I must be living in my world to think things  will change. I  keep love and  hope in  my heart but  i see now it was just my mind playing with my heart.  I  wish i could be that guy in your life make you smile. I could put  back together  your broken heart but  in end  you use to it broken.  i smile when i think  the world slows down but is this lost image in my head . I my eyes  never been open  i was lost in your beauty . The beauty  is my weakness  that is like cancer to soul.  I don't  think people see way i do but i need more then PHD for this work.

In visions of the dark night
        I have dreamed of joy departed-
      But a waking dream of life and light
        Hath left me broken-hearted.

      Ah! what is not a dream by day
        To him whose eyes are cast
      On things around him with a ray
        Turned back upon the past?

      That holy dream- that holy dream,
        While all the world were chiding,
      Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
        A lonely spirit guiding.

      What though that light, thro' storm and night,
        So trembled from afar-
      What could there be more purely bright
        In Truth's day-star?

The years go  by but forever missed  
The kinds and loved you showed me
You never asked for anything
Your heart so pure
You ment so much to me
The days were dark but u always brought in the sun
I wish i could turn back time to say i am sorry
My heart still bleeds with the sadness
The ink on my skin flows deep
I will never  forget you bc  you were like mother to me

I wish things were different with me and my mom
I wish  she would understand who i was
The words that she said cut threw my heart
The tears burn my soul
The lack of love and logic
I wish u saw past the other days
And look towards know
I have walk back away from the pain
I feel like all those feeling keeps my heart in cage
The hope thats been torn and lost
I can't help but think u never see good in me
So quick with words lost on ur own thoughts
I give some much power to how u make me feel
I can't  beat my head on this brick wall
I have move forward rise
I am alone in this dark world but i see that i can only change myself.

She doesn't   eat green eggs and ham
So positive but full of light
A smile  and head of her time
Her story is not done or has yet to be  told
The warmth of kindness and understanding is something so great
A duck always seeing the hope but never giving up
A few words but always makes other shines
I wish i could be more like you
A heart of gold and  drive that never ends

Sun  is  light
the  night is dark
My heart wide open
The feelings left on the floor
i go into this battle
With no walls
But just hope  of  your warmth
The  loyal  is the gold
And understnading is the blood
Love  me but never let go
Hold me  when i fall
Show me kindness  during the dark
The battle  with love is brave
And won with the hope

Only see  you
My heart burns  for your  touch
Leave  it all behind
Remove this cold from my heart
Holding hands  the warmth  of another
Just  us  wait  min
I woke up left  here
With  my tears
You  turned away
never looked back
Still stuck in my dreams
It was gone before the rain
I wish  you knew how much
I  loved  you

I been doing poems for many years of my life.
As i started on here i felt more to let my feelings out
The idea of writing  and maybe someone else feels the  same
The words leave my soul flow  threw air
The idea of writing  see where it goes  
I always aim learn  and become better
I hope see  one day get book and leave behind my feelings.
Hello and just  another good bye to this poem which is me,

A  smile lights up the night sky
The beauty  that can't  be understood
When you walk time stops
Your light shines during toughest days
A walk but always have hope
A mind set and kindness that never got over looked
Who is she and how could she be?
You take my breath away with the person that is you

You  are darkness  
In my sky.
The words cut threw my soul
All  you see is bad
The love so gone
A man alone with his thoughts
I look for change but just see smoke
I can't  bend
Something that is all ready broken.
I wish you knew and saw the pain
The thoughts of the past always stay with you
I live for today
I aim for the stars
I battle dark  with the light
This thought is just another  complex puzzle
In my heart.

I tend  not live in past
I live and learn as my words heal
I made some  mistake but  have wipe the dirt off my face
People live in past as way learn or rub mistakes in face of others
My words are my bullets
My pain is wake up call to move forward
It is easy rub someone face in the dirt
I don't  live in the past but  my words tell the story

My heart is my weakness
The word love to you was just another word
The light vs darkness
You never saw good
But only looked at the   bad
So fast  to judge me as you put me on the cross
All i need was your love
A kind word into my world
hand bring me up when i fall
So much pain over comes my soul
I want scream inside but you wouldn't understand
I have let go of hope
And knowing you will never be rock in my life.

Years go by
I miss the touch
The feeling of her warmth
Love fills the air
Nothing else matters  but you
Your lips on mine
I leave all my pain behind  
Just let go  
Take my broke heart
Can  you fix me?

