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3.1k · Jan 2019
Staggering Footsteps
Matthew Jan 2019
a very small step that goes to the next.
It leaves and stops with fair hesitation.
Waiting and Restless.
Starting and Stopping
The movements going fast.
The feet, stomping.
The running, the saving, the freedom.
The tendency to always precede them.
Blur of speed
Never Stopping
The world asking
for silence
Quick response of
Stomp! Stomp!
The sound of a quickening run
3.0k · Jan 2019
Boy and Boy
Matthew Jan 2019
Boy meets girl
They fall in love
and live happily ever after.
That's the way it has always been.

Boy meets boy or
Girl meets girl
they fall love
But one has to "disappear" tragically.
That's the way it has always been.
What a ******
1.9k · Jan 2019
So Naive
Matthew Jan 2019
Do you ever want to be naive?
Yearn to be in those moments when you were foolish
Before knowledge tainted our innocence
1.9k · Jan 2023
A Boy Like Any Other
Matthew Jan 2023
trigger warning [self harm, suicide] *

A razor so deep in the flesh
dancing far past epidermis
to the dermis
and then finally the hypodermis

He was the happiest he had ever been before

He didn't have to worry about expectations
how people saw him
because his blood would dry across the carpeted floor
he hugged his friends for the first time
He smiled and laughed louder than before
because he had nothing to hide anymore
Their faces
nothing but dots and shapes

He danced that day and no one
said anything
how curious

he'd never had known if not for this blessed

He laughed at himself more than anyone else that day

The day came to end and he was so happy he didn't need to wake up tomorrow.

His blood dried.
1.7k · Feb 2019
A dog
Matthew Feb 2019
It's
not moving

"it would have
only led a life
   of pain."

"stop
crying
it didn't
matter to
us!"

It's only
the rain      

why do Things  
die

"to cause
pain."
.
.
.

I want
to   remember This
Can we build a grave  
The rain makes Her cry  
"it is only just the rain.."  
  Please we need to  
  remember
Her
How I see this poem.  It's about two people with two conflicting ideas about death.  The little one feels that death should be remembered, and older one feels that we should forget death as it only causes pain.  The main feelings of this poem for me is to remember death.


I put that in how their speech is written.  the little one capitalizes what he feels he feels are important like the beginning of a sentence and a words like her.  He also doesn't feel the need for periods.  The older one on the other hand feels that everything is useless.  so he doesn't capitalize and he always puts periods to remember that things should end.
1.7k · Jan 2021
Pobreza
Matthew Jan 2021
I write prose
poetry to
prove
I'm a product of
poor upbringing
1.4k · May 2022
Death is Bad at Sneaking
Matthew May 2022
He scrapes the floor boards with his bony toes
Rips the carpet with his jagged scythe
Is he Behind me or in Front of me?
Tell me
please.
...
1.3k · Mar 2019
Are you OK?
Matthew Mar 2019
I'm okay
but
I
am
dying
1.2k · Feb 2019
The Prince(ss) charming
Matthew Feb 2019
The stories of girls getting a prince to sweep them off their feet
was all I needed to search for him
asking the boys if
they were my one and only
Until, one day I got a yes
, but he wasn't the one
And as the years went by I gave up hope
Until, the princess walked up to me
her frilly golden curls
and sea blue eyes
sang songs of true love
she swiped the floor from under me
and came in for a kiss.
Now joined by the heart
After the royal wedding.
1.2k · Jan 2019
Coming Out to my Brother
Matthew Jan 2019
When I finally decided to
Tell my brother I was gay
he was about to leave
I looked at him and said
"Before you go."
He looked back at me and told me
"What?!"
And I only responded with,
"I'm gay"
And he responded exactly like I thought
"Congratulations, you're a ******"
he said to me with contempt
But I just laughed

For he no longer had any power
This is almost a verbatim recount of what happened when I came out to my brother.
1.1k · Sep 2020
John and his Journey.
Matthew Sep 2020
There once was a man named John
He was gay
and wished he wasn't

So he decided to try something new
He married a woman
he raised all the goats, prostitutes, and ******* goats
His face formed a straight toothed smile
covering a shadowed tear
his circuits failed to reach a lightbulb
and no connection was made
now he was in prison
for holding an illegal human trafficking ring
and the ******* goats were allowed to roam free.
sometimes you can still hear them calling out to their owner John.
Such a sad story
based on this old poem
https://hellopoetry.com/poem/3031425/my-name-is-john/
1.1k · Jan 2019
The Meaning of my Poetry
Matthew Jan 2019
We look into the damp, dark recesses of our mind
to look for finite definition
for our actions and expressions.
We are looking for a straight line in a work comprised of curved loops.
How we don't acknowledge the curved loops' flexibility to
everything.

