My Soul Reflects The Darker Shades,
Once Was Full But All Soon Fades,
My Soul When Formed Was Pure & Bright,
Reality Soon Flicked Off The Light.

My Garden Grows & Withers In Time,
Mountains Mount There More To Climb,
The Skies Will Grey & Lighten Too,
The Stuff Of Life Will Frighten You.

If Spirit Dies It Can Be Reborn I Cut Mine Out Like A Coat To Be Shorn.

Was Never A Sheep It Wasn't My Form,  
Angels Could Weep We Transformed To A Storm,
Demons Still Seek So I Have To Inform.

Seraphim Sing To The World & The Calm:
" In Life You Need Learn, Or You're Not Our Concern.
Inferno You Should Burn, If From The Light You Would Turn. "

So Each Day I Take A Note,
Of What I've Learned & What I've Wrote,
Of Every Deed That's Destined To Float,
Of Every Bird & Every Boat.

Hungered All Along
Though Only Just For Him,
The Currents Are So Strong
Across The Sea I'll Swim.

He Taught Me How To Love
He Told Me Not To Dim,
He Was Neon To My Heart
Never Cold Or Left In Parts,
Acid Sugar I'm So ****
Misdirection Throws The Darts.

Empty From The Gong
Made Of Space I'm Vaccum Sealed,
Empathy Was Arson
So I'm Still Charred & Not Quite Healed.

Apples Are Peeled,
Lemons Are Lemonade,
Destiny Has Killed,
So The Fates Eliminate.

You'll Be ******* Your Teeth Out For Months If You Cross Me,
Can't Believe He Stepped Up Here's My **** He Can Toss Me.

He's A Cheating Dog That Never Amounted To ****,
Remember When You Grabbed Me In The Club & Mounted My ****.

I'll Dismember All The Lies & Bless Farewell To This Ship,
Hit A Whole Ice Berg Let His Views On Life Tip.

Always Had It Soft,
Your Parents Paid The Cost,
Now It's Time To Grow A Pair I Know You're Not A Boss,
Treat Me Like A Joke But You Know It Is Your Loss.

I Am Like Whole Inferno You're Just Made Of Rust,
Obliterate What You Reiterate
While You're Throwing Dust,
Fictitious As Fiction So There Is No Trust,
If I Go In Then Be Aware It Is Just.

I Wear My Skin,
I Am My Sin,
Took It From The Fire Made The Flames Go Dim.

If I Could Win,
I'd Earn My Wings,
But As The Bard Sings,
(We Want Everything)
So That's Why It Stings.

That's Why We Hurt,
We're Looking For Gold
But We Only Find Dirt.
Shedding My Tears &
Acting So Curt,
Wiping My Eyes Against
Your Old T Shirt.

I Wear My Pride,
I Hurt Inside,
Took It From The Water So The Soul Could Revive.

I Know It's No Loss,
I'm Not On A Cross,
I'm Not Above You
& I Don't Give A Toss.

I've Been My Own Man
I've Held My Own Hand,
Don't Come Back Now You Understand.

I Fell In Love With The Fire (.)
I Always Try But I Never Tire,
I Won't Confront The Purest Liar (.)
Sat On The Point Of A Churches Spire.

I Won't Listen To His Hate Speech (.) I Think Of Comets 'Cause I'm Out Of Reach,
He Bristles When You Question (.)
'Cause These Thistles Have No Answers.

Prickling Up But Steadily Firing Missiles Up,
Tickles My Gut Preaching Biblical Love,
These People Are Vessels That Jesus Won't Touch,
Whilst Holding Their Crosses It All To Much.

I Won't Drink The Holy Host (.)
I'll Char That Flesh Like Toast,
I Won't Feast Upon Your Doubt (.)
Because The Beast Knows I'm About.

Satanic Child So Demonically Wild,
I Set The Scene & Keep Them All Riled,
4 Sets Of Talons But I Had Them Filed,
Compared To The Devil I'm Certainly Mild.

The Crows Caw,
Its A Close Call,
Hidden In A Ring Of Toadstool,
Had To Run Before The Roads Fall,
Against The Fey We Fare Small.

Gutted The Planet,
The Unseelie Planned It,
Flames Of War (.)
The Reptiles They Fanned It,
The Truth Is Much More (.)
But Who Here Is Candid.

