and nothing i own
has ever been mine.

and nothing i could have
will be for me.

i could die
and people will still
find a way to take
my last stand
and make it theirs.

Every time you laugh i'm caught in the edges of an abyss,
like i'm drowning in the constant birth and death of a star.
and I cant help but wonder if this is all you’ve ever been.
The flesh and bones you inhabit now.
I can't help but wonder if you watched from the edges of the earth
and saw humanity love and die and wonder what it would be like,
to  live a life where you were something other than ash in the wind.

Your mouth is a gun
And each I LOVE YOU
Is a bullet, reminding me
That im alive.

His body is a warzone; the cuts, the scars, the marks.
His mind does not fair much better; but he does try, try, try.

You are not your mother
And you are not your father.
Your life is your own
And the only sins
you should have to cary
Are the ones you commit.

who do i be
when the world
doesn't want me

I want to know what it is like
to light my soul on fire,
without getting lost in the flames.
without burning myself out.

there was a tragedy written in the stars
of you and i and how all that we had loved
had turned to dust

i. Do not think she cares about you; her heart is a wasteland and love is the rain the land knows it will not get anymore.
ii. Do not think she feels like you do; she will tear you apart in her effort to love.
iii. Do not think her being happy is good; she destroys everything she touches, ruin is more natural to her than joy.
iv. Do not care about her; no matter what emotion she is expressing all she feels is scorn for you.
v. Do not get close to her; she is a flame and whatever good she once possessed has long since burnt to ashes under its heat.

there's an aching rhythm to my bones.
they cry and they call out;
please please, we want to go home.
and i don't know how to reply
and i don't know what to say
other than i know, i know.

dream me a world,
where the stars in my veins
are put to good use.

You hold me like you think i will leave
Like the constant contact we keep
Is the anchor holding you to me

The rocks can not stop
The waves from meeting the shore
And distance can not keep
My heart from beating for yours

there is a storm trapped inside her heart
and it seeks a ruination that will rattle
the stars.

she has made herself so dependant on others
that she does not know if she can stand alone.

And is it love that shakes
My bones, Or lack of it?

I am not human, I am a star and this is the part where I burn out.

take my hand and take me away
to a world where the agony i feel
is a dark dream i can not remember

Peal back my skin,
Tear through my ribs.
Find my heart
(Rotting, rotting, rotting)
Inside me after all.

you wrapped your unending vulnerability
inside a cocoon of every single one of the
foul deeds you committed.
every shameful secret you bought to life.

and you wonder why you can never grow strong.
why the only part of you that can take a hit
is the armour you bought for far too little
to bleed into your blood stream and offer your body
the support your degenerate being can't supply.

because she would beg on her knees to a god she doesn't believe in,
because the sky could cave in and her world would go with it.

his love is like the sea
as uncompromising
and remorseless
as the current
tends to be

How do i make it hurt less
If nobody is left to help.
How do i make it hurt less
When i don't want to be saved.

i want to live without coating my joy in resin
worried about what will tarnish it.
how do i grow if my past is always there
encased in a love i never think i can feel again.

the truth runs wild
the truth runs free.
i've never felt happier
than when you're with me.

i set the world on fire
and i called it my own.

maybe i could wrench
       a whole right through my heart.

maybe the gods wont notice
        when i fall apart.

She gets drunk on the brink of eternity and lies in wait to become the legend she doesn’t believe she has the ability to become.

But destiny is a fickle thing and it does not care that the only violent thing in her past was a rabid dog that wandered across her path one evening.


Her mother will faint at the sight of her daughters soon to be bloodied knuckles but her father will cheer. They both knew they had raised a fighter, her mother just wished she didn't have to hurt herself doing it.

She gets high at the edge of the abyss and as she looks into it she falls inside. As she topples, head over heels to make a history of the likes that is unprecedented. A history she had no idea she was capable of making.

(She’s just a girl.)

(She’s only a girl.)


**She’s a ******* god.

She falls to quick,
And she falls to hard.
And the world wont care
When she falls apart.

And i want to drown in something other than you
I want to meet god on her throne and not wish
I was anywhere else with you.

And i want to be someone else
Who does not dream of your love
And wake up crying with the bed cold.

You were not worth my heart.
But i gave it (gave it, gave it)
To you.

You give yourself no credit;
A being of stardust and wildfire.
You give yourself no credit;
A being that puts natures beauty to shame.

you spite the gods
because who else would dare do such a thing.

you spite the gods
because nothing makes you feel more alive
then to imagine what their ire feels off.

and there are so many words but i cant get to them.
cant hold on enough to figure out their meanings,
to find a sentence that makes sense.

and there are too many words that come rushing at me,
to take me to a better place,
but my feet are rooted to the floor
and all i know is that i am missing out.

and then the static takes me again, until it doesn't.
and i am a repeat of nothing and everything
until i fall apart at the whim of the words,
that i don't understand why i simply cant listen.

She shoots up on stardust
Untill she is a galaxy
unto herself.

you will drown. you will rot.
this raw feeling of reality will swallow you whole,
and the only wish you will have
will be as to how fast it takes you.

her body is a battleground
for her anxiety and she knows
that she's not winning anymore.

Don't you dare preach to me when you kiss every ******* person you can just to feel alive.

Don't spew words and lines like you haven't twisted morals just to feel like you're right.

Don't you dare come to me saying anything when you shy away from mirrors just to avoid seeing the monster you've become.

You can't preach heavens light when you're as far from enlightenment as you can get.

I want to feel something
Other then pain,
Other then loss.
Something that doesnt
make me rot

I am a conniption personified, and you have stars in your eyes.
-no wonder we didn't work out

They're selling heaven for 15 grams.
They're selling love for our souls.

Her love is not something one can endure,
Which is why she does not understand why
She would desire to inflict it on someone.