She is writing words
To ease my hunger for more
But her verses are invisible
More like existing in another plane
Not in my universe

None latest poems come
No words spoken in between
Unaware remain restless
For words of grace and more
One hundred in store

Reading about what could be
Whatever is unfiltering
A random chance
Of not seeing
Not on their page
Not for me

I'll wake up from my unreal dream to another unreality
I sleep from this place back to a different world
I pace from here and there
not understanding my destination is where
And it's been so many lifetimes
I have passed from different modes
Walked so many different roads
to attain my true self
Close my eyes and connect back
A little bit of true self help.

How to quantify my worth?

by how people value me,
or by the contribution I made in my eternity,
or all the intentions hidden from you,
by my every thoughts I have ever had,
or can I by my social media presence,
or by counting tears when I die.

Am I even worthy enough?

I may look tough
but I do not know
what you think of me
or you and your worth
do not matter to me at all?

Do you know your worth?

Am I asking the wrong questions?
but I do not seem to care,
not at present when I am in trance
I was always born to die,
I have done less than what roses do
in their lifetime.

Am I worthless in the face of world?

Journey of seven thousand days
and each day new adventure plays

Still a business of living
is not something I excel in

I really need a break
an interval would be great

To make peace with things
that are disturbing

We live close to the people far
We are far away from the people close by
The network of people within net
Has its web links across the globe
We follow thousands people around
Giving them likes , emoticons
And sometimes comments!
Thousand pictures of others life ,
The stories , they have
All there to be viewed by people
Who care , who don't care
But people , do share

I breathe
a sign I take to assume that I still live
among so many monsters
hiding in plain sight.
So well mixed with the society
It is time for sheep to dorn
Wolf's clothing
To feel one with the crowd.

Somewhere around the globe
An earth shattering discovery is being made
and somewhere else,
a new chemical is synthesised ,
In some hospital ,
a life is being saved
and in a house somewhere far
A little boy is crying ,after he failed
While on the street ,
someone found his phone is stolen
And in a cafe nearby ,
a girl is sipping her coffee daydreaming
And at the same time ,
while along with some significant things take place
I sit across my laptop
scribbling some verses while I eat chips

Simplicity
is difficult to construct
It comes naturally
or doesn't .

The smiling face often lies ,
No one knows , what it hides .
It is easier to curve your mouth ,
Then to let the pain come out .

The smiling face ,my mirror shows
Hides every stories which I know
I deceive others with my cheery facade
As they do the same , they too are flawed .

There are few true smiles ,
Hardly seen much awhile.
But they fade away fast ,
Because happiness do not last .

I am smiling,
        An exercise I do with mouth
My teeth clear white.

I am smiling,
        Looking so happy
What a perfect disguise.

I am smiling,
        what a beautiful day to
have all my sad thoughts come for me.

I am smiling,
         It is a practice
an ongoing progressive learning.

I am smiling,
          There is absolutely nothing I can do
Here, I smile to you too.

What has the future in store for me
Maybe it can give me a sneakpeek of that story
I am crumbling thinking about it
it's called worrying I know
Just a small peek, that's all I want
Or maybe more, the more I learn more.

With changing tides, I've been changing minds
A distant thought, my mind is on you
I missed your birthday today,
It's been happening every year
I wish you the good,
Health and wise.

Sometimes it becomes hotter in here
The air is thick with memories
Of days gone by,
When we were close,
And I could hold you near

But now you're far away
And I'm not sure if you still care
I've been trying to reach out
But you're not responding

I don't know what to do
I'm lost and confused
I just wish I could talk to you
And clear the air

But for now, I'll keep wishing you well
And hoping that one day
We'll be able to reconnect
And pick up where we left off

Sometimes it becomes hotter in here
But I'll keep going
Because I know that one day
The air will clear
And I'll be able to breathe again.

Sometimes
Your enemies keep you in thoughts
more than your loved ones

What I relentlessly seek,
to be a soul liberated,
Free from every attachment,
Bound by nothing, tempted by naught,
No unnecessary latchment.

The soul needs nothing, it's true,
To be free is its nature.
But my flaws have held me back,
My vision's a blur, a facture.

What do I really need?
Nothing, if I'm truthful.
Yet greed consumes, my soul depletes,
My life, a wasteful ruth.

Devoid of true knowledge,
I seek what's unclear.
My vision blinded, my eyes closed,
I'm trapped by my fear.

Lies will bite, anger will burn,
Karma's wheel will turn.
I wait for the reckoning,
My soul to learn.

Who will wash away my sins?
My thoughts, my inner foes.
They've led me down a dark path,
Where nothing grows.

My body deteriorates,
My mind fades, my memory erases.
I speak in riddles, no sense to make,
My soul, a maze.

Who will decode the mysteries?
The real truths that liberate?
The answer lies within,
My true self, my fate.

Oh, to be a soul liberated,
Free from every attachment.
To live my life authentically,
With true detachment

I yearn for soul liberation,
To break free from all temptation,
To cast off every bind,
And leave the world behind
All earthly limitation.

The soul, by nature, needs but naught,
For freedom is its inherent thought.
But my flaws have held me back,
My vision blurred, off track.

What truly do I need?
Nothing, indeed.
Yet greed consumes my inner fire,
My own desire.