Volcanic Eruption & Spiritual Disruption,
Cosmic Consumption & Intelligent Destruction.

The Fey With Their Way
Make The Earths Axis Sway,
The Night Takes The Day
While We Humans Pray.

The Crows They All Caw,
Mourning Shrouds All Fall,
Warning Clouds Will Not Stall,
But I'm Safe With The Toadstool.

I Cannot Lie.

I Mean It's Really Sort Of Bad.

Think Back On (.) All The Things You Thought You Had.

Now Your Sat Holding Your Sides,
Only On Paper Do You Confide,
Your Closest Experience With Suicide,
But You Hope That Its Gone Now (.)
So You Can't Decide.

In A World Full Nerves (.) & On Sparks I Fly (.) In A World I Don't Deserve (.) I Only Hope To Try.

Just Look After You,
Can't See How I Love You,
Can't See My Concern.

Lit At Both Ends, The Candle Burns.

Take Time For You,
Breath & Think True,
Don't Force A Reaction,
You'll Burn From The Traction.

Footsteps & Tip Toes,
Pit Falls & Trap Doors,
Life Is Snakes & Ladders,
In The End We All Birth Adders.

"Anti Venom To The Poison Born From Me,
A Potion To Stifle The Storm Formed From Me,
A Promise To Go Back & Return To Me,
I Pant & Sputter It Hurts To Breath."

Running On The Star Beams
The Sky Is Just To Vast,
Running Out Of Breath
It Never Seems To Last,
If I Could Have One Thing
You Know Just What I'd Ask!

Will I Still Be Flying When I Chuck Out That Old Flask,
Will I Keep On Lying Or **** Apart The Mask.

I Know I'm Not Deceitful, I Know I'm Not Insane.
I Just Forgot The Rules, I Know I Should Refrain, I Drown Out My Own Voice (.) & Say Goodbye To Pain.

If I Had A Choice Then The Sun Would Just Rain.

If I Had My Way Then The Grey Would Turn To Black,
Restart At The Beginning I'm Glad To Have You Back.


That Is Just A Fairytales Ending Of A Wish.
Life Isn't Simple No Rest When You Finish.

Vile Old Creatures, Predators & Leeches, Feeding Off Youth & Destroying Innocence,
Blind To The Goddess, To Her Purity & Her Imminence.

She Will Cut Down These Rotted Old Weeds,
She Will DeadHead The Fruit Of Misdeeds,
Walk Them To Tartarus Then Take Her Leave.

O Protector Of Children & Mother Of Magick,
Maiden Of Life & A Bard Of The Tragic,
Crone Our True Warrior Give Us Our Knowledge,
So We May Rise Up & Prove What's Alleged.

Give Us Our Truth & Expose The Ruse,
We Have The Proof So Don't Blow
Your Fuse,
Hell Is Your Home & You Should Return,
Inferno & Fire I Hope That You Burn.

Am I Empty Enough For You?
The Grave Full Enough For Me.
Pupils Punctured Cannot See
Always Chained So Never Free.

I Was A Self Sacrificing Lamb At An Alter For You,
Written So Clearly In All Of The Stories,
It Was Us (.) You Should Have Cared For,
It Was Us (.) You Should've Been There For,
It Was Us (.) & I'll Make You Share More,
It Was Us (.) You Should've Been Careful.

I Don't Mean To Be Hateful The Meanness Isn't Me,
I Don't Mean To Retain It The Stain Should Be Free,
I Thought To Strive Forward & Act Thoughtfully,
But Maybe I'm ****** Up He Chose Differently.

Ill So I Chucked Up It's Not History,
Love At The Core It's No Mystery,
Situation So Broken I Fare Dreadfully,
Chest Is Left Open I Tread Carefully.

The Sun Shining Fully We're Dust-Death-Dreadfully,

Sigh It Fitfully The Bully Spitefully,

Switched On The GoalPost I'm ****** Rightfully,

Righteously ******* Up I Flee Frightfully.


Butterfly Baby Still Stuck In The Womb,

Cocoon Can't Break Out Off (.) Life Caught Me To Soon,

Sense Clicks Off (.) Before You Hit Noon,

Chaos In Threads So It's Tangled The Loom.


Words Scream From Paper The Letters Spell Doom,

Written On Walls But You're Stuck In The Room.

