Girls giggle and they

keep shifting the position --


of their bulging calves.

If I behave, I can participate
half as a half-grown as if
it were fun in that world
on its head that thinks it can

cheer me up with a smile, kid
the best time of your life...
Cynics! Down with them! Down with fake!
I have square shoulders

just wait, I'm beating
the drum, I'm in
the hangout
about to

They have been hanging
for so long that their brains turn
everything around, having no idea
what's real, what's fake

Love me, so leave me

alone, there is no place here --


but for me, you see.

I feel no worship,

no love or amorousness --


but a blissful fear.

I despise myself

for everything I can't do --


like other students.

The biggest fairground

attractions for teenagers --


are the French kisses.

I am excited,

I follow him, curious --


mostly about me.

Girls tease each other,

just to attract attention --


from the toughest boys.

I was full of pus,

and chock-full of hormones too --


A pimple on legs.

I had to kiss him,

my wings are breaking through now --


they itch on my back.