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Jun 2018 · 157
Wanted
aryanalynae Jun 2018
I didn’t want perfect
Or magical

I wanted your word
To hold true.
Jun 2018 · 151
perspective
aryanalynae Jun 2018
a chapter
to me
was a page
to you

a match
lit flame
was a match
burned out
Jun 2018 · 173
all
aryanalynae Jun 2018
all
.







... this seems to say it all.
May 2018 · 145
away
aryanalynae May 2018
Something shifted
Something lifted
A weight maybe
Away, away baby.

I’m in my center
And I’m manipulating the scene
When I’m in my center
I manifest my dreams
May 2018 · 144
Have not
aryanalynae May 2018
Haven’t felt it
In a minute

Haven’t dealt it
But I might give it
May 2018 · 122
Shatters
aryanalynae May 2018
Cluttered and battered
Pieces lay shattered

It’s cold and it’s lifeless
It’s dreaming of times when

It beat for the pulse
It beat for the pulse

And I try to clean it up
I try to fix it up
May 2018 · 323
Quit
aryanalynae May 2018
I can stop thinking about it
I can detach myself so quick
But as soon as my head hits the pillow
I’m anxious, I’m sad, I quit.
May 2018 · 271
Is this real?
aryanalynae May 2018
I’ll admit you got me
But won’t forget that you lost me.

And it’s not as though I wandered off,
We both know the story and why we stopped.

Nobody needs an explanation,
It’s better left unsaid
I still can’t form the words anyway,
I think that’s why I haven’t wept.

I haven’t cried a tear,
I haven’t let out a scream,
I can’t let go of what just happened,
It just seems so unreal to me.

I can’t form the words,
I’m tongue tied and that’s rare,
Normally I’m a master,
But the words.. they just arent there.

Mixed singals, they’re just awful.
They **** my heart up till it’s broke.
And the worst part is I just replay
Every word of every lie you ever spoke.

It doesn’t seem like an end,
Was there just nothing there?
I’m confused by all the moments,
I’m confused, I thought we cared.

Anxious for disappointment,
It was odd how I felt so relieved
When you took the expectations out,
I felt like I could breathe.

Like the fading of the great thing,
We felt and had so much of,
Wasn’t in my head,
..yeah I could tell you lost the love.
May 2018 · 262
Who
aryanalynae May 2018
Who
I haven’t listened to myself breathe in a while.
I haven’t felt myself genuinely crack a smile.
I haven’t been in tune with food for my soul.
I haven’t seen my self in the mirror, truth be told.

I stare at the reflection but I can’t see my breath.
And I can see this smile but it’s looking forced and stretched.

I feed from adrenaline, but I’m just short of a crash,
I’m looking at the mirror but don’t see myself looking back
May 2018 · 119
|Trust
aryanalynae May 2018
Trust is a funny thing
How we crave it
How we deserve it
Yet we have the hardest time giving it.

Trust is a confusing thing
How we manage it
How we measure it
Yet we can’t manipulate it.

We can’t change it. We can’t just create it.
But we have it, and we earn it.
May 2018 · 163
Enlight
aryanalynae May 2018
spiritually enlightened
Life’s consciousness Is heightened
And I’m dreaming but I’m creating
I’m invisioning and procreating
May 2018 · 166
idc
aryanalynae May 2018
idc
some nights I just get tired,
but on rare occasion I'm inspired.
and you could say that I acquire
a taste for ink... so desired.

and I feel my mind rewire,
it's ice cold, but it's on fire
and I learn to just aspire
to the mind's elevation, higher
Aug 2017 · 344
conscious
aryanalynae Aug 2017
ignore it
pretend it,
didn't happen.

forget it.
hide it.
avoid it.
Jul 2017 · 746
closer baby
aryanalynae Jul 2017
come a little closer baby
i feel like letting you in.
and i feel like telling you everything,
that i held so deep within.

all those little secrets.
all the those times i was shy
and here i am open arms,
and i'm ready to explain the fright.

and i'm ready to tell you the *****.
the clean, the boring, the new.
i'll tell you what you want to hear,
i just feel like talking to you.

come a little closer baby.
i feel like letting you learn.
the ropes and maze to my heart,
but i won't lie i'm still concerned.