Roses In Caskets,
Flesh On The Market,
Suitors In Baskets,
My Hearts A Dark Tar Pit.

Weakness In Bones,
Like A Sickness In Clones,
I Am A Dinosaur
I Don't Throw Stones.

Meteors & Stars,
I Was On Mars,
To Think This Would Last,
It's Written In Your Past.

But We're Both A Bit Toxic,
The Boat We Both Rocked It,
A Strain In The Others Coccyx,
A Third Pilot In The Cockpit.

Roses In Graves,
A Heart Up For Saves,
Dinosaur (.) But I'm Only So Strong,
I Need A Second Cause Life Is To Long.

To Me Back From You,
The Dysfunction You Spew,
But I Had No Clue.

Now It's All Ending,
Your Done Pretending,
I'm Done Defending,
Mistakes I'm Left Mending.

Bridges All Weathered,
Free But Was Tethered,
From Him I've Been Severed.

Now I Am Saved,
& The Streets Golden Paved,
I Crawled From The Grave,
To A Long Emptied Cave.

Life Isn't Comforting,
You Weather The Season,
In My Own Company,
I Found A Reason,
Choose To Live Comfortably,
Ignore The Treason.

Great Old Britain, What A Joke,
Made Our Wealth Off Of Black People's Backs,
Whips & Lashes, Tongue Tastes Of Ashes.

Ever After War,
We Use Them For More,
While Giving Them Less,
But Ulcers & Stress.

"We Will Deport Their Children." Now That Is An Insult!
Home Office From May To Rudd,
Hostile Environment Now That Is Pure Mud.

They Are Us & We Are Them, They're Are British You're Just Phlegm.

Politicians Just Make Me Spew,
You May Not Care!
But What If That's You?
What If That Mum,
What If That's Gran, I'd Set The Country Alight & Watch As They Ran!

I'd Turn The Streets Into Rage,
We'll Write A New Page,
Begin A New Age,
We'll Set A New Stage.

Wealthy White Corpses,
Buried In Orchards,
Peace Out Of Turmoil,
Released From This Coil.

Every Time You Cross My Mind I ***** In My Mouth,
Any Time You Think Of Me I Hope You're Left With Doubt.
All The Love I Spent On You Is Now Running Out,
All The Lies & All The Games I Promised I Wouldn't Shout.

I Promised I Wouldn't Shout,
A Voice I'm Left Without,
I'm Feeling Silent Truly Speechless,
Burnt The Orchard Left You Peach-less,
I Took It Back I Need To Teach Less.

He Took My Mojo Made Me Weakness.

I Need To Remember The Cheer,
I Know Now I See Clear,
I Know They May Never Hear,
But If It's Still Late You Need To Switch Gear,
If You Feel Hate It's Transmuted Fear,
It's Never To Late To Go Catch Your Dear.

I Promised I Wouldn't Cry,
I Promised I Wouldn't Try.
I Keep Letting You In,
Will It Ever End,
Will I Ever Win.
I Think I'm In Love With Sin.

To Make America Great,
When It Never Was,
Maybe To Return To Hate,
At Any Cost.

Black Boys Stung Up In Trees While Fat White Boys Tug At Their Mothers Sleeves.
Children As Slaves Just Not If Their White,
Breaking Their Jaws If They Dare To Bite.

Mothers Tears Made Worthless By The Colour Of Their Skin,
Still Happens Today Will Equality Ever Win.

To Make America Great,
Built On The Bones Of The Natives,
Crafted By The Hands Of "The Slaves."
But It's Always A White Man Claiming It's Brilliance.
Always The Minority Facing White Americas Silence,
Victimising Mexicans But How Long Before There's Another Victim?
People Aren't Proud To Be An American,
People Are Proud They Survived America!

It's All Or Nothing,
But Don't ******* Test Me.
I Will Burn The ******* Scoreboard, Break The Floorboards, I Get Proper ******* Testy.

Classic Gay As Bright As Day At Night I Get Messy.
Religious Abandon I Couldn't Stand Them, So Now I Guess I Will Bless Me.

No Wonder I'm Stressy, Guess God Could Just Hex Me, Demons Begone Because Jesus Just Text Me.
I Have Some Quirks That Aren't Always Perks, I Know Of Pain But I Don't Drop Percs, Who Is The Same? I Mean To Live Is To Work.
While We're All Burnt Out They Laugh & Shirk.

