Other girls are not my competition
I stand with them
Not against them.

what is it about me
that others can't seem to keep?

It’s a dangerous and absolutely terrifying  thing to love and be loved

i feel too much
i love too much
i forgive too much
i'm good too much

You look at my body
And tell me i'm pretty
I turn away and you say
"Dang what a hottie"

Why is it that every time i hear
a catcall or whistle
instead of feeling good  
I turn in anger and I bristle

I wish when you saw my curves
you wouldn't gawk
instead walk over to me
and let's talk

I feel nasty in my own skin
I shrink out of embarrassment
uncomfortable in the only place I've ever been
wishing more than anything that I had no body

I fear that the only reason you like me
is not for my heart
wish that wasn't how it has to be
but that's how it's been from the start

So I will ask now
how
when
who
will love me, for me?

We live in a world full of everything
we have the happy
we have the sad
we have the angry
we have the glad
we have food
we have houses
we have feuds
we have spouses
we have the glowing
we have defeat
we have the outgoing
we have those who retreat

As we go through life
with our eyes pressed forward
we never stop to look at the ones who "don't have"
those who are hurting
those who are sad
those who are crying
those who are mad
those who have no houses
those who have no food
those who have no spouses
those who live in a constant fued
those who are covered in strife
those who are broke
those who are done with life
and willing to choke

So my challenge to you is next time you walk outside
next time you start to ignore
instead of worrying of only yourself
help someone through the door
stop putting them on the shelf
help them off the floor
and think of something other than yourself
a lot more

There are so many things
I'd like to say
but not all of them shall come
at least not today

I met you while I was young
and I had soon begun
to realize that we would always be friends
until the death of the sun

This poem may not be the daily
It may not even be read
but at least I know that
when i'm with you
i'll never fail to be fed

that last line was random
quite like you and me
but oh Han I love us
to the bottom of the sea

we play in the snow
we dance in the rain
we laugh at our jokes
and we love each other all the same

you cry in movies
you love to read books
you are always yourself
even if you may get looks

you love like no other
I have ever seen
you show off you Faith
even when others are mean

I look up to you
in so many ways
I am in a constant state
of an unintentional daze

we laugh
and we have cried
we have lived
and we have bide

I have known you since I was young
but oh best friend hang tight
because our story hasn't even begun

Yet I only want your shade of yellow
For the rest of forever

I wish I wished I had it in me
To just hurt you how you hurt me

"And maybe Christmas isn't something that's bought,
maybe
pperhaps it is something much more."

Cheers!
To the moments I spent alone
Cheers!
To the times I laughed in your home
Cheers!
To the times I spent with you
Cheers!
to the times you were there when I was blue
Cheers!
To the time I climbed the watch tower
Cheers!
To the time when we picked flowers
Cheers!
To the late night bench talks
Cheers!
To the haters who tryed to mock
Cheers!
To the times I cried myself to sleep
Cheers!
To the memories that I get to keep
Cheers!
To when you stuck with me during their fight
Cheers!
For him showing me the light
Cheers!
To the fun i've had

And cheers!
To the fun that's yet to come.

"I wish I had a boy."
She said.
"I wish that someone loved me more than the crashing waters of the ocean.
More than Art and the beautiful music.
More than the stars in the sky that twinkle like diamonds at night.

More than life itself."

Then a voice that seemed to come from the sky said these two words,


                                            "I do."

