In the wind she whispers secrets
in the rain she shares her sorrows
beneath our feat she gently moves
a silent promise of a new tomorrow

I have seen life and I have laughed and I have cried.  I have met struggle and pain but I have endured and I have tried.  I have learned much in my time, experience that you may not see.  Yet through heart ache and pain I will smile and you will know that I am me.

I welcome every day with a facade dancing in the sun while in the shadows little by little my soul dies.

Hi, how are you?  I'm fine.

What a lovely day.

No, please.  Allow me.  I write the most beautiful lies.

I think of you with sorrow
knowing true happiness is something you will never know
You threw away today in search of tomorrow
because you only learned how to hurt and never to let go

I welcome every day with a facade dancing in the sun while in the shadows little by little my soul dies.

Hi, how are you?  I'm fine.

What a lovely day.

No, please.  Allow me.  I write the most beautiful lies.

Sleep to awaken a new day
Dream to imagine it fullfilled

I wait until it's quiet
and you think your all alone
Reading, writing, drawing
or just talking on the phone

I sneak around so silent
you've no idea I'm there
until I pounce before you
as you jump out of your chair

You're mad and start to chase me
You think I run away
But the game is just beginning
I chose YOU to come and play

I hide under the couch
your looking in the room
I go under the table
you'll probably give up soon

I crouch as I get closer
you wonder where I've been
then I pounce right there before you
and the chase is on again!

Dancing in the moonlit sky,  a silent melody
The snow begins to fill the night, falling gracefully
They spin and dance under the stars carried by the wind
As winter's song fills their hearts they dance and laugh and sing

A softly spoken whisper
like tender falling snow
I paint for you this picture
that my heart you come to know

The shadows paint my soul inside
and leave this trail for you to see
the darkest story where heroes die
and mortal souls beg to be free
I dance in dreams of joy and mourning
black tears without a care
and live out this dream set before me
midnight whispers in the air

I first heard you giggle
and I couldn't hold my smile
Then I heard you laugh
and I sat down for a while
I watched as you spun and danced around the flowers
and treasured every minute and wished that they were hours

Your eyes speak only truth, your smile wide and free
You melt my heart again every time you look at me
your hugs are so sincere when you grab and hold me tight
and I remember what's important, and everything will be alright

I wallow in your tears as your words rip my heart asunder, soul thrown to the winds I drown in the agony of your love.

If I smiled for you, what would you take from me
If I eased your pain, would you set me free
If I carried your burden, would you carry mine
Or leave me alone, to read ..

We are
   all at once
          the same
yet different

Bodies drifting through a timeless space
Navigating the maze of life

For now drifting apart, until we are made whole again

We will always be together
I will never let you go
I guess that forever
was a long time ago...

I've relived my memories so many times
and acted out the anger and blurred the lines
of who I am and who you were and who I never wanted to be
But I can't seem to escape the you in me

and I've been told to let go and I've been told to forgive
but who are you to judge if you never lived
the darkness that was my life
you are just my wife...

But I see it now and I think I understand
to forgive isn't for them it's to make me a better man
because I can't let go if I'm always angry inside
and it's just as well, the past should have died... a long time ago

It was a winters morning with clear blue skies
I saw the sunrise in your eyes
I felt the clouds in your every breath
You were my all with nothing left

You wrap yourself tightly with your blankets of pain and sorrow
Are you afraid of letting go, afraid of starting a new tomorrow?
Not letting go keeps you away from me
Alone is not where you want to be.

Don't savor the pain yet reject the hand that tries to help you though I cannot possibly understand what you have been through.  But I see you, I see your pain.  I may not have lived your past but it didn't last and yet we can if you do not push me away so fast.  I just want to listen when you want to talk, hold you when you can't and tell you how the stars got their names.

The pain of you keeps me awake at night and I keep it close thinking I just might hold you again and say it's alright, but now I only travel memories, treasuring every mile and I wipe the tears all the while knowing sadness has a way of making me smile

I'll break you and then I'll love you whole again

I'm sorry that I hurt you
I'm sorry that I stopped
I'm sorry that I chased you
I'm sorry I got caught
I'm sorry for my temper
I'm putting all this in the past
I'm sorry for today
But today will be the last

When the burdens of the world have all come crashing down,
when there's no one left to hold no comfort to be found;
when daylight seems a blur and the only peace is dark,
I'll leave you to your metaphors and pierce my breaking heart

Walking in the rain
the clouds a sad shade of gray
I notice my reflection in a puddle
who I was, who I am and who I could have been

The rain washes away all sorrows.  

I am left naked, reborn, looking for my sunny day.

Lo, how the night doth scream her silent fury, the brightness of the sky a prison for my soul, the infinite span of mind where time holds still, a reflection upon the stars

A scream that shatters the stars and the night is broken
The sun deftly approaches, the rain pours down
My soul is drenched, red as a crimson rose

The fire spreads, I am consumed
Where have you gone night?!!  Where are my stars!?!!