I Could Just Shriek From The Reek Of The *******,
I Could Just Snap At The Crack Of A Bull Whip.

I Like Sweets.
I Like Love
I Love Hate
Am I Not Enough?

My Hate Is Balanced By Love,
I Need A Message From Above,
I Need A Push A Friendly Shove,
All I Know Is I'm Not Enough.

Always Told I'm Not Enough,
So Don't ******* Love Me ****
Me Rough,
Salted Skin Know I'm Iron Tough,
Made So Daring I'll Call Your Bluff.

A Product Of Empathy,
Dulled Into Apathy,
If I Could Choose,
I'd Choose To Be Happy.

I Hate That I Love You, I'm Better Off Without You, But I Can't Live Without You.

I Know All The Words & How They Form Lies,
Heart Is Cut Into Thirds Divided Between Your Eyes & I.

I Know How We Break Up, I Know How We Make Up, I Know We Just ****. Then it's All ****** Up.

You Say That You Love Me, I Don't Feel The Same, You Just Want My Body While I Juggle With Shame.

Not An Ounce Of Care For How I Feel, Just How Much More I Can Take, He Only Cares About How I Feel, This Whole Affair Was A Mistake.

I Came To A Point & Breathing Was Pain,
Lame What's The Point Let Me Rot In The Rain.

I Sought To Find Answers
Thought Answers Would Fill Me,
Answers Made Questions So Now I'm Like **** Me!

Say I'm Sarcastic I'm Caustic Pure Plastic,
Say What Is True But Don't Be Too Drastic,
I Am Not You So You Say I'm Elastic,
Better Than Blue But I Feel Fantastic.

**** Of The Walk Yes I Am A Mastiff,
Put That Glock In His Mouth & I Might Just Blast It,
Make A Curse For The Ages But I Will Not Cast It.
Hate Is Too Late Because I Will Out Last It,
Your Weight Is Not Fate 'Cause I've Out Classed It.

I Liked Barbie, I Loved Barbies,
I Was A Little Boy Obsessed.
Barbie & Action Man Kept House,
Lovely Little Nuclear Family & The Teddy Bears Were The Kids.

I Tried To Get Barbie & Action Man To Get Along,
Barbie Was Sad Because Life Was All Wrong,
Action Man Was Mad Because Barbie Wasn't Strong,
The Teddy Bears Cried While Hearing Nighttimes Song.

Action Man Developed Issues With Substance,
Checked Into Rehab At Barbies Insistence,
Action Man Cheated & Formed A New Life With Persistence,
Barbie Took The Kids & There Wasn't Any Resistance.

The Kids Leaked Stuffing In A Crumbling Old Doll House,
Barbie Blamed Herself For Herself For The Actions Of A Mouse.
The Kids Learned To Stop Caring That Rat Man Was Gone,
Barbie Found Hope In Her Heart & Was Strong.

I Remember A Mat With Roads And Buildings Printed On,
I Never Liked Toy Cars But I Liked The Mat.

I Remember Fleeting Details More Than Whole Scenes,
Fractured Spiderwebs Of Memory Singed To The Synapse.

I Wouldn't Have It Any Different,
I Wouldn't Bond These Broken Shards Of Thoughts To Form A Whole.

I Am Happily Secure With My Internal Black Hole.
I Am Hopelessly In Love With The Absence Of My Soul.
I Am Helplessly Addicted To Memories That I've Stole.

I Just Wanted A Husband & A Nice House With Kids & A Cat.
All I See Heartache Debt & A Destitute Shack With A Rat.

But I Swear I Won't Care,
About Fair If You're There.
A Pair In The Sun Won't Shy From The Glare,
Stars In The Night All The Light That We Share.

Made Houses In Our Minds,
Filled With Warmth From Our Hearts.
Made Love Right In A Field,
We Were Watched By The Stars.

Pennies Never Rubbed, Just One *** To **** In, Just One Blanket We're In, Heated With Our Kissing,
Nothing Could Be Missing.

We May Never Have Anything,
But With You I'll Have Everything,
With Fire Fly Filled Evenings,
We Are Fire Fuelled Beings.

With Desire Edged Nights
& Passion Born Fights,
We Tire In The Others Embrace,
A Line Of Kisses On The Others Face.

