Actions speak louder than words,
You wonder why I'm speechless.

You** say your life is a fallacy
Let me guide you to what you need to see
That you are who you want to be
Not what comes out of society

Follow where your heart will aim
And take what it wants to claim
You will then realize that this reality
Does not make your life another fatality

You have to reach for dreams
no matter how endless it seems
to that when you cross that line
you will realize that you are fine

That this place is not too tough
It's you making it so rough
I think you just need to explore
into yourself a little more

Share yourself piece by piece
You will feel the restraints release
So that you can finally be alive
and into your life you can dive

Do not be afraid
because the road you must follow, your heart already laid.

My minds weaponized thoughts will be my downfall and suicide.

Can you hear the cry
of my inner self sentenced to die?
I'm shouting your name
I'm was glad you came
Save me from my own hell
It's taking me, can't you tell!
I can't keep doing this
I can no longer swing my fist
I feel weak
a constant losing streak
I need to see you darling
Your love so startling
But you have walked away
Leaving with no words to say
I think it's time to take
The demons hand, and never awake

"I'm Insane" Is merely the brain trying to name itself.

My mind is a warping blackhole
My heart is taking the toll
****** into my minds abyss
Where all my sorrows I reminisce
Where my sadness is my strongest feeling
I'm at a loss to the dealing
I'm just going to just take this dose
Of my hearts pain, so morose
As the light fades to black
My nightmares welcome me back.

It was you,
                             That made my wall**
                                                          ­     *crumble to dust.

But I finally convinced my demons I'm one of them.

Your words make me sad
Your words make me so mad
All you have are lies
Trying to not break the ties
Did you not think I would find out?
That you speak with complete doubt
About where you were
You don't sound very sure
I fell for them once to
Because I had faith in you
That you could stop being fake
but your words are dead at the bottom of the lake
So I walk away
Hoping you will learn to stop the lies someday

Deep within blue eyes
I see a constellation
I'll find nowhere else

This language is quiet, truthful,
Though nothing to be heard.

Love,
Fortunate,
Cheerful,
Happy,
Excited,
Enthralled,
Ecstatic,
­Fantastic,
and Fascinated.
Are the list of words
That are so bland
In comparison to how I feel,
when I take your hand.

Don't let your halo become the noose that chokes you.

I'm waiting for something
I just don't know what it is
I sit here all day
Just wasting away
I'm waiting for something
I just can't figure it out
I sit here all night
Searching for the light
I'm waiting for something
I think I know
I'm waiting for my moment to thrive
My moment to feel alive

My hand shakes gripping the quill
Shaping and warping words at will
The ink is the blood of my heart
for it is where the fire for my poems start

I cut and carve my life in rhyme
blotched on the paper trapped in time
Life Death Loss and Love
Spilling and splashing to the paper, all of the above

The heart dances as the fire rages
The quill scratches and drips as words come alive off the pages
Throwing you into the realm of my mind
You will exit leaving nothing behind

For poetry is a passion
I am not of any fashion
I merely feed the fire
That my heart will forever desire.

For every poem you read
Is what my heart is willing to bleed

I love so hard that 'Love' seems just so bland.

One of the most hardest,
Yet most rewarding things
Is to go to the one who hurt you the most
Look them in the eyes
and say
"I Forgive you"

Not only do you free them,
You free yourself from your own restraint

It was your **** eyes alone that recreated my universe.

You asked what is in my mind
and I told you that you will not like what you find
Yet you insisted I show you around
At first you thought peace and love is what you found

When all of a sudden it began to rain down
and you started crying because you can see my pain now
The struggles I've witnessed and undergone
  Manifested and alive in a row leading on

Welcome to my oblivion I say
and I try to lead you away
But you instead to turned to me and gave me a kiss
Which has always been a sweet bliss

I said what was that for
You stated that there will be many more
To kiss away all my pain
In that moment everything stopped
and so did the rain

I ponder my life
as I sit at my desk
My pen the knife
The paper the bread

To feed my mind
what is needs
but my hand is in a bind
I can't seem to move

I need to write these words
A blank letter
Open window singing of the birds
Paper so bright white

These words I must cut
onto the paper
climb out of this rut
onto the paper

I carve

'I Love You'

But the person it is too
is someone I do not know
for they have changed into someone new

Once more I ponder my life

My pen the knife...

I pick my scabs and wonder why I keep remembering

I find myself in that familiar place
where wounds reopen
and the feeling of danger
beckons to race

Old scars wanting to tear apart
like a stray bullet to the heart
Old habits emerge so mindless
despite being met with kindness

I question if I've really healed
If these years have anything to yield
Uncomfortable is how I've felt
Do I peek at this hand that is dealt

I'm at a crossroad of old and new
Simply locked scared at what to do

Yet I know I will choose you

I will always wear my heart on my sleeve
No matter the times it's torn away
In the work I've done I believe

Will keep you beside me day by day

This 'uncomfortable' is my test
Trust me that you'll get my best
My work will not be undone
because what we have has just begun

In the midst of sadness, the only solace is anger.

