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If only our brains were lobotomized,
So we could spend our lives
cuddling all night,
without the weight of worry.
No more missed calls from mom,
just sleep and your arms
kissing you,
laying down into an eternal calm.

I remember the panic in our eyes,
How we looked to the window
When the police lights
danced furiously on the walls
A car’s reflection pulling us
to the great fear of getting caught.
The shade bled red,
and the misery wore blue.

You said,
"I just gotta be sure."
Well, I do too.
But who doesn’t want to know for certain
before they think they found the one?
Are we still meant to be
if we don’t feel that certainty
deep down?

I guess it was confusion
that made me cry.
The echo after our last kiss—
a quiet ache,
like knowing
it may never happen again.
The way your warmth
became a memory
before it even left the room.

You said,
"I just gotta be sure."
Well, I do too.
But maybe it was already fading
in the silence that grew.
Maybe love was the question
neither of us ever knew.

If only you loved me as deeply as i did
so we could sleep through the night again,
Before i saw your greed
without ever worrying.
But it was your heart
That started to lobotimize
That wanted just to be loved, not love
I could sense all of it
Deep and well in your absence
Who have you been touching in your silence?

That time you started to reply late.
That time I gave up sending the first message.
That time you never reached out.
That time I realized how many lies you'd been telling.
That time I blocked you from everywhere back to back
That time I wondered if you tried to text back.
That time I went on a new date.
That time I dumped our pictures and your gifts with a chest wrenching ache.
That time i saw under your mask, your real face.
That time our memories started to fade.
That time I started to forget your face...
Damocles Jun 20
Burning bridges
Playing lyres
Monkeying around
****** every Saturday
There’s plenty to go around

You stole her dignity,
Stole her dignity,
Let it all burn to the ground.

Spoiled in riches,
Games for the wicked
Bloodshed pagan vs Christian
Apollo swallowed pride,
Showed you where you’d fall
You dressed in your best
Held another ball.

You stole her dignity,
Stole her dignity,
Let it all burn to the ground.

In the quiet of your storm
Do the voices carry through
Conscience singing psalms
While you let the devil hit his groove.
No false movements, calculate
Must find prudence, lies enumerate

Play me a song,
Sing me a tale
As you steal her dignity,
Steal her dignity,
Let it all burn to the ground.
The “her” in this piece is the empire of Rome
yelhsa May 22
I love my Narc, I call him dad or daddy. They say I am daddy’s girl; they say my daddy loves me more! As I grew older, I felt I must go to war just to get a few words. Time passes; can I still love my daddy? My heart hurts, I was once my daddy’s prize possession. Now I look in the mirror and cry, I feel like a bad decision. I am the first born, my daddy’s first girl. I know they tell him “You should call her”, but my daddy is a businessman he has no time for his daughter. As soon as my phone rings, I drop everything. “Hi daddy, I miss you! How have you been?” is what I say every time he calls. He never showed affection, so I always ask myself will I be lucky today, “Bye daddy, I love you!”, I just hear the phone call end. I'm in tears. Can you love a Narcissistic father? I do, it’s just harder
KnowOneknowsmeF Dec 2024
There is nothing left to say. You declared with audacity how I was an impediment. I recollected how pitiable I was, desperate for nothing, because it wouldn't, it didn't alter anything. So enamored was I with you, I relinquished half of myself to appease you. The superior parts of me I surrendered willingly to you, as I permitted myself to become illicitly compliant in the scheme of deceiving myself. I believed the half-truths, the falsehoods, and the empty promises. You made a wreck of me, exposing me to such debasingly immoral things. I thought I could trust you after everything we shared. I never knew such passions; I never felt such care. How was I to know none of it was genuine?

