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Sep 2021 · 470
No words just actions.
GQ James Sep 2021
I get silent instead of getting loud,
No screams or anger in the space,
You stay out my space,
I stay out of your space,
No invasion of space.

Listen to my words,
Follow the language i speak to you,
My language is deeper than words,
Pay attention to my actions,
Follow my lead.

Stop making up sh*t in your head,
Listening could go a long way,
Don't judge me but get to know me,
You can't know me,
If you're always trying to judge me.
NO WORDS, JUST ACTIONS...
Sep 2021 · 439
Questions of love.
GQ James Sep 2021
Can you trust me?
Can you love me?
Can you submit to me?
Are you in love with me?
What is it about me?
Do you need me or do you want me?

I'm asking you so what are the answers,
We always question ourselves,
But let's questions our partners,
Love is simple and kind,
Not painful and complicated.

Is my love easy or hard?
Does my heart comfort you or hurt you?
Does your heart call for me?
Is your life complete with or without me?
But why?
ASK YOUR PARTNER THESE QUESTIONS?
Sep 2021 · 585
Step all over you.
GQ James Sep 2021
Don't let them step all over you,
Put your foot down and keep it down,
You hold all the cards,
You have more power than you realize,
Take a deep look and you shall see,
Never let anyone treat you unfairly,
You don't need them,
They need you.

You can poke the bear but so many times,
Until they just can't take anymore,
Don't allow to take advantage you,
Stop playing their game,
Play your own game,
Don't follow their rules,
Live by your own rules.

I may not be perfect but I care for you,
They ain't never cared,
They only care about themselves,
Only out for themselves nobody else,
Look around and you'll see what's true,
The truth always reveals itself.

Stand up for yourself not stand still,
It's not okay to be mistreated,
Never let anyone mistreat you,
You deserve better don't accept nun less,
Respect yourself and others will as well.
RESPECT YOURSELF FIRST AND OTHERS WILL DO THE SAME.
Sep 2021 · 495
Sleepwalking in my casket.
GQ James Sep 2021
I don't know how I'ma die but I can feel it coming,
They put the gun to my head I'm not running,
I can't lose my life when I feel like it's gone,
Life hasn't been the same for awhile now,
Them rainy days turned into stormy nights.

That storm feels like it's gonna last forever,
I use to think I could make it through anything,
I don't know anymore,
Feel weak and feel like I'm falling apart,
One by one,
Piece by piece,
Mind, body, soul, spirit and heart.

If you see me bleeding don't call 911,
Just let me bleed out,
I already feeling like I've lost myself,
I feel like sleeping walking in my casket,
My life is out my hands,
I've been lost for awhile,
God still working on me,
Trying my best to hold on,
Don't know how much more I can handle.
THAT PAIN GETS THE BEST OF US SOMETIMES.
Sep 2021 · 571
Heart on ice.
GQ James Sep 2021
I can't take anyone serious anymore,
My heart is locked away,
I'm the only one with the key to unlock it,
The key will be locked away in a safe place,
Heart on ice,
That's what happens when you suffer so much,
That pain put me in a different ora,
I'm a different person all around,
Mentally,
Emotionally,
Physically,
Spiritually.

Once I see the vibe ain't for me I exit silently,
No harsh feelings just ain't for me,
Can't stay in a uncomfortable setting,
At least not anymore,
Because I've been there before,
I'll be go there again,
Learned from my mistakes so won't be going back.

They ask me "why are you single" ,
I tell em "I'm just chilling",
I ain't even looking or studding anybody,
I got trust issues,
I can't trust others or myself to trust anyone else,
There's no space for anyone to get close,
Sorry but I'm not sorry.
HEART IS ON ICE.
GQ James Sep 2021
Im tryna survive in these streets,
It's funny when you look around,
And realize all you got is yourself,
Nobody around to help,
Makes you think about your life,
My life doesn't feel worth living anymore,
It keeps getting worse not better.

I feel like leaving and not returning,
There's nothing anyone can say or do,
I can't deal wit all this,
Too much coming at me at once,
It's not slowing down,
It keeps coming that sh*t speeding up.

Y'all keep trying to have faith,
But how can you have faith at this point?
I have nothing to have faith in,
Can't tell someone something,
If you're not in their shoes,
Everyone's struggle isn't the same,
Y'all don't know what i go through,
Don't even what i suffer with mentally.

My life ain't your life,
Your pain isn't my pain,
What you go through and what i go through,
Ain't the same thing,
Something has to change,
If not i don't know what I'm going to do,
I'm at my breaking point.
THE STRUGGLE IS REAL IN THEM STREETS.
Sep 2021 · 1.1k
Misunderstood life of mines.
GQ James Sep 2021
A man can't help but keep it all together,
You can't see my pain,
Because i don't show it,
That doesn't mean i don't have any pain,
I suffer each and everyday,
But i will always smile and laugh thru it all,
I keep my emotions hidden away,
They can't be found but they haven't drowned.

