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409 · Feb 2019
It Doesn't Matter
Matthew Feb 2019
The word t
                  u mbling fro
                                      m my mouth.
A Bold Statement
They stop...
A blood red lie, I kept in my pocket
Their body turning towards the fresh noise
Revealing, laughter
Their expression a stern nod of disapproval,
and a shove aside
I am now a clown,
a mockery
I repeated
those stale claims made in contempt

My tears
Sweet chocolate

Their laughter
joined by mine
The words being
I am gay



This poem is about how I was always called "gay" because of my mannerisms and uninterest in women.  When I came out, it was a joke because I always denied it was "the secret I kept in my pocket".  Even though they don't accept me, it doesn't matter.  All their power is taken when you laugh with them.
409 · Mar 2019
To the Moon
Matthew Mar 2019
Moon O' Guardian
Lantern of the night
Will you hear my plea,
to know who you are.
I yearn to ask you this,
"Of all the crystal stars,
do you remember what
names you gave them?"
and if you answer one day
will you hear my last thought?
"Who remembers when I gazed at
the black blanket of the night to sing the
lullaby under your guide to bring out all the stars?"
Based on a game with the same name.
407 · Mar 2019
Behind the Screen
Matthew Mar 2019
Do you realize that we change our face
behind the screen,
but maybe unwillingly
Someone has been replaced









Is the person behind this screen the same as you remember?
407 · Feb 2019
The Truth in the Wind
Matthew Feb 2019
It's funny how how the wind with words so eloquently spoken
Speaks only of how you are malevolently broken...
This is a description.
389 · Apr 2019
w o r d s (10w)
Matthew Apr 2019
k i l l
y o u r s e l f

No one is telling me that except myself
386 · Jan 2019
Escapism in Dreams
Matthew Jan 2019
A Dream of a sun
beating down on our bodies
skin sweating
as we laugh
fatuous days
going by
as we smile
Perfect tranquility

But I woke up...
Things never last forever.  I love poems with bittersweet endings because they reflect reality more than anything else.
383 · Jan 2019
Hatred (Prose)
Matthew Jan 2019
It's just another week
in my blighted life
time to spill the tea

Left to taste the bitter hate
when all I ask are sweets
and the candy that you give
is too salty for my taste

Sticks and stones may break my bones
, but your words cut deeper than my knife

'"It's okay you're just misguided
and as long as you conform
like all those who tried and failed"

"You're not hurting anyone
, but you just can't fit in my box"

I'm searching frantically for someone to hold out hand
to save me from this hell.
and when I'm brought back to Earth
by the comfort of their voice
I live.

But they're dead now
in the cold
absence of everything,
I die.
I wrote this poeming thinking of the other people who might be in this situation.
381 · Jan 2019
I was a fallen Angel
Matthew Jan 2019
When I was young enough to know that I did not fit in.
I proposed that I was an angel
that fell from the heavens and lost their wings.
All I had to do to make friends was find them.

So I spent the next day frantically searching for my wings.
Sobbing with despair when I never found them,
and looking at the sunset only slightly out of reach.

Even now, I never found my wings.
But I did find other fallen angels.
A rare poem of hope.  I really like this one. Do you know what that means? I don't know.
380 · Apr 2019
Back?
Matthew Apr 2019
Maybe?
Maybe noT?
372 · Oct 2019
What a fickle thing
Matthew Oct 2019
Well fickle does rhyme with pickle...
If ya know what I mean ;)
372 · Mar 2019
Little Red Wonders
Matthew Mar 2019
are what my mommy calls
them.
as they disappear down
in her tummy
she
laugh
and smiles
But
Where
has
HER
EYES
GONE
367 · Jan 2019
Hello Poetry
Matthew Jan 2019
It has only been a day or two
since I first joined site
and in that time I have found
why you have this might

When we decide to write
we give up part of us
Then we just leave it there...
for others to discuss

And when I start to
go into my worst state
I read the poems here
and see how you could relate

A poem is for everyone
and here that holds most true
So this is why I ask
to see myself in you

Now when I wake up the next day,
I know for sure to say,
"Hello Poetry."
This poem is for everyone on this site.  Especially the ones that helped me navigate and make my poems better.
Matthew Feb 2019
The Two Poems I won't forget:
You read them warmly as if your lips were butterscotch
Looking just beyond your notebook paper.
Reading with the bittersweetness of siren's song
knowing whoever listens will perish
The sounds gracing our ears to enter our hearts.
Your poems of a velvet sofa left by the street
and a matchstick box waiting to be burned.
I will never forget those poems.
Ever.
Maybe I found the wrong muse.
358 · Apr 2019
This is poetry
Matthew Apr 2019
Doesn't it feel great
356 · Feb 2019
Please
Matthew Feb 2019
You can't act like love is some trophy
to be won and earned
through adversity.

