You don’t realize how fast three years go by till you’ve wasted it.
You don’t realize the angel in the sky till you’ve disgraced it.
You don’t realize how much they lie till you’ve trusted it.
You don’t realize why till you’ve allowed it.
But with the bad comes good.
You realize you feel ways you never thought you would.
Because,
You don’t realize all the love you have inside till you’ve accessed it.
You don’t realize your pride till you’ve applied it.
You don’t realize your satisfied till you’ve verified it.
And you don’t realize your stride till you’ve fortified it.
You don’t always realize the best in your reflection.
There is more to you than your imperfection.

Nothing good in my life is worth it without you.
All these feelings, I know you don’t feel too.
Thoughts aside, eyes wide, these feelings are eating me up inside.
And I can’t swim against the tide.
Ten million stars across the sky.
But you are the one that caught my eye.
Such an ancient love we had.
But we couldn’t seem to get through the bad.
Everyday I see all that I lost.
And it wasn’t even worth the cost.

A snow covered flower on a late winters eve.
Barely able to stretch out of the snow.
This flower perceives you leave and starts to grieve.
The flower flourishes and starts to grow in this snowy white meadow.

Years pass, seasons rearrange as everything starts to change.
It’s not a simple as day and night, because the earth is dying without a fight.
Everything begins to feel so strange.

Days begin to fluctuate as the earths state isn’t that great.
This affliction is leading straight towards our eviction.
We all hesitate as we await our fate.
This is the depiction of our final conviction.

But as it stands in the snow.
That one flower continues to grow

sitting here, breathless, blinded, feeling the darkness set in, feeling the cold touch my skin.
is this truely how I go? lost in coldness as it snows.
you may not understand, you may not see, but this is the worst ive ever been.
I cant even recognize my reflection in the shadows.

time has jaded me, hated me, sat by and watched everyone take advantage of me.
its time to take a stand, that is the plan, but right now I dont know if I even can.
this won't bring me down, this won't **** me, of that I can garuntee.
I have to fight and take back my life because im stronger than I was as a young man.

Im tired of the lies and all the scars of knives.
ill stand up and face the world head on because its the end of twenty-one.
we cant be scared of what thrives in the shadows our entire lives.
I will live to face a new dawn.

this isn't how my life ends.
its only how it begins.

A snow white orchid blooming in the winters eve.
summoning the souls who disbelieve.

Hours pass by as people wonder.
The secrets this little flower has to plunder.

Even though is just a simple little flower in the snow.
More about this magical feeling I must know.

Its fragle petals damp with morning dew.
Its placement quite askew.

With death and fear all around.
This little flower is surely bound.

Its stem reaching into the sky so everyone sees.
The beautiful essence it surely leaves.

With the clouds rolling in with the sound of thunder.
attempting to leave the flower asunder.

People try to help it grow.
To see the powers it bestows.

even though this perfect flower is pretty new.
Its beauty is absolutly true.

And when the blazing sun goes down.
Darkness is seen all around.

The beautiful feeling I receive.
When our emotions interweave.

Seeing her fragile smile in the morning sun, I ask what spell I’m under.
As I feel i have fallen in a blunder.

Her bright hazel eyes quite aglow.
I wish I had felt this feeling long ago.

I catch myself staring into.
With this magical feeling I’m not used to.

I never thought I’d be this astound.
I’m far to gone to back down.

I’ve realized I’ve set something in motion.
But I don’t want it to stop regardless of the commotion.

I face the fact that I need to quite smoking.
Because I’m sick and tired of choking.

I really need a light to help me through this.
Because alone I cannot navigate this mist.

A tender soul to make me right.
Even if I tend to fight.

This nasty odor I create.
And all I see is that other hate.

So someone please answer my biggest wish.
Help me with this habit I must abolish.

I wish I could ask that special question.
The one I would love her to answer.
To see that undescribable expression.
To finally get the amazing dance with her.

To see if true love really does thrive.
To see if it does hold true.
To see if in this world it can survive.
To see all the problems it can cut through.

To see the flowers blooming all around.
To see the roots of the trees burrow deep beneath.
Then look to see all the people we astound.
As long as you answer the question our love will never bequeath.

And if you look to your side I will always be beside you.
As long as you say I do.

I’ve never seen a love so true.
Never thought I’d get to see it bloom.
But I can tell she really does love you.
Hopefully one day I’ll get to see my brother be a happy groom.

