Do what makes you happy, I was told
But what is happy?
Cause I remember eating candies and
I don't know why they taste sweet
until he came and taught me
the flavor of sugar
Then he told me that not being with me
makes him happy
From that day on
I'm senseless to any happiness
cause he's the one that actually
make sense to that

our love begins
the moment he lingers
my engagement ring
on my finger

In August
with the shining sun
turned the trees to share the same color
as bright as your hazel eyes
where my heart met yours
from a "Hi" at 1 AM to a kiss at 5 AM
was the moment I discovered my Achilles' heels
located in each Summer I promise to greet
with you

there is something about the way
he spins his own earth
how he makes the world
looks like a stage
and he is the main star
you see, when he smiles
people smile with him
like he radiates the sun
and everyone else are sunflowers
who grows towards his smile

they say the world smiles through flowers
I say, your flowers make me smile for the world

what really curious me
is the kind of color
he'd ignite from his touch
when the sun kisses
the cloud for the first time

It's like all the right words seems overlapping-ly wrong inside my head. As if my heart is trying ts hardest to describe who you were for me cause you were all the most lovely heartbreak that ever occurred. The thief who happened to took back what belongs to him. The room full of air pressure in which I'm willingly hand over my breath away. The sunrise I wish for in the middle of the night, when I cry

The sunset this evening
is identical to your glance
when you said
*"I'm leaving"

so you really think I should be thankful
if you tell me that I'm beautiful?
when I know you only turn you head
but never once open up your heart

must I recreate our story
to make you feel my sorry
I will do it, many times over
just let me know we're not over
so spare me more seconds and hours
and I'll patch up our flaws with flowers
cause if the sky changes from grey to blue
then I can make this right again for you

Every taste feels like your tongue intertwined with mine

Those tattoos of his
are the visual storyteller
every ink he painted
is a beautiful work of art
same thing happen
when he makes a mess
of my red lipstick

relationship is not a game of
player one and player two
but it is a team of me and you

He is the kind of guy who attract tears
because every emotion he transfers
resulting with me dwelling in it
especially at night

like that one night when he lied
about the promise he made to come by
then he started yelling like it's all my fault
until drying my wet cheeks was difficult

or when he played the guitar string
as I lay my head listening to him singing
I yawned until tears rolled down my face
where he sent me asleep to a pretty place

maybe that other night when he tickled me
and I laughed so hard I couldn't breathe
then I ended up crying of laughter
even so, I am glad we are still together

yesterday I looked at my phone screen
and I learned how beautiful a square can be
the second your playful smile appeared
was the moment my real world disappeared

It is not just a simple continuous present
that I want to have with him
It is more until the future continuous
Like I am now loving him
until he will always be the one I am loving
for the rest of my roller coaster life
You got me?

She is that girl
Who hates her reflection
Cause she despise
Her damaged pieces

She is that girl
Who loves with devotion
And gladly dismantle
Herself for you

She is that girl
Who waits for you
To turn your heart and see
That girl is me

Tonight is that night
when my pillow once again witness
the prove that I have mastered the art
of faking laugh in broad daylight
and silently crying myself at night

that night, I was drunk
unconsciousness pulled me back to him

that night, I know he was there
his finger were wiping my tears
I felt his heart opened like never before

that night, he held me like a goodbye
that night, he kissed me like a promise
that night, he loved me until it hurts so bad, I cried

after that night, he stopped talking to me
—he quit looking for me, he left me
and after that night, I swear I will love again

*only if he promised he won't return to me

That night, I nearly gave up on you
Just like how you nearly left me untrue
I nearly cried and pushed your limit
Just like how you nearly threw a *******
I nearly become a video game
Just like how you nearly played me like an arcade
I nearly turned into a clown
Just like how you nearly dissed my frown
I nearly took off your chances
Just like how you nearly burned your bridges
~
But to hurt and to cherish are on a par
In a trail we're trying to walk far
Under the bright moon and twinkling star
*To return to each other is what we are

"Tell me what love is," he demands
and I answer in the most illogical
way I can ever think of
I answer;

It is when I met you the first time
and I knew I'd marry you in 7 years
It is when you're mad at me but
somehow you look peculiarly cute
It is when I left because you ****
but I held your string tight in my hand
It is when I know there are billions,
no, trillion souls, yet I stick with yours

"you are insane," he mocks me
and I laugh, "but love is insane!"
he kisses my lips and whispers
"then you're the answer to my question"

Give it time

If I can write this life as my book
I'd paint the sky in black and
turn her velvet hand to thorn
just so she can never touch you

I never understand what love is
until my name answered
only to your voice

but if the demon
shows itself before you
can you really still believe
that God will help you out?
cause for all I know
He's never there
when I have to face
the demon within me

the devil knows how to play the game on me
out of all those guys, he chose you as the main pawn
what to expect when I was not expecting anything?
he surely trained you well, that I should've expected
you broke through my fortress without warning
just like our very first kiss on that rainy season
the next thing I know, your hand met my bra clasp
and I got no power left to argue but fall hard for you

The problem is
He continues to write
His love to the world
With grey shades
And let me read
A piece of his
Finished writing
—His love for me
In red blood ink
That turned into toxin
For my sight
And I keep reading
What he wrote
Until I bawl
Even when I knew
The story has ended