My one wish? *To have met you so much sooner.

My thoughts are stretched and hazy
Driving me absolutely crazy
Without you here I feel so alone
My world is quiet, just a steady tone
The melody we would create
that started on our first date
is slowly going out of tune
Don't be gone too long, come back soon
I have nowhere to go
except the only place I know
That is inside
The only true place anyone can hide

Take my hand and let’s go on an adventure
Get lost in the stars and explore the future
Take my hand and climb into my mind
Where you will see my world and words outlined
Take my hand and climb into my heart
You will find that it’s not so bitter and ****
Take my hand
Let’s walk on the sun
Take my hand
Your journey has begun

Just don’t let go
Because if you do, my mind, my pen will lose its flow

That moment when your brain betrays your heart

It happens in slow motion


and all you can do is watch.

In the process of living only the dead have won.

Saw Death today, oddly looked a lot like my wife.

It's hard to forget the past
When it takes away something
That I felt was meant to last

So I'll wait for my phone to ring
No line and hook to be cast
We'll see what time will bring

My mind is a vast universe
With words and rhymes and so diverse
Which galaxy will I traverse
Must go forward not in reverse

I shall find and collaborate
the right words to elaborate
The message I wish to divulge
For hungery minds to indulge

But these words are spread afar
Dancing and gleaming off every star
But some get lost and forgotten
My rhymes misbegotten

But with all the time and space
I must build my base
and slowly weave these words with grace
With a piece of my heart to trace

My poems are the life of me
They are who I choose to be
and if you read them you will find
the keyhole view into my mind

You will be lost in rhymes
hearing the ticking and chimes
of my life translated into word
with nothing obscure or blurred

You will see my imagination
overworked with frustration
It's an art of the mind
Twisting and unraveling refined

If you read enough of them
You will find the gem
That will tie them all you see
At that moment, you will know I better than me.

I had the stars to gaze upon
To escape to when I feel I have not won
An endless beauty one can soak in for hours
Within the nature as the wind rustles the trees and flowers

Then life changed and I could not see my stars
I could only see lights and the sound of the cars
I lost my escape and fell into a abyss
Where all I could do is see the stars when I reminisce

Then I met a woman with that glimmer
A glimmer that I knew and my spine let out a shiver
In time I saw her soul
And in her soul, I found them shinning and whole

I found the black canvas in her eyes
I found the colors in her beauty
I found the shine in her soul

She and only she became my new escape
Where I can always see my stars

*I can even see them with the lights and cars

I surrounded myself
in the walls
of her
heart

and suffocated

For you, I will peel back my hearts callused layers.

I am definitely living
I just don't feel very alive

I can't seem to find who I am meant to be
Who is this inside of me
My mind is torn in two
It can't make up what to do

The real one I do not know
The real one I want to show
I'm lost in this limbo
Of scattered pieces of me falling slow

I need to find the real me
and make that the reality
that I must be
For people to see

But I'm lost in this scattered place
All of me gone, without a trace
What is it I  have become now
I don't think I can ever change, but maybe somehow

Why is it you can't see
That when you leave and don't talk to me
I fall into a personal oblivion
My personal hells dominion

It drives me to a dark sadness
That in turn becomes absolute madness
I get lost in the darkest of thoughts
Trapped in a tangle of emotional knots

I forget what way is upright
I find myself on the ground giving up the fight
All I ask is to hear your voice
Though it is all your choice

Just know that when you leave
Destroying me is all you achieve
Lay me to waste
With only myself to embrace

Our love is like a match.
It's a burst of love and life,
That finds a steady pace.
Until death comes along,
And wins the race.

A Soldiers worst nightmare, is death by his own hand.

This drug that I can't stop soaking in
After the first dose, I watched my universe change from within
It was a feeling that sent me to oblivion
Every emotion mashed in a massive collision

I am addicted and only want more
of this truly fascinating feeling
I look into my life and it seems like everything but poor
Everything else is so bland in the dealing

I crave this drug everyday
Every single hour and minute
with this to say
You are this drug, and I need it.

There are things you need to understand
That when you said you loved me and took my hand
In that moment I gave you my fear
In that moment I told you everything dear

Yet, there are things you must find alone
Things that I can never atone
Hidden scars that are carved into me
Scars that only you can see

I hope that when they become visible to the eye
That you don’t run and leave me to die
These scars are slowly killing me
Slowly destroying who I used to be

So please don’t run away
Help me heal day by day
You are the only one that can lift me above
You are the only one I love

She is my lifeline; my tether to the living world.

So
Much Contained
Inside.
Time
Bomb.
My
Mind
Blown Wide.

For Her my heart feels
With Her my heart heals
The pains washed away
Leaving my horrid past to decay

With Her I feel alive
For Her I will strive
But I am still

Waiting

For Her to arrive