We can only see shapes through our narrow minds.
Not the abstract dimensionality.
The straightening of a curved loop is the destruction of true art.
Moving endlessly with infinite pertinence.
That no one
yet everyone
understands.
I don't really I understand what I'm saying, but there's this insinuation that makes this feel expressionate.
1.1k · Jan 2019
Your Bloodied Carpet
Matthew Jan 2019
You watch as the blood from my wrist trickles onto your carpet.
Paying no mind until it starts to stain
I whisper,
"I'm sorry; please help me"
You roll your eyes and usher me out
of your comforting, inviting home
into the cold, desolate outside.
Crimson tears form in my eyes
raising my voice,
"I need your help!"
Instead, you give me an ignorant smile
before you slam the door.
An incomprehensible scream for acknowledgement exits my body
Peering through the window,
I see you cover my bloodstain with a rug.
You would rather act as if it never existed
than try to stop the blood or simply clean the stain.
I'm now outside;
being left to rot in the earth
So instead I will stain your flower bed.
Here's the meaning I got from my poem.  From personal experience, people to like to act like there's a problem with your depression or suicidal tendencies until it bleeds into their lives.  Then, they act still barely acknowledge the problem and try to erase from their lives.  They don't try to help us when we need it more than ever.  It's about what we really need.  We need someone to acknowledge that we have a problem and make strides to help that problem instead of acting as if nothing happened. The poem is saying that it's better for people to help those in pain than to be ignorant.  If you don't, then it just ends up causing the stain to get bigger and more public.
937 · Sep 2021
Mask Off
Matthew Sep 2021
Republicans go mask off
because they are anti mask
and all the homophobia, sexism, and racism
is spread because of
a viral video.
Get your Vaccine kids.
886 · Jan 2019
Lovely Mother
Matthew Jan 2019
A moment she was already starting to repress.
That would never come back again...
Though, she gained weight.
Something she couldn't deny.
It was her boyfriend's
she told
them all.

It was okay.
They threw
her a shower
and gave her
gifts.

She smiled
for her
baby.

To come
in
many
months.

Oblivious
to
the

b
l
o
o
d

spil
lin
n
g

from


her



thighs.
A story of an expecting mother
853 · Mar 2019
Wrong or Right?
Matthew Mar 2019
It doesn't matter who is wrong or right
because sometimes the line is so blurred
the only options that appear
is a tunnel going left or right.
Sometimes, the choices are there to be ded
839 · Mar 2019
Do you remember tomorrow?
Matthew Mar 2019
Do you remember our hopes
to reach for the stars?
We've fallen so far
back
We can't wait for Yesterday.
791 · Feb 2019
I Guess I Love You
Matthew Feb 2019
I guess I love the way
you listen with your lips

I guess I love the way
we live inside our dreams

You take away the tears
With one insignificant laugh

One look at us
in the lazy afternoon hue
I know why I'm with you

Why am I so hesitant to accept your lips and laugh?
To run away in your eyes
full of sunlight

Because my pupils never grow
You might be blinded by the light.
Because I see storm clouds
It is raining,
drops of
my blue
tears.
Something just A thought.
789 · Feb 2019
Why Make Beautiful Poetry?
Matthew Feb 2019
If I made a poem that sang to the seas
and whispered to the winds,

Would the winds remember what was whispered?
And when I sang to the seas, should they see the secrets sunk into my subconscious?

The winds won't ever wander where I once have.
The seas never will stare solemnly at the stormy sky.

Seems that it is worthless.
778 · Jan 2019
Destined to Hate my Work
Matthew Jan 2019
I know the day this becomes my old poetry

I will see all its faults
"This was wrong and that was false"
I'll say in one big fit.

There won't be anything
that makes me angry
besides my own accidents.

Maybe it's ironic
how I'll inquire
why it made an impact.