What a foolish little girl
The moment you were crashing down with emotions
When he pulled you close to his chest
He was feeling absolutely nothing

As for the rose you received
Is the game of illusion to deceived
Because that is just what he is
A very kind and gentle beast

It's 2 AM
And she is trying
To make peace
With her mind
While praying
To see his name
Popping on her phone
Or hearing his footsteps
Coming closer
To knock on her door
Because she is
The girl who waited
And he is
The king of okay

she was waiting
with spaced out gazed in her eyes
waiting for him to come by
she was waiting
he made her wait for so long
he was wasting her time
he was wasting her
yet, she was waiting
with hands on her chest
praying her love for him gone
while holding in the pain
she was waiting
but he never came
he doesn't love her
he doesn't care
so with all her might
she left

Bad memories,
Your faults,
Our fights,
Taught me a lesson
Not to take you back
But the good ones,
Your sincerity,
Our laughs,
Is crushing my heart
Into scattered ashes

I’m afraid of height
But you lifted me up
Until my fears disappear
I guess you’ve placed me
So high—too high
That my brain
Is unable to digest
How high it was
Nor ever process
How painful it will be
When you finally
Letting me go

you are what people call magic
while I'm everything tragic

I could stand on the edge of a cliff
where the abyss of endless despair lays below
above the sparks flies of your smile
and the lie you sew about the chance
I'd find on the other side
Then when you pushed me and I jumped off
there was nothing but a dream
yet
I still shouted how much I love you
until it echoes inside your ears

'Do you hear my beating heart?'
He asked me once
Well this I must say,
He is not a musician
Yet, I do listen to his heartbeat
Making a rhythm, a soundtrack
A love song
Just for me to hear

feels very nice lately
cause I get to receive
his mustache sleepy kiss
that is kindda ticklish

It was told that differences create harmony
that yin balances yang
that South completes North
that the oceans beautify the land
but I realize;
you and I
are the day and the night
that exist not for each other
to ever meet

there I stood amidst the shimmering lights
faking another curve on my red lips last night
until I saw a familiar silhouette with a longing scent
slowly walking towards my walls of pretend

he was the one who got away with a piece of my heart
yet he managed to kiss me like we were never apart

To love is to hand over the power to others
it comes with a big risk of happiness and torment
and I, myself, love
I love so deep, I can make the ocean jealous
even though the depth would suffocate me
I still love people deeply
as they continue to send me
into a war I cannot win
—the battle between what I feel
and what I know

there, inside his eyes when he stare,
I saw the world that never exists
and when he laughs at my jokes,
I figured out that love has a sound

There goes the guy
Wearing a scarf like you
There goes the song
Saying 'somewhere only we know'
There goes the poster
Movie of begin again
There goes the dead escalator
Reminding me of our date
There goes the friend
Who has your name
There goes my eyes
Dwelling in salt water
There goes my heart
Breaking like I can't bear it

It's impossible for me
to walk into the road I cannot see
and the road where I want to move ahead to
is the one that only leads me closer to you

Ah go ahead
Throw me the ball of blame
I can hit them strike to shame
but I'd love it better
if you'd just put the sport to rest
and come inside my arms
where you'll feel warm and safe
above all this mess
settles the love we always have

I think the sweetest dress a girl can wear is her man's shirt

look at my new heart
he sewn so beautifully
and I wear proudly
cause it makes my smile glows
and the blue sky follows
the birds hum our love song
like nothing ever went wrong

Nobody has ever made me stand
by the tip of my toe just to taste
one single kiss like you do

Nobody also has ever made me sit
down looking at my own frown
and covered under the shadow of you

Maybe because you are
the tallest guy I've ever met
who makes my life never seem flat

there is a certainty inside your eyes
that makes me want to buy a canvas
and just write every single detail
of happiness you brought for me
until the white paper becomes black
cause I spill all the ink on earth
about the way you kiss me every 5 mins
the way you lose control like a kid
the way you smell like sugar rush
the way your joke hurts my belly
and the way you are
perfectly
fits me

You are the only guy
who never makes me shy
cause you tell me I'm beautiful
before I use my make up tools
you always say my body is warm
and it belongs inside your arms
you love kissing my bare lips
yet appreciate when I paint it red as tulips
whether I'm dressed or undress
you stare at me like I'm the best

He's just the worst in so many things;

he doesn't know how to make me sad
naturally he can only make me smile
he only speaks one language; honesty
even if it hurts, he's so bad at lying
he is having a hard time sleeping without me
every night, I must stay inside his bubbly arms
he cannot be too far from me, such a spoil
locking his lips to mine is the only time
he stops saying he misses me

he's just the worst boyfriend
whom I love so **** much

When you're absent from my mind
You never do

The doubt you ease
I can trust you

How I fall so hard for you
It happened in a flash

The amount of love I received from you
It's overflowing

Why you choose to stay with me
Clueless

The way you make me surrender myself
I just effortlessly do

What makes you, you
I am thankful for it

Who can be compared to you
No one is possibly better

Where we'd end
This, *I never want to know