So you think it's okay
to  cause her pain
does it give you something to gain
to see her insane

she tries to not cry
she tries to get by
she tries to stop feeling regret
for all of her lies

she lays awake
trying to shake
the deep feeling inside her
that caused her to break

she feels all alone
she no longer has a home
she tries screams out
why couldn't he have just left me alone

but instead she is blue
for no one will want you
if you have
something to rue

Skinny is the new perfect
forget the curves you tried so hard to obtain
get thin and you'll be attractive
you have to realize you need to be the same

Welcome to society
no one ever said life would be easy
so chin up and start the dieting
but make sure you're not too ******

wear all the right clothes
but make sure that they show just enough
the right amount to keep them intrested
it doesn't matter if it's tough

They all say beauty is pain
it doesn't matter what you do
do what ever it takes to get perfect
make sure you act like you don't have a clue

Playing dumb is fun
at least until someone get's hurt
but validity gained at all is enough to sustain
even if they mostly treat you like dirt

Don't worry as long as they tell you you look nice
everytime they want into bed
as long as you're getting told
well obviously that's enough said

Ignore the red flags
it's honestly all in your head
don't worry about a thing
it doesn't matter if your fed.

You are my favorite Emma that exists

You are no matchmaker
like Jane Austen might suppose
you don't succeed in life
by helping the love lives of bros

You are no blonde
like Emma Roberts is
you have brown hair and beautiful eyes
you are crazy smart, some sort of a ****

You are no dancer in a musical
like Emma Stone
You are more of a marvelous human
who has a mind of her own

You aren't a wizard
like Emma Watson was
you are the kind of person
that is nice just because

Despite what they have said
Despite what they say should sink
I will love my Emma
without having to think.

I wait
for our fate
like I wait
for a Polaroid

As we count the cost
of your ticket to leave
As we cry the tears
and wipe them on our sleeve
As we wait for hope
we sit and smile
As we try to cope
we sit for awhile
As we dance around
with our feet bare
As we lay on the ground
with our fanned out hair
As we sit on our bench
and look up at the stars
As we look at each other
we realize what we are
As we became best friends
beauty was born
And now as you leave
we are still strong as ever
and remain untorn.

We chew on words
We chew on thoughts
We chew them like curds
We chew a lot.

We chew on gum
We chew on emotions
We are so dumb
We just go through the motions.

We chew on our fingers
We chew on rubber bands
We start to linger
We honestly just don't understand

That chew means to think
and think means to chew
I know before I even blink
That I will always love you.

Your smile may not light up a room
but it sure does light me up.

finding out the one you love
is different than what you thought
is kind of like finding out
"daddy's not a superhero"
you feel sad
disappointed
scared
and worst of all like it was all
a lie.

Mi madre siempre
loves me
when I don't deserve it
holds me
when I don't fit
sticks up for me
when other won't
hugs me
when others don't.

Mi madre siempre
makes sure i'm okay
even if we've fought
makes sure I eat
even when i'm not
makes sure I understand
even when I do
loves me more than anyone
it will forever be us two.

Try, Try
try to say hi
to the people who just pass me by.
Cry, cry
time to cry
I cry so much my throat goes dry.
Lie, lie
all I do is lie
they say that I should just go and die.
So bye, bye
It's time to say bye
I guess you can't always be on that high.

"A 5."

I'm a 5?
Is that really what I want
                    Don’t care about what they think you’re beautiful
Wow. I thought at least a 6 or a 7
But a 5?
                     You are perfect. Their opinion doesn’t define you.
I should do it again.
                     No. Please. You know how bad for you that is.
I’m going to do it.
I have been gaining recently.
What’s it going to hurt?
                      Me and you. Please don’t
…..
         …..
I feel better now.
                      I wish you would listen to me.
He said I look good.
He said I’ve gotten skinny.
He said I’m better now.
                      Don’t do this love, please.
She said I look good.
She said I’ve gotten skinny.
She asked me how i’m better now.
                     You are more than enough to me,
                                             You have always been and will always be.
This is working well i’m happy again
Can’t you see i’m now a 10?
                     Oh lovely daughter you are so much more than
                                             words can tell you
                     One day someone will love you just like this, like
                                             I do.
I’ll keep going it’s doing nothing wrong.
                     I know you can’t yet see
                     But the pain you are feeling is just hiding
                                             underneath
…..
                     Please.
He said I look unhealthy.
He said i’ve gotten ugly.
He told me i’m a 5.
                     I promise you my love you are not a rating on a
                                             scale
                    You are smart, kind, more stunning than I can
                                            explain.
She said I look unhealthy.
She said i’ve gotten ugly.
She told me i’m a 5.