I seen your hearts intertwine like tangled vines on a summers day.
You see and love each others flaws like there not even there.
When you are together you don’t seem like such a cliche.
It’s obvious to everyone the love you both willingly share.

You both are the mist on a spring day quietly uninterrupted civilization.
The trees and the grass growing unnoticeable.
When in your presents there seems to be absolutely no frustration.
You seem to fit each other so adorably.

In the same room you act so sappy.
And knowing your in good hands makes me happy.

Having these amazing feelings invade my mind.
Trying to find something I don’t believe is there.
These feelings are of wondrous kind.
But often lead to dispair.

They set forth a perpetual emotion of wonder.
Something that warms my heart.
A feeling that hits me like thunder.
I’m afraid I’ve been hit by cupids dart.

So intertwined around it’s core.
So lost in such a familiar setting.
But you’re the one I adore.
And these feelings are so unforgetting.

This feeling is sometimes unbearable.
But most of the time it’s not so terrible

I close my eyes
All I see is my love reflected back at me
A love that never lies
But you stand there looking at my locked heart with the key

I can’t stand being alone
But I’m not scared of what I may see
Our love has surely flown
Through the valleys to the crystal sea

I stand here thanking you
Thoughts of you flying in my mind
As I stand here looking over the ocean blue
You are something I thought I’d never find

Seeing you standing there staring back at me
I see our love will surely be

My heart was perfectly satisfied.
My emotions grew and flew with the thought of you.
Knowing you’d be by my side until the very day I die.
I never thought that love could be so true.

The angelic presence my eyes concieved you as was fairly new to me.
My heart was locked up tight.
But you were already waiting there with the key.
You took it without any fight.

Until the day the sky turned to silver gray.
Felt like ash was all around.
The day that destiny took you away.
My knees hit the ground and my soul became unbound.

That drop of water running down my face was just the begining,
To a extremely painful ending.

It all happened on one summer’s eve in mid July.
I met this innocent and alluring young girl.
So true and pure hearted I simply could not pass her by.
The more we talked the more my stomach swirled and whirled.

Before I could possibly even know, my heart let out a golden glow.
I was struck by her sensational presence, I was in love.
The only thing I could do was see where it would go.
For our love was as beautiful as a burning dove.

But now I see that I have fallen under her spell.
For everything thing she does weakens my heart.
For no matter what I do I can’t repel.
This amazing love that keeps me here even though we are forever apart.

One day I will forever be held captive.
When our eyes meet and our hearts beat, we have never been so attracted.

The ancient promise is a sacred thing.
For whoever breaks one is surely doomed.
Full of trust and ties two spirits together by a tight string.
From the consequences of breaking one, the individual is consumed.

Thats what makes them so difficult.
For a promise is an action taken when you want what others do not.
Though being a kid is far different from an adult.
You grow old, mature, and sometimes when you’re deep in thought.

Promises made years ago seem like a link to the past.
When all is lost and you need something on which to reflect.
The possibilities of promises are really vast.
A promise is something you have to protect.

I made a promise a while ago, although it may seem stupid now.
I’m the one that made that solemn vow.

Sometimes your darkest moments become the moments when you see the clearest.
When you let go and see the world from a different perspective.
That the moments you spent with someone are the ones that have made you the happiest.
The things you’ve feared all along have become your most desired objective.

When you have completely given up and see how the smallest things can spread happiness to everyone.
You wish for the emotion that has eluded you for so long.
Then you realize that happiness can always be found and you need to rely on no one.
But even so there is always that one person to which you belong.

Most of the time the one you truly need has been the one right in front of you when you needed someone the most.
Giving you the strength you needed to face each day.
Perhaps it’s the person who you’ve held so close.
The one that’s always been there to show you the way.

I had someone like that and after everything we have been through.
The only person I want to be with is you.

Guilt, Passion, and Greed.
The feelings I feel right now are throwing my stomach in a whirl.
A light to guide me out of this fog of confusion is what I need.
But I’m stuck inside thinking of this beautiful dark-skinned girl.

I mustn’t let my emotions show through.
But it’s hard to break the chains of these torturous feelings.
These feeling and perfect moments that show up out of the blue.
Halted by the parental ceilings.

I keep replaying the moments no one knew I captured.
The beauties she doesn’t even realize she held.
She doesn’t even know she is a heart snatcher.
With her love I’d surely be compelled.

I only wish that I could say.
How amazing she is from day to day.

