I wish my writings could get noticed more.
Words bled out of my heart, right to the floor.
Finding someone to relate is so rare,
As I write choking on hopelessness and despair.
Yet knowing this I keep bleeding out,
But curse with this constant doubt.
That these words will never find an end,
And my gouged heart looking to mend.

I miss the touch
of her hand on my face
I miss the feeling
of her tender embrace
I miss the seeing
Her smile and dance
I miss hearing
Her voice, putting me in a trance
I miss the taste
of her soft lips

From my hand, her grip slips
What I miss, fading away
Crumpled to my knees, is where I still stay.

Isn't it ironic,
       That my pen bleeds black and blue.

Simply to symbolize,
        That I'm falling away from you.

There is this feeling.
             That you know you are in love when,
                             That person you want to be with,
                                                           ­ Says, “I’m leaving you”.

In that instant, a weight slams your chest, you think of all that you and that person have done.

The Adventures.
            The Moments.
                         The Minutes.
                                    Everything.

It leaves you
                     Lost,
                     Confused,
                     Broken,
                     Scared,
                     Shaken, and Speechless.

It’s when you try to look into the future, but it’s blank or blurred.

This is because your heart doesn’t want to see a future without them.

In return, that feeling creates a fire in your heart. One that is willing to change you for the better.

*A fire that should never be underestimated or taken for granted.

Everyone seems to be talking about this thing they lost.
It made their world
It made them change
It made them live
It made them shine....

I think it was love.

I wonder what that feels like....

Love is getting stabbed on purpose and the person whom did it gives you a band-aid.

As I sit here we see what's lost
I also think of the cost
Though not lost but merely stored away
Knowing I'll stop being sad someday
We tore each other apart like hyena to prey
I wish that was all I had to say
I wish you loved what your worth was
Because I've seen your glow and what a buzz
One you don't take as a drug, one you soak in
But I don't think that's what you were sellin'
I swore someday's were my hell
But to you I couldn't tell
Captivated by your victims widow
To help you get strong, but not to **** me though
You need to have more self conviction
For something good not to sate addiction
For you sit upon a golden throne
But here now being a sense of all alone
You need to find that little you is hurt
And learn to find self comfort
Take care of you before you find a host
Your face is that of a ghost
Lost in expression of attachment and shame
Being pressured by self blame
The only advice I have for you
Is to only change the choices you do
Because the real you is always there
Waiting for you to take her hand and adventure
I wish my words to be of encouragement
But to bring light to your inner happy sentiment
I know you have the power of choice
But one more time, believe in me and rejoice
For you know the power of my words
Flowing like Sheppards to herds
Truth in my every breath
But I'm blind to your ****
Flawless in deliverance and passion
That make me start lashin
A regret I carry like a scar on my lung
My neck sore from always being hung
But I can't let this overcome my compassion
That I have to give, here, I cash in
I can't be a comparison anymore
I'm sadly, strongly, powerfully closing this door
I repeat once more because I know
That this will help you go
That I wish you the absolute best
And you are capable of facing your test
But remember that you can't give slack
Because you might tumble back
You need faith in your solitude
You'll find life in mind and passion in mood
I do not mean to appear rude
I say this calmly with no attitude
I say this lovingly not *****
You truly can be loved my past love
Know your grandmother sees you from above
Making another sick joke to you
As words of encouragement of what to do
Find love, get lost, go run around the world
Don't wait up please move on from me
Take what you've learned and go see
That there is so much better out there
But what I do know and dare
Is that I know this door will be unlock
If you find yourself going amok
Just don't abuse this right
Just go, don't knock, please find new light. -Lo

I'm dancing with death
unravel my life til rest
I did my best
cut the ties
made of countless lies
I want to die
I'm dancing with death
taking each step slow
like my body is unsure
and doesn't quite know
why it is time to close my eyes
for good, seemingly not wise
I'm dancing with death
and I realize what I am
I am a monster in the slam
I am a toxic beast
of lies and disappointment
to say the least
I'm dancing with death
and I'm at my last step
I am nothing anymore
just a dead knock at the door
just dead on the dance floor.

I need you by my side
You were the perfect love
and my feelings I need not hide

I need you in my arms
Surrounded by your love
Breathing it in like cast charms

I need you in my life
You are my world
I planned on making you my wife

But this love be had is now a frost,
                   It's stopped progressing, our love is lost

I'm running through a forest
of  our  lost  dreams
       I though I was just a tourist
       but  that  is  not  what  it  seems
               I hope to find a way out
               but  I  need  to  help  you
                      There seems to be no route
                      so  I  will  love  you  li­ke  I  want  *too

It was when I said I needed her,
                                   That she decided to fade away.

Your body is a canvas,
Covered with the paint,
of your life.
I want to study
and learn every stroke,
every scar.
I want to know
every part of you.
I need to learn your story
by seeing
and feeling
every inch of you.

The moment when someone notices,
                               and they hold you so tight,

*You have no choice but to let everything out.

"I fall
             i
               n
                  t
                     o  
                        my personal
                                                 h
                                                     e
                                                         LL
With such
                   a
                      b
                   s
                      o
                    lute ease."

Who am I?
    Noone
What am I?
     A Monster
Where am I?
     Lost
When am I?
     Ever good?
Why am I?
     Feeling like this?
How?
     *She left

It is you.
     That I would happily,
                                         tear myself apart
                                                                    **To fix.