The dawn approaches, the scene is set
I draw the curtains close around me, this act is about to end

A whimsical pleasure shared by most, lying in restless slumber while the few battle the onslaught of demons and man alike, ever vigilant, tirelessly or tiredly on guard against the approaching dawn, that the knight might stand and win the battle against the approaching dawn

But she comes, radiant and warm in her beauty
Bringing new life, new hope, a new day

And I scream

I wash the world from my body.  Thick in its desires, its wants and needs.  Heavy with grief and suffering.  I try to purge myself of the violence and greed and the fascination with death and dying.  

I shed clothes as a knight shedding his armor in hopes that the light will find a way to cleanse my soul.

I lie exposed for all to see.  No barriers, no cover-up, just me.  But you turn away.  Do I disgust you?  My head hangs low.  The water pouring down my back.  Should I wash away too?  Would you know I was gone?

My sins are cleansed but the water continues to pour.  There is no friend, there is no love, there is no god.  I am man, incomplete.

As I wash away, I see you coming.  Will you rescue me?  Or am I already lost?  A trickle, a tear, a drop of water in the shower.

I loved you for your broken soul, your frightened eyes and lonely tears
I offered you my shallow pride, my hidden scars and jealous fears

I fought with you and yelled at you all the while my eyes crying out Why can't you just hold me one more time?!!  

But you are not here, only the scars you left behind.

Many are the things I would say to you
if I knew I would not have you tomorrow

I would hold your hand
and laugh and cry
and share in your joys and sorrows

And as the sun sets tonight
if I whisper just right
I hope my words you will hear

I will always love you
and in my heart
you will always be near

Soft as a mothers glow, this star so warm and bright
from a place too far away to hold, yet warms a summers night
as evening falls to sleep it goes this stoic friend of mine
upon a new day she unfolds, hello my sweet sunshine

Do you seek comfort from the rain
or dance before the coming storm
have restless slumber, hidden pain
or misery that would be no more,
fallen skies broken dreams
or hopes for something out of reach
shed a tear or brim with laughter
let your actions be your speech

It seems it is illegal to have a love like mine

The police went to question me and of our love I told
and broke the poor mans heart with a tale of love so bold
My lawyer came to give me council and asked me to be frank
I told him all about you dear and the poor guys heart just sank
And finally to the judge we went and I gave him my guilty plea
for it's true how much I love you and how much you love me
I spoke for what seemed days to cover all our past
From the first day we met, until I held you last
Finally the judge called to me and said that I must stop
for the sake of every broken heart from his back to the cop

All around me, darkness
I’m feeling so enclosed
emptiness and silence
feelings left exposed

A softly spoken whisper
my inner voice protests
There must be more to life
Then this lonely emptiness

I'd love to be an eagle, soaring through the sky!  Breathing in the heavens, an ever watchful eye.  Surfing all the currents, wings beating strong and proud  Witnessing a sunrise, high above the clouds.

I'd love to be a dolphin, gliding in the sea.  Jumping over waves, playing gleefully.  Racing with my pod full of life and song, chasing after sunsets to see what lies beyond.

I'd love to be a rabbit, I'd love to be a bear.  I'd love to be an owl with an ever watchful stare.  I'd love to be a monkey, swinging all around. I'd love to be a horse, racing on the ground!

I'd love to be these things and the greatest part of all, is knowing that I will, when asleep I fall

I admit I'm not good at math no matter what I try
Me + You should equal 2 but now it seems we're 5
Without you I am less than one, I can't take you from I
At least there's one I do real good and that is multiply

The world is crazy in a perfect balance of naive non sequitur and delusional grandeur and I the tail that left the dog for the hat that just got madder

For every day with a bright sun and a clear sky there seems to be a gloom reserved just for me.  In this familiar darkness I see all too well the demons within and without.

And so I wander through every day with a clouded mind as if in a maze
and every night reciting a prayer to mother pain and father torment.

Despair a place of solace, disillusion a state of being,
when emptiness routes the soul forbidding any dreams.
You try to smile your placid smile with untold torment tearing you apart inside.  Was it seen?  Could they know?  Have they discovered the secret you try to hide?

Ignorance is bliss and in ignorance those around us live their lives blissfully, but pain is bitter sweet and consumes us frivolously.

And someday it will all end.

Amen

Morning dew lends her kiss my skin so soft and sweet
 
the scent of heaven in the air, rich soil beneath my feet
 
rays of sunshine warm and bright as they come to say hello
 
while a gentle breeze blows on by leaving petals in the meadow

A soul full of jealousy,
a heart full of pride,
I struggle to keep my demons inside
 
My mind is corrupted,
my anger unleashed
my path is unclear as I change my stride
  
Relentless anguish,
unbearable pain,
a place I know all to well,
Heaven help me, for I have fallen,
I'm stuck on the wrong side of hell

I am god the devil born of strife
living this hell that we call life
a tormented servant a leader of man
an empty shell no salvation at hand
You reached out but I forgot to say hello
I died but you forgot to say goodbye

When the burdens of the world have all come crashing down,
when there's no one left to hold no comfort to be found;
when daylight seems a blur and the only peace is dark,
I'll leave you to your metaphors and pierce my breaking heart

Dream to chance
a change in time
a place for me
and you are mine
a dance a swirl
oh what a sight
I’ll hold you close
I’ll hold you tight
 
The warmth you seek is here inside, I’ll fill your hearts desires
The cold will never break our stride, my loves a burning fire