Imagine giving your life
For someone you loved
So deeply
And then being rejected after
The ultimate sacrifice

I don’t have to imagine
Because Jesus already lives that

Yet I only want your shade of yellow
For the rest of forever

It’s a dangerous and absolutely terrifying  thing to love and be loved

I feel he has created this kind of comfort that I’ve always lacked
A sense of security without feeling pressured to stay
A welcoming rather
An invitation to touch his soul

He creates this sense of history that is just developing but feels centuries old
He holds me with a strength that goes deeper than the definition in his biceps
He smiles with his whole heart that his dimples climb to reach his eyes
Which burn with an intensity of crashing waves in the ocean
He makes me feel warm.
And he's extended the offer of adoration that I willingly accept and give in return.

I feel like I make people fall hard & quickly in love with me
But then the newness wears off and I’m left with just myself
They leave.
They always leave.
So why is he any different?

I love to
Love
Other people deserve so much
Love
But no one ever takes the time to
Love
Like we’re supposed to.

“It hurts,”
she says.
As she struggles to stand in the morning, because her heart is so heavy with pain she feels she will never heal.
“It’s heavy,”
she cries.
As she tries desperately to carry the weight of the world on her shoulders by herself, because she has no one to turn to.
“It’s hard,”
she whispers.
As the last of her hope crawls out of her body leaving a lifeless shape of a woman that they once knew.

I never loved you.
What I loved was the thought of what you could become if only you cared enough to love yourself the way that I loved you.

Someday,
Somehow
I hope that I can be loved the way I love everyone else.

The irony of it all is this;
No matter how many times you stabbed me
No matter how many bullets you shot me with
No matter how many punches you threw
I would never stop loving you
I never picked up the knife
I never would touch the gun
I never would lift a finger
To hurt anyone
And especially with you
Who I so deeply cared for
I would never hurt you
I would always adore

There comes a point where you dance.
And not the same for everyone,
but you must dance.
Because when your heart has been still and stuck in sadness
you must give it a little chaos after.
After what, you may ask?
After you're broken.
After your heart feels absolutely shattered to its core.
After you and your love have been at war.
After a long day at work.
Just after.
Anything.
Anything, where your heart has hurt
you MUST dance.

I was never in love with
you.
I was in love with your
potential.

Ahhh, the power of writing down how one feels.
Maybe that's why we have so many who don't write.
Or like to read.
Because it's hard to look at your words
when all you see are things you've been avoiding.

I deserve a person who wants me all of the time.
I deserve someone who wants me.
I am worth the effort it takes to love a person.
And I am worthy of that same love.

I wish I wished I had it in me
To just hurt you how you hurt me

I’m sure it would be hard to love someone like me when you couldn’t even love yourself long enough before you gave up

The idea that one person can take all your breath away is both incredible and terrifying all at the same time

As we count the cost
of your ticket to leave
As we cry the tears
and wipe them on our sleeve
As we wait for hope
we sit and smile
As we try to cope
we sit for awhile
As we dance around
with our feet bare
As we lay on the ground
with our fanned out hair
As we sit on our bench
and look up at the stars
As we look at each other
we realize what we are
As we became best friends
beauty was born
And now as you leave
we are still strong as ever
and remain untorn.

Mi madre siempre
loves me
when I don't deserve it
holds me
when I don't fit
sticks up for me
when other won't
hugs me
when others don't.

Mi madre siempre
makes sure i'm okay
even if we've fought
makes sure I eat
even when i'm not
makes sure I understand
even when I do
loves me more than anyone
it will forever be us two.

I wait
for our fate
like I wait
for a Polaroid

my innocence was taken
when I heard the first door slam.

my heart was broken
when I saw the first man

my mind was buzzing
when I felt the first scream

and my childhood was taken
when I saw the first leave.

it's sad
how when you talk to someone
for the first time
and then after you realize
you see them in the hallways
everyday
or they're walking past your door
looking grey
smiling at you as you pass
as they carry their tray
keeping their head down in the back of class
trying to keep their feelings at bay

We tend to ignore things that we can't see
but I think what it come down to
is that we can see
we just choose not to.

but more than anything I wish to be in the clouds.

I hope that someday
your pain doesn't control you
I hope that someday
darling you can be
the real you.

