I Inhale
I Exhale
I ground myself
I face reality

I run from the Present
Living in my past.

There was a passion
a fire
an energy that threw
sparks out of our lips

As I watched your eyes
crystalize them before
they reached me sometimes

I tried
and when I didn't
then you tried
we're both exhausted
we're stuck

We'd get frustrated
with lack of own
and then feed
off each others
bits of glow
for days

Journeys end
new ones begin
I have to close chapters
but will always revisit
this one

over and over
as if it were new
each time

My eyes will always
light up
at even the slightest
thought of you

Possibilities are created
from that place
if I stay long enough

But somewhere between
the corner and the middle
is where I find myself
on the page

And I turn over like
a car trying to start
but no one is here
to help me recharge

I must recharge
I've not even began
and I drain so quickly
if it takes forever
I'll wait

Until edge of ice
reaches out it's hand
and dulls my shame

Till things of pure
gold replace
all the trash in this place

I know there's a spot
you'll save
I'm just not sure
when I'll regain
strength and courage

To say
to sit face to face
without falling
on my face

I'll keep trying
till then
I'm here

Knowing
what we had
was enough

To keep soul happy
and I'll try to stay
on trail you showed me

My own
and if I need you
I'll ask again

Your tongue licks
Against my vertabre
We reconcile violent colors
Underneath these sheets

Here comes the breaking of day
Letting our shadows be undressed
In the lightest orange and rouge
Let's stay in and play
Let it not spoil our progressive
Repossesions of One another

I've waited too long
To sink my teeth into you

Will the seams
become unglued
the moment I
open you

With such force
mounted fingers
on top of
your surface

Will I need
to sew you
back up
after I've torn
through you

Release of
bonded fantasies
play with
intentional
focus

Lying on my back
I flip yours over
then spiraling your spine
I'm in love
all over

Where does the bird weep?

Your words
Drip
Like a tap that's
Always on

Or a trashbag
That's ripped
And never ending
Garbage
Rolling down the
Highway

Blowing out
Inside the
wind of fear

You cause
Destruction

Then need repairing

Can't you hear
Your own
Words

Echos
Instill
Deliberate hollows

Rip me
Find me space

You're distilled
soaked through
reverent of
task at hand

pondering
complexities
that play
ring a round
the rosies
all day long
in your head

longing to quiver
******
and touch

common sense
would tell you
you're **** Out Of Luck

to put it bluntly
You're ******!

I want to believe in my
OWN truth
The many times I've come
Through on my own
Did what needed to be done
Without being told how

By using my own intuition
I was brought here with
To forge a place around
my Own tree of life
My surrender
My sovereign
My light

And the best thing is there are others
In my life that show up and stay
From time to time
To wake me up into this
To help me grow
Into the Meet me

First of all those
Who see that best me rise
And to compliment
Not control
Who endure through
Not who back down

Who drown inside themselves
To get to this unconditional love
Which they Know
From lives thousand
Before them

To make this time
Ours to shine in
And do more than
Just march on
But to EVOLVE
To become a
Revolution in their own

Is it wrong
To want to be alone
In your own solitude
Doing whatever
Soothes your soul?

Tragic downfall
Rise Again
Rise Again

Once you found Rome you don't leave!

Salt life

The taste of spirit on my tongue

Salt life

The sound of my heart after it drums

Salt life

The opening healing to my childhood wombs

Salt life

Opening exits
Closing down doors
Leaving behind exes
That don't care anymore

Following
No leading
You down my
Twisted Finger
Scrapping the dark
Devil's path again

Assuming this time
Hell let me win
Ill struggle
Ill plead
Ill die before
I'm set free

But oh second chances
Will always be
Till theyre not
You see...

She speaks when no one else is looking.

I want
To live
Off you

In a sea
Of dew
Spilled
Shimmering

Rocks
Smoothed over
Tragedy

Spewed paper
Becomes me

Silk solitude
Cream based dream
Rhytmic pressure
Ohhh my...

kisses that
deepen together
lungs that inhale
the exhale

How in the world
Can you be there
Once, twice, three times
I'm going crazy

What is it about
Your smile
Your being

I can't simply pretend
The one thing I want
To happen naturally
Can never really happen

But in my play dreams
We are simply
Sparkling

Then one into two
Three into ten

How many times
Let me ask you again?

Why you did not
Open to me
Is a gift
Your soul
Could not
Spill
******* and your SOUL My Dear!!!!!!!