Don't be fooled by strength,
I am human and i feel as well,
I just can't show no sign of weakness,
I will remain strong even through the pain,
Those tears be shedding inside me,
That's why you can't see my tears,
Best to believe i be going thru it daily.

Don't be alarmed if I'm laughing and smiling,
I finesse the pain with laughs and smiles,
Many don't know what I'm suffering with,
I tackle my problems and fears on my own,
It be overwhelming at times,
But that's the only way i know,
They be telling me to talk to someone,
But I'm not into talking about sh*t,
I have my own process.

To understand me,
You have to understand my life,
You have to walk in my shoes,
You have to wear my clothes,
You have to be in my position,
You have to be in my head,heart,spirit and soul.

I'm misunderstood you could never understand,
My life isn't your life,
We have lived totally different lives,
Don't compare my life to your life,
I won't compare my life to yours.
MANY TRY TO UNDERSTAND BUT DON'T.
I'M MISUNDERSTOOD.
Sep 2021 · 1.3k
Little angel of mines.
GQ James Sep 2021
I try not to cry and tear up about it,
It's not that easy,
I keep my emotions hidden away,
Nobody can begin to understand my pain,
You think you know but you don't know,
I will never trust in you,
My trust for you has faded.

The best thing you could've gave me is gone,
Felt like it was taken from me,
There's a bigger purpose,
God has a reasoning for everything he does,
I'm starting to realize the reasoning,
It wasn't meant for you to be born yet,
This wasn't the right setting,
No matter what you were still a blessing.

I will always remember the small we had,
It will never be forgotten,
The time we had was small but precious,
It was a beautiful  we shared,
I carry you with each and everyday,
Tear up every time i think of you.

I wish you never left me,
You meant so much to me,
You were a blessing and a gift,
That moment we shared can never be replaced,
I can see you in up there,
You will always be a part of me.
ANOTHER DEDICATION TO MY ANGEL.
MISS HER EVERYDAY.
Sep 2021 · 590
She can never be replaced.
GQ James Sep 2021
When my angel died and went to heaven,
A piece of me died,
If i ever lose my mama I'll be gone for good,
My mama is my heart,
My angel was my better half,
A child is all i have ever wanted,
She can never be replaced,
Even when i have a child one day,
She can never be replaced,
She's irreplaceable.

My baby girl brought me joy,
Baby girl gave me peace,
Baby girl was a gift from heaven,
She was so beautiful and precious,
Each moment was so precious,
God blessed us with a blessing.

I still carry her in my heart,
I can't forget about her and never will,
Baby girl you will forever be remembered,
Was her for a short amount of time,
But in that small time it was beautiful,
I miss you my baby.
DEDICATION TO MY ANGEL.
GQ James Jun 2021
The one I learned a long time ago,
You can't change anyone,
Don't bother even trying,
You'll be wasting your time,
I don't even engage into it honestly,
I just live my life accordingly.

Behavior tells it all,
Them words don't do nothing but finesse,
Don't fall for those words,
Watch those behavioral patterns and actions,
That's where the truth resides.

Words don't have any meaning,
Actions have all the meaning you need,
Words are smooth and they sound good,
But those actions don't always feel as good.

Many will tell you what they think you wanna hear,
Truth is half the time it's not what you wanna hear,
I wanna hear and see what's true,
Not what's bullsh*t,
Don't gas me up and feed me lies,
Just give it to me straight and raw.
LIES COME EASILY OFF THE TONGUE BUT TRUTH COMES EVEN EASIER IN THEM ACTIONS. YA FEEL ME?
Jun 2021 · 337
Depression.
GQ James Jun 2021
Depression will leave you feeling alone when you're in a room full of people. It'll make you not wanna eat, sleep or sometimes not wanna live. That depression isn't nothing to play with. I struggle with depression and just wanted to speak on it. Pay attention to signs. Don't ignore the signs, if so you'll have bigger issues than you can bare. The pain many of us deal with it ain't even fair.

Nothing worse than dealing with depression on your own. Listen to those cries, sometimes they're silent so listen closely and keep your eyes open not closed.
The things we don't take serious be the things that be the most serious. The lives of others and ourselves is the most important. Never know how much someone is really suffering.

The silence is biggest cry that you'll ever hear. The loud cries ain't as bad as the silent cries. Crying for help isn't easy but when them cries are calling take it serious. Asking for help is better than suffering on your own. We be in our own zone, suffering alone.
Them signs are sometimes are hard to read. No matter how much they try to push you away, pull them closer.