Time has elapsed, and I have healed. I have moved on, not as swiftly as you, and it didn't take another to get me here. So, the emails, the texts, the contacting my family needs to cease. It doesn't matter if I'm single. What mattered was that I had so much fight in me to save us I was a willing participant, my own collateral damage when it came to you. I allowed so much and pleaded for so long for you to see me, to love me as I did you. Like you once used to. The fool I played, for it wasn't love at all. It wasn't even lust; it was mere 'usage.' I contorted myself to fit into your world. I reinvented myself to a lower self in place of the worldly woman I once was. I infringed on my intellect and played dumb, forever the fool, all for you. And it still wasn't enough. You told me I was too strong, too independent, and so I diminished myself. My integrity be ******, I lowered my standards and discarded my boundaries to please you. All for what? For you to do exactly what I implored you not to do: to toy with me, to lie and deceive, to harm and torture, to manipulate and abuse. And even then, it wasn't enough. I was never enough.

No matter now. I have healed myself, and I have moved on. How wonderful it is to see I am nowhere near where I used to be, and the me I am today you'll never get close to. So, for all the attempts at contacting me and wanting to talk, I must let it be known I have nothing left to say!
Dealing with a narcissist can be incredibly challenging. In short, it's like being caught in a whirlwind of manipulation and self-centeredness. Narcissists often lack empathy and are primarily focused on their own needs and desires. They can be charming and persuasive, but their behavior can leave you feeling drained, unappreciated, and constantly questioning your own worth. It's a cycle of highs and lows, where you might feel valued one moment and completely disregarded the next. The emotional toll can be significant, as you're often left trying to navigate their unpredictable moods and demands.
Lynette Dec 2024
There is a sadness in my eyes
That no one knows
Feeling lost and alone
The emptiness grows

All I ever wanted was a love, a love that was true
A love that would shelter me when everything was blue

With hope in my eyes and pain in my heart
I look to you to help me restart
My life

Can you put your anger aside and hold my hand through this dark lonely night
And carry me to a brand new day
Where the sky is blue again and the sun shines the way

You are my rock, my shelter from the storm
Can you give to me and keep me safe and warm

Hold me in your arms and never let me go
Letting nothing come between us
Ever again.
Written September 14, 2016 during the throes of narcissistic abuse
Lynette Dec 2024
Her eyes tell a story if you look close enough
Her shoulders are rounded from a life that's been tough

Her days carry on with no hope in sight
The same old song repeated each night

The angst of longing for the one that won't love back
Her heart is heavy and her days are black

But yet she keeps on hoping for him to see the light
To learn how to give himself and make everything alright.

She needs him to be with her while the chips are down
He can't seem to understand why she needs him around

She screams for help but no one hears her call
The one she needs the most won't listen at all

No understanding that this sadness she can't help.
There's no way out for her. Her life is a living Hell.
Written September 14, 2016
David Jacobsen Nov 2024
I love you
I love yo
I love y
I love
I lov
I lo
I l
I
I once....loved.....you.

But you took everything I gave off my self and through it away.
I said everything will be okay, do you trust me? I asked, while you replied a yes.
But you couldn't wait for me or it.
Every day I came home from work you met me with anger and bad words.
You through things at me even though I didn't understand what I had done wrong.
I was exhausted and fatigued but still....I kept on for you.
And still you continued to through me under the buss as I was the one to be blamed on for everything wrongdoing that you did towards me.
No
No
No

I don't love you anymore.
I don't love anyone anymore.
My soul, my heart has been destroyed because of you.
And my mind....it has grown 1000 layers of hardened shield to protect my emotions from escaping out..
Because I have lost hope, trust, love in everyone because of you.

No one will ever hear my deepest emotions anymore... only a "I'm okay".

I hate you for it.... but I'm thankful for the lesson I have learned because of what you did towards me.

I am and never will be the same person ever again who I watched in the mirror yesterday.

©copyright 2024 David Jacobsen
This a poem I wrote after feeling that the relationship I am in now is a very Narcissistic relationship. My only freedom I have is writing for now.
brynna Oct 2024
i guess you didn’t mean what you said
cause it’s 7am and i’m hanging by a thread
last weekend, your bride
now nothing but a downside.
it’s been awhile! these next couple may be a little rough 😅
I should've been a better friend
I should've been there for you
I should've known better...
But as much as it pains me
To admit such terrible truth
You know I've always been
The narcissistic type
And had to make it
All about me
One of the hardests confessions I've ever made...
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