This whole year,
I spent it being scared.
This whole year,
I did nothing but compare.
This whole year,
I tried too hard
This whole year,
the real me became slowly charred.
This whole year,
I could never measure up.
This whole year,
I told my self I was a *****-up
This whole year,
I was caught
This whole year,
I worried too much about what they thought.
So this next year,
I'm going to love the crap out of myself.

You are bright
like the stars at night
I want to take flight
with you.

Just when I almost gave up
Just when I was done
Just when I was not going to feel
I started to for you

I thought I would never get over him
I thought that I would always be stuck
But then I met you
And now there's no turning back

I am not right now in love with you
But I know that I am in like
I am proud to say that I fell
And you caught me on my way.

my innocence was taken
when I heard the first door slam.

my heart was broken
when I saw the first man

my mind was buzzing
when I felt the first scream

and my childhood was taken
when I saw the first leave.

In my heart
I know that I shouldn't love you.











I guess I don't know enough.

The thing about love is that
you can never be for sure
about anything
if they'll stay
if they'll go
how'll they will act
how'll they will be
how long they will love
and how long they may leave
but the best thing about love is that
it comes down to trust
and if you have it and you can believe
then it will work
you just have to wait and see.

You see the funny thing about our world
is not that we hate each other
it's that we have been taught to despise someone
who doesn't believe the same as we do.

You were a red flag
all by yourself
trying to convince me you loved me
while still putting me on the shelf

don't know why I ignored the sirens
or you running from the lights
I guess I never noticed
Or maybe I was blined by my wanting for
Mr. Right.

The idea that one person can take all your breath away is both incredible and terrifying all at the same time

My skin
Her face
My legs
Her waist

All so different
how will ever I match up

I'm different
and I should love what I am
Dark hair and eyes
Beautiful caramel colored skin
I wish I didn't have to lie
Do I really want to be where they've been?

But they're all so perfect
Her long legs thin
Her flat stomach
Why can't I be them?

My curvy waist
My strange smile
My weird laugh
I always look vile

I want to talk to them
but i'm not plastic
I need to go hit the gym
before I do something drastic

Not only do they see me ******* up out here
they don't see any bit of my heart
but what I constantly fear
is that they wont think i'm a work of art

I never stop crying
trying to stop my pronounced fate
I'm so tired of trying
to let go of this internal hate

I'm a woman of color
A woman judged by her skin
I look at my self and think i'm duller
because everyone knows you can only be beautiful
when you look just like them
so simialr

You become a involuntary twin.

Give me my Romeo. And when I shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night
And pay no worship to the garish sun.

There comes a point where you dance.
And not the same for everyone,
but you must dance.
Because when your heart has been still and stuck in sadness
you must give it a little chaos after.
After what, you may ask?
After you're broken.
After your heart feels absolutely shattered to its core.
After you and your love have been at war.
After a long day at work.
Just after.
Anything.
Anything, where your heart has hurt
you MUST dance.

Dripping ice hangs overhead
I look up and freezing water hits my head
This is why I so quickly jumped out of bed
To see the beautiful white spread

As I walk around careful not to cause destruction
To the beauty of nature's Winter construction
I smile at the Earth's induction
Of the white powder that comes to make an introduction.

Despite all the hurting
Despite all the bad
Despite all the leaving
Despite all the sad

There is still healing
There is still good
There is still staying
There is still those who would

rather stay weak
when they could be strong
those who chose right
when they could chose wrong

there are two kinds of people in this world
those who do
and those who don't.

Feel the air on your skin
let it sink in
And then begin the trip of a lifetime.

I'm over you
just like Jennifer Garner is over Ben Affleck.

I am lost
I am tired
I have finally
lost the fire

I am done of feeling so blue
I feel I have lost me
and I feel I have lost you

I wish that you could understand
How lost and tired I truly am

Broken heart
Means a brand new start
But this heart is not wanting to restart

I'm trying so hard to mend
I'm trying not to allow a bend
I'm trying to start a new trend
The trend of you and me

Now I lay alone
Like a dog with no bone
Like a trail but no home
I am lost with out you to call as my own

I wish you could see
The you and the me
That I always wanted there to be
But you have always wanted to be free of me

I guess the last line may not be true
That may not really be you
But if it's not true
Than how come I'm so blue?