The ones who the most help won't ask for it. Ego and pride takes over us more than any disease or sickness. Depression will take over your life with the quickness.
TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK...
Jun 2021 · 321
Questions of our lives.
GQ James Jun 2021
Is your life important to you?
Are you alive or dead?
Can you feel your inside your chest?
Are you a believer in god?
Do you pray?
Do you sin?
Do you think you're a good person?
Do you find yourself thinking about suicide?
Do you have people in your life that care for you?
Who do you think is your weakness?
What is your weakness?
Do you have a weakness?
Are you strong or weak?
Are you more valuable alive or dead?
CAN YOU ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS OR NO?
DO YOU HAVE THE ANSWERS TO THESE QUESTIONS?
Jun 2021 · 532
Loneliness isn't easy.
GQ James Jun 2021
The biggest struggle is when I'm all alone,
Loneliness is the biggest trigger,
When you spend so much time alone,
You become comfortable being by yourself,
But it become difficult to cope with.

The days are hard but the nights are unbearable,
Having someone to be by your side,
Makes everything much easier to cope with,
It won't fix anything but it'll make it easier,
I put too much on myself sometimes,
But that's just who I am can't help it.

Don't allow anyone to help me,
I help myself that's just the way I am,
We can't be anyone but ourselves,
Sometimes being ourselves can be hard,
Especially when we're so use to certain things.

Loneliness can be difficult at times,
But it's the best outlet sometimes,
You never know who you can trust,
One's actions aren't always as they appear to be,
Many have motives not always so true,
Be careful who you put your trust in.

Trust is as fatal as those we put our trust in,
I learned that at a young age,
Being let go over and over,
Being lied to over and over,
It can do damage more than you know.
Loneliness is my biggest trigger.
Jun 2021 · 347
Lessons taught.
GQ James Jun 2021
As we grow older we start to learn,
We start to see things more clearly,
The more we suffer,
The more we learn if we're paying attention,
Lessons are taught if you're willing to learn,
Get outside your pride and get in your maturity.

As a young man I made many mistakes,
Wasn't the best example as the oldest,
When I had family,
Now I don't have family,
They're dead and gone,
No longer of existence.

All we can do is move forward,
And focus on what's important,
Not ponder on what has already taken place,
Don't lose sleep over things or people,
That aren't worth the stress,
Truth be told don't stress over anything.

Your life is more important,
Your existence is more valuable,
We put too much energy into things,
That we shouldn't,
Let's focus on what focuses on us.

We all make mistakes but don't let them define you,
Let those mistakes open your eyes,
Let those mistakes show you the right way,
You've done wrong now you can do right,
Let it go and let them go.
Don't Let Those Mistakes Define You. We're all Humans.
Jun 2021 · 372
Everyday Is A Struggle.
GQ James Jun 2021
Each day is a struggle,
I try to keep a positive mindset,
No matter what try my best to keep it together,
Not always successful with it,
But all we can do in life is try our best,
If our mental health isn't healthy,
The rest of us won't be healthy.

Many want me to seek therapy,
But I am my own therapy,
God is the only therapist I need,
People always let you down,
God will never let me down.

We all heal in our own way,
We all deal with things in our own way,
Nobody can ever begin to understand my pain,
Talking about it won't help,
Some situations we have no control of,
We just have to cope the best way we can.
Jun 2021 · 282
No More Existence.
GQ James Jun 2021
For so long I was upset about it,
As of a few days ago no more existence,
I feel no ways about it,
For so long I felt it inside,
But I didn't wanna believe it,
Now I see it was true all along.

Sometimes we can't help but try to see the good,
But in the end we see their was never any good,
Don't hide from the truth but face it,
Hiding behind those lies only prolong the pain,
I know it's hard to face but it's necessary to face,
That pain never goes away,
It only gets easier to cope with.

I no longer feel anything in my heart,
Losing everything does that to you,
I have nothing to lose or live for,
Some would say different,
But they don't even know my pain,
Nobody can relate or feel what I've felt,
In this cold world I feel like I'm all by myself.

Them thoughts get darker than you can imagine,
Sometimes I just wanna escape it,
But I don't have the courage to make that choice,
Many think it's easy to do it but it's really not,
We all have our own reasons for doing what we do,
They think they know but they really don't.

They be like "talk to me" but what's the point,
You can't help me with this pain I'm feeling,
Only god can provide me with the healing,
In the room staring at the ceiling,
Some days I don't know how I'm feeling,
This depression gets the best of me,
I don't know rather I'm coming or going.
Mar 2021 · 448
Married Life
GQ James Mar 2021
Married life can get hectic at times,
But it can be beautiful as well,
Don't get discouraged when times get hard,
Hold on and keep fighting to the finish,
Me and my wife have been through the worse,
We still keep fighting,
You can't give up just because it gets rough.

No fight will ever be easy,
As time goes by things will get harder,
Nothing worth having will ever be easy,
The harder the fight is,
The more valuable they are,
Can't have something valuable without a fight.

The price of love is priceless,
Never stay in a unhappy marriage,
Leave that marriage if you're not happy,
You deserve to be happy,
You don't deserve to be unhappy,
Marriage isn't for the weak,
Not everyone is mature enough for marriage,
Not everyone is strong enough for marriage.

