Your eyes
gaze upon
a face.
It is a snowball

little toy planes
and small green trains
*                          icy stares from the glass                          
toward the radiant moon
whispers of "some day"
                 in a dreamlike way                  
hazy star

We were as radiant as the moon that shined in our eyes
Because we were back to those days laughing in its light
A nameless, hopeless choir reminiscent of the moments of adagio
The ceaseless winds that we transcribed into a language all could understand
Never knowing we were writing nocturnes of our own beauty
But it brought me to that moment when the moon failed to shine
That’s when the chorus began.
To remind of the grave, and the lost
The accelerando of the sun
To beat down our fatuous darkness
The bluest skies
To block out the romantic music that had given me my soul
Yet stole yours
As I eagerly watch the sun set it’s greedy gold body down the horizon I hear a cadence
But it’s sly and deceptive
Now the sun rising as if the night had passed my love
Stealing or shielding me from that reprise
To live in this purgatory of repeats.

Sometimes, when the pain is too much to handle...
My brain commands me to scream
My soul tells me to stop,
but my brain won't listen
I'm on the ground crying and screaming
Everyone is judging
Saying I can't handle my emotions
i need to stop, but i really can't
Why aren't other screaming like me?

I watch the clock tick my life into ruin
I look on as it laughs at my cowardice
Knowing it will be here eternally
Time that is limited
Yet I wait
Pondering relentlessly about you

When you give your paralyzing stare of kindness, I am again halted
But I find my courage(in a flask)
To meet you away from everyone else
I should have said those words forbidden by him
But his discipline put me in shackles
You won’t like what I do though it won’t happen again
As I press my lips against yours
There’s no resistance
There’s true love
But I feel eyes of pure crimson hate behind me
The eyes of him
My father
And Now time is no longer in my favor

Perched in a tall nest.
Let's look at those at rest.
After the sunlight's haze
A sly clarity stays

Fly away
little butterfly
your wings
are moving
away from
my reach
farther than
I see

How can we say that we care of life,
if the purest of "good" dictates that the young's blood must spill.

I know the day this becomes my old poetry

I will see all its faults
"This was wrong and that was false"
I'll say in one big fit.

There won't be anything
that makes me angry
besides my own accidents.

Maybe it's ironic
how I'll inquire
why it made an impact.

I look now with love,
later with loathing,
and long ago with the least.

A goodbye to you is a day in autumn
when the leaves fail the fall.
Stuck in the middle of changing.
     A silence where there
  should be laughter.
  I'm empty
     Stuck.
                 I'm lost in the memories
                                           I shouldn't care.

You thought I was new
but I was here
wrecking havoc right under your nose.

You ******* idiot

When I was young and she was young we would always play
Hide and go seek and look out for me
Whatever would pass the day

When I was a boy and she was a girl we never did well in school
The teachers would scold but we were too bold
to not play the part of the fool

When I was older and so was she we shared our first true kiss
A fearless midnight under the moonlight
Both caught up in our bliss

We she was my love and I was her love we both died a little
And with that done I started to cry
For I knew my feelings were brittle

But when she wanted to sing I wanted our son
I cried and told her no
But said it had already been done.