my heart walks along a new path, a road filled with cracks and certainty in the hope that time does heal all wounds, and that one day i will fall in love again.
this path seems solemn and lonely. my state of mind more introspective and versatile with only the gentle whispers of the wind to accompany my racing thoughts. the fresh air soothes my wary frame and embraces my soul within.
its hard not having you around, to ramble to, to laugh with, to be present with; as i am reminded of your absence in the presence of my solitude.
but ive grown to find the grueling process to be a beautiful one. because with pain and sorrow i was exposed to the depth and magnitude of my essence. i was introduced to myself as you simply mirrored my reflection back to me.
i realized i was always whole. i was always here. and ill still be here after youve gone.
an independent incarnation of all my past lives lessons, and all my futures regrets.
i am all. i am the universe personified.
hello all!! its been a very long while since ive posted on here, as ive suffered with the worst writers block for the longest time. i am happy to say that ive been getting my muse back, and i plan to post my works on here as i usually did beforehand. i am glad to be back, and happy 2021 to you all <3
Used to meet by the food court after class off campus, Then we head back to your house. You supported my life unconditionally being involved, That was how you express your love after all. The bond we still have was no puppy love It’s dynamic, I know.
You tell your parents you’re with the girls tonight So you could stay with me all night long.
You know you play too much Say anything to me in order to stay. You know you play too much I swear you're so clingy in every way.
Chaos brews within me and you We select vices and sometimes we don't choose We find individual ways to play by Society's rules Whether it's a joint, a shot or a juul Whether it's serial loving, fear of trusting or mindless thrusting We attack and belittle to increase our ego I jump into ***** waters hoping to be the hero But if you can't save yourself then who can you save Constantly giving away the colours you should use to paint The sky, the stars and the lines that drive us apart The ingrained hatred we spew without ever thinking it through Instead of breaking each other's hearts and playing like dolls We could build up protection and evolve
where I was rash and coarse he was confidently unconfident so sure of what he didn't know he was all soft spoken words, wit dripping off of every word I wanted his soul I wanted to memorize the way his eyes twinkled with delight when he talked about something he loved I wanted to be the thing he loved he wanted to save the world I wanted to be his but I wanted to be the noncommittal sag and run and he was oblivious and beautiful the world seemed to work against us while simultaneously not caring enough to keep us apart edging us on long enough for me to fall face flat on the pavement of realization and while mending my bruised ego I sourly admit **** I fell in love with an aquarius
100% written on a whim, much like most things I've posted so far and yes I'm absolutely smitten with an aquarius
guilt me like a cancer manipulate me like a taurus if i was the first verse, you’d skip to the chorus i tape glue and sew but you’re the one who tore us ripped me into pieces and i made myself something new i recognized myself you’re lost not knowing what to do play dumb like a pisces and lash out like a scorpio if you’d give me up for anything it would be half an oreo maybe four quarters or a dollar but you could never change had a heart for everyone but i was never in your range impulsive like an aires confusing like a gemini you my day 1 and i love you turns into there cant be a you and i you “never wanna make me cry” but can never keep your **** dry eyes red like im high you “never want to say goodbye” but the second things dont go your way you fly but you could never be the bad guy? act out like a capricorn stubborn like a leo how you beat yourself up but wanna be everyones hero? your double life is really a triple i should call you trio if ‘paid in full’ was my life you would be rico how my own girl crossed me? then made it my fault that she lost me? then told everyone she tossed me? don’t care like aquarius outted me like a libra you beat around the bush when i made it black and white like a zebra how i told you tell me the truth and you made up a story you cant lie on someone who loves you and bask in glory i paved the way for you and you act lost like dory and i still found you careless like sagittarius critic like a virgo how you tell me to “never leave” but you go? how you use the water you drained me of to grow you’re not who your instagram shows i see through you, commando you cant flex on me if you know what i know
my friends say i need to open my eyes but aquarians are dreamy types and i broke my glasses so what difference does it make if i’m sleeping anyways? i'm 20 years old and that's not a lot boys think i'm cute but they think my friend is hot cause she ******* is
i keep getting high and redownloading tinder when i'm home alone in my living room with the office on repeat and my cats attacking my feet
meanwhile i'm getting annoyed because i'm just trying to eat and everyone keeps telling me i need some thicker meat on my bones and telling me i should watch my texts and to call if it involves **** or ***
my best friends are sleeping together i wish i could make this thing between us better but you kind of **** dude and i’m sorry but i don’t think i can talk to you without being rude so.. i guess i don’t really wish to change things after all