He lives in the past
   And She in the future

Time was never on their side
   He waited for Her to exist

    In the few moments of air he  breathes

    Because the present never happened where the two people would meet.

I want to be a child

To be carefee
without a single thought of
   T o m o r r o w
     without a single thought of
        S o r r ow

And with no reason to be happy
because no one can take it away from me.

But there's this reason, the unexpected truth.

The error in the program
The lesson I cannot learn
The points on my circle
The turn in every road
The person I can't forget
The reasons are

Y O U.

As the fireworks beautifully bloom in the sky it was a bit lonely
It’s funny how the wind blows along with time

As I held your hand during that night you smiled at me
It’s funny how I never smiled back and just cried

As I pull you close into an embrace you started to fade
It’s funny isn’t it, you were leaving away

As I tried to put back the pieces of you
It’s funny I never did

As I remember this memory
It’s funny, I’m crying now isn’t it?

As long as I can still recall the note you left
It’s never funny that you gave up on the life you lived
And that carved in me so deep.
                                          .            .            .

You were chaotic
  Like the ocean's rage on a stormy night

You were also harmonic
  Like how birds synchronize in flight

You were silent
  Like how a butterfly would flap it's wings in air

You were deafening as well
  Like a how bomb would explode and shatter my ears

You were lonely
  Like how your anxiety creeps in when you're at a party

You were friendly
  Like how everyone looks at you brightly

You were everything I never would've asked

You were also everything I would've wanted

You were Mine
And I was Yours

You destroyed me,
  Like how you hugged my depression away

You built me,
  Like how your smile makes my day

You were what I had prayed for
And I'm thankful that I did.

"Stay" The word that slipped his mouth when she was walking away.

She wanted to be chased yet she chose to close the door between them.

Sliding slowly regretting he made her leave and she guilty of shutting the door.

"You lied to me"

"Why did I trust you?"

He looked in my eyes,
  Those ocean shores began to become waves I've never seen before

His voice was a sound my ears never heard but was familiar like something from the past.

He answered. "You knew me.

And you didn't"

I got so drunk
  I begged my feelings to leave
  But it stayed

Until I woke up
  My head was in a storm
  It was raging my love for you

So I threw up
  All the expectations I had left
  That you would come back

And beg me to stay.

we are the main character of our lives and it's in our hands if we're going to save ourselves or let ourselves die...

Walked on every city
  with signs I cannot understand
Spoke in a language
  I hardly can hardly pronounce
Loved people
  with broken hearts
yet I ended up with
   myself
    alone
      atlast

My fingers went loose
  
  Like the moment you touched my hair

My lips curved and smiled

  Like how yours would everytime I laughed

My feet stood straight

    The moment you stood before me

And then I let go
  Of a kite begging for the wind to take him away from this world

Like I did,
    With you.

Find peace in the heavens

Where I whisper to the air the things I missed

The words I dare to hear

The guy I begged to live

In my place.

I fell in love with you
I fell in love with that smile
to see you happy every time
I fell in love with  that laughter
the carelessness we share together
I fell in love with that frown
the sorrow of your heart I please
I fell in love with that boy
the one I fell in love more and more
I fell in love with  you
knowing  you won't love me too

I wonder why
   Amidst pretty girls in **** dresses

  And in smart girls with wealthy riches

  To kind girls with gifted hearts

He chose me...

With messy hair and baggy clothes

To

Senseless humor and idiotic attitude

To

Cheap gifts and angered temper

And last

My broken heart and change of moods

He hugged me, held my hand, kissed my cheek and stayed

With every reason he could've chose someone else

Left with all the reasons why

But he stayed. And I'm truly thankful.

It's either

Our hearts are
               MONSTERS
that's why our ribs are cages

               or...

Our hearts are
                G O L D E N
that's why we protect it with our chest

Either way

We should never let it go.

We release a beast

Or

We lose a treasure

I was happy with the presence of you by my side

I was happy that I made you smile and laugh as you would do the same

I was happy that the thought of you caring for me was great

I was happy of the time we spent alone in our own world

I was happy with you…
But could I be happy?

When you left me out starring at the open door you exited

Was I happy when someone mentioned her name and you smiled from your cheeks

Was I happy when tears came down my face secretly that you wouldn’t see

Was I happy to look at the sight of you two laughing thinking that could’ve been me…

I was happy but then she came along and it was the question was I happy with you two getting along?

I was happy, but deep down inside I’m crying out screaming

" I… WAS  happy"

Hey how are you

I wanted to tell you I'm hurting, that every part of my body is aching. That my eyes wanna cry out from so much pain inside. I'm begging, screaming and pleading to stop it all.

But what do I say?

"I'm fine"

A lie I couldn't bear to deny, everyone else is repeating the same line

You said we'd be
  All the things we could've been
I said we could've been
  All the things we should be
But in the end...
  You were not mine to have
And I wasn't yours to hold
   So this our beginning
A friendship hurting both

Don't let me be your dream
  Something you need to achieve

Let me be your nightmare
  Things that keep you up at night

Don't let me be a flower
  You need to take care of

Let me the unexpected sprouts
  You never saw coming

Don't let me be the girl
   You wish to have by your side

Let me be the girl
   You need to have all your life

I'm never something pretty
   Because I am always insane

I don't need you to protect me

I need you to know me

Sometimes I just want to be the sun, be that someone who gives warmth and light to your dark and cold world. Then again, why should I be something that would give you so much and you could never directly look at, the same way I would look at you.

There was that color
those mix of red,orange and yellow
they told me whenever there's a rain
there would be a rainbow

I started to love rain
the drop of water down the gutters
The splash of fun and wonder
because I knew there would always be a
r a i n b o w

But then i stopped believing
I've been seeing too much rain
I don't see the colors anymore
the wonders after the rain

Why is there no rainbow?
after my eyes stopped raining...

You can't undo what's written in the past
and you may be aware on what's in the present
cause you will be surprised with the future

Yet do not worry time is there
every second of the tick of the clock
it will be a memory worth to share

Enjoy life's current position
don't dwell on yesterday
and live on for tommorrow

Let me love myself without the light

Where every imperfection shows

The sadness in my eyes

The sleepless nights with my mind

The voiceless thoughts unspoken

The irrational fear of being judged

Let me love the me I was, am, will be. Let me love the darkest parts of me

You never knew how to break

Until you said you should be strong

Because you knew you were weak

Smiling for too long

And then, you shed a tear

The feeling of the sorrow and pain creeping out

As much as you want to be strong

One will driven insane by smiling out and holding on

I'll be by your side

You smiled in front of the mirror

Knowing you can be stronger than tomorrow

If I told you a secret
   It wouldn't be a secret anymore

I would never tell it to anyone

That's what you said, when you said the exact same thing I said to you but you told it to her

"I love you"

I'm so tired of loving the people I love and yet there's no day I would take a rest.

It was like an aphrodisiac
How you stir your tea and gaze into my eyes

I was love struck
Like a flow of electricity ran through my veins

Intimacy hits
And our eyes connect like constellations in the sky

And yet my father said,
When my mother passed

If you would ever love
Know you will lose it all at once

And for a moment,
I realized

How scared I was not to be alone
But to be left in solitude

and without a doubt
I stopped

This won't be the start of a happily ever after
So I'll be the side character

Stop searching at the place

                        where you lost me

Start finding the reason

                        I walked out