Sometimes The World Isn't Meant For Everyone,
& Sometimes We Need To Make Our Houses Homes & Be Thankful For What We've Got.

Because What We Have Isn't Going To Change.
It's What We Do Each Day That Changes, The Changes We Make Internally, The Changes We Learn To Accept & The Changes We Eventually Embrace.

Sometimes You Have To **** Teeth & Stand Firm,
Other Times You Need To Swallow Pride & Bow Out.

No One Ever Said To Give Up,
But There's Only So Much Blood To Give Out,
There's Only So Life To Live Up,
Trophy Are For Winners & We All Go Without.

A Baby Trump Balloon Was Flown Through The Capital,
The Humour & Wit Is What Makes Us So Capital.

Even Over A Barrel We Wear Our Hearts On Our Sleeves,
A Joke Internationally But We Took The Wind From The Air,
Displeasure Raised In Unison Our Voices Made Clear.

The People Tire Of Being Bargaining Chips,
Our Will Second To Yours,
While We Make The World Work,
We'll Make You Work For Us Again.

Government Flawed From Start To End.
Etonian OffSpring Ruling The Rest, Elitism At Its Finest Opposing Democracy,
Representing The People What Ironic Hypocrisy.
Repressing The People Its Been Shown Historically,
Yet We Are To Treat Them Honorifically,
But It Is Us As The Workers Who've Been Treated Horrifically.

If They Dare To Forget That We Make The World Spin,
We'll Stop In Our Tracks And Let Loose A Whirlwind,
The Power Is Ours Though You'd Have Us Forget That,
Public Disobedience Gave Us Rights & We'll Never Regret That.
We Made You Kneel Before & We'll See That Again,
We'll Scream Till We're Sore But That's Where It Begins.

His voice rumbles against my ear,
The sound resonates in my mind,
I can hear his heart as clearly as his breath.
I can see us together as clearly as I see myself.

I find comfort cuddled against his chest,
He tells tales so tall they're all in jest,
We've stood together against life's test,
Next to him I'd forsake the rest.

His hair scratches against me,
His hands smooth down my sides,
His arms encircle me whole,
His eyes enliven my life.

Said I'm his heart,
We're nothing apart,
Together we start,
Love is an art.

I only need him,
I swear he's my king,
I'd stand on a mountain,
Swearing love isn't sin.

Continue On & Call His Bluff,
Tired Now I've Had Enough,
I'm Falling Now My Knees Are Weak, Now I Know What I Seek.

Lazy days in bed and we'd cuddle for hours,
Kisses and sweet insults we'd throw through the day,
Sun hanging low and I'd hang on to you,
Full from affection but we'd go out to eat.

Connected To Him (.)
Thought I'd Be His Forever,
Lights Getting Dim (.)
But Now We're Not Together.

Now my bed begs for company,
Telling me I'm like misery,
But I just feel empty,
He told me I'm history.

So At Him I'll Get Back,
I'll Make Sure To Attack,
I Learned For A Fact,
That I Haven't Any Tact.

On The Sand, In The Sea, Feel The Stones Against My Feet.
Waves & Foam, Crash & Pull,
In The Middle Never Full,
In The Same I Taste Defeat,
In That Way I Am A Fool.

Salt air scalding my face & sending hair into disarray,
Sun paling the blue & turning skin red,
The sands golden hues glitter in spite of my mood.
Aware of the beauty but it's grandeur is lost on me.

Radiance & Brilliance,  
The Sun Is Truly Resilient,
The Fires Flames Are Militant,
Gaia Is Truly Diligent.

Done her duty for millennia,
Now the Sun bares down on her,
Can't contain the fire is stronger,
Burns her children & We are no longer.
One world interconnected,
If one house falls we're all effected.

**** near choked on my laughter.
I mean, I **** near died from the comedy.

It wasn't a joke, but I was still vomiting, it held no reality
But I spared no brutality.

In actuality I've Been self actualised.
I need no figure to show me I've been tranquilised.
Took such time before I realised.

I've been dead & reanimated,
Zombie flesh decimated,
All my values antiquated,
Leaves my mind devastated.