If you don't feel in your heart you're ready,
Just do yourself a favor and stay single,
Marriage is a respectable gesture,
Not just another journey in your life,
Take it seriously not just walk through it.
Marriage isn't for the weak. If you're not mature enough to handle it just stay single.
Mar 2021 · 666
Miscarriage Pains
GQ James Mar 2021
This was very unexpected,
The pain is a pain I've never felt,
There's nothing easy about losing a child,
The moment I found out,
I was drowning in tears,
I've wanted a child since I was young,
I don't question his doings,
I just take it as a lesson as well as a blessing,
God has something bigger in store for us,

This broke my heart deeper than you can imagine,
I felt like my heart was taken out my chest,
My heart stopped for a moment,
I'm trying my best to keep it together,
But truth be told it ain't easy,
The holy spirit is what's keeping me sane,
Without my faith I'll go insane,
Outside I look good but inside I'm in pain,

There's no one to blame,
Life will never be the same,
Me and my wife went through this together,
We will get through this together,
One day we will try again but not anytime soon,
My pain so deep you can't see it,
Keep my emotions inside,

God gives his toughest battles,
To his strongest soldiers,
So the battle hasn't began to begin,
It's far from over,
We are soliders so will fight to end,
Children are in our future.
MISCARRIAGE IS A TOUGH LOSS.
Feb 2021 · 590
Growing pains.
GQ James Feb 2021
It ain't getting no easier,
Doing my best to hold on,
Keep getting knocked down,
Over and over,
God gives me the strength to keep going,
Who knew it would be this hard,
I surely didn't but that's okay,
No cries or tears to shed.

The struggle made me numb,
I can't feel nothing but what's in front of me,
The struggle and them growing pains,
It only makes me stronger,
The weak give up not me,
I keep pushing,
It ain't easy but nothing in life is easy.

Throw me to the wolves,
I'll come back running the pack,
There's nothing I can't handle,
I was built off the muscle,
I was raised from the struggle.
I KEEP GETTING KNOCKED DOWN BUT I STILL REMAIN.
Feb 2021 · 861
Heart, mind and soul.
GQ James Feb 2021
I don't want your body,
I want your heart, mind, and soul.
That intellectual vibe,
*** is easy but conversation isn't,
Can't converse with everyone,
But can *** with everyone,
Your body is the last thing I want or need,
I wanna feed your heart, mind and soul.
DON'T WANT YOUR BODY. BUT WANT YOUR HEART, MIND AND SOUL.
Feb 2021 · 709
We can all eat.
GQ James Feb 2021
Homelessness to evictions to robberies,
Why all the poverty and violence?
Why can't we share wealth, peace and love?
Is it that hard?
It shouldn't be so hard,
It's actually pretty easy,
You eating while your people starving,
What kinda person are you?
We can all eat not just you,
Treat our brothers and sisters as equals,
Not treat em like peasants.

It has to get better,
We gotta treat our brothers and sisters better,
If you eating then feed your family,
Never let your family starve,
There's more love to be shared than hate.

Our way of living has to change,
Things only change when we change them,
Change doesn't happen on its own.
DON'T LET YOUR FAMILY STARVE WHILE YOU'RE EATING.
Feb 2021 · 318
Prepared for it all.
GQ James Feb 2021
I was prepared for it all,
Thru it all I stood tall,
Ever since I was a teenager,
I took the easy way out,
This time I decided to stand on my own,
It was rough,
It taught me the biggest lesson,
The biggest test of my life,
Brought me closer to God,
Learn the importance of faith and prayer,
Without those would've made it,
I'm wiser,
I see the world and people lot different.

Those who thought I'd fall apart,
Haha jokes is on you,
Never bet against but bet on me,
I was born to win not lose,
I took a few loses but I've got the big win,
This is only the beginning,
There's so many more blessings ahead.

Believe in me,
Not lose faith in me,
Yes I've made many mistakes,
But I've learned from them,
The biggest mistakes of my life,
Were the most valuable teaches,
Without failure you can't succeed,
I'm thankful for the slight failures,
It gave much insight about bigger success.
BIGGEST TEST OF MY LIFE.
Feb 2021 · 281
I got lost.
GQ James Feb 2021
I was looking in the wrong direction,
I got lost but my faith was found,
Without prayer and hope,
I would've drowned,
The only life guard to save me,
Was the man upstairs,
I let go all my fears and worries,
I gave to him,
And he introduced me to something,
I've never seen.
LET GO AND LET GO.
Feb 2021 · 368
Broke something inside me.
GQ James Feb 2021
I'm from a broken family,
Mama was always there,
Daddy went missing since beginning,
It broke something inside me,
Ain't been the same since,
As I grew up it made me stronger,
For the longest I was cold,
When I let it go I seen something different in me,
Life hasn't been easy,
Being where I'm from made me hungry,
I ain't ever been greedy,
Didn't have to beg mama to fed me,
Mama fed us with all she had,
Didn't ever want for nothing,
Didn't ever have to question my mama's love,
We all knew she loves us,
Her love surrounded us always,
What's real doesn't have to be said.
SOMETHING BROKE INSIDE ME LONG TIME AGO BUT I FINALLY SAW THE LIGHT OUT THE DARKNESS.
Feb 2021 · 71
This is the end.
GQ James Feb 2021
Throat needs water from all the yelling/screaming,
Heart needs healing from all the tarnishes,
Legs have been cut from the running,
Hands have become sore from all the praying,
I have nothing left,
I rather be in a box struggling,
Than to be in a mansion suffering,
The glitter and glamour ain't always so nice,
The nicest things come with a painful price.