cries
                   If you can hear then listen close.
           You are Lovable.
           You are Valuable
           You are Capable.
           You are Redeemable.
I don’t know.
           Love, I created the stars.
           The shining light from above that meets you in the
                                           morning.
           I created you.
          Why would you doubt me?
          The very one who created beautiful?
Society has made me fear it the most.

I love the oppritunity that comes with a blank canvas
White
Blank
And then I have all these colors to choose from to bring it to life!

Which ones will I choose?

I was told today that I can't be both a Feminist and a Christian
"Really Lexi, this again
Why can't you just pick one of them
You don't know whay you're saying."

"No you are not" is what they say
to me again and again everyday
"Why don't you just go away
be normal and go and play."

But I'm trying to tell you who I am
I don't expect you to understand
but why do you make me feel as small as sand
instead of just listening

You act as if I've commited a crime
as if these words can't be mine
as if my mouth should have a bedtime
you shut me down

What is wrong with people today
we're so divided in every single way
all I want to do is say
Please end this destructive fray

But I'm "just a kid"
people didn't act how I did
that sat still and pretty and hid
if they ever did something that was forbid

As much as I hate it when people are mad
maybe don't try to make others feel bad
then we can all be in harmony and glad
and we can all gad
together

but this wonderful sounding universe
where all of us live without having to curse
cannot become properly versed
until we stop judging others first

I am a feminist
I am a Christian
I am proud of both
So hear me and listen

Nothing you say or do
will convince me I'm not
because hunny let me tell you
I am tougher than you thought.

So often we sit and wait
we cry ourselves to sleep
hope for the best
we are fake being happy
till we are really put to the test

we sob violently
under the sheets
afraid that someone may hear
because God only knows
that we as humans may shed a tear

so often we are just okay
afraid to speak up
to stay and say

we whine and trash talk
about our sisters alike
saying if only she was prettier
she wouldn't just be riding her bike

we call each other ***** and ******
teaching our daughters to grow up
thinking being a women is more of a chore

so often boys are treated like monsters
told they are nasty
til finally they match up
and get told they are ghastly
till finally they just give up

they say, "we don't want to be part of the standard anymore
we just want to be enough
why does my gender have to define me as all these things
I wish I wouldn't have grown up."

we treat them like trash
we throw everyone into last
don't you think
they may not all be the same

So often we see people walk past us
we never stop to ask what
we never even think maybe they had a rough day
we just keep walking,pushing
to stuck in our own ways

So next time you see someone
small and frail
nice,mean
female or male
short,tall
nasty,clean
not some but all
to look at them and say

"You my friend are beautiful in every single way."

Oh beautiful people,
take a deep breath.

For never was a story of more woe
Than this of Juliet and her Romeo.

I want you more than words can say
but i'm scared you will be scared away.

I feel he has created this kind of comfort that I’ve always lacked
A sense of security without feeling pressured to stay
A welcoming rather
An invitation to touch his soul

He creates this sense of history that is just developing but feels centuries old
He holds me with a strength that goes deeper than the definition in his biceps
He smiles with his whole heart that his dimples climb to reach his eyes
Which burn with an intensity of crashing waves in the ocean
He makes me feel warm.
And he's extended the offer of adoration that I willingly accept and give in return.

I hope that someday
your pain doesn't control you
I hope that someday
darling you can be
the real you.

