I will regain strength through your words
I will regain power through my choices
I will earn my keeping through work
And I will rejoice in all that is coming.

You downgraded yourself
For the sake of humanity
Get off your knees
And come with me
No more games
No lies
No flaws

Lay burdens beside cross
Fly underneath
Through is lost

Be the wild
Thats tangled up inside
Unafraid to wrap thorns around your
Very
Crinkled up soul

Now breathe in deeper
Than you've ever done
And exalt freewill until
There is no sun

Death suits
Flowers fall
Upon caskets of time
That held you
Once upon a time

Pendulum swings
This and that
Out of mind

Sweep
Sweep

Now underneath your feet
Are crystal vases
Discard them

Forget your place

Create
Create

Tokens
To loose
To keep
To shake
To speak

For that
Hold no grudge
They just want
You to realise
You're not one
Of us

You are unique
Your own to keep
Write it down
Repeat

I Desire
Your name
On the back
Of my veins tongue
Piercing delight
Into hollow caves
Vibrational vocals
To lungs
Inhaling her face

Cry to me
So I can soften
Your heart
Beat for me
Until nightfall

I will sit
With you
I watch you
Moan and tremble
Under short breath

You will feel safe
Held under my wings
My branches are here
To comfort you
Rooted in spirits
Of overflowing love
And acceptance

My will is
To make you sing
Turn off the noise
And find a way to belong
To listen to your own song

I will never leave
You have me in your heart
And yours in mine
We are one
For eternity

Her hair waved
With passionate oversight
She dawned
Every time she whipped it and
It grew light
She was a princess
But then
She cut it.

And found those
Words were
People's idea of what
She thought she was
Then when she was ready
She cut it again and said
I am a transman
And the weight got lifted
His aura changed.

People got scared
But guess what
His smile got bigger
Cuz he didn't care.

And his body felt
Light and tingly
Every time he thought
Of himself as a man
With that question gone
he didn't ever have to
Say I'm sorry again.

He grew confident and proud
That he had grown into his skin!
Yay me!!!
You go boy!!!

If the birds
And the butterflies
Can make trees
Then where would
The bees be

I hide
In writing
I hide
In notes
I do whatever
To stay
Afloat
The deepths
Of my surface

Your lips open
To speak the unknown
Swallow the broken
Pieces of earth
Channel higher callings
Make light of the Universe

Skin torched
Tongue porcelain
Unable to convey
What I have to say
  
One day
One day

I lost myself
After I lost you
Why didn't I see
I was letting your eyes
Make me as we speak

Your words, comments,
Even the little gestures
Crowned me
Victory or defeat

I lost you
Now I only see my feet
They go nowhere
My head is empty
With despair

Loves empty canvass
Draws no more potions
There needs to be evasive action
To take hold of my endings

Scrap my tongue
Scatter the ashes across this
Plain white backdrop
Make scrimmages from
Self doubt, self pity,
And disappointment

There's no point in running
I'm always on empty

I often hear whispers
They say sit
Feel what she's done
What's left
Now binge on forgiveness

You'll find your soul
Underneath it
The flame will spark again
The dead will speak in color
Another shoulder will appear
To hold all of your secrets

The moon is full tonight
Maybe this light
This dark bright ancestral light
Will be my path

I have no earth to grab on to
I might as well die
Float up to the sky
Ask the gods
To bring me another muse
Someone just as lovely as you

I'll stay lost forever
If that's what it takes
To build a garden
Inside of these empty gates

What notes
Do you sing from
The top of the
Blossom tree
Or the corner of
The darkest basement

What color
Are your leaves
Brown and gold
With crisp edges
Or lillac green
With peace
And  pure essence

Where do you
Flow from
On silver ponds
Cascading

I couldn't fully understand
What was written underneath
Until her skin was aching for desire
And her frozen veins
became lit by fire

Her vase flew
Empty and forgoten

Her mouth
Still numb
From the everescent
Sonderless

POINT

The truth
Could **** you
If you let it

You may crawl into my spine
And dream the dreams you left behind

You may douse your blanket in gold
And withhold the treasure you wish to unfold

If time doesn't catch up to you soon
You may rest behind the moon
I've left a stardust path just for you

