He reigns in greed, destruction Fear, and hate, For the sake of people’s appeal, He conquers their cries, Upholds the lands higher than all else, But he does not wish to be here, He does not wish to conquer, To reign, To be King.
I’m feeling so homesick ever since my family moved away it’s been so hard the fact I never got to say goodbye and life as been so hard, i miss my mum and dad we barely even talk anymore I don’t even know how to feel about that it’s so overwhelming feeling like you have no one around you that actually loves and cares for you I’m not saying I don’t have people that don’t love and care about me I do , but family just hits different and at times all you want is a hug from your mum telling you everything’s going to be okay and now you don’t have that an it ***** it really does, I’m no saying I’m not thankful for my partner family do letting me stay with them but inside it does hurt when you seem them with their family all happy and it just reminds you that you use to have that and now you don’t 😭
I pull the curtains over tight so the sticky light will not let in the morning. I miss waking up in Europe with the strange European light coming in pouring in the narrow windows of Dutch Tower houses or busy Berlin apartment streets with kebabs cooking and kids crying the stillness of frosty Dublin suburbs in the winters and the bite of the air on bare cheeks and knuckles and the eerie sound of invisible birds and clock towers belling on Sundays resonating in the crystal air.
And I start thinking about all the things I never did which is sometimes worse than thinking about all the things I have done