I'd love for you to notice me
I'd love for you to care
I'd love for you to laugh with me
To compliment my hair

I don't need you to complete me
I just wish you could see
the light I see inside of you
the way you pull me through and through

I love your eyes and how they look
like you never stopped to frown
but all I seem to see of you now
is you hanging your head down

I'm really trying to stop caring for you
I'm trying to give up
but if I stopped doing this
It would be like growing up

Because I feel your always there
standing in peripheral view
but
keeping you
loving you
is like no longer allowing yourself
to see hue

You being gone
made me fear the dawn
I was scared to wake and find you back once more
but you never did I guess I was a bore

I'm sick of having to sit back and think
being forced to take gulps of you poisonous drink
I want to be wanted by you like I should have been
I guess I wasn't good enough
please try again

I was swimming in the dark
treading water knowing there was no spark
I was all alone

until I was showed home

Ever since that day
I have been remade
I have been showed there is another way
To fill the void that you had made

So carry on to your rock
I don't want to make you stop
I don't care if you here or there
I have a new daddy who lives up stairs.

"Do you still love me?"
                                                            ­       "I never stopped."

it's sad
how when you talk to someone
for the first time
and then after you realize
you see them in the hallways
everyday
or they're walking past your door
looking grey
smiling at you as you pass
as they carry their tray
keeping their head down in the back of class
trying to keep their feelings at bay

We tend to ignore things that we can't see
but I think what it come down to
is that we can see
we just choose not to.

There comes a point and time
where you just have to stop.

Stop loving them
Stop worrying about it
Stop trying so hard.

If you really know me you should know that I love the stars
I love sitting outside at night no matter what season
Whether i'm on a pile of flowers,grass,leaves, or snow
And i love for you to know
That to me you are a star

no matter how mad I am at you
for all that you put me through
I will forever think of you
as a star

who, you may ask is this star you speak of
they shine so bright
they fly higher than a dove
sit tight
I will tell you my love

I love that he keeps me smiling
I love that no matter where you are
the thought of you seems to warm me
because he is the closest thing to astral
that there ever will be

Sometimes
I look outside and watch the rising sun
not for any particular reason
just for fun

Sometimes
I go to the kitchen and start to dance
not with anyone else
just myself and the pans

Sometimes
I cry until the oceans are dry
not because of someone else
just for the others who die

Sometimes
I get so mad I just want to go fight
not to inflict pain on anyone
but because some do to cause fright

Sometimes
I try too hard to find love
not because i'm desperate
but I don't always feel it from above

Sometimes
I don't see the truth in front of me
not because It's not there
but because I choose not to see.

I'm not the girl who thrives on being in a relationship
I'm not the girl who moves around like a ship
I'm not the girl who just "takes a dip"
just for the sake of trying.

I'm not the girl who will kneel and bow
I'm not the girl who will wipe the sweat off his brow
I'm not the girl who will just let him plow
right on over me

I'm the girl who will drive you mad
I'm the girl who isn't "bad"
I'm the girl who makes the fads
I'm the goody-goody

I'm the girl who is still a ******
I'm the girl who will continue to burgeon
I'm the girl who will never go to a surgeon
just so I can be the same

I'm the girl who will give you all my heart
I'm the girl who been broken from the start

so love me if you can
I don't expect you to understand
That I don't need you to be "grand"
I just need you to be mine.

Cheap eye shadow smells
and chick fil a dates
scuffed sneakers
and climbing rusty gates

clumped mascara
and bright blue eyes
red and white sirens
tear stains from late night cries

yelling at you
you yelling at me
we're too tired to feel
anything but free.

Then I see your face
and everything starts to change
again

This whole year,
I spent it being scared.
This whole year,
I did nothing but compare.
This whole year,
I tried too hard
This whole year,
the real me became slowly charred.
This whole year,
I could never measure up.
This whole year,
I told my self I was a *****-up
This whole year,
I was caught
This whole year,
I worried too much about what they thought.
So this next year,
I'm going to love the crap out of myself.

Imagine giving your life
For someone you loved
So deeply
And then being rejected after
The ultimate sacrifice

I don’t have to imagine
Because Jesus already lives that