lived in his heart is this ounce of pain
every moment just seemed to pass behind his back
victory was all in vain
igniting the fire within his world of black

at last, humanity's strongest appeared
cradled in his palm are the tears he hid
keen as the blades that all have feared
ending it with his own blood to bleed

reaching with no one to depend
meek as he absorbed the reality
as he asks himself if this is the end
not yet for he is the strongest of all humanity

when everything is too much to bear
and you think everything is falling apart in the air.
you must remember,
i'll always be there somewhere.
remind yourself and swear,
that everyone has the chance to repair.
sometimes we fall ensnare,
but one thing you should always forswear:
you are unique, you are rare
and you deserve all the care.

oh what good would it do
if you knew I waited for you.
back at where we met
when things were all set

its true whenever I cry
i hear you crumble and sigh
and the looks I gave,
were just stares engraved

but darling, I do not expect.
i fear you'll go and reject
that I waited for that seven-hour flight
though I was frightened by the bite

i just need a little rest
a week or so would suffice
no time to be pressed
give myself a time to realize

let me figure things out
there's a lot going around in my mind
let the season be in drought
i'll see what i can find

go away for now
what i need is no one's company
i may have no idea how
but let me rest harmoniously

maybe you don't really care at all
indeed, I'm one to blame
end this to forget the fall
lost is myself from all this game

echoes running thoroughly upon my head,
my my, these words i hear repeatedly said
lightning and thunder fumbling in my bed
a sight i see, the color red

the quiet resonance filling my ears
all that is left are cries and tears
sighed and breathed, no one hears
this halting life, in my mind, pierced

keep on screaming, they say
living always have a price to pay
so come what may
perhaps its too late to stay

I always wonder why by the end of the month
Every smell changes like seasons fall into place
How today would smell sappy and fresh
But tomorrow it’ll be sugary and sweet

Once, I saw you changing it
I asked why you do that
You smiled and handed it to me as I sniff it,
“Nothing really lasts long.”

Whenever I get a sniff of this it reminds me of that place
I’d always go at the back seat or beside you
But now you’re gone it’s never the same
For I never experienced being beside you again

Now, I get why you change it every month,
For even the pleasant smell of an air freshener is temporary,
Despite of its strong and rich scent
There’ll be a time it needs to be replaced

Soft and musky
Clean and cool
Mild and delicate
The scents you always loved

So as I change my car freshener,
I still wonder,
If you were here by my side,
Would you be the one to change it every end of the month?

if this was just a simple fancy,
how come it lasted years
where you're the only one I see
albeit you've caused these tears?

amidst where I was lost,
you existed beneath the hue.
soon, I hope our lives will cross.
this time, I won't let go of you.

pain is a proof that we are alive.
that in any order, we always strive.
we sometimes contrive,
but we always remember to thrive.

we are willing to do anything just to survive.
in any deep seas, we are willing to dive.
even if it is pain that we derive.
for pain is a proof that we are alive.

you're like a ray of sunshine
a beam that steadies my heart 'til I'm fine
a someone that always holds me on line
in my head, you are mine

although i **** you so often
you always make my heart soften
still, i can't tell you this, i said again
so I'm just gonna write my feelings out with a pen

you're a mystery and we both know it
I am as well but I'll never submit
we both question our very existence
for that, I say good riddance

in actuality, I do not want to bother
but the curiosity makes me think harder
are you feeling the same way as I am?
maybe not, maybe you're just like them

so I try to tell myself perhaps it's just overwhelming
the crippling feeling of mystery is seething
though it's not my first time to encounter this,
at the end, will I still take the risk?

it's funny how i remember you in any way possible,
and when I do,
i realize you're irreplaceable,
how i wish i am too.

there's this time i heard your favorite song,
i reminisce how you'd repeatedly say you love it,
and when i do, i listen for it so long,
suddenly, the sadness just hits.

i even recall the moments when you get all my joke,
remembering that my humor is not something anyone can perceive,
and when i do, i just laugh and croak.
it's sad that you just had to leave.

i think of the time when you first heard my voice,
you kept on teasing how i sounded so cute,
but now that you're gone i have nothing to rejoice.
instantly, everything just turns mute.

do you remember when i tried not paying attention to you?
when i keep leaving you on read?
i was just so scared that you'll go and leave me out of the blue,
funny cause now that's what happened.

and i still recall when we play this certain game,
i'd be the one to start it but I always forget to join so I would be shocked.
now, without you, it is not the same.
cause without you, everything just stopped.

you keep on reminding me to remember,
so i try my best to recall.
i know for a fact that you'll never be back again ever,
but I just wanna say, I remember it all.