I Call To The Heavens, Hope I Hear From The Seraphim.
Called To The Circles,
I Circle Inferno,
Fly Away From This Hell & Into Paradiso.
Scented Petrichor On The Air, Earthly Sweetness Taken There,
Birds All Sing With Not One Care,
Scales In Balance All Is Fair.
Divine Being Six Wings Spread,
A Blinding Halo On Her Head,
Guiding The Worthy From The Dead.
To Much Light For The Darkest Dread,
So Absence Stays In The Taken's Stead,
The Chosen Rise To Sink Like Lead.

All The Shades Of Hell,
All The Spirits Tell,
How You Leaped & Fell,
But Now You Cannot Dwell.

Take a leaf from an Oak & reflect
On all time,
Take a page from a grimoire & see all the Magic.  

Take The Words From Their Mouth,
These Blinded Lame Mice,
Their Compass Points South,
But We Roll The Dice.

Gamble & gamble,
Throw chances & choices,
**** your whole Soul,
Then Drown In The Voices.

You Can ****** & Rob People All ******* Day, Its Okay They're Called Politicians.
Keep Chugging ****, You Won't See  & Its Good 'Cause You Can't Afford An Optician.
When You Get Low We'll Kick You In The Bones, I'm Sorry We Deported Your Physician.
They Hope You Get Sick & They'll Hit You With A Brick,
But They Call That Universal Credit.
-When Their Caught Out Trust The BBC To (.) Off With Their Heads & Dead It. We Have Ears & Memory Too We Really Know You Said It, Snakes Caught In Skins You Belong In The Bin, No More Mice Cause I Already Fed It.

Summers ago I remember. All my friends were getting together to have a drink and a BBQ. I Was So Excited! The First Summer Of Secondary School That I Actually Had Friends. The First Summer To Be Spent In The Sun, Not Hiding Behind The Curtains In My Room. Not Curled Up With Misery Or Doom. I packed a bag and got bus fair, I think mum was happy that I wasn't going to be there, not in a mean way, just glad I had some plans for my day.
Enjoying Lady Gaga On The Bus, I Got To Where I Was Going, Then I Call To Confirm The Place & I'm Told I'm Not Going.

Gas Lit and lies, My plans turned to flame and then ash.
I felt gob-smacked, In a way intimately attacked.
I Felt Sick, Apple Hard Heart In My Throat, I Felt Thick, Salt Stinging Eyes Still Afloat.
I Felt Used, Toyed Like A Game and Forgotten.
I stood at that bus stop and swallowed my pain, I stood at that bus stop and waited again, I stood at that bus stop wont sink down the drain, I've held my cards close so close it's insane.
I just wanted some friends, but was left with my brain.

Take me down deep
Lullaby me to sleep
In your arms and keep
When the tears of life weep.
       ~Take me in your arms
         Take me with your charms
         Hold me with your calm
         A world held in your palm
-Chanted like a psalm.-
Chances fly like birds
But truth can't capture words
And words can't ever be heard,
Silence becomes one with the herd.
       ~Silence can lull me to sleep
        In his arms true charms
        He can keep,
        Held in heaven
        In his bliss
We won't sever
Or ever miss
Our lips touch
Eternal Kiss.

Don't speak on the matter
I found a batter
Spit on the ball
Dissolve into matter.

Don't hold on my hand
Or step on my tail
Loose like some sand
Your bound now to fail.

Mouth 'round my name
Your playing my game,
I brought the flame
So combust into matter.

Saying I'm ****
Your dressed in some tatters
Hum on my ****
In your face till it splatters.

Striving for more,
I dream to have mine,
Working while sore
Looking for a simple sign.

I dream but they twist into
Nightmares:
Nightmares haunt reality.
Never ran from what scares,
But the universe is prone to brutality.

Facing the race and
The race it is truly daunting,
Stood in my place
And the race is truly daunting.

But run one must and
In theirselves trust,
Resist doubts dust
Into the future ******.

How you set out to save me
With love you cannot save me,
We savage ravage life together
Savour favour life together.

Thought we'd finish
And win together,
Yet we're just vanishing,
Fighting just to breathe
Is really too famishing.

You wanted options.
I gave you one.
I guess games get
Hard when you can't
Have fun.

I wanted one thing,
Something simple
But not a ******* care
Only person you see is yourself
I swear.

You couldn't wait a day,
Just one,
Before again you betray!
Dogs rut in the mud
No matter what
You say.

Remember you are loved
When you feel low,
And people care
When you don't know.