I wish you knew how u are deep inside
The way u make me feel
The hangs up and words that were left unsaid
The past that never got forgotten
I live and learn and it  is time for  me to  move forward
The mask i need to wear but never was  a good fit
My heart so broken but need ur loving hands
I care and hope to see the light,t but only to  see the darkness
You will never see the me just image u want to see that never  left
The past was tough but today is now
I  wish i could take back things that were said and done but only the strong can forgive

I can t think
Only about how you taste
I wonder if  you knew the feeling

I walked so many miles
Looking for you
You never saw it coming

I can see it still beating in my hand

You never knew how it would feel
To have your heart ripped out

So weak and helpless
Maybe  i should give it back
It taste too good not too

When  it comes to love the nice guy finish  last . I always have  to  battle  the past. Its hard being pushed  to side and then being made out like you are blowing smoke when at  the start u were just trying to  see where this road  could  go. . I care too much  at times I  feeL   like  it is weakness.. We been hurt and our  hearts ripped out but should we  let the past be the  past  I think its is good to  let go and move forward . I know it takes time to  heal  The thoughts run threw my head always trying look at things in 3d.

Love  or hate
I am just another image
You can t see
Fade deep in your thoughts
A complex mind
A heart left me caring
As my feelings play on those strings
i wish i could be the image
That see
But  i wear  a different   mask

I not sheep
Nor does my heart have filter
You just don't understand
So lost in your own thoughts
Words trying cut my skin
A man with many different mask
Wait was this person you wanted
Or  smoke that fade before sun

I look at today just as another day
I don't know the other half of me
The thoughts and lies what could of been
The years past by with not knowing
And I ask myself why
Being in world  wonder  what could of happened
I can t go back in time change  or see the path
I just wish i knew my other half of me
A man lost  my name is lie but my heart still goes on.

Nice guys finish last
I loss hope on love
I miss nights of holding you close
A heart beat to feel.such warmth
I look  & I wounder
Where is my queen
I am so far gone
Is my heart too broken
I can't live in past
I look for today
My pain over takes me
I wounder where is warm my hand to hold with endless walks under the stars

You wrapped in  sea of negative
lost in deep in your own greedy
bridges that were burned
A heart that can't be replaced
The idea of logic  that is so far gone
Your path all ready paid
The hands that are stained with green
In end you will be  alone stuck on other side of the broken bridge.

They say people come and go.
Do they see the pawns they got left behind
My words  are left on  the ground

Life can beat you down to  you are nothing
We have fallen but some can't find a  way to  get back up
My body is cut  from the inside with the  mistakes of  the past

Open your  eyes look deep inside
A story is waiting to be told
Leave the pain behind to move forward
But what will we have to think about
We play this game called cat and mouse

So kind hearted
The years that went by
You are getting older
Time  to get out the  early bird discount
Cover the sofa with plastic wrap
Watch ****** she wrote
As  u go  to bed before 8 pm
Time  to bring out the   check  book    and write a $12 check
Wait  you are not that old

Today was  your day
Look back As sun hits your face
You are one of kind
Loved  by many
I wish i could give  the  you moon
Buy you a five  star dinner
But  in end  all  you wanted  is  for  me to get  a red card
So  Let today be great BC  you are a  work of art.

you will always see the negtive
But never saw the sun
Words that cut into the skin
That sink in like a cancer
Going into the past
Loading the gun with my mistakes
I wish you saw me
In end i was just another faded image

I wish could hear
love  and not just hurtful words
I wish  i was more then second class in your life

So  quick   to judge
But can t  see the  logic
So quick  bring up  the past
But forgot  you wore  the same shoes

I  lost hope  
But  my head hurts  from this brick wall
My heart  is not made  of stone
It could be my weakness
For  caring  when i just should  of walked away

So quick with words
A lack of logic
There was no words of love
She lives in past
My face full of dirt
A life with no path
A mask full of lies
My heart always torn
So fast to run away
the truth that were lost among the days
The story that need be told
My hopes torn and ripped
So lost in her own thoughts
The ties that were burned
Words left unsaid but never forgotten
The negative is her cancer
I wish u knew  the person that is you

I  wish  i could  say  goodbye
It started  with a hello
I should never let you go
It played it out like movie
I thought  this would  been happy ending
Will my heart go on?
The words written all  over your body
I could never let go
I been so torn inside
Don t hold my past
This  should never been a goodbye but know in my heart i know why
Two hearts that were never ment  meet
I will still choose you

The door slammed
The night was cold
I can't  deal with no logic
They say  the strong can forgive
Then why are so many so weak
My heart is flawed
But yet so kind
Can this  be weakness
To my  wolf who walks alone
A heart that cares
You wanted me to be  the nail
In end you were just  the wind blowing  smoke
On this faded dream.

