Peter Garrett: Poems

30's

Peter Garrett Sep 6

30's

I desperately hold on to
The remnants of my youth
As late autumn dying leaves

Getting older is such a scary thought...

#youth #autumn #leaves

Alcoholism

Peter Garrett Sep 27

Alcoholism

Hold my beer
While I get some whisky
And become a stranger to
Everyone I've ever known

I swear to God I'll never drink again...

#alcoholism #stranger

All about me

Peter Garrett Sep 16

All about me

I should've been a better friend
I should've been there for you
I should've known better...
But as much as it pains me
To admit such terrible truth
You know I've always been
The narcissistic type
And had to make it
All about me

One of the hardests confessions I've ever made...

#regret #truth #narcissistic

Attraction

Peter Garrett Sep 3

Attraction

When our eyes met
And our hands touched
It was inevitable that
Our bodies would
Soon follow

You were as irresistable as ice cream on a summer day...

#attraction #touch

Bang

Peter Garrett Oct 7

Bang

The only thing worse
Than pulling the trigger
Is spending your entire Life
With a barrel on your mouth
Just waiting for that 'bang'

P.s. This is not a poem about suicide. It's about expectations. About living with a heavy burden and never being able to set free of it.

#trigger #barrel #mouth #bang

Beauty

Peter Garrett Oct 4

Beauty

Empires have fallen
For a beauty lesser
Than yours

Helen of Troy would pale by your side

#beauty #fallen #empires

Berlin

Peter Garrett Oct 10

Berlin

Yesterday I took
A day off and drove
All the way to Berlin
A seven hours roadtrip
(Which I made in four)
Like the ones I used to do
Back when we were young
Just because you said that
There'd be some party and
It'd be cool if I showed up

Yesterday I walked
In the pouring rain
Around the Tiergarten
Like we did so many times
Because you were having
A tough day and wanted
To talk about it

Yesterday I've had
Some coffee in our old
Place in Prenzlauer Berg
And I swear that for a
Moment I could glance
Across that familiar table
Your emerald green eyes
And the wild flames of
Your red hair

I know it's kind of stupid
Keep coming to this place
Now that you're happily
Married and with children
Living half the world away
In America

But those memories are
The closest I'll ever be
Of seeing you again
And for that Berlin
Will forever have
A special place
In my heart

Every street is such a vivid reminder of you

#berlin #roadtrip #memories

Bleed

Peter Garrett Nov 4

Bleed

I often think about
How he took you to
That filthy motel and
Made you bleed just
So that he wouldn't

One of my best friends got pregnant when she was a teenager. She was very scared, but wanted the child anyway. Yet her ******* boyfriend (the father) took her to a motel and made her do an abortion.
She never recovered and took her life within a year... no woman should be forced to do an abortion. Just as any woman should be forbidden to do one.

#bleed #abortion

Combo

Peter Garrett Oct 13

Combo

It's such a lovely combo
The warmth of your legs
Paired with the frost
On your heart

You're the whole package

#combo #warmth #frost

Death and taxes

Peter Garrett Oct 17

Death and taxes

It'll all work out
It'll all work out
It'll all work out

These are the words
I've been repeating
To myself nonstop for
The past few months
Like a compulsive
Prayer

But I'm not sure
Of them anymore
To be honest I'm not
Quite sure of anything
These days other than
Death and taxes

A piece about anxiety... plus, I'm a tax auditor, so a little joke about work as well.

#anxiety #death #taxes

Exes and messes

Peter Garrett Aug 19

Exes and messes

Was it true anything you said?
Or that mess was all about
Getting back at your ex?
Placing me on your bed
And then shutting me out
After a meaningless night of ***?

Sometimes I still wonder what it meant...

#ex #mess #***

Fighter's soul

Peter Garrett Sep 26

Fighter's soul

My body is broken
But doesn't really matter
How badly beat up I get
My soul still wants
To pick a fight

I guess we fighters
Are just made like that
We never really know
When and how to quit
We're too **** tough
For our own good

We just want that fire
So we keep pushing
On and forward
Forward and on

Wonder where it'll lead us...

#fighter #soul #fire #forward

Gap

Peter Garrett Oct 28

Gap

If filling the gap
Between the man I am
And the one you deserve
Isn't enough reason to
Get up in the morning
Then I don't know
What ever will

I like to think I'll get there...