We can live there together forever
Forget the world even exist
Start over fresh

Come back down
After we've made love
To a million planets
We've left behind

To play hide and seek
In the dark with you
Seeing starlit tiptoes
Across your fingertips

Dance for me
Dance for us
You're rhythm
Is what makes the earth vibrate
Doors open to other rooms

It's what we call vibrational confidence
And it's no coincidence
You wI'll see it soon
Over and over

Making lighting out of fire
Unbracing the savlvage attire
Forkoined the darkness
It doesn't hold you still

I Do
I'm you
In a hundred years

Reach up to me
Call my name
Ursula
Eugenie
Letgo the bitter after thoughts
Of long ago

You were born of earth
Camafkouged by bread
Eaten alive
At the very. flesh

But no one knew
That wasn't you
It was a picnic
For the ants

And we my dear
Ate the whole **** Sky
Achoo
Bless you
I love,your will power
And drive
The way it excites
You
The way it opens up your eyes
Like ice glades
About to crash into
The night air
The deepening
In you pupils glare

The iris moves
To a melodic sound
One not many can hear
One not seen
But found

You are a chosen one
Made from love lust and fumes
Fuel the empty kinder
And make perfume



I

A hidden locus written under my tounge
Rooted at the umbilical cord
Under my bellys sleeve

To be cont.

Poem
FOR YOU

where are your footprints?
Do they still mark your
Territories
REPENT

****** numbers
Line against the fire
YOUR ONLY Sacrifice
Would be blendered
In the making
And spit out
Ghost style
Waiting
Waiting
Crawling
Forgiving
Taken

How do you
Make *** work for you
When you crave intimacy?

I wore the shadow like armour
Thin and hallow inside
It protected me
Or so it seemed
Always catching up
To hide
Never to see a smile
Or run toward the light

You are magnificent
You are a travler of lives
You are
The SOULMaker
Mendi mg the broken
Blending the healing

You are a blaze across
My summer night skies
Light ing up the moonlight fingertips

We were one
In a million pieces
Scattered on the floor

Before time shattered
The door

Our love
Was infinite
Or so it seemed

Now my heart is broken
And I don't know what
That means

You're still
Here

Somtimes silence IS beauty.

Love and emptiness
The tragic we pursue

Arrow through head
Back dot breathe

I'm death defyed by you
Your warm skillet
Of afterthoughts
And tongues

The sweet taste of
Teardrop and bubblegum
The *** from the nurses
Cabinet

The stairwell
We had a good habit

Only to lash out
Of many times like this
When I kiss the cheek
Of a monster
And steer down
A road less inhibbited

One we want to know again
One that taste of teardrops and sin
And fun nights of running
With guns down
the streets of Adalie

And once again
We find this bliss
Somewhere between
Heaven and who gives a ****

Where the stars kiss our toes
And wine fills our holes
From valinquished unrelinquesed love

Replaced by sweet current aftertaste
Trying to perfect this flow
Is a hell of who knows
Why must I travel down it again alone

Everybody wants me to be
The queen Penelope
Of this palace

When I'm really
An up roaring *****
Holding a chalice

Not knowing
What I'm really like
Keeping it stuffed down
Really bites

Her eyes become impatterned
Her lips spread apart from the idea and light up the dark

This time
Act athourative
Give pleasure to the pain
Demand respect
Be an as whole
As long as you don't hurt yourself

Counteract the regression
Look inside find peace and perfection
Hurry the hachet
And then go steal your key
Back from the wicked witch
And stupid ol monkey

I'd agree things
Aren't meant
To repeat
You act as if
It's good to feel rushed
Nervous behavior
Come to a stop

Let winds whisper
And trees blow
Go to places
No one knows

Then
And only then
Will they leave
You alone

Part one
Scene a million
Out of nowhere came a shadow
I looked to my right
And felt this strange
Oppressed and battle
Timeline jumping
Scattered
What the he'll does it matter
Stop and pursue
The red flag
That you draw

You can't hurt me
You are fictional past
Someone somewhere far away
Hurt you and I sit everyday
With your pain
I give it back