A huge wide cheerful grin spread across her face
as she unwrapped his present of eternal love.
She looked over with pure happiness to him and said,

"Thank you Jesus."

Positivity
                   is
                       key
                               or
                                      so
                                             they
                                                      say
      ­                                                       but
                                                       has
                                                 the
                                         they
                                  that
                           say
                   ever
experienced
                                      
                         ­                                                                 ­                         pain?

Your eyes are the ammunition
Your lips are the gun
Your hand pulls the trigger
Now I am done.

So many times I am tried
and I have a reason to cry
but yet I don't
I stay afloat

I am honestly fine
I have you as mine
I have so much time
to feel happy

You bring me joy
I no longer have to be coy
because I feel happy when I'm with you

Looking at the star
I heard him wisper
"You'll shine as bright as me someday."

I hate her because you said you loved her
And I don't even know her.

Without the darkness
The light wouldn't seem as bright.

but more than anything I wish to be in the clouds.

I’m sure it would be hard to love someone like me when you couldn’t even love yourself long enough before you gave up

I have been shot.
Not by a flying arrow
Not by a steel bullet
but by the overwhelming sensation
that I'm in love.
I am penetrated by your love.

"You know that's the funny thing about decisions,
you never seem to have to talk yourself into the right ones."

“It hurts,”
she says.
As she struggles to stand in the morning, because her heart is so heavy with pain she feels she will never heal.
“It’s heavy,”
she cries.
As she tries desperately to carry the weight of the world on her shoulders by herself, because she has no one to turn to.
“It’s hard,”
she whispers.
As the last of her hope crawls out of her body leaving a lifeless shape of a woman that they once knew.

Everything, everything
is waiting for you.

They fall like bullets
They hit like rain
They feel like defeat
They cause me pain

They aren't angry
They aren't sad
They aren't happy
They just make me feel bad

You make me feel like crap
You call me a ****
I'm tired of feeling worthless
Because your mouth will not shut

I am just tired of crying
I’m tired of life
I have things going on
But telling you would cause nothing but strife

I'm done listening to you lie
I'm done listening to you speak
Because anytime you do
You are just making me feel bleak

I guess i'll finally listen to you
To what you said when I was young
For you spoke nothing but true
when you said to me

No one can make you cry
If you tell them goodbye.

Hands shaking
heart broken
not by a lover
but by someone other

so lost
so hurting
i'm tired of feeling
i'm tired of thinking

I will just go to sleep
and it'll all be gone
if I close my eyes I can escape
but not fast enough

I wake up and cry
because right before my eyes
there he is
haunting me

I feel like I make people fall hard & quickly in love with me
But then the newness wears off and I’m left with just myself
They leave.
They always leave.
So why is he any different?

Love is like smoke
I take it in
and blow it back.

and my heart finally broke for the very last time.

Why bother?
He's not worth all the fuss.

The irony of it all is this;
No matter how many times you stabbed me
No matter how many bullets you shot me with
No matter how many punches you threw
I would never stop loving you
I never picked up the knife
I never would touch the gun
I never would lift a finger
To hurt anyone
And especially with you
Who I so deeply cared for
I would never hurt you
I would always adore

Ahhh, the power of writing down how one feels.
Maybe that's why we have so many who don't write.
Or like to read.
Because it's hard to look at your words
when all you see are things you've been avoiding.

I was never in love with
you.
I was in love with your
potential.

Someday,
Somehow
I hope that I can be loved the way I love everyone else.

I deserve a person who wants me all of the time.
I deserve someone who wants me.
I am worth the effort it takes to love a person.
And I am worthy of that same love.

I never loved you.
What I loved was the thought of what you could become if only you cared enough to love yourself the way that I loved you.

I love to
Love
Other people deserve so much
Love
But no one ever takes the time to
Love
Like we’re supposed to.