Each day take a minute
To tell yourself you
Are loved, resilient
And alive.

Even if one minute
Turns into to five,
Remember there's help
When you need to find it.

Seconds may feel like minutes
Minutes may feel like hours
& hours feel like the death of you.

But find help
when you need it.

Cracks meandering like
Rivers upon the ground,
But it's our shattered souls.
How by now we hoped we'd be whole,
Only hearths with limited coal.
When we extinguish we make no sound.

Only hearts with finite
Beats.
We're in the race but just
Want to rest,
But one slumbers and sits
In comfort when they have
Assurance.

The wind and how we
Twist chaotically with it,
Our hopes can hold momentarily
Suspended like rain in crosswinds.
But we crash down and
Are absorbed by our surroundings.

The Earth was spilling with
Green trees & brown bark.
The oceans glimmering with
Iridescence.
Wild flowers ranging on a psychedelic spectrum
With Oddly symmetrical patterns.

An Earth born fresh
With Life blooming
Anywhere that Life's Death
Touches.
The decay quickens the land
Lending life a helping hand,

Maybe a different planet entirely.
No war touches, No:
Religion,
Humans,
Famine,
Disease,
Nuclear Weapons,
Bombs or
Devestating Artillery.
No apathetic Suicide
In a world that endorses Genocide.

Just a planet of Rainbows
& Spirals.
Where life runs
in cycles,
And natural death
Can make it's rules.
Just a place
Of Serpentine rivers
& Azure waterfalls.

I just want it bad
I really need it,
It makes me so mad
But I still read it.

I don't hold it & it
Makes me sad,
But I still bless & write it
Despite that,
Does this make me less?

The only sight I dream.
It makes me want to scream,
It tears me at the seam
Till I effervesce into steam.

Said he wants to bang me,
Told him find a noose
You can touch me when you hang me.

Grubby paws
Watch for my claws
Cause I can take your all


I can take you to the cosmic,
But you and your microcosm
I'll swipe you out like
A Microorganism.

Then I might actually ******.

Social degeneration
A gift
Of our generation.
Moral degradation
And
Spiritual incineration.

We burn and rage
With more than
Is beyond our age,
We set the stage
And watch as the
World burns like
Dried sage.

No history books,
Let alone words
To fill a page.

What
When
How,
Did I fall
Down the rabbit hole?

Rabbid
Habit
Stab it,
Amputate gangrenous
Limbs.

Song
And meaningless Hymms,
You never caught me
Before Satan bought me.

What?
I should've stopped
Before my balloon popped.
But the pressure was immense
Lost time, past tense
In the sun, was the fun
Ever intense.

Was I ever there...
I feel like thin air...

My snakes
My jewels
My Heart
How cruel
-
My litany
My deeds
My Heart
Actions prove.

My snakes
Circle in spirals
Circle incessantly
I wonder if they tangle.

My jewels gleam in the dark
Like a shocking white spark
But cold rocks warm
Cold hearts.

My Heart bleeds
I need gauze
To pack the wound
So the blood can pause.

Words mean nothing
It's what we do in the
Morning.
It what we do with warning
And how we hold when
In mourning.

How we hold up the deeds
And work when
Work makes us bleed.
It's about the Heart
Behind the action.

The smile on a pained face,
It's the Heart.

I'm not me
I swear it see
Since a teen
I seen a part
Of me that's mean.

Apart of me that's been
Apart of me that knows
Hidden till it shows
Though it hardly
Ever blows.

It's older
Colder
More daring
And bolder.
It's apart as
Much as it is seperare.

It stole my age
Cause older I feel
In turn
And cold how the fire
In me burns.
But for breath it yearns
At ends with me.

Mostly I'd like to
Lay in the Sea
And be free.
But my demon
Makes me live
And evade the currents
Caught in me.

My demon makes
Me me, we lack
Dichotomy.
I'm one with
What opposes me,
In an convenient
Lobotomy.

I never meant to miss out on you
Never meant to fly over you
But am I meant to be with you.

Never did I ever
Come back just to sever
Replay repeat the same
Restart rehash the shame.

Blame
Because you blame me
How I went and left
Because I wasn't the same see.

Just saw a picture of
The one who had me first.
My heart slammed against ribs
So much so that they have
Impressions.

Still felt like less than
The depressions which
Formed when reality hit.
And I was nothing
But
A game.