Her riot forced her into predomination
Of all the abolishment this was
The final end

She played the game
Far too long
To not give in

But to leave
All for once
And all at once

Blackhole ****** thru me
Turned toward
The torched Sun
Only to peel the bleached
infectious skin

Vibrating in the
Noise I call THE WIND
It whispers at first
Then turns up the volume
To see a traveling herse

Jokingly I submerse my body
Only to find that the
Purest necter
Negotiated on that tree
The vines wrapped around my leg
Wouldnt
Let me Go
Thru it
Around it
It wanted to eat me whole
And so I let it
For a season maybe two
But wasn't this the me
I'd hoped for lived with
It gets confusing
And this mess
Looks like a mess
A pig stye room
And after eating dinner
She roast a toast
To her dead lovely awaiting
Husband
Patiently they walked up and over
The corpses law

Jagged and weary
Their bones fell
Into each other
Lost they put the
Wrong pieces together
And now he's she
And him is her
Everything doesn't
Make sense
Except for true earth
Which vibrates
At a frequency
That is drums like WIND
Like fire
Like all the crusted attire
These women warmed me with

Nothing beats the flesh
Of another true warrior
Nothi,e and I mean
NOTHING
REUNITES AS IMPALLING
AS HIS FLESH RIPPENING FOR HIS OWN URGES

Kisses by sins nature
He throws shame and anger
Meeting her at the door
He greets his afterstare

Come out come out
Where ever you are
Do you hear the battle ground
Feel the rumble in your bones

Light up the stage
Sit back
And take charge

Sublime majestic light
Where did you come from
When was I born into thee

Making colors arise
Out of passions
Unverbed and unique

Madness and magic
Completely
Incomplete

Do you forget me
When we haven't talked

Have you thought
About me
After dark

Do the memories
Ever touch
The fringes
Of your mind

I wonder
And so do i

He wore crooked windows
Beside morning coffee
And her spilled milk

She wants to feel important
She wants someone to see her talents
And smile and laugh

To share a common bond
A similar interest
Cause right now
She mostly feels alone

And the silence
Doesn't fill her
Her soul rots away

If she can't get away
From her inner demons
She fears she'll soon fade

Her inner child wants
to feel joy again
To sparkle and such

To light up her eyes
Is all she'll ever want

I want to be spanked
HARD
held down in knots

Black tar dripping
From my
Porcelien body

Yours forever
If you'll
Keep me

I want to be begged
Jadded and screwy
All the ****** up
Things that we
both need

I need to be alivened
Dead and
Frozen
All at
Once

Hanging from
The ceiling
While you
Watch me

Through the hourglass
Openings
Through the pebbles
Ripples
Open me
Up as if I were a gift

Specks of sand drift slowly
As I wait at the bottom
Of my hourglass again.

What are we reaching for
Surface
Graves

Unknown persuasions
Unlit candlesticks
No vacancy
Here at the
State Of Normalcy

Where do
Tar pits end?
At the room
On the left?
****** and monsters
Are all that's left
A sign tales vacancy
That's all that's
Left of me
Until tomorrow repeats

What if
I liked the way
You grinned at me

I knew youd
Be the death
Of me

Playing it off
You told me to lie

Never speak of this
Or she would cry

I kept it
Every time
Each time
Getting harder

When you grow distant
I chain you again

What if
I liked this
Kind of sin

Difficult
The way I see myself now
The way my life's changed
What some see as lonely
May be right
Maybe I need to be free

Free
To quote my own verses
Instead of taking film
From underneath someone
Else's tongue

Using hearts
As sleeves
Is my old fashion
May be I need a gun
So this amunition is aimed
At the right coffin
Instead of my own

The need
The drive
Where the hell
Do I come up
With those

When i've been
Feed through
My own antibacterial pasts
That I can't scrub off
This time

What happens when
Your life gets stuck?

If my Feet
We're wet
Submerged
Insync
Without time itself

I play with my thoughts
As if they were sinful delights
Taste filled licorice
******* on ends
Chewing up lil pieces
Spitting out used ones
Just to bite all over again

You deaden my eyes
And rest my head
Thank you for listening
To my gentle cries
At night I like to share

Light hurts
It feels like I disappear again
Sets my feet
Souls on fire
And ashes of rust melt in me now
Making a machine again
Till sundown madness

The ones
That matter
Grow stale
And distant

As my mind
Begins
To drift

Useless
I sit
Disregard
What's left

Moving without sound
Seems pointless

How else
Would I know
I exist

I want to supplement you
Is there a pill I can use?

