Living in times
That’s the end of time

Hey big head, how you been?

I know I know, it’s been a year since.... well yeah, lol.
I been watching you on social media,
working daily while being home alone.
Sitting in the void, during quarantine, with nothing else to do.
Besides play with your pets to keep yourself occupied.
But I have one favor to ask.
Because this has been heavy on my soul & my mind. However, I’m going to be blunt.
I want to swing by your place, so we can reunite like old times.
Take it nice & slow, steady, and patiently.
Escape these dark days
& wake up early morning as we watch the sunrise.
I want to see you.

May I have this final request?
-The Last Dance-

Missing you more
than you can imagine ok.
It’s been hard trying
to avoid these feelings
these past few days.
I don’t know if you
feel the same or even moved
on with someone else
but I just want you back,
fight for you.
You matter so much to me.
Im not asking to start
where we left off, just
continue to build this relationship.
You felt hurt & triggered
I honestly had no idea
So I take accountability for that.
I been trying to get this off my chest
for awhile now, because I really like you.
I don’t wanna wait
for another day to go by
without talking & trying.

He’ll curse your name
And waste your time
Cut short-term deals
False promise lies

He let his sinners
Take whatever they want
There’s a spiritual warfare
That’s about to start

Been warned...
Been warned...
Been warned...
Been warned...

I remember the times when I met you.

—First time was at a frat party
—Second time was on a date
—Third time was at your momma’s house.
—Fourth time was heading back to your place.

Curly hair, mix heritage, thick in those jeans, cocoa butter skin tone.
Foreign language makes me weak in the knees
Especially when you role your “R’s” with your tongue.

How do you keep,
keep me dreaming
about you?

This feeling
I have is deep,
deeper than you know. It has me chasing after you.

Tell me what did you do to me, babe?
You put some type of potion all over me.
Hit me with something new babe.
Spiritual waves, have me feeling some type of way.
I want you for myself now, I can no longer wait.
Whatever spell you have me under, has me stargazing.

Surpass limitations of a promised prophet,
No man can ever break your spirit of value.
It is the show and seal of nature's flawless,
My only mother, I will always love you.

I give you a lot of credit when know one else will.
Continue to work on your craft mama it’s an amazing skill.
Mastery of Sacrifices and unselfishness.

When I ask God for guidance,
He tells me to call on you.
Reminiscing faith on reliance
You never want me to quit, just push through.

Nevertheless, you are my greatest hero.

Don't touch my hair;
Spreading germs & illnesses with those toxic hands

Don't touch my hair;
This hair is a sacred temple on my head

Don't touch my hair;
My style need to last through the week boo-boo

Don't touch my hair;
My melanin brown-reddish color is beautiful

Don't touch my hair;
Do I look like a pet?

Don't touch my hair;
Yes! It's real

Don't touch my hair;
Do you see me asking if I can touch you? No? Ok then.

Don't touch my hair;
Do you want to get your a%# beat or do you want to go home?

“I will support your brand”
That’s what my baby said as she held my hands
I know she’s an introvert
But acts like an extrovert
We getting this money selling books, & promoting T-shirts
My baby is a businesswoman, making people invest
My #1 supporter, what more can I expect?
Income > outcome, look at our progress
We in control, now watch our success

Now that my mind is made-up,
I can see all the fake cause I’m finally awake.
Shorty ask if we can take a break, and I told her to go cause I don’t do breaks.
It’s beneath me to love on these false Queens, to worthy to be on a chase.

Mmmm these snakes.

I’ll trump anybody for my team, no wonder they call me the legendary “Ace”.
Haters like to talk rotten out of their mouth so much, I can see why their breath stink.
Actions hit way harder than these words that it’ll puff up your face.

Lifestyle changed; paid so well, getting better & better each week, it’s a 2021 wave.
Promise myself I won’t ever turn my back on God because he been laying out the plan.
Focus on the plan
Cant switch up for fame. Yeah, mmm.
Cant switch up for fame.

Big 27, I’m getting way older
and I don’t tolerate nothing but gains.
I’m out here breaking general curse
So my family live under new traits.
And I can’t live under these *** oaths no more, time to hang up the cape.

Listen & wisdom been the key
Trying to reach the top class of the big leagues
Never is easy; be black owned by any means
Cant have any weapon prosper against me
I’m traveling away from the old days of poverty, understand what I mean?
But I gotta say, these struggles shape me to be humble as I strive for greatness with my heart on my sleeve and...

But now I gotta say,
I don’t help people who sleep on their dreams, better learn how to pick up your own weight.
It be the unnecessary “chatty talk” for me and I can’t listen to folks day-to-day constantly complain.
I’m not with the drama -Ish from the vibe people carry and I refuse to participate.

A fake Queen can never control a great King
A pitiful King can never love a beautiful Queen

In simple terms:
I do not want you if God didn’t send you

I dedicated my life
to stay by your side
respect our relationship & to always love you right,
keeping a vow to never cross any boundary line.
But you showed a different side.
An unexpected twist that brought tears to my eyes.
Your energy changed.
From positive to negative, this affection & demeanor wasn’t the same.
Anytime my friends called to check on me or hangout, you yell.
Cursing out my name as if I brought shame into our relationship.