Don't be fooled by the gifts and money,
The free things come with a bigger price,
Mama ain't raise no fool,
I tried to see something that didn't even exist,
I finally see the clear picture,
Everything has become quite transparent.

I thought their was a ounce of goodness left,
I can see that's not the case,
We try to convince ourselves of something,
Even when we deep down know the truth,
For the first time I see it all vividly,
Ain't nothing to say the actions say it all,
Ain't mad I'm amused and not even surprised.

Same ole habits and behavior,
No matter how much time passes,
Nothing will ever change with you,
You are who you are,
It's best we both just move forward,
Ain't no looking back,
This is the end.
Feb 2021 · 335
Slaves.
GQ James Feb 2021
why do we have to slaves the system? When are things gonna get better and when will be able to live better? I just don't get it **** sad and pathetic. Let's help each other out not try to hurt another we are sisters and brothers.

Takes too much energy to fight and hate so why not just love and get along. Let's change the cycle and make changes to the world we live in. Don't follow the trend reset the trend .
Never too late to make a change we still here. Long as their is a breathe in my body I'll do my best to have American great you can't fight fate.

And let's talk about how all these men fell like it's cool or even normal to ****. That'll never be cool or acceptable. Let's do better and respect our women not disrespect them.
Women brought us into the world so they have no right to lay hands or even mistreat a woman. Without a woman their will be no man. I know some of you won't get that or even understand. That's the difference between a boy and a man.

Don't put your hands on a woman if you wanna raise your hand , raise your hands up and ask for forgiveness for all your sins. We can all do better and improve. Don't give up that means the devil wins . God is always in control. Don't sell your soul it's never for sale. Your body is temple so respect it and yourself. Don't ever be too proud to ask for help.
LET'S NOT BE SLAVES TO THE SYSTEM BUT LET'S BE THE EXCEPTION. LET'S MAKE CHANGE.
Jan 2021 · 280
Think twice
GQ James Jan 2021
That knife against your wrist is painful,
Them pills you overdose on causing pain,
I know you wanna end the pain,
You gotta think about what you're doing,
Think about what you're losing,
Think about who you'll be losing,
It can become confusing,
You ain't thinking at the time,
You just wanna end it all.

You're in pain but think about who you'll be hurting,
The ones you'll be leaving behind will be hurt,
That pain is painful,
Don't suffer alone but ask for help,
Never keep it to yourself,
We all need help,
No man or woman can do it their own.

Never think you're alone,
Can't be helped if no one knows you need help,
Let your cries be heard not silenced.
THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU DO BEFORE DOING IT. NEVER KNOW WHO YOU'RE HURTING IN THE END. ASK FOR HELP NOT SUFFER IN SILENCE.
Jan 2021 · 392
Love dangerous as cancer.
GQ James Jan 2021
My heart is in a safe place,
No love left except for my family,
Nobody gets me or understands me,
Don't have the tolerance for anyone,
Sorry but not sorry,
Love will eat at you like cancer,
It slowly kills you.

It's beautiful when it's good,
But when it gets ugly it gets deadly,
Be careful who you love,
Be careful who you give your heart to,
Be careful who you trust,
Be careful who you care for,
Life can show you more than you bargain for.

Your EMOTIONS can blind your judgement,
Take them blinders off,
Put on some glasses so you can see,
Love is blind,
When you're in love you can't see,
Once you're outta love you can see clearly.
LOVE CAN **** YOU SLOWLY. IT'S DANGEROUS AS CANCER. BE CAREFUL WHO YOU LOVE.
Jan 2021 · 69
Lord give me a sign.
GQ James Jan 2021
It woke me up outta my sleep,
These thoughts and feelings won't go away,
I'm starting to think it's not temporary,
Never felt this way before in my life,
Life has a way of testing you,
I don't know what the test is about or for,
In the toughest battle of my life,
It ain't getting no easier.

Lord give me a sign,
Where do I go from here?
What do I need to do?
Why now?
Does depression run in my family?
Things were feeling better,
And then I got woken up with these thoughts,
It's getting worse not better.