I look now with love,
later with loathing,
and long ago with the least.
I honestly don't really like this poem
774 · Jan 2019
A Normal Boy
Matthew Jan 2019
I wanted to be Normal
But I was atypical by nature
Genetic predispositions that I couldn't control
Or could I?
Everyone else argued that it was that I was broken
That I could be fixed
Converted
I wanted to be normal because they said that I could
They said that I wanted to be normal
It didn't matter that I was comfortable in my skin
It was that they never could accept me
But it didn't work
If I was broken?
Then why does it now feel like I'm falling apart?
I'm just another normal boy
743 · Feb 2019
Heteronormativity
Matthew Feb 2019
"I didn't know you were Queer."

What made you think I was straight?
737 · Feb 2019
Butterflies
Matthew Feb 2019
Fly away
little butterfly
your wings
are moving
away from
my reach
farther than
I see
A two word per line poem collab with
704 · Apr 2019
Snek
Matthew Apr 2019
Sneeeky snek
Out for mous
Sneeky snek
In le hous
He slithery slither
And then he starts wither
Into dust
"I don't feel so good, Mr. Stark"
whoosh
Dont eat the children sneeky snek
698 · Jan 2019
Ballroom
Matthew Jan 2019
Lively and Jumping
A vibrance felt
Spinning
in a Bright display
of Human Beauty

Its lights beckoning
One step forward;
Dead Darkness
Isolating me
From them
The second life lived
in the small Room
Haunting Ballads
Drag me closer
Insidious, blighted
It is forever
I'm trying to convey unsure emotion
662 · Feb 2019
im tired
Matthew Feb 2019
mistakes make us
human
and as
i
make the same
ones
over
and
over
i
no longer
see mistakes
i see an unalienable personality
that i can never give up
im trying
to climb a mountain
that goes on interminably

don't worry the end is near
all i need to do is stop climbing
and fall...
659 · Oct 2019
BRUH
Matthew Oct 2019
I Think I'm falling upside down
into the chains of bromance
Matthew Nov 2021
Whenever relatives come
I know it's time that I put it on
So they can accept me
Restrict my speech and movement
so that I'm palatable for their one track mind
"Do you got a (insert partner of opposite gender)?"
No
Haven't been that lucky.

I'm so hot and sweaty
I feel like I can't breathe.
Maybe I should take it off.
645 · Mar 2019
My Name Is John
Matthew Mar 2019
My name is John
And I am gay
I look outside
Every single frickin day

I wish I was straight
So that I could own a goat
And a *******
And ******* goats
634 · Mar 2023
Create or Critique
Matthew Mar 2023
I'd much rather Critique
as I rein king when I put on that hat
As he lain before me is subject to my snarling
Picking his hair from my giblets and jams.

For to create
creates your own undoing
To look before oneself
and watch
as aristocrats
pluck pimples from your own potatoes.
606 · Jan 2019
I'm sorry
Matthew Jan 2019
Endless Apologies
only bears
Agonizing Pain
575 · Feb 2019
It's Okay
Matthew Feb 2019
"It's okay"
A whisper from your soul
words so
ethereal
because they
come from you
You,
I,
might be wrong,
    but buried in your shirt
the phrase
makes the tears fall
My heavy eyelids
Your blue shirt,
is now the perfect pillow.
567 · Dec 2023
Please Take Me Back
Matthew Dec 2023
Please Yoink me from This Wretched Thread
Place put me back on
the Rosier Redwoods

Where I wandered as a wee one

So Free and Lost

The fissure
on the cobble
just so far ahead
flutters
the utmost
dread

But back then

I'd so easily

Trade my old toy trucks

for a new plastic card
559 · Mar 2019
Teacher
Matthew Mar 2019
Silly,
how they see potential
where I never could.
everywhere I hope to be
on Earth,
but it is too late
my potential died
as well as me.

Silly, how tears
only fall down
your cheeks.
538 · Feb 2019
Farewell
Matthew Feb 2019
A goodbye to you is a day in autumn
when the leaves fail the fall.
Stuck in the middle of changing.
     A silence where there
  should be laughter.
  I'm empty
     Stuck.
                 I'm lost in the memories
                                           I shouldn't care.
531 · Feb 2019
Will You Disappear
Matthew Feb 2019
Will I crumple up and die?
Will others mourn their loss?
...
How will other react?
Every moment seems
Lost under the cybernetic skies
Little experiences connected by the frayed cords
Of a dusty computer
People disappear
Often becoming nothing of their former selves
Every photo to cling to, but never a soul.
Tangents creating a cohesive line from a
Ring encircling our world,
Yet snapped by your disappearance
...
Can't perceive a name
Only dashes
My head won't remember your name
/
-
-
-
/
An Acrostic poem based on an experience.
524 · Jan 2019
That Perfect Boy
Matthew Jan 2019
He would write his perfect poems.
Then, read it with his golden voice.
I hated his perfection
because I knew he was what I wanted to be.
He would smile and nod
whenever I shared my flawed poems.
He could do everything I had ever even thought about wanting to do effortlessly,
and I could not accept that.
I hated how I knew I would never amount to him.
But why do I want to kiss him?
A Story.
496 · Feb 2019
Hush Little Baby
Matthew Feb 2019
Hush little baby, don't run away
Mama's gonna see you another day

