...best between my quivery, burning thighs,
gleaming and steaming my downy mound,
the air alight with my sighs,
-By Alexandra Eames
sweat dripping from my thighs
grey tank glued on me
i still got you on my mind
the world ending right before my eyes
murders crying wolf
my generation getting gassed and kidnapped
in the streets of LA, MIA, NYC, BA, CIN
drowning my days with tyler, the creator
humming to me
hoping to feel something
the way you used to make me feel
when we parted ways until our next life time
politicians hungry to violate civil rights
black, brown, trans
manifesting it in their dreams
they have it written in human blood
without a mask on to shield them
from the disease that is their greed
my perception jaded
my thoughts paralyzed
my body aching
might hit that pen
can’t even pick up a pen
having more time than my 20 years of existence
The way you didn’t kiss me
at the top of the Ferris Wheel.
The way you kissed me
at the bottom of my sense of self.
The way I had your fingerprints on my thighs for 2 weeks after you left me.
The way I want you
to leave me wanting again.
the curve of your neck
the tilt of your head
the shape of your lips
shiny eyes as tears are shed
in the corners of your eyes
the way you move
the form of your thighs
the flick of your wrists
whisper pretty lies
liking what it finds
can't escape the friction
twisting in your binds
pleasure taking you
out of your mind
wanting it forever
but running out of time
all on your own
watching you sway
moving to the rhythm
you know i'll stay
lost in you
drinking you in
hope you remember
my lips on your skin
look at me
with suffocating green eyes
underneath ashen skies
Every night i sings a song
Along with you in my arms
Nobody can harm you
Until I'm here to hold you
Sleeping on your thigh
Feel and smells your fragrance of your soul
Under the moonlight
On your thigh
Feels like a living heaven in front of me
I pray to god please don't end up night or this time until i sleep
i wonder if you see the fear in my eyes
when you show me your love
in hopes that i will compromise,
but i know i am not enough.
so instead i shove your face between my thighs
in hopes that, that will be enough.
because you see my dear,
no love lives here
can you smell the fear?
can you taste it?
as i open my legs for you?
as i lie in a bed for you you?
as my body begs for you?
It is like having a twin, whose existence makes other people uncomfortable.
Like before I was born, only I was in the ultrasound.
And no one was prepared for her when she followed me into the world.
It is like having a shadow that does not just stretch out behind me,
But instead, she has attached herself to my back.
It is like she has hooked her fingers over the edges of my ribcage,
Her head is resting on the start of my spine.
Her heels are digging into my thighs.
People ask why I let her hang around,
As if I have a choice.
It is like everyone is waiting for me to admit that I want her.
It is like they are all expecting me to secretly bend so she can climb on,
I do not.
They think I like it when I want to laugh but hers is what they hear,
I do not.
They think I choose the days when she is with me, telling me the words to say
I do not.
They think that when I wake up, she is something I put on.
Like a favourite t-shirt or a sad song.
She is not.
She is with me when I wake up.
She is with me when I sleep.
She is with me when I take my clothes off.
She is like a second skin that I can’t shed.
Do not ask me to leave her behind
Because it is not my decision
I cannot control her hold on me
It is her who is pulling the strings
It is like having a side of me that no one wants to know.
- As if they don’t already know her.
She is me when I can not help being down.
She is me when I can hardly whisper a sound.
She is me when I laugh the hardest.
She is me when I am missed.
She is me no matter your belief.
And maybe one day she will walk away.
But until then,
She is me.
A second without her feels like an eternity in Heaven
i hope my thighs
never shrink to the size
i wish they were
where else would my
beautiful furry friends lay?
if anything i hope
my thighs double in size
making more room
for furry friends
I just wish I didn’t give a **** about the size of anything on me truly
this was also deleted but *shrugs*