I'm doing my best to move forward,
But keep getting pushed back,
I'm trying to hold on,
I don't know how much more I can hold on,
Lord help me.
These thoughts getting the best of me.
Jan 2021 · 524
You're a lady.
GQ James Jan 2021
You're a lady,
You should be treated as such nothing less,
If you're not cherished, uplifted, respected,
All the things you deserve and more,
You should wait on it,
Don't deal with nothing less,
Queens are valuable,
Your worth is priceless,
Don't let him take you for granted,
If he can't see your worth,
Leave him behind and move forward.
YOU'RE A LADY SO YOU SHOULD BE TREATED AS SUCH.
Jan 2021 · 194
The ugly truth.
GQ James Jan 2021
If y'all have something to say about me,
Say to me and not to her,
Always knew this would happen,
I ain't even mad but I'm very amused,
Life has a funny way of showing you things,
I see everything clearly,
All that hiding and pretending has been revealed,
The truth has come to the light,
You can hide in the dark for so long.

The lies that were told are so amusing,
The jokes on you not me,
If you only knew but too bad you don't,
Mama ain't raise no fool,
Watch what you say and what you ask for,
Life gets real different faster than you think.

The family just ain't **** that's not your fault,
Distance yourself from them,
They holding you back from your better self,
We gotta love our families from a distance,
Not everyone is meant to be in our lives,
Don't ever feel bad for living for you,
You come first over others.
YOU CAN'T PRETEND FOREVER THE TRUTH ALWAYS COMES TO THE LIGHT.
Dec 2020 · 391
I knew the risks.
GQ James Dec 2020
Them thoughts I been having lately crazy,
Life can get deadly when you don't expect it,
Our lives can change quicker than you realize,
Everything that has taken placed is a surprise,
I can't worry or stress,
Life could be much worse,
I continue to keep pushing,
I won't give up,
Just keep putting in that work.

I knew the risks of my choices,
I knew it wasn't gonna be easy,
God has a plan for me,
I can feel something good coming,
Nothing good comes easy,
If you want something good,
You gotta take a lost to get the big win,
You can't succeed if you don't fail,
Can't experience success without failure.

Before you can walk you gotta crawl,
Before you talk you gotta listen,
Lessons are learned by paying attention,
How can we do better if we don't know our mistakes?
Know what you did wrong,
Before you can make it right,
What's wrong can be made right.
FAILURE TURNS INTO SUCCESS IF YOU LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES.
Dec 2020 · 786
Irreplaceable.
GQ James Dec 2020
You ain't gotta be a secret,
You can be my surprise,
No need to keep secrets and tell lies,
Never thought I could feel again,
You changed all that,
You know who you are,
No need to say your name,
This was back in the day,
Things aren't much different these days.

The bond was so pure,
The vibes were so sacred,
Our connection was instant,
I seen something in you from day 1,
I never caught feelings for nobody besides you,
That's how you know what we had was real.

Never been no perfect man,
I always knew we were once perfect together,
Put you through a lot but it's all love,
Nobody could ever take your place,
You're irreplaceable.
YOU WERE MY FIRST. IRREPLACEABLE.
Dec 2020 · 338
We are humans.
GQ James Dec 2020
If you wanna know me,
Spend time with me don't judge me,
We all make mistakes,
But our mistakes doesn't define us,
It just shows we are humans,
If we don't **** up we can't learn,
Never think ******* up means you're a **** up,
There's no such thing as a perfect person.

Perfection doesn't exist,
Trying to be perfect will **** you faster,
If they don't accept you for you that's on them,
You are special the way god made you,
Don't allow nobody to change you,
You're unique in your own way.

I saw some things in myself I didn't like,
I then decided to change my ways,
Nobody made me change,
I made the changes within myself,
If you don't like what you seeing,
Change what you see within yourself.
MISTAKES ARE NORMAL. DON'T REPEAT EM BUT LEARN FROM EM.
Dec 2020 · 659
Step out the way.
GQ James Dec 2020
I'm in a jungle filled with animals,
Them noises get louder and louder,
When is the chaos gonna calm down?
Will the chaos ever end?
Long as I been around it's gets worse,
I took notice on many things,
I've decided to get out the way.

I tried to put an end to things,
Then I realized there's nothing I can do,
It's up to the universe,
I'm stepping out the way,
Stepping to the side,
Stay in my bubble,
Remain in my lane.

There's nothing left on the brain,
Mind is empty,
System is empty,
Emotions are empty.
NOTHING LEFT TO SAY.
Dec 2020 · 297
Don't feel like home.
GQ James Dec 2020
You say you want me here but so you really?
It don't feel like you want me here,
Doesn't feel like home,
Feels more like prison,
Locked in a place where I don't wanna be,
Where's the key?
I need to find my way outta here.
FEELS LIKE PRISON NOT A HOME.
Dec 2020 · 205
Falling apart.
GQ James Dec 2020
Never thought I'd feel this way but I do,
I can feel the tears but that ain't coming out,
I'm crying inside,
This feeling is more painful than words can say,
The depression feels so real,
Life was so simple months ago,
Now everything is upside down.