I love staring into your big beautiful brown eyes
Your hair when it’s down makes my heart skip a beat just long enough to make my stomach all weak
your full lips that makes me smile deep down inside but I try not to let it show
Your soft perfect complexion that makes it so hard to sit next to too without slowly grabbing your hand
The way way you smile over the smallest things that gives me hope that my life is the best it’s ever been
The way I can completely be myself without worrying that you’ll judge me
Just the way that you are you.

If I ever seen your sad eyes I’d give my happiness to you.
If you ever cried I’d wipe away the tears from your eyes.
But that doesn’t work because I want to be happy too, so I’d have to make enough happiness for two.
I want to be the support you need to make you fly.

If I ever seen you angry I’d help you let off some rage.
If I ever seen you laugh I’d smile and laugh too
Because with you I feel like I’ve started a new page.
I feel like everything’s better when I’m with you.

If I see you smile my heart will melt inside.
If I see you happy I’ll feel complete.
When you look over I’ll be standing beside.
Seeing you happy would be my treat.

And no matter what happens.
Ill be here for you through every challenge.

They say that when you’re with someone you love your heart and soul will light up light the Fourth of July.
But for us that was actually the night it all began.
We began tickling and flirting, only reading each others silent reply.
Because at that moment, at that moment we started something we never mean’t to plan.

The instant our lips touched, there were fireworks much bigger and brighter than the ones that had been going off all night.
Seemed to be frozen in time with everything else happening around us, we fabricated our own reality.
Since then everytime our eyes meet my heart is filled with a wonderous sight.
Since then everytime we talked I fell more in love with your personality.

This short time we shared has been so much fun.
Even though we thought what was happening between us was so bizarre.
Now I am not scared because you might be with one.
I’m absolutly terrified because I know that you are.

I have to leave now but I promise I’ll be back.
Because you are what I’ve always lacked.

Days pass like shooting stars flying across the sky.
I wait for the day I can kiss your face and call you mine.
When we are together we make time fly.
I want you to someday be my valentine.

I know we aren’t perfect but we always work through it.
No matter what we go through and how much we fight.
You always fill my hearts pit.
And make me sleep happily at night.

I love you more than words can tell.
Always have and always will.
You have me under your spell.
Because you have my heart still.

I love you forever and ever and always.
Till the very end of my days.

I saw the stars and touched the light.
When you looked at me I fell in love.
You used to shine so bright.
I knew you were sent from above.

I never thought such perfection could cry.
But I stole your heart.
And made you die.
I never thought I could make you fall apart.

I miss how we used to be.
How your smile made my day.
But its all over because of me.
And I don’t expect you to stay.

New beginnings begin with the end.
So I hope you will still be my friend.

I’m a puppeteer, I pull the strings.
Once I catch you, you are forever my doll.
You can hide it, you can even fight it, but I’ll always be able to make you do things.
You will always follow my protocol.

You may think you have a choice.
You may think you have free will.
But you will follow every word of my passive voice.
And I’ll use you to get my thrill.

If you ever leave, I’ll leave a string hanging so I can tug on it when you’re gone.
You may think that you’re safe.
But in the end you’re just my little pawn.
The path Is set for you and you cannot strafe.

For I am a puppeteer and I must confess.
I am the best at this game I call chess.

Temperatures rise, clothes fly, bodies sweat.
Telling each other lies to comfort our heads.
Kissing down her body till she’s soaking wet.
Slamming her arms down on my bed.

Sliding my tongue deep inside.
Holding her thighs wide.
Till her body is tremendously satisfied.
And my mouth fills up like the rising tide.

Pulling her on top of me to take the ride of her life.
Feeling every inch extend and retract.
Pleasure so great you feel like it’s the afterlife.
Our bodies start to attract the contact.

We are just objects of lust.
Just because that’s true doesn’t mean we must, distrust.

I slowly slide my hand down your spine.
I run them to your hips, as I kiss you’re perfect lips.
I look deep into your eyes until you beg for all nine.
I start to slip in the tip as we dig in with our fingertips and tighten our grips.

I push in half the shaft.
Our hearts race and we lose all sense of control.
It begins to feel like some type of witchcraft.
We are so engulfed in pleasure that we touch each other’s soul.

Our bodies finally connect and become one.
Being inside you makes me lose all sense of reality.
The lines that separate dreams and reality have come undone.
Everything that could be, or set us free are between you and me.

At this time we both finish.
And our ****** urges diminish.

Do you know what it feels like to fall