Devoid of true enlightenment,
I chase a fading light.
My vision veiled, my eyes concealed,
By fear, my heart revealed.

Lies will sting, anger will blaze,
Karma's wheel will turn its gaze.
I await the reckoning true,
My soul's awakening anew.

Who will absolve my deepest sins?
My thoughts, my inner demons' din.
They've led me down a murky trail,
Where nothing does prevail.

My flesh decays, my mind erodes,
My memory's path eludes.
I speak in riddles, devoid of sense,
My soul, a labyrinth without defense.

Who will decipher these mysteries?
The hidden truths that set me free?
The answer lies within,
My true self, my origin.

Oh, to be a soul liberated,
From all worldly attachment alienated.
To live my life with authenticity,
In true detachment, with serenity.

The weight of words hangs heavy on my tongue,
Like a stone around my neck, pulling me down.
I want to speak, but my voice is muted,
Held captive by the fear of judgment
I won't sustain in this environment

Flowers blooms as sun smiles
and all gloom fades
Hope reappears
as the cold disappears

Season of new beginning
a chance to start living
or to stop everything
and hear the birds sing
'This Spring'

Skipping three steps
I fell on the fourth
the fifth, I missed
Sixth, Seventh,
using all of my strength
Soon it will be the tenth
But what I didn't know
that it never ends.

Of people that matter
  and the paper that glitters
Perceive the light around you,
     there are dark corners, every corner
But stick to the bright rays within,
    they'd guide you every way and between.

Sudden stop
on the pace that it flew
****** me awake
it doesn't seem good
hard to take
what to make
not easy it seems

How do I not
sink in
drown in the sea
of sadness

One day would come
And man won't be needed no more
The life will sustain just so.

Dreams end
when eyes open
to watch streams of light
coming through the window
               and the heat is only starting.

through the midday
we forget what dream it was
that kept the smile in deep sleep
the rising temperature gets to head
             and we realise we are too hopeful.

Simply by night
exhausted our thoughts
fighting sleep to have nutrition
to get back on the bed, have a sweet dream
            wishing not to wake up, dream to no end.

My thoughts changes with the changing time
They are not the same , since I thought this rhyme
My priorities differ , yesterday to tomorrow
My mood changes ,morning to now
I may laugh now, followed by a cry
I will be happy , later angry
These emotions play with my mind
Want the things , I am denied.
I do not know if I am abnormal
Or all these symptoms are casual

I carry these contradictory thoughts
              that I cannot help but  laugh
I have these endless debates alone
                 all within my own brain
Its no less than a wonder ,
that people still consider me sane
          but I am following that lane

The spirit's board, a chess of silent grace,
Where goals, like pawns, find their appointed space.
Invest like rooks, in wisdom's sacred lore,
Mindful as bishops, what paths to explore.

Like queen, a heart that counsels, serves, and mends,
A gentle nurture, where true kindness blends.
Control your knights, your senses wild and free,
No overreach, in silent dignity.

Each day a gambit, new and bright unfold,
Accept the check, where patience makes you bold.
Forgive the captures, learn from every snare,
Humility's white king, beyond compare.

Black and white it seems, the boxes we stand
It's good, bad, all moves can't be preplanned
So with time, make the best of it
A soul is its very own mate.

The diamonds , they are hard
harder than any stone
They are cut , into their cuts
harsher than any stone
They are sharp ,edges sharper
The one with money and power
wear it as their armour .
The light that fall ,
they shine , they sparkle , they glimmer
and take all the attention over .
They have major female followers
who yearned it to be gifted from their lovers.

Coming soon
the remaining truth
its knocking doors
lookout
Spot them
They're right in front

The first thing I do
When I wake up
absentmindedly
before I go to loo
is brushing my teeth
and start a fight
with germs, who have stayed
from previous night

Attributes of autumn surround,
As love's sweet malady astounds.
My heart beats faster, breath drawn deep,
As love's embrace I long to keep.

Oh, cure this love that makes me yearn,
My soul with fervent passion burn.
Like leaves that fall in golden hues,
My love for you will never lose.

But autumn's chill can bring me fear,
Lest love's sweet bloom should disappear.
So calm my mind with love's embrace,
And banish doubt with tender grace.

My love, my heart, my autumn dream,
Together through the seasons gleam.
For though the leaves may fade and fall,
Our love will stand forever tall

I
Have
So
Much
To
Say,

If
I
Write
It
This
Way,

You'd
Have
To
Scroll
Down
Forever,

There
Is
No
Perceivable
End
To
Miseries
In
Life,
For
All
The
Things
I
suffer.

I'd
only
write
down
the
only
thing
that
is
going
in
the
right
direction
in
my
life
at
present.

The pen.

I look up
expectantly
towards the stars
as if they know
how to solve
my issues

The sun is on fire
Heating everything in its sight

I could not ignore
anymore
the voices inside my head
who calls my name
and things they said

They target my insecurities
they show me pity
They know where it hurts more
and these voices , they echo
and it becomes , too much to endure

They feed on my sadness
they do love to make me feel less
They whisper in my ears
with high conviction
Things that no one should hear

These voices , they do not go out
they know everything about
each secret , all regrets
and keep reminding me again and again
every second , without giving me rest