I feel like I'm falling apart,
Where do I start to pick up the pieces?
My life has been shattered into pieces,
Nothing feels the same,
I made this choice,
I'll take the blame,
Something has to change.

The rainy days has became stormy nights,
Fight after fight,
Drama night after night,
The pain has deepened,
I feel like my heart has been torn from my chest,
In this life what's left,
Ever feel alive but inside you feel dead?
LIFE HAS FALLEN APART.
Dec 2020 · 123
Private thoughts.
GQ James Dec 2020
I ain't worried about what you saying to me,
It's more about what you ain't saying,
Those private thoughts are the most dangerous,
Be mindful of those private thoughts,
Never know what one is truly thinking,
What they saying ain't what they really think of you,
You can't trust others when it comes to the truth,
But them lies can give you comfort.

Don't cuddle with them lies too close,
Lies aren't true so don't get comfortable,
Just because it feels good,
That don't mean it's good for you,
What feels good ain't good for you,
I rather you hurt me with the truth,
Than comforting me with your lies.
DON'T TRUST WHAT THEY SAYING. THEIR PRIVATE THOUGHTS ARE THE MOST DANGEROUS.
Dec 2020 · 234
Holding on to my faith.
GQ James Dec 2020
You alive but you feel dead,
Life just don't feel the same,
Can't tell if I'm coming or going,
I'm here but don't know where I'm headed.

I give the glory to God,
Holding on much as I can,
Faith is the only thing that keeps me going,
Without faith I would have nothing,
My life has taken a different turn.

Live and learn but is it my turn?
What do you expect when you take a different lane?
Something has to change,
I'm the one to blame,
I'm not igniting but I see the flames.

I'm not playing but I play the game,
The rain has become thunderstorms,
The thunderbolts have gotten stronger,
The storm much longer than expected,
Didn't see this coming,
I'm here to stay ain't no running.
HOLDING ON TO MY FAITH. THAT'S THE ONLY I HAVE.
Dec 2020 · 1.1k
Fatal.
GQ James Dec 2020
You put your trust in the one you think you can trust,
Then it turns out you can't trust em,
That trust is more lethal than them bullets in a gun,
You can run from them bullets,
You feel them bullets harder than a heart attack,
They both can **** you,
The question is which is more fatal.

If that bullet hits you inside your heart,
You're pretty much dead,
You're heart is the most fatal,
Without your heart you can't live,
Nothing compares to a broken heart,
The ones you love the most hurt you the most,
It's less painful not to care.

All that pain made me cold,
The only thing I care about is family,
My mama more than anyone,
Heartless what I've become,
I can't feel nothing,
My EMOTIONS have been faded.
THAT HEART IS MORE FATAL THAN YOU NAY REALIZE. WITHOUT YOUR HEART YOU'RE DEAD.
Dec 2020 · 2.2k
My favorite thing to eat.
GQ James Dec 2020
My tongue be rubbing all over your ****,
Then the rest of that ***** I kiss,
That morning bliss,
I wanna lick on her until she ****,
Where you going don't you run,
Your juices is what I want,
I wanna feel you and taste you,
Breakfast,lunch,dinner and dessert.
You're the only thing I have a appetite for,
You got the recipe for whatever I need,
No need to beg nor plead,
But you're the only thing I wanna eat,
My favorite thing to eat and please is you.
SHE GOT THE RECIPE FOR WHAT'S GOOD.
FAVORITE THING TO EAT.
Dec 2020 · 549
My first love.
GQ James Dec 2020
I took one look at you and I knew,
You will always be my first love,
The love we once share was beautiful,
Felt like we were the only two in the room,
It was our world for a long time,
It was shattered for many reasons,
Things could've turned out differently,
But we didn't make the best decisions,
Many things didn't take place,
It only made us better people in the end.

Don't beat yourself up,
It's not your fault we both had a part to play,
Not everyone's love is forever,
Our season just came to an end,
The silver lining is we are better apart than together,
Better to be friends than to be enemies,
Why not have a piece of someone,
Rather not have them at all.

Stop holding on to what killed us,
Just let it all go and give to god,
What's gone is just gone,
Can't live in the past but can make a better future,
The past is mirror for our future.
U NEVER FORGET YOUR FIRST LOVE NO MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE U MEET. THAT FIRST LOVE IS THE MOST TRUE.
Dec 2020 · 414
I can't get enough of you.
GQ James Dec 2020
Girl why you doing this to me?
I can't get enough of you,
When it comes to you there's no limits,
I wanna overdose when it comes to you,
I can't be without you,
Without you there isn't no me,
You complete me and I complete you.

