Monotony is the key,
To my own Insanity.

Who am I,
Who should I be,
I have no clue,
But I question thee.

An answer unknown,
To both you and me,

To who seeks,
To who questions,
To who does not believe
That one remains unchanged!

Mum I love you,
More than I can say,
And more than I can do,
I cannot live a day
Without seeing you,
Without giving you
My morning Kiss,
Without holding you
Around my arms,

You where the one,
That took care of me,
That listened to me,
You where my only friend
When I had none,
You where the one
That mended my heart,
When it was broken,

So I thank you Mum
For being the best one !

Up on my roof,
Watching the stars,
So bright,
I light a cigar,

I inhale these beautiful toxic fumes,
Watching it slowly burn,
Wanting to be able,
To take my past away,

The same way,
I exhale the fumes of the cigar,
As they mix with the air,
And slowly fade away

The same way,
The cigar turns to ashes,
And the ashes,
Fly away

Fell badly in love,
until one day it stopped.
He told me he loves me
And that he cannot live without me,
Not even a day had passed that he'd already forgotten about me,
As if I where never there...
He'd forgotten every memory we made.
Like a story never written...
He had said he'll wait for me...
Blindly I believed his words,
Later knowing he had never waited a day,
That he planned his new romantic escapade,
Realizing he had never really loved me...
And that he only liked the game.
Felt as if I dug a grave for my heart...
Emptiness and sorrow filled my soul.
My heart had died and my soul was too.
Weeks have gone by...and still I feel dead.
Unable to find happiness...
Refusing any love...
Trying to forget...
To find someone new...
But I feel better alone instead...

It was a time when I was alone,
as I always will and forever be...

In a Mirror,
I shalt not look,
For I dread the Mirror,
Behind my eyes.

For when I looked,
It craved for my hand,
And in mere darkness,
I fain reached hers.

Round & round
In circles I go
An Endless cycle
That finally was gone.

After that,
What is there left,
Just an empty bottle.

A few dropplets,
Are only left,
Remains of what was,
And no clue of what will be.

In a moment of an act,
A cruel memory fogged my sight,
As my acting started to fade
My past emotions started to crawl out,
I started walking and trembling,
My eyes wide open,
I did not always see what was in front of me,
My past came back to reality
and mixed up with the act.
It ****** me up completely,
causing me to not breath
Panic took over,
And tears made their way out,
When they asked what happened,
No words could come out,
I only blutterd out bits of words,
With no meaning to their ears.
As out of fear I couldn't speak a word,
Until I was calmed down with another one's touch.

To whom may wish my death,

I ask of you one request.
Take me to the edge of a cliff,
Where land and sea's, and windy breeze,
Sing together silent harmonies.

There I stand staring at the sunset,
Peacefully breathing, embracing my death.
As I take my first step,
You fiercely push me over the edge.

I'm finally free falling,
as the sun slowly sets,
As I draw my last breath,
The image of a perfect world, is
Imprinted in my eyes.

My imagination,
Is a mishap
Of my own creation.

Due to it,
I tend to lose myself in thoughts,
And forget about reality,

As in dreams,
I can create my happiness,
To escape the cruel reality.

One may ask,
For my best poem.
None can be given
As the best one
Is still being written,

Each one I write is great
Until another is made

A heart lost,
Battles half won,
Injured souls,
Lifeless bodies
Pilling up...
Blood shed,
Watery eyes,
Till all that's left, is
Sobbig for the dead

These four walls,
In darkness they lay,
Saddness & Sorrow
Is all they portray.

In these four walls,
Smeared a dull blue,
Closed up I was,
And tortured by you.

I want to cry,
I want to scream,
I want to take out.
All the pain
I have in me,
I want the past
To be forgotten,
I want to be free!
Free from my own cage,
Free from my own self,
Free from all the pain,
I've withheld in me.

I always end up alone,
With no friend nor a lover,
I am just an option,
In many life's.
I am nothing,
But a temporary friend or lover.
I am the one that no one loves,
But I love many.
I am an option.
I am a choice.
Forgotten by all
And loved by none.

My love is my Nemesis