Like hell we ride
Through the night sky

Callus and raw
Vurnable and

To Believe that
She loved me.....
We fell
Harmless and unidentified
At first

Build me a tower
Made of gold
I'll hunt you
Down
Make you
Bleed for more

The stars have aligned

He stared
Walking up
The ally
At the thought
He once kept

The ball
Rolling along
His footprint

He stood
There searching
Somewhere between
Madness and emptiness

Only if I could hide what's
In your mind
And hold it up under me

I'd take you as mine
And love with you
In ecstacy

My collections
My extremes
All kept inside
This crazy dream
That someday
I'll feel your love
Once again

You left me
Completely shocked

As I lie to myself
Liquid crimson regret
Starts pouring over
All my words

You had me all wrong
I didn't mean to hurt you
I just don't know how
To say NO

Inspiration
Muse
I must find some
This significant curiosity
Has hit me
And it controls desires
Incomplete infinite desires
Star staring
Sun stroking
Burst
Vibrant

Zoned out
Out of wordly time
In own space
In own mind
With filled up love
Lust flowing over

Inside
Pickets
Flowers
Dandelion
Satire
Willfull
Controlled
Fre­e essence
Run faster
Come inside
Sit down
Share share
Your desires

Variance in moods
Attitudes wane
Sway

Dark tunnels
To oceans blue

Light breaking
Surface

A pill or two

Bring on highs
Like a balloon

I bargin for simplicity
Of life
To come and haunt me

Instead of dry
Dusty leaves
Stone temple
Voodoo curses

And late night
Sun rides

A day worth waiting for
Is a fight lost.

Where are the towers
We crumbled together
Why won't they rebuild for me
When I need protection
From my own greed

What kind of spell
Did you put on me
Opening my heart
To you was silly

Now all I want
Are my wings
So I can fly away
From the shame
That I failed you

§wallow the Light

Do you stare
At a devil
In your shadow
I do?

Does he ask you
Or threaten you
Where to begin?

Rhetorical functioning inhibbited
Playing once again
With the demons
Called friends

Some are nice
Yet some too revengeful
To let in

Do other angels
Call like she used to
Singing sweet lullabies
But all you give
Them is fables

Spotlighted gaze
I hunt this maze
For self denying sacrifice

Only second
Isn't right
And turning left
Is now
Out of sight

Dipping down
Beneath the cloud
I float unbending
Landing on soft ground
Thinking out loud
"What will I be?"

Man or woman
Adult or child
Devil or Angel

Singing
Set free

From all around
Who try and
Drown out my sound
I SHOUT with Integrity

I AM ME
I AM UNIQUE
What I am
Is who I'll be

We are animalistic
Teeth on the edge
Of our overrated minds

Hey nobody said
Anythings wrong with that
Isn't it all just natural instincts

The inkling to deceive
What stands in our way
To get what is raw and poetic

To capture a taste
Of the purley ******

To be gods
Of our own making

Subtle and refined
I did not have in mind

Excuse me while
I reap a vengence

When I see her again
Let me tell you
Every cell becomes alive
I awake

The complimentary serendipity
The particle charge of
Reading from the same mind
The quantum sharing of two universal whole beings of light
That somehow got entangeled
And when I see her
It all makes perfect sense
This and this and this...

What common forms
Do you flow from

Down stairs or from above
Or in your own galaxies
Do you run?

What's on your lips
Cotton candy
Or sour gumdrops

Do you savor each flavor
Or simply let them drop
Like acid on paper
Like rain from above

Where is your gravity
Where do you run?

If you ever hear me
Know I'm here for a reason
That everyrhing is okay
And that as long as you
Believe
It will be

We are
Bodies of snow
Windows of ice
Crying in the night

We are
Melted
We are
Thawed out

Wired wood
Carving inner mind
Into portraits
Of shoelace desire
Of things unbeknowst

Symptoms
Suicide

System in a panic
Finding answers few

What brought
This forth
From the back layers
Onto the floating
Clouds
Which laid
Dormant for
So long

Why are you here now?
And *** do you want?
I was doing
Just fine!!!

Erupted corrosion
Distorted perception
I need time
All I need is time

To let the air
Blow thru
These cracked
Pencil shavings

Reaching my tinder
To set my heart
On fire