#gap #deserve

Hell

Peter Garrett Oct 31

Hell

I've given up religion
After every church said
There's a special place
For people like me
Just for trying to
Make my pain
Go away

My father beat me up pretty badly for as long as I can remember... when I was fifteen I said no more and gave him a little of what he deserved - and got kicked out of his house for it. That same week my first girlfriend dumped me.
It was just too much for a teen to handle without proper help and it seemed like that despair would stay forever. So I went to 3 different drug stores and bought every pain killer I could get my hands into... and took them all at once. I was so lucky my sistem rejected them and made me throw up.
So that's why I cut the cord from church... isn't God love? Isn't God forgiveness? Or am I doomed almost from the start?
I like to think not... I like to think that's no more than an earthly claim.

#religion #church #hell #pain

Home

Peter Garrett Sep 24

Home

I long for home
Though I'm not sure
Where home is anymore

It's exhausting not knowing where you belong...

#home

Inertia

Peter Garrett Aug 28

Inertia

It's as sad as it gets...
To behold the world out there
Bursting with magnificent colours
While I'm comfortably stuck
On the other side of the glass
Drowning in my own inertia

A few words about getting older. About everyday struggles and how futile they seem. Maybe society is just built to glue us to the ground... or maybe there's just something wrong with me.

#inertia #life #drowning

Little thrills

Peter Garrett Sep 1

Little thrills

You say I'm insane for
Driving my brand new cabrio
With its roof wide open
In the pouring rain
But have you ever tried?

Who needs that new car smell anyway...?

#thrill #rain #insane #cabrio

Mind over body

Peter Garrett Oct 21

Mind over body

Mind over body
Is what they tell me
Yet I can't help to feel
That's just placing
A broken thing
Over another

I feel so exhausted lately... in every single way. Hopefully it shall pass.

#mind #body #broken

Ode to coffee

Peter Garrett Oct 25

Ode to coffee

Only you can take
Me out of bed and
Get me through the
Dullness of my day
Only you can give me
Energy enough to keep
All those intrusive
Thoughts at bay

No need for sugar
No need for cream
I like you dark
Bitter and true
I believe we make
Such a perfect team
When we're together
I never feel blue

So call it love
Call it addiction
I couldn't care less
If I have a cup of
Hot strong coffee
I won't fade to stress

Just one cup will be fine... or maybe twenty.

#coffee #ode #energy

Pizza love

Peter Garrett Sep 6

Pizza love

With flour, you can make dough
With tomatoes, you can make sauce
But top them with cheese
And add a little heat
And you can make magic

There's food, there's great food, and then there's pizza.

#pizza #love #magic

Poetry scam

Peter Garrett Sep 10

Poetry scam

I could never write
Anything remotely
As flawless as you do
So I'll fake it until
Someday I can find
Beauty in words too

It's hard not to feel like a fraud among such amazing writers here at hepo.

#poetry #scam #fraud

Quarter life crisis

Peter Garrett Aug 26

Quarter life crisis

I used to be bold and fearless
Annoyingly self assured
Daydreaming about greatness
Telling everyone about how
Someday I'd rule the world.

Those days are long gone
Making me feel like a hollow shell
A mere shadow of my former self
And life became all about
Playing a role I simply can't fit
Fooling everyone...
But me

Will this anguish and emptiness ever go away?

#quarterlifecrisis #fooling #pretending

Quite a view

Peter Garrett Sep 19

Quite a view

How I deeply wish that
You could see yourself
The way I do
For it's quite a view

To my wife... how can a person so beautiful have such a terrible self esteem?

Routeless

Peter Garrett Oct 18

Routeless

I wish things could be
As simple as they were
Back then when I would
Pick you up at school
And we'd drive
All day long
Routeless

I miss being young and carefree by your side

#simple #drive #routeless

Stay

Peter Garrett 4h

Stay

You knew from
The very start how
Badly messed up I am
So you should've said no
You should've runaway
Yet I'm glad you didn't
I'm glad you chose
To stay

I can only hope that I haven't fooled you into marrying me...

#messedup #runaway #stay

Suicide

Peter Garrett Aug 12

Suicide

You spoke about leaving
So often and for so long
That I didn't believe
You'd ever be gone

I miss you everyday and I wish I would've been there for you...

#suicide #speakout

Unreplied letters

Peter Garrett Sep 13

Unreplied letters

The weeds in our garden
Grew as fast as the pile
Of your unreplied letters

Such a sad race to behold...

#weeds #garden #letters

Void

Peter Garrett Sep 30

Void

My childhood was
Fu**ed up in a way that
I can hardly feel anything
So now I keep on playing
The character I've created
In a futile attempt to fill
Such endless void

Will I ever get to see colours again...?

#childhood #feel #void

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