Them feelings I'm feeling I never felt before,
Where did you come from?
Wherever you came from?
You just ain't normal,
You got me doing things I wouldn't dream of doing,
You ain't good for me,
But I sure don't want to let you go.
I CAN'T LET U GO. U AIN'T NO GOOD FOR ME.
Dec 2020 · 485
Home has been burned down.
GQ James Dec 2020
You are a trigger for me,
When I'm around you I feel different,
Than when I'm not around you,
My world feels much different when I'm alone,
That energy we share doesn't feel good,
That pain is sharper than a blade,
The space just doesn't feel comfortable.

I don't feel at home but I feel homeless,
Being in a house ain't the same as being at home,
Our home has been burned down to ashes,
The flames burn sharply,
The ashes are burned to crisp,
Our lives haven't been the same.

You can't rebuild the house,
The house has been destroyed,
You can't even recognized things the same,
When you look at it things aren't what they use to be,
What's broken can't be fixed.
THE HOUSE IS BURNED AND CAN'T BE REBUILT.
Dec 2020 · 137
Channel your EMOTIONS.
GQ James Dec 2020
All that pettiness doesn't upset me,
Honestly it amuses me more than anything,
Words don't do nothing but give me humor,
People always talk **** about you,
It don't matter what you think of me,
The only thing that matters is what I think of me.

You're only talking **** about me,
Because you're not happy with yourself,
Life only gets better when we become better,
Make better choices not the same ole ones,
I don't react but I sit back and see the truth,
Emotions are unavailable,
Emotions are dangerous,
Emotional attachments get the best of you.

Stop allowing your emotions to control,
Control your emotions not let them control you,
Can't tell you how to feel,
But the way you deal with everything ain't cool,
Channel your emotions better,
The way you deal with your pain is unhealthy,
Being pain doesn't make you have to hurt others.

We bring the pain onto ourselves with our choices,
Not all the choices we make are the right ones,
What we think is right isn't always right,
The empathy of life is very important,
You gotta see things from every way,
Can't just see things our way,
That would be unrealistic.
CHANNEL YOUR EMOTIONS IN A HEALTHY WAY NOT AN UNHEALTHY WAY.
Dec 2020 · 226
How can you love me?
GQ James Dec 2020
How can you love me but all you do is hurt me?
How can you care about me but hurt me easily?
Is it that easy to hurt someone you love?
Love and pain can't be in the same place,
If all you do is hurt me,
Then obviously you don't love me,
All I am to you is a possession.

The constant back and fourth,
The constant disrespect,
The constant insecurities says it all,
Stop trying to convince yourself,
Just face the truth and give up the lies.
LOVE AND PAIN CAN'T BE IN THE SAME PLACE. IF YOU LOVE ME, WHY DO YOU HURT ME?
Dec 2020 · 207
A few things about you.
GQ James Dec 2020
What's ya name?
What's ya sign?
Where you from?
What's ya zodiac sign?
What turns you on?
I'm just tryna learn a few things about,
Is that okay?
TALK 2 ME.
Dec 2020 · 186
Weather this storm.
GQ James Dec 2020
I didn't give up and I never will give up,
Life has been throwing stones at me all my life,
Them stones don't do nothing but bounce off me,
The tests we are faced either make us or break us,
Choice your own fate,
Don't allow anyone else to choose your fate,
The struggles will always be there,
You can overcome the struggle,
You can weather the storm,
Make sure you bring your umbrella.

First it starts to sprinkle,
Then it begins to drizzle,
Shortly after it begins to rain,
After that it begins to storm,
There's nothing that can stop this storm except you.
THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN WEATHER THE STORM IS YOU.
Dec 2020 · 417
I wanna be HIM.
GQ James Dec 2020
Lemme please you,
I wanna cater to you,
I'll never tease you,
What you deserve is to feel good,
I wanna please your body,
I wanna stimulate your mind,
I wanna keep your spirits up,
I wanna be in your heart.

The ones who hurt didn't see your worth,
I see your worth and I see you,
It takes a man to see you,
A boy can't understand or see you,
The things you been thru he wouldn't understand,
I don't know you yet,
But wanna learn everything about you,
I wanna know everything about you,
You deserve something good,
I can be HIM.
YOU DESERVE SOMETHING GOOD.
GQ James Dec 2020
Don't be quick to make an enemy,
Why not make a friend,
The ones we envy and hate we can keep close,
The hate can be transferred to love,
We hold on too much anger,
We can just release the love.

Stop hating each other,
Let's love each other,
Stop and think what you're doing,
Once you calm down you'll realize it,
Take your EMOTIONS out of the equation,
EMOTIONS cloud your judgement.

Women hating other women over some man,
Why hate her on what he did to you,
Make her your ally rather your enemy,
Let's come together not collide against each other,
Not enough togetherness in the world,
Let's create togetherness,
Let's end the war that's going on.
MAKE A FRIEND, STOP MAKING ENEMIES.
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