Love is shared
between
people

the
gifts
of
the

m
u
t
u
a
l
355 · Aug 2019
Conflict
Matthew Aug 2019
How can we say that we care of life,
if the purest of "good" dictates that the young's blood must spill.
350 · Mar 2019
The Moment is gone
Matthew Mar 2019
My smile appearing
like the blue sky after
a cloudy day.
Because of the wind,
I feel it rip me away from today
to the periwinkle flower
held only by her stem.
The gentle gust mending
her fallen tears.
looking now at her
withered petals
Fly Away to the Wind.
345 · Feb 2019
BFFs
Matthew Feb 2019
We friends supposed to Be Friends Forever
But Forgot Forever
ended after death
I hate this poem
341 · Jan 2019
The Old Young Couple
Matthew Jan 2019
Hand in hand
they look toward the sky.
red and stormy.
A promise was made.
their grips tighten.
flashbacks of warm days
before the fire consumes them.
338 · Mar 2019
L-0-V-3
Matthew Mar 2019
I Think I am falling more and more in love
With you
It will just make the heartbreak so much worse.....
.....
....
..
I
Luv
U
Yeety *****
333 · Oct 2021
Do I get my Money back?
Matthew Oct 2021
You broke my heart
and I didn't get the Warranty.
332 · Sep 2021
Trending
Matthew Sep 2021
Right a pome

that dusent mache since

sworleng
328 · Feb 2019
I Know I'll be Forgotten
Matthew Feb 2019
I Know
I am just
An Old Shoe
That should be thrown away
But if you tear me to small pieces.
And rearrange my flesh to be with you
It could be the perfect fit for me and you.
Love,
Your Old Shoe
319 · Aug 2019
Tears
Matthew Aug 2019
The Tears of those that I don't care of
bleed into my subconscious

Maybe this time
310 · Nov 2019
Music...
Matthew Nov 2019
1000 years have gone and went

What was Music to my ears
Is now

aids to my eyes.
309 · Jan 2019
Insomnia
Matthew Jan 2019
Troubled, Crying, Red, eyes
The bottle containing
Tablets
The tablets help
Tireless exhaustion knocks the bottle
Tiny white dots
Tick away on a white surface
Transparent to my vision
Too many to count
Try to close my eyelids
To rest interminably
Two, four, eleven,
Twenty is needed.
302 · Feb 2019
Who Am I?
Matthew Feb 2019
I swing through the trees
sing to the bees
give strength to the weak
am there when most bleak


Who Am I?


You are easy
You are simply somebody who sold their eyes
For a wooden mask
One who is no longer themselves
You are not human,
but worse
You are...
BIG GAY
Matthew Feb 2019
Observe how
the grass isn't green.
You are presenting me black weeds
overdue
for mowing.
You can't show me shriveled brown dandelions
and compare them to the ethereal blue roses
that your garden once bore.
293 · Jan 2019
My Puberty Love Poem
Matthew Jan 2019
Child like innocence
and strange infatuations
Limbo

Limited days spent thinking of the
love of my life
soon to change
the next week.

Hiding furtive crushes from the ones you love.
Until they realize it
ten seconds later

Acting as if these trivial days
will matter years later.

But somehow, still wanting those days to never go away.
And never going to end it.
288 · Oct 2019
write myself a poem
Matthew Oct 2019
sometime mayibe I can do that
280 · Mar 2019
Attention
279 · Jan 2019
Neurotypical
Matthew Jan 2019
Just because I was forced to make myself appear normal to everyone else.
Doesn't mean I am normal.
Matthew Feb 2021
I'm a
robot

My frayed wires
hidden
by my familiar
square head

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265 · Feb 2019
Look At Me
Matthew Feb 2019
"Look at me.
You mean more than you understand.
I just don't
always show it."
264 · Jan 2019
Anti-Poetry
Matthew Jan 2019
Little words
So small and sweet
and giving to all
they are something to all

that's why i think they can be better than big words
...
Trying to write in a different diction
262 · Jan 2019
The Dunce
Matthew Jan 2019
He was someone who was thrown into the bland beige walls of his “school”
Interminable hours spent staring at the shining blue beyond his reach...
Only to be comforted by the violent wisps streaming from his parents mouths puncturing his heart
His vacant black mind only able to realize that he couldn’t
Reach that blue
Ever
He could stare at its inviting villas
But never be….

