I whisper
'leave me alone'

I tell them
'please stop'

I walk away
but they follow

I run
but they catch up

I plead,
'I have nothing'

nothing
to lose

they hurt,
pull me down,
chip away,
eat my soul.

so many grand plans,
laid out in perfect detail.
life is sobering.

hide from the monsters.
plan your next moves.
keep warm and rest.

for daylight will bring hope.
a new chance to find meaning
and experience happiness.

the dew of your lips
and butterflies in my stomach

oh sweet agony,
cover me in darkness
and feed my despair.

your single-mindedness
numbs my wretched life
and amplifies the longing.

lead me away
to beautiful places
and unfulfilled dreams.

you are the gateway
for my soul.

makes us submissive.
prevents us taking action.
we can do better!

independent minds
and critical thinkers
led to the gallows
and burnt on stakes.

but without dissent,
valid or not,
there is no progress,
just stagnation.

life is too easy
and people complacent.
numbed by gimmicks
that steal our time.

a downward spiral
of mediocracy ensues.
all leading to a
tyranny of the few
and ****** revolutions
when their lies collapse.

walk alone
be free and dream
heart and mind
open

mama and papa
i long for your warm embrace
but you both passed on

blue shreds broken glass
cut deep red to find lost love
boundless black void spills

when words are targets
the truth remains unspoken
and progress will stall

thoughts of untamed love
  obsess the martyred soul

pleasure, raw and wild
  tear the mind to pieces

quelled emotions surrender
  to the passion of desire

black rose petals fall
a dark veil for our dead
love transcends the loss

it’s breaking my heart
listening to the silence
of unfulfilled love

do not be afraid
to imagine happiness
after you wake up

in you I saw light
a bright beacon from heaven
guiding me from hell

darkness, cold water
stone tied around my ankle
the abyss awaits

I strip away that skin,
the flesh and bones
until nothing is left,
but a single sad sob
in an empty world.

time flows eternal
a year coming to an end
leaving me behind

dreams ease the longing
painting love in soft red hues
sweet veil of closed eyes

neon lights
illuminate the night’s
heavy clouds

while rain muffles
the constant urban humming

pierced by distant sirens
moving slowly
through concrete canyons.

count from one to ten
take a deep breath of fresh air
close your eyes, exhale

hallowing darkness
wordless psychedelic sounds
transcending my griefs

screening "Hannibal"
demonize animal meat
selling soylent green

the sight,
like a constant surf,
broke my courage.
and all those silent words
drowned in the white spray
of her beauty.

green, yellow, red, brown
hanging, dying, falling down
beautiful carnage

visit old places
to search among memories
in hope to find you