i don't know how much it'll last,
so lean in while you can.
i've got things to whisper baby,
so lean in, just take my hand.
Jul 2017 · 430
Pain
aryanalynae Jul 2017
I still check my phone,
and I still search your name.
and I can't stop scrolling,
because scrolling is pain.
Jul 2017 · 2.4k
black dress
aryanalynae Jul 2017
someone notice
i'm wearing this little black dress.
want someone to see my lace set.
need eyes not a compliment.
  
someone feel this.
lets slow dance
grind my hips.
pretend that its pleasant.

grab these thighs
get aggressive with soft hands and slow grinds.
make me feel that first time
'i'm high' sigh tonight.

someone notice
i put on this little black dress.
Jul 2017 · 432
Pause
aryanalynae Jul 2017
sighing through the evening,
i can't help but feel that sigh.
i'm pausing for a moment,
but the moment passes by
Jun 2017 · 455
Looked
aryanalynae Jun 2017
I looked into the sky
And I thought of all those times
We had our moments that we thought meant we'd last forever.

And I looked into the sea
And felt all of those feelings
We had when we thought we would last forever.
Jun 2017 · 516
White Flag
aryanalynae Jun 2017
I tried to surrender
But you needed better
And I couldn't ever
Just give you forever

But I tried to give all
And I tried to fall
And now I can't sleep
As I'm weak in the knees

And I choose to please
But it's never for me
And now I will dream,
You surrender to me.
Jun 2017 · 2.9k
Myself.
aryanalynae Jun 2017
I own myself
I create myself
Fell in love with myself
And oh how it felt.
Jun 2017 · 551
Absence
aryanalynae Jun 2017
Avoiding
Detour
Pretend
Ignore

Silence the
Truth
And ignore
The lie
Jun 2017 · 1.4k
Trust
aryanalynae Jun 2017
Nervous.
Frightened.
Caring.
Space.

Words.
Smiles.
Memories.
Hea­rts race.

Feelings
Break
Hands
Shake

One
Gives
One
Takes

One
Destr­oys
One
Creates

One
On time
One
Always late

Trust
Begins
But trust
Always fades
Jun 2017 · 450
six words
aryanalynae Jun 2017
proving
misconstruing.

hearing
sneering

fearing
weary.
Jun 2017 · 629
Home
aryanalynae Jun 2017
salty air,
not by the sea.

inches like miles,
and choked back tears.
Jun 2017 · 344
Isn't it
aryanalynae Jun 2017
Intimate
Isn't it?

Lovin it,
Making it.

Intuative
Into it.
Jun 2017 · 365
Contemplate
aryanalynae Jun 2017
if people knew
the thought you have when they are away

do you think, they'd contemplate
the idea of staying?

do you think it'd change their mind?

do you think it'd change their heart?

even if it didn't..

do you think it'd be a start?
Jun 2017 · 453
aryanalynae Jun 2017
i could tell you i'm devastated
i could tell you i scream in pain,
as i fall asleep as night
but what would i really gain?

i could tell you i physically ache.
i could tell you i'll never love no one else
but at the end of the night,
i'm saying all these things to just myself
Jun 2017 · 567
This
aryanalynae Jun 2017
Disappointed
I had high hopes for this
And now I'm sighing heavily
And I'm feeling reckless.
Jun 2017 · 470
running
aryanalynae Jun 2017
theres nights where i can't feel you,
no matter the rhythm i breathe.
and some nights i can't shake you,
no matter what demons i feed.

i can't escape the feelings
of torture from the past.
and i'm running towards tomorrow,
but i'm gripping my hand-held flask.
Jun 2017 · 489
forward
aryanalynae Jun 2017
facing forward and leaning back
i'm in the moment, and i'm on track.
i'm living for tonight, but i'm breathing for tomorrow
and i'm screaming tonight, but i'll be whispering tomorrow.
Jun 2017 · 614
i cried
aryanalynae Jun 2017
i cried and then i thought about it
i thought about it and then i laid in bed.
i laid in bed and then i poured my heart out
into a sea of words left unsaid.

and i whispered every word,
every confused and unmarked letter.
and then i cried some more,
even though i knew so much better.

i laughed and then i smiled.
the smile faded way too quick
and i would've cried some more,
if the tears didn't make me feel so sick.

my head is numb from the knowledge,
i knew it was coming too fast.
and now my heart is learning,
but this concept.. it just can't grasp.

i cried and then i shivered.
i thought this feeling would fade so much quicker.

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