Until one day he took one of those many knives
From the drawer and his heart
And ran over to the blue
Piercing his soul with all those words
Painting over the lovely blue with his deepest red
And before he closed his eyes he could hear the bluebirds and cardinals sing
Yet another old poem of mine
262 · Jan 2019
Am I Normal?
Matthew Jan 2019
Sometimes, when the pain is too much to handle...
My brain commands me to scream
My soul tells me to stop,
but my brain won't listen
I'm on the ground crying and screaming
Everyone is judging
Saying I can't handle my emotions
i need to stop, but i really can't
Why aren't other screaming like me?
...
251 · Jan 2019
Free Speech
250 · Oct 2019
N words
Matthew Oct 2019
I have the N word pass
- Oprah Winfrey
I gave her the n-word pass
249 · Jan 2019
Predetermined Consumption
Matthew Jan 2019
I woke up one morning
and was welcomed by the dark
that enveloped me.

                                  Introducing me to their void
of abstract reality.
Where I was no longer myself.
I was hovering in this abyss.
Timeless moments went by and,
I was It.
A simulacrum.
My thoughts belonged to others.
Nothing was me.
Hands searching a mind for thoughts to own
a motif
and it was crying
but it was me
but not
It observed how the tears
fell up to the colorless nothing
splashing on a ceiling that was not there

sudden and slow movements of it
silhouettes
of
moving pictures

I was a camera viewing everything as one
Staring into my body
my soul
it
the scattered thoughts
the abyss
darkness

But it
I
threw it away with disdain
Inspired by a perfect poem
240 · Feb 2019
Remember
Matthew Feb 2019
Love runs away
Fleeing with Stolen Hearts
so fraudulent
and sly
tiptoeing to our doors
to leave us a small gift.
When we wake,
to a find a Stolen Heart on our doorstep
We hide.
Crimes of passion
we don't understand
Yours aching to return
And when our eyes meet
so do our lips
Unsure of the warm embrace
and the new heart
A hybrid of yours and mine.
Hoping
                                                    ­                                    Love doesn't shatter it.
A poem about love
236 · Jan 2023
Update
Matthew Jan 2023
Y'all I'm okay, so don't worry.

It's a fictional story about a character
I AM NOT THE CHARACTER.

If you have feelings about how I write characters feel free to dm me, but otherwise please know that I am ok.
234 · Jan 2019
Humans
Matthew Jan 2019
Do you ever realize?
That we can never be perfect because we
are individuals.
A world of perfection means a world without individuality.
So we will remain enterally in chaos.
Maybe, maybe not.  Just a random thought
223 · Feb 2019
There's someone watching me
Matthew Feb 2019
There's someone outside my window
They're scaring me
Help
Please
PLEASE
PLEASE

..
I don't remember myself liking this
220 · Jan 2019
An Ode to Freedom
Matthew Jan 2019
As she sings her sweetest tune
She also sings of freedom
She sings of what she lost
Confined in her cage

When she stops to take a break
She stares at all her friends
They stare at her with futility
For they are trapped like her
But she is not deterred
She tries
And tries
To leave her prison
When the gate flies open, she spreads her wings
And prepares to soar
She ***** her wings and flies
even though she never has before

She sings her song again
Of new hope to see the stars
Of the sun, so close and warm
But she falls to the ground, dead
With a bullet in her breast

Her friends watch as she falls
And slowly one by one
Are endowed with her courage,
Watch their cages dissipate,
And soar without failing
Bringing a reprise into the light
It was a poem I made a long time ago
219 · Mar 2019
Lovers trip to my grave
Matthew Mar 2019
I had a passed your gaze
Stuck in my gray shadow
We crossed paths, but never you never saw me
You can call out my name
but only I can
watch you sob
As I'm called a liar
But I am
standing
right next to you
just
read the epitaph.
Based on a pointless dream
217 · Jan 2019
What we are
Matthew Jan 2019
Who are we but walking husks shaped by our experiences?
Can we hold others accountable for our actions?
Should we blame our parents and friends for our own decisions?
Do we have any free will?
What is free will?
Do we have hereditary inclinations?
Will we always make the same decision even if we went backward in time?

Sometimes, the only thing you can do to be a better person in surround yourself with better people.
Matthew Jan 2019
A fire
burning
the old me.

Memories
of times
no longer
my own.

The crackling
is melting my soul
soul.
Ashes, are all that is left of me
And from them
The New Me emerges.
A poems of fire
Matthew Mar 2019
It's NANA B's STASH.
DON'T TELL ANYONE
link here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e2MJe81fyRw/
204 · Jan 2019
If this is love
Matthew Jan 2019
Love is love
Until
it's
not

or
it
never was
I really don't know what to say about this.   This what I would call modern poetry.  Simple. It's going to be quite ironic is this becomes popular,
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