The water drops slowly and plinks The pendulum sways and echoes Through the rustling leaves, the birds sing Lock the room, take out my phone, and view photos The ones I took of you You look so pretty when you think nobody’s looking Caught in the moment, uncovered by the clothes There’s so much skin to see Where should I start? Where should I look? Your chest or your sinewy abdomen? Or your well-fed legs? Forever captured undressed You pretty lashes seaming your closed eyes, sleeping I’m in rapture, watching you dream Don’t mind me, I’m just taking a peak It’s just between you and me Soon the sounds of my palm Begin to get louder than the flowing water My breathing couples up with whimpering A built up for crescendo in my head And in my body My bed pulls me tighter as I sweat You look so good in this photo You look so good So good You You You, you, you, you y- …… …… ……
I’m so ****** up.....
A guilty ****** p.s: this is fiction, i don't condone such actions
My dear lover I’m so impressed Your hygiene is perfect Your room clean, dustless The midnight blue curtains Waving over the Iranian carpet Your bed instead of smelling like sweat It’s only shampoo and deodorant Your clothes; they don’t even smell Honestly that’s a disappointment I thought I will found you here but they’re so clean
I saw your unsent letters on the table Ah so polite, never thought you are capable of that An unused ashtray, A calendar stuck on the wall, still displaying April All these books and diaries from your sponsors So many pictures of girls in your room Which one is yours, which one is most miserable Your closet is full of your shoes I saw your shirts hanging, the ones you wear And the ones you haven’t yet These fabrics that enchant the world surrounding you
Such a big mansion you have Glimmering and glistening I almost got lost The disinfected floors and phenols Led me to the bathroom Splendid! Is it here you get all naked? Oh these fortunate mirrors, curtains, tiles and showers Get to watch you all alone
I danced and pranced in the hallways With my feet tapping loudly on the floor And the kitchen where food drips off your lips And the garden where you sip your tea And the veranda where you watch the sun sink in And the garage with your fancy white car
Before I took my leave, I traced all the walls with my fingertips Imbue them with my fallen skin So a part of me will always remain with you Such a thrill, so romantic It was getting late so I had to run Until next time when I decide to come Until next time when you’re not home And I’ll be there, all alone
I wanted to say a few words I couldn't have said otherwise My eyesight is sore and blurred My voice, it constantly lies You think I despise you so much But that's nowhere close to my feels I imagine your heavy, strong touch My heart's clenched and my head reels You sit, and I watch from afar You walk, and I'm trailing behind For me you're a guiding star Still the rocketship's nowhere to find There's many lewd jokes on my mind But now they're all totally gone My head is so empty and blind Whenever you're being around I sit here cross-legged and wait I'm waiting for you to start talking You've always so much to say I have to stand up and get walking Walking away, it's all pointless My mind is a ludicrous mess My body's all sluggish and jointless From my thoughts, I have nowhere to rest I want you to notice and praise me I want you to cry and to smile I want all your good days and bad days I've wanted you now for a while They always considered me ****** But that's how it is, I don't mind As long as you'll listen, I'll tell you: There'll be always a room by my side.
Waking up to locked doors and closed shades Walking while observing faces, you fade I go through my day with you on my mind Although we're never face to face, I know you're never far behind Go home with knife in hand Just in case it happens again Lock myself up, shut myself in get ready for another night Where I see your shadow dance across my walls and my fear blinds my sight Frozen in pain of the memories that remain Try to sleep just to wake and do it all again tomorrow even though I pretend That im alright, and safe, and ok knowing your search never ends.