We are so far apart
I wish i could  turn back time
I see the good threw the bad
I can't live in this past
You are fading away
I wish i could  be hand pick you up
I wish u  saw how things are
You are just lost in your own world
I am  just outsider  looking in

I  got keep  hope  alive
Deep my heart  i never stopped loving you
All i wanted  was  to hold  u
Be the reason you smile
I just want be  your shooting star in your sky
i  forget the world when i look at you
The deck is stacked and all i want  was be ur king
In my eyes you  are my perfect ending

A heart not made of stone
I wake up see  to my weakness took over
The words cut deep inside
Its  like a cancer that never goes away
We can't change how we play the hand
But we can remove that negative
I wish you  could see your self
But what would it matter
You can't see past your world

I hope as the sun hits my face
The tears burn my skin
I will never be the image you see
I can t walk this path anymore
In the end you will never understand me
I can t keep the hope in my heart with feeling that has been lost deep inside my  soul
My heart breaks with no love
I live for today not for the past
I hold my breath no more
I wear no mask to hide myself
In world full of pain.

The past is the gone
The day is now
Be the sun in the sky
The darkness over takes the soul
I can t let my soul be over taking with negative
I keep walking putting my heart out there
The other chapters have t been read
The feeling of sadness and pain cut threw my skin
I break free walk away
I wish i didn't  care
So quick push the door away
I walk alone but in my heart i always will care

I gave  you my hand and hopes of something  great. They say it all starts with a seed . You walked past with no care. days and years  go by with no hello or a goodbye. We walk the floor as we pass each other in my heart you will never know me. You think  u see me but  only image you wanted see. A smile but masked by smoke that is around  you. I rather keep moving forward  bc sometimes a tree can't  grow with no love

You are sun in my sky
The star that shines above
I just want hold your hand
Look deep in your eyes
And never let go
Being the reason you smile
Your beauty sends echo
My heart is wake
Take my hand until there nothing left
Your smile turns  darkness into light
I want break those chains
Take my heart just don't  let go

The time stops when I  think of you.  The dark sky covers my soul but when we talk  you are  the sun in my day. The beauty that is you takes my breath away and gives me hope to something  great, i wish i could be warmth that flows threw your heart. I look back at ups and downs but i never stopped loving you. Your smile when i look  at you takes all the pain way.  I dream  night of  holding  you close and leaving the world behind . You are just the   only star in my sky.

At times i wish  i could be someone else .I need break those chains. I wish you knew how u are. You are so quick  to hurt but forget to heal. So fast  to judge but without any logic. I still give you power to cut me. There are times i just want walk away,turn my back and let the night in. You should be the e sun in my sky but your are so quick tearing me apart ripping my heart from inside out. I wish my words had meaning but there just lost bc you never  knew me.

The night pass by
The darkness fills the day
This idea of hope is cut that won't  go away
I wish you took the time see me
I am more then you think
A blink of eye my heart is torn
I walk alone in the world
My heart keeps breaking with this feeling of change
I want walk away close the door
I feel like pain is too much
Are  the words so blinded and broken
The mask is  part of you
You keep sweeping the bed will get full
I have break threw this to see the sun on this dark day.

I wish that i could take back the kindest i shared
You are  so closed  mind   and stuck in the past
I can't  live in world  where its  one way
I have take step back look see the world from outside looking in
I am nothing to then  you then just another step
My heart is too kind for you
I wish i could walk and slam door in your face
You never see how u are  blind by your own self
It  is time to remove this cancer out of my life
And  stop being the hammer to the nail

We are so far part  in my heart i never stopped loving you
When i look at you  i can't  see nothing but you
My heart skips  a beat when i think of you
I would  glue back together your  heart and never let go
I wish you know how  much i love you
I wish i could be ur king and  take your  breath away
A  soft kiss but never let go
The thoughts of endless  walk during the night sky
I am sorry  for everything i did
A moment with you  would last lifetime.

it is easy to go in past and pick apart the things that went wrong. Its like playing back movie picking over looking the miss steps. We strive move forward but to keep moving we must learn from the negative to make it positive

Don t mask yourself with lies and hurtful words. Bring people up rather then down. Look within your self before you judge. The words you say can casue more pain then bullet to the heart. The negative words you say is likes cancer that never goes way.

Don t mask yourself with lies and hurtful words. Bring people up rather then down. Look within your self before you judge. The words u say casue more pain then bullet to the heart. The negative words you say is likes cancer that never goes way.