Not an herb
not on a vine

I'm looking for something
periodically
to give me a rush
a high
to hold me over
for a little while

The tombs
Laid full
Beneath my
Feet again tonight

Tomorrow my
Shoulders will
Buckle
While my body
Take flight

And the
Lack of
Ancient trust
Will once
Again
Come into
Question

As I
Lay inside
The sculpted
Hollow

And dance
Again
With this
Melody
That's played
a thousand
Times

And let it **** me
Because I was too
Afraid to let
You see me

What were told we are
We are not

Take time today
To write a different script

Say I love you
To your inner child

Smile at the heavens
And say Thank You

I'll never forget
The way you smelt
Like sweet epiphanies
Or lillac breezes

Each carried
A different note

Thank you
For all
Your seasons

Poetry is flowing over my skin
Lights me up from within

The way bubblegum feels
As it pops on my skin
Sticky and sweet
I feel a burst of fresh air
Pop inside of me
Lips lick the pink aftertaste

Its far more advanced
Than anyone knew
There are holes
You can fall through
And not have a freaking clue

The gap
Is another word
For depression or the blues
It seems my mind
Tears apart what it
Use to use
And makes me think
That I'm being abused
That every answer
To every thought
Is wrong
Pointless
Or incomplete

But on the other hand
It can be a good thing
A thing to use
A canvas
A poem
A way to reach out
To a few

So don't give up hoping
The fog will soon lift
I'm still obbssessed with
Finding my gift
Even through everyday
Chores I find life
A little too boring
But as soon as I start
To pour it seems
The gates start closing

Where is the open door?
What is it im searching for?

The deception came easily
The yellow brick road and all its poets
Followed
She had them by the coat tails
Pulling them this way and that
Begging for mercy when she had done bad
Manican like motions
Soon followed
Plastered silly putty smile
Washed over
her veneers and pearly
White gates
Of tragedy poetically
Hallucinate through the glass

The saying
The old saying goes
Whatever cleanses your soul
Do it
But what if trying to get there
You find yourself
Burried under bricks
And countless number of
Screws found loose under your pillow
And sorrys that never get too sad
Incase you didnt notice
And goodbyes that carry no weight because you never truly
Leave anyone
Speechless
Or
Or
The old nylon sheets
That creep under the opening
Of black tongues taunting
And whisper making
Again and again
You taunt me
Remembering all the old
You lost me
You really did lose me
I lost you
I really did loose you
And with no regret on your end
That i can find
And only
Stuck unhappy
And on fire
With noone to call on
Between manic and depressed
No one to stare at
So it took this test
To arrive at
This place I call Destiny
Still unsure
Of whats left of me
Knowing the End
Is just the beginning
And I can fly to new heights
If i choose too
But i really dont want to give
up on losing you
I said
The old saying goes
What leaves will come back
And what stays is
Old and dead anyways
Did you fly from me
Cuz you're so far ahead
I can't even see
And your rocky stash
Of pillows ive awoken to
Has preformed
Magic many times before
You're just not at the door
And i don't think I can make it
Without your sword
Can I borrow it?
I'll give it back in just
A little bit
you see I'm going into battle again
With these demons and my monsters
With another woman
And the old saying goes
News is what bought her back
The end .

And the ones
In the end
Will be waiting on you
Still smiling from within

You found you
I knew you could
You've been gone
For a while

You found you
Suprised
At all you've missed

While throwing
Caution tape
Outside your
window pain

This house
You now sit in
Lies beneath
That empty room

And you can
Fill it too with
balloons and gifts
Not sorrow
But sweet bliss

It's too narrow
of a street to miss

Come inside
I miss you

The spell
The spell
The spell

Lashes
Unbound

BROKE IT!

Freedom ring
Lazyboy time
No more fears

The END...
or is it

Carnival
Cotton candy
Pink illusions

Stark night
Trees moonlight
***** knees will do

Jokes and laughter
*** happened after
Don't freeze
Run run

Sobs hysterical
Turns angry at touches
Deepens wounds
Needs therapy

Behind closed doors
Confidence grows
Sharing secrets with
An honest soul

Growth
Enlightenment
Letting go

Feeling that everything is alright
And you know it
Describes your soul

Wasting my day again
Over thinking
All my problems
And asking myself
How I can fix them
Instead of acting
I'm stuck in a loop
Thinking...