And if that time is too much to bear,
Papa's gonna buy you a new blue chair

keep that blue chair close to you
I'll need it for the day you say "I do"

Shh little baby, wipe away those tears
There is something that you need to hear

                                                           ­                         I'll love seeing you again
                                                           ­                                          remember that

                                                           ­                                 It might be too soon
                                                            ­                                    for you to accept,
                                                         ­                                                            but
                                                             ­                                                            ...
                                                             ­                                                              .
                                                               ­                                     She's dead
Final words
492 · Apr 2019
Anne Frank
Matthew Apr 2019
Anne Frank
I am ANNE FRANK
I liek kissing bois
And touchin them

I have a sweet secret
SWEET SWEET SECRET
The gas tastes nice
So does typhus fever




It smeels liek chicken





It smeels like Anne Frank up in this torture chamber
486 · Feb 2019
She's Falling to her Death
Matthew Feb 2019
d
o
w
n

she goes
falling
and
stabbed
   b    y   her
jagged mistakes
cutting open the skin
and watching the blood
drip
down her
blue skirt
the ground is getting
closer.
She looking toward her painful
future
with
wide open eyes
hands together
nodding
praying for the water to run gold
someone else to grab her away
miracles
are gone
or
never existed

ground
Grace under pressure
485 · Apr 2022
Not A Pretty Girl
Matthew Apr 2022
You're not a pretty girl

but pretty girls aren't lucky

you are.
477 · Feb 2019
* A Boy with a Dream *
Matthew Feb 2019
little toy planes
and small green trains
*                          icy stares from the glass                          
toward the radiant moon
whispers of "some day"
                 in a dreamlike way                  
hazy star
A view of the moon and a single star from the glass
457 · Sep 2021
Spiritual Words
Matthew Sep 2021
How's it going?

okay?

Are you there?
Idk what to fricking say. I'm so boring.
452 · Mar 2019
My Last Poem to You
Matthew Mar 2019
Remember the Poems I gave to you
in the afternoon haze of those Autumn days.
The golden hour was in between us
as the birds sang their nightly Lullabies.
Yet, I know the dark lies
spoken as the sun set her sleepy head.
I put more faith in my tattered lies
than you did.
I've seen your body
move,
slower,
an
d
******>wer.
toward the
cold reflections in the moonlight.
moonlight in the cold reflections.
446 · Jan 2019
The Forgotten Poem
Matthew Jan 2019
I know you've never seen me before,
but I've always been here.
Just invisible
Just a poem
445 · Feb 2019
The Cherry Blossom
Matthew Feb 2019
It's falling to the ground
little
by little.
Giving itself
to us all.
Pink Blossoms
in the
dark night
blowing away to tomorrow.
A poem I feel is about death.
441 · Jan 2019
Family
Matthew Jan 2019
They are there at my worst and that's about it
They provided me a place to stay
But it's not like I asked for this life with them
or life whatsoever
I'm surrounded by people
But I'm truly alone.
441 · Jan 2019
My worst Fear
Matthew Jan 2019
I have talent, I suppose
But what I truly fear is
not r
        e
          aching
f  a  r
enough.
I really despise this poem.
Matthew Feb 2019
You take the box
and strike a match against your skin
The flames seeming to clean your
old wounds.
You don't notice your scorched red skin
and broken fingers.
As you take another,
I hear the match against your flesh
Your heavy breathing,
your shaking hands,
and rigid smile.
You enjoy this pain
much more
Don't you
418 · Feb 2019
Cycle
Matthew Feb 2019
Words said by my ancestors
and to be said by my descendants.

It is all a cycle
in a greater meaning
of nothing

I'm saying words that touched the tongues of many
Are they wise or foolish?
Does it matter?
It will only repeat the cycle
It is all a cycle
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