Don’t love 💔
xavier thomas Mar 2022
Pretty face, it’s about you isn’t it?
Pretty lies staring at me in those eyes,
I see the dark clouds over your heart
You’re wrong yet you like it, huh???
Crazy to see what kind of woman you are

Say anything & everything, just having your way over here
It’s the fake love for me that won’t keep me here
If you ghost me but play like you love me publicly,
Then are we really together?
There’s no happy ending in this fairytale called- “forever”

Never felt,
Never felt love where you stood
Never felt,
Never felt love where you stood
603 · Apr 2021
What it feels like
xavier thomas Apr 2021
Living in times
That’s the end of time
Black Lives Matters
589 · Jul 2021
Let me shoot 🏀
xavier thomas Jul 2021
Ref blows whistle: (Full Time Out)

Me-
My man curled, screen, then tried to do a slip.
Size you in, and hit you really good in your lips.
No calls guaranteed, from these wack funky referees.
I’m ready to turn up on the court, bro, down with me?

Juice-
Hell yeah my guy! ******* and attitude kinda tight.
What a mess, Aye, Zay let’s put these boys to rest.

Me-
Straight facts! Next play they’re running flat.
The next time he do that, we’ll lay him on his back.

Time to respond. I'll get the ball, hit a crossover, and pass it through.
Hit your shimmy dance, shoot and move, shoot and move.

Juice-
*****, you ain’t got to say -ish!
I been ballin’ since 5th grade with the same tricks!

With the ball gripped, and a fake little drive.
Average 14p-10r-5a + an OG can still fly.
Just observe, I’m about to send these boy my regards.
Have the crowd singing, “Oh my Lord!”

Me-
Bet fam, love your crazy attitude!
We gone gang up on these rookies and beat them by 62!
Abuse them, with the upmost tempo vicious.
Dunk, score, scream and shout make them feel like quitting.

On Defense, guard #2 the short chubby dude.
I’ll guard #32 that look like a raccoon.
Go man to man with the little peasants.
When it’s all said and done, give these fools zero leg room exits.

Juice-
I'm dunking on chumps like O’Neal , offense-defense real!
Got ice in my veins from the thrill when I block and steal!
These little boys can’t stop me for -ish!
With my corner 3-pt nasty wet jumper, they gone have to recover.

Yup, make them suffer. We dangerous!
Whole team will lose confidence dawg, big trust!
Now let’s just chill, relax, stay focus no relapse,
watch our backs, but aye fam… where the ball at?

Ref blows whistle*: (Ball in!)
Game-Time
567 · Jun 2023
Oh wow 🫢
xavier thomas Jun 2023
That’s crazy
to know your intentions are
waiting on the decision(s)
I make- to hopefully fail,
just so you can say -
“I told you so!”
566 · Mar 2023
No disturbance (pt.3)
xavier thomas Mar 2023
Yeah,
Avoiding a lot of poisonous views
Use to allow boundaries to cross paths in a painful bruise
Saw a side of myself that grew in mental abuse
Mind could’ve dispatch if I lose, but I never do
So I pray & hobby daily like it’s double shift
Reject any wicked ***** wealth swallowed, venomous slips
More blessings to come very soon for being genuine
Woke up to conquer another day, victory is mine to win
559 · Jan 2022
Baè
xavier thomas Jan 2022
Missing you more
than you can imagine ok.
It’s been hard trying
to avoid these feelings
these past few days.
I don’t know if you
feel the same or even moved
on with someone else
but I just want you back,
fight for you.
You matter so much to me.
Im not asking to start
where we left off, just
continue to build this relationship.
You felt hurt & triggered
I honestly had no idea
So I take accountability for that.
I been trying to get this off my chest
for awhile now, because I really like you.
I don’t wanna wait
for another day to go by
without talking & trying.
When she text me-
“Ease my mind & come over to talk”
556 · Feb 2022
Push life back
xavier thomas Feb 2022
i just show out
blessed and grateful
ball is my life
game comes natural

hater said don’t let
talent change you
that’s how i know
“talent” ain’t you

skills, i been had
new deals, i’m so glad
folks just take notes
they just big mad

mouth so sinful
ego so full
they just waste time
disrespectful

humble of my mind
ignore the hype
stay in the gym,
dedicate my life

to the craft life
work hard each night
success’s a struggle
this is my grind

reaching my goals
cash in billions
help out lost souls
give back millions

my style is classic
IQ brilliant
just hit different
one in a million
“When something push you, you push back”
Basketball 🏀
556 · Apr 2021
Warned ❌
xavier thomas Apr 2021
He’ll curse your name
And waste your time
Cut short-term deals
False promise lies

He let his sinners
Take whatever they want
There’s a spiritual warfare
That’s about to start

Been warned...
Been warned...
Been warned...
Been warned...
555 · Mar 2023
No disturbance (pt.4)
xavier thomas Mar 2023
Remember the fun days with no money in our wallets?
Finding ways to hustle & stretch money to buy drinks like we’re alcoholics
nowadays we’re living luxury, smiling and laughing about it
Funny how that year changed us together, every time we talk about it
Memory flash, when I close my eyes at night
Waking up to a bright sun to a new day at life
Trying to remember that good dream before those flashing lights
Rest assured, my bond for you is right
Get no rest days, work 80 hours in 6 days
Never settle for temporary short-change
Improved to upgrade, therapy session really had me locked in
Time flies like a man in his dream sleepwalking
Went from Club “Lit” Saturday nights, to club “Life”
Club “Life” to creating a club at home with family and kids
My priority change when I decided to pursue this
Intentions will come at you at the highest expense
Especially actions that represent the real me
And frame a reflection, in the mirror, to really get a good look at me
Whatever helps cut down my image flaws to bloom a better me
No one knows my flesh that harm me, trying to build a lesser me
But God’s love armored me successfully
553 · May 2021
Piss me off
xavier thomas May 2021
its only wrong
because they don't expect you
to act on your emotions
550 · Mar 2023
No disturbance (pt.5)
xavier thomas Mar 2023
Up 5am with urgency, sticky note on the mirror reminding me
“Be good to people, be good to yourself organically”
Aiming to let go of the past that has burden me
Focus only towards today vs tomorrow and tread carefully
Another chance to shine, in hope my enemies take it personally
I take it to heart, demonstrates the desire to succeed fearlessly
The vision board written for God will create wonders for me
My legacy will leave a legacy, a generational love
A blood line of chosen angel warriors build ready to serve throughout eternity
A fearful reflection for my enemies who develop insecurities
Behind closed doors, falling short in hatred worshiping
Don’t need to worry, cause their views doesn’t concern me
The faithful ones will learn how to strive for peace through me
As I continue to strengthen my obedience in discipline maturely
Living everyday as my last under purpose with authority  
My ambition is centered around competition & collective security
Take some time off to focus more on recovery
I hope someday the grind retires me & the reward humbles me
By the end of 2023 I’ll give you a full summary
550 · Oct 2020
Ms. Virgo ♍️
xavier thomas Oct 2020
Hey big head, how you been?

I know I know, it’s been a year since.... well yeah, lol.
I been watching you on social media,
working daily while being home alone.
Sitting in the void, during quarantine, with nothing else to do.
Besides play with your pets to keep yourself occupied.
But I have one favor to ask.
Because this has been heavy on my soul & my mind. However, I’m going to be blunt.
I want to swing by your place, so we can reunite like old times.
Take it nice & slow, steady, and patiently.
Escape these dark days
& wake up early morning as we watch the sunrise.
I want to see you.

May I have this final request?
-The Last Dance-
(You gone be my blessings tonight)

What’s your secret Ms. Thang? 👀
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