Your smile may not light up a room
but it sure does light me up.

finding out the one you love
is different than what you thought
is kind of like finding out
"daddy's not a superhero"
you feel sad
disappointed
scared
and worst of all like it was all
a lie.

Sometimes
I look outside and watch the rising sun
not for any particular reason
just for fun

Sometimes
I go to the kitchen and start to dance
not with anyone else
just myself and the pans

Sometimes
I cry until the oceans are dry
not because of someone else
just for the others who die

Sometimes
I get so mad I just want to go fight
not to inflict pain on anyone
but because some do to cause fright

Sometimes
I try too hard to find love
not because i'm desperate
but I don't always feel it from above

Sometimes
I don't see the truth in front of me
not because It's not there
but because I choose not to see.

Cheap eye shadow smells
and chick fil a dates
scuffed sneakers
and climbing rusty gates

clumped mascara
and bright blue eyes
red and white sirens
tear stains from late night cries

yelling at you
you yelling at me
we're too tired to feel
anything but free.

You are my favorite Emma that exists

You are no matchmaker
like Jane Austen might suppose
you don't succeed in life
by helping the love lives of bros

You are no blonde
like Emma Roberts is
you have brown hair and beautiful eyes
you are crazy smart, some sort of a ****

You are no dancer in a musical
like Emma Stone
You are more of a marvelous human
who has a mind of her own

You aren't a wizard
like Emma Watson was
you are the kind of person
that is nice just because

Despite what they have said
Despite what they say should sink
I will love my Emma
without having to think.

Other girls are not my competition
I stand with them
Not against them.

Skinny is the new perfect
forget the curves you tried so hard to obtain
get thin and you'll be attractive
you have to realize you need to be the same

Welcome to society
no one ever said life would be easy
so chin up and start the dieting
but make sure you're not too ******

wear all the right clothes
but make sure that they show just enough
the right amount to keep them intrested
it doesn't matter if it's tough

They all say beauty is pain
it doesn't matter what you do
do what ever it takes to get perfect
make sure you act like you don't have a clue

Playing dumb is fun
at least until someone get's hurt
but validity gained at all is enough to sustain
even if they mostly treat you like dirt

Don't worry as long as they tell you you look nice
everytime they want into bed
as long as you're getting told
well obviously that's enough said

Ignore the red flags
it's honestly all in your head
don't worry about a thing
it doesn't matter if your fed.

You are bright
like the stars at night
I want to take flight
with you.

Cheers!
To the moments I spent alone
Cheers!
To the times I laughed in your home
Cheers!
To the times I spent with you
Cheers!
to the times you were there when I was blue
Cheers!
To the time I climbed the watch tower
Cheers!
To the time when we picked flowers
Cheers!
To the late night bench talks
Cheers!
To the haters who tryed to mock
Cheers!
To the times I cried myself to sleep
Cheers!
To the memories that I get to keep
Cheers!
To when you stuck with me during their fight
Cheers!
For him showing me the light
Cheers!
To the fun i've had

And cheers!
To the fun that's yet to come.

what is it about me
that others can't seem to keep?

This whole year,
I spent it being scared.
This whole year,
I did nothing but compare.
This whole year,
I tried too hard
This whole year,
the real me became slowly charred.
This whole year,
I could never measure up.
This whole year,
I told my self I was a *****-up
This whole year,
I was caught
This whole year,
I worried too much about what they thought.
So this next year,
I'm going to love the crap out of myself.

Then I see your face
and everything starts to change
again

i feel too much
i love too much
i forgive too much
i'm good too much

The thing about love is that
you can never be for sure
about anything
if they'll stay
if they'll go
how'll they will act
how'll they will be
how long they will love
and how long they may leave
but the best thing about love is that
it comes down to trust
and if you have it and you can believe
then it will work
you just have to wait and see.

You see the funny thing about our world
is not that we hate each other
it's that we have been taught to despise someone
who doesn't believe the same as we do.

A huge wide cheerful grin spread across her face
as she unwrapped his present of eternal love.
She looked over with pure happiness to him and said,

"Thank you Jesus."

Without the darkness
The light wouldn't seem as bright.

I want you more than words can say
but i'm scared you will be scared away.

"Do you still love me?"
                                                            ­       "I never stopped."

"And maybe Christmas isn't something that's bought,
maybe
pperhaps it is something much more."

Feel the air on your skin
let it sink in
And then begin the trip of a lifetime.