When I'm alone, the thoughts start coming in.
The further you stay away, the deeper I go in.
All alone, and all I think about is you.
Thinking, what will I do, the day you find the one that you think is right for you.
You hate that I'm revengeful.
You say it's better to just move on.
How can I just move on, when it's only you that I so blatantly crave.
How can I hurt the ones that deceive, betray, lie, and hurt me?
Emotions this intense, the depth of a dark black hole.
Feelings, I can never escape.
Just the thought of you being with someone else.
The thought of you kissing her, caressing her, touching her, holding her, ******* her...
You say you hate that I'm a revengeful person.
But you don't deserve my vengeance.
You are true, loyal, kind, and someone I warmly dear.
That's why I want you, all to myself.
But the day you meet the person that will sweep you off your feet,
just know, that it's not you that I will be hurting.
North Node and Pluto rises high in the midst of Scorpio.
I've always been like this, since a child, twisted, dark, and sickened with poison of utter despair.
Something I cannot control.
Seeing the one I love in the arms of another sickens me to the core.
You say, it's better to just move on.
How do I move on when I know that I can do you better than anyone else.
My love is deep, my scars are wounded.
I bleed, sacrifice, and torture for the ones I love intensely.
I will never be able to live with myself, knowing, that she can treat you better.
You not the person I will be hurting
Wait, and you will see.
Pluto in Scorpio (Transformation, death, ***, power)
North Node in Scorpio (Depth and Passion)