Don't say it I can feel each word Last time we had this conversation ,every word you said slit my veins Felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest So don't say them Don't say you love me but as a friend Don’t say you don’t want to loose me Just don’t say it
Hot breath warms her face As it settles in thick blankets Making it harder and harder to breathe.
The rest of her body feels chilly As a fan circulates cold air around her, But her face only grows warmer.
As she tells herself all the things she doesn't want to hear, Yet would feel incomplete without, The heat only begins to rise, Swelling from her eyes, Like thick globs of lava, Crashing into the tightly held blankets.
She opens her mouth, To tell herself to stop, That she has no reason to be this upset, That shes embarrassing herself,
But her throat fills with hot air, And she lets out nothing, Only sobs, And hopes that tomorrow is a better day.
earthquake ranging on every edge, my heart sinks; drowning in tidal waves, it was thunderstorms striking my impulse. emotions swirling like typhoon, and tornado on every gasp, God, this turns into a wild*******fire;
I'd stare at those eyes for a mere second. next, I'm going to ask myself: are you sure? and as soon as I told myself no, I'd turn my back on you, saying: I can't
I never knew, either, that I set up my own natural disasters that kills me inside every time I lay my eyes on you.
i'm starting to fall for you. and i'm questioning. . . how do i stop this?
It's funny, because you looked just the same as you always did Like someone Who was never really mine.
Like a stranger in disguise Who's reality only exists When I close my eyes and fantasize about you being in my life
But I guess When you heard you should live your life without Regret You mistook that for my name
And I wonder if you will ever understand the pain Of knowing someone only when you imagine them Or loving someone who thought Never talk to strangers Was a lesson best learnt by example
But they say actions speak louder than words And you became so consumed by your own self worth to really give a **** about who you hurt
So you became the expert At manipulating words Like turning I love yous into sorrys And Tomorrows into yesterdays Until it was safe to say I couldn't count on you
Because of you I constantly found myself falling in love with things that could never love me back
I became infatuated with sandcastle and snowflakes
Addicted to temporary moments Addicted to broken
Thought if I learnt to fix things Then somehow I might find the manuscript To piecing the shattered part of my being whole again
Because of you I spent years trying to cover this skin that you left me with Tried decorating these scars With tattooed hopes To remind myself That sometimes Some things Were made to last forever
Because of you, For years I avoided looking into the mirror Because I never truly knew If you could love someone You only ever met in passing
You see I mistook your ***** for water I never realised I was internally drowning in your poison I thought I needed you to stay afloat
It took me a long time to realise That ***** was just your way of relieving yourself from blame
You became a box full of things I packed away the day you left But I've stopped trying to hold on to your burden
So I've taken out my smile And I'll wear it with pride
And Dear father, Did you know That if you repeat a word enough times Then eventually the word will start to lose it's meaning?
And I've stopped wishing I was still young enough to understand What the word father meant
And now no know That if I ever see you again Then you will look just the same as you always did
Like someone who doesn't deserve to be mine
This is a spoken word piece I wrote for my father who disappeared like a **** in the wind. One I struggled to write. Full of things I've always wanted to say to him. One I am yet to read to him and now no longer feel the need to.
You are now my history. You made me smile. You made me laugh. I’m sorry to see you go. I’m sorry we didn't have our moment. I’m sorry we didn’t get the chance to try. I want you to know that my feelings were confusing. I want you to know I wasn’t really sure what they were. I want you to know that they were there. I hoped you would've told me you felt somewhat the same. I hoped you would have stayed for longer. I hoped that you had gotten closer. That our conversations never ended. I am not heartbroken. I’m disappointed it didn't last long. That the butterflies in my stomach didn’t continue to flutter. I am happy I got the chance to meet you. To experience your annoying sarcasm. To get to know the soft side of you. To get to be your friend. But I’m not happy I couldn't be more. The feelings we had for each other were there. They were so radiant you could feel it through the phone. I could feel your smile through the way you talked. I’m sorry I’m your history and not your future.
you are a distraction. not just a normal distraction but a soul crushing, joyful yet disappointing distraction. your smile hides a thousand lies. your eyes cloud my immidiate thoughts. your presence bring laughter and it brings tears to my eyes - not the good ones. you are a distraction.
I stare at my blank notebook trying to put down the things my heart feels, only to realize I can't. This sadness,disappointment.. where and how do I begin?
My best moments were with you,always. How I wish we were there again. The flashbacks come and go like fireworks in the night. Ones when I was in your car looking up at the sky to look at birds. The one of us in the darkness of the night looking at the sea and stars...
To think I loved you for everything you were;for everything you are... I became you in those days. I absorbed you like the rays from the sun. I lost myself to you,to be everything you needed. I was your shadow. And like the shadow I stayed behind.
But seeing you slowly back away from me broke my heart to pieces. All the while I told myself I was okay, that I knew all along. That it was too good to be true. Frustrated I cursed at the wind and hoped that you somehow heard me. That you would feel what I feel. That you knew what true love looked like.
I see it clearly that you never deserved me. Never loved me. Never saw the real me. You will NEVER see the adoration I had for you. And how I would've gave you the world on a platter in exchange for your sincerest love and affection. And now you will not see not hear from me again. Exactly like the way it was in the beginning.
You laughed when I said that I was scared You chuckled when I said you were my only hope Now I'm writing on my own There isn't much you can do To save me because I'm gone What did I do to deserve this? The worst part Is that the pain feels so good I'm covered in blood What did you do to make me who I am Now go Go back to the wasteland you came from