there are things you must say,
there are things you shall not
let your emotions sway
every word means a lot

yes it is freedom
an expression needed to be told
feelings in wham
thou shall not be bold

you shall always feel the need
to understand, to accept and to care
words enable people to bleed
a pain they would not be able to bear

as the little bird tries to fly,
it explored the very sky,
with her wings waving so high,
with the joy she cry

as the little bird tries to sing,
she sang so loud hoping one could hear a thing,
she waved again her little wing,
little did they know she was yelling

as the little bird tries to speak,
no one wants to hear for she's so meek
everyone thought it was just a trick
but they can't see the tears on her cheek

as the little bird tries to escape
she tries to fit in any shape
with her wings she casually drape,
her little body she gently scrape

as the little bird tries to cry
she began to look at the sky
is she here to live or to die
no one really knows why

there's this creature,
everyone seems to have in nature.
it can attack like a vulture.
every mind, it can torture.

horror and futile.
weak and fragile.
in this, we're fatal.
this is crucial

your eyes had always guided me.
unconsciously, I follow that beady sight.
they allow me to see,
the purest of the night.

your lips had always guide my move
unknowingly, I obey your delicate brim.
they allow me to prove
that this world is not so grim.

thus, I shall always seek
that face of yours so I'll be guided.
without you, I surely will be weak.
however, our world now is divided.

i tried to search you from the obviousness
with the help of the memories I've gathered
but all I am is helpless
perhaps, my memory is all withered

i tried to find you with the clues you have given
all what you had left I tried using
but now even the odds have turned even
still, there is not much finding

even if I won't find you
remember that I tried
though I'm not sure if what we had was true
remember, I'll always be by your side

i have a lot to think about
like why are kettles stout?
many hesitations and doubt
perhaps I'm just doing this for clout

is it me or the atmosphere changed?
did the war suddenly wage?
how i wish these feelings would age
entrapped inside and caged

was it your affection that swayed me?
maybe its just my self, silly me
remembering that things arent easy
i know, this will pass, eventually

maybe i was not just thinking straight
or could it be just a bait?
should i stop or wait?
such feeling i cant hate

well, maybe its just my silly mind
giving meanings, i should just rewind
this sight might have gone blind
but lately, you're what these eyes find

i wanna get mad
and curse you so bad
you vanished all of a sudden
now my heart's all harden

i wanna get angry
but if I hear atleast just one sorry
it's more than enough
for my heart isn't that tough

i wanna be ******
for all these feelings i have risked
however, when it comes to you
i don't even know what's true

i wanna be happy
but without you it's all just lonely
so come to me,
for when its you, i'll always be ready

I'll never be the wondrous kid
that you once knew
whose feelings you try to hid
who was naive with no clue

I'll never be the child
that you once spoke of highly
in your eyes I'm exiled
as I left quietly

I'll never be the daughter
that you once molded
whom you planned to hold forever
in your palms, i was guarded

I'll never be the listener
that they once relied on
in their sights I'm a betrayer
the grudges they have are a ton

I'll never be the friend
whom they once smiled with
for the ties are loose ends
because of what I did

I'll never be the shoulder
that they once held to
so who would hold her
when she is blue?

I'll never be the person
that you were once fond
whom you paid much attention
that these feelings spawned

I'll never be her
whom you once loved so much
like your favorite sweater
that you wear with no match

I'll never be enough
for them and for you,
indeed, it's tough
now that i have no one to hold onto

the moment you slipped out of my hands
was the moment I regret to let you go
despite I only loved you once
but so much so.

you broke my heart.
but little did you know what you did was an art,
brushes and paint are all its part.
boy, you weren't that smart.

you made me feel ******,
but now you're acting like you're all harmed.
wounds and stabs were all planned.
boy, you should've known how to withstand.

Some time, let's hope we meet,
eyes to eyes, feet to feet.
When we do, we'll feel the heat,
we will lose all our senses and our wit.

Some time, let's try to knit,
every bad thing that can be it.
We both know there ain't a writ,
so let's just get coffee and have a sit.

Some time, I'll buy you meat.
Something that the hunger can hit.
Something in your tummy will fit.
Maybe, I, too, shall buy some wheat.

Some time, let's not just meet.
No eyes to eyes, no feet to feet.
Because when we do, instead of heat,
the coldness will be the one to remove our wit.

too good to be true,
sensations i feel with you.
save me, i beg you.

at the end of the day
one should always remember
rest and meditate in any way
the stress you should not bear

rest for it's what you deserve
rest because the day is over
rest for the day will swerve
rest because you need it more than ever

it's funny how it's always that person
when something random comes up
we think of them without reason
then your mood goes up

you'll feel happy sometimes
maybe even guilty when you're reminded
like this moment where i write rhymes
due to that person i remembered

it's a long way to your thought
but when it's ending, you realize
this person is not whom you must sought
then the thinking shall finalize

it's funny how it's always that person
sometimes you just can't help but fathom
you're being reminded in any season
then you wonder where does this come from