Now I can’t breathe...

I can’t breathe because I’m traumatized,
I’m traumatized because I can’t socialize,
I can’t socialize because I ghosted my friends for you so now I hide in fear

You stole a peace of my mind to the point where I can’t even recognize who I am anymore.
Which causes me to feel less of a “Woman” inside.

But no more!
Times have changed

Somewhere along the road I found strength.
Gain the courage to move on & think about what’s best for me
rather than sink back into your arms.
See, I've learned that you never had power...
You were a simple weak man
trying to devour a Queen’s castle
rather control your own **** tower
like the lowlife peasant you are.

But now that you are gone,
it is safe to say
I am better without you in every way.
So stay your btch a_ off of my phone.
There’s nothing here for you, please leave me alone.
Your words mean nothin', so please hold your tongue &
don’t worry about the next man I f-k with
nor I am lovin'.
Just know it will never again be you,
you’re no longer a discussion
highly irrelevant
good riddance , peace out boo boo.

We should cook meals together
I know this food will taste good
Let’s experiment up in the kitchen babe
Get the ingredients & turn on the stove babe

We should cook meals together
Turn on the stove
Making breakfast:
Pancakes, Bacon, Eggs, with some French Toast.

This is the vibe that I bring.
This is not just a fling, I’m trying to eat with you.
I’m trying to eat with you.
Cooking meals, cuddles in bed
Drinking wine, watching cartoons like "Tom & Jerry".
Tell you- “Good morning, love”
Kissing your cheeks & forehead.

And tomorrow, we an redo this again.
Where we wake up in the morning
Place you on counter
**** naked, cooking eggs.

☁️…
“Lol I’ll take you with me
some time
and we’ll watch airplanes
land/fly away
when the sun sleeps
into the night..
I’ll pick you up @8pm
as traffic dies down.”

I happily extend out a helping-hand
I always communicate with you in advance
I poured my heart out to give
I am honest with you & also positive

But the minute I ask a favor of you...

You continue to give me excuses
You have delays in responding with zero solutions
You’re able to buy accessories from your wallet;
Yet, can’t pay back what you promised
You ghost me days-weeks-months until you need me again

Here’s my letter of resignation.
My loyalty & services are no longer needed, farewell old friend

Intimacy is one of my love languages.
But reading your body, you feel odd.
It doesn’t feel natural nor comes easy.
Your mouth says you want me
yet your body is uncomfortable.
I question myself, “Am I attractive for you?”
Believe that if we try again & again
things will never change, it’ll be the same.  
I love pleasing my partner
making my partner feel comfortable.
But that’s not the case here, is it???

I can’t wait
For all the love to come

I can’t wait
I’m thankful for your mercy & that your “Will”, will be done

I can’t wait
To glorify Jesus for my sins, paving the way as your son

I can’t wait
To meet you in person in heaven, as we chat one-on-one

My life my life my life my life, in the night time ...
🎼 🎶 🎵

Watching the skylines in the night time...
Nighttime(2x)
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Ideas run wild in the night time...
Nighttime (2x)

Thoughts expand wide in the night time...
Nighttime (2x)
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Just peace & love & hours(4x)

My life my life my life my life, in the night time...
🎼 🎶 🎵

Feel when I feel , what I feel, when I feel, what I’m feeling
In the night time...(2x)
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Write when I write, what I write, when I write, what I written
In the night time...(2x)
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only good deeds
stay at ease
we’re in control of this destiny
try to make it pro so desperately
get recognize around the world & the big leagues
only one plan there’s nothing else
win multiple rewards to prove one’s self
I know we can make it
this chance we can take it
Lord, Lord, Lord

Is a broken king any better than a mad one ?

Is a depressed queen tolerable than a deceitful one?

Anger
with drunk words
=
Sober thoughts
forming generational curse

Good enough to keep
Addictive like a bad habit

I just want to thank "Hello Poetry" for noticing me
And all you great poets, stay beautiful
Stay Classy

I’m your partner; I’m your bestie;
bounce with me, on a daily

I’m your supporter; when you’re angry;
shoot your shot; express though feelings

you know me; ya main friend;
ball is life, til the end

I’m your master plan…
I’m your master plan…

Nightfall covers the world as we’re sitting together.
I feel your warm hand touch mines, smiling at me.
So I smile back, leaning closer towards you.
And for the first time-I close my eyes & begin to taste your pure natural flavor.
This simple kiss is a sentimental connection, sharing this endless moment.
Feeling the sensation of your lips across mine causes my nerves to spark.
Chasing down this liquid lighting, activating each other’s tastebuds-one by one.
Heavy breathing, heart racing
Inhale-Exhale...
Only to reopen our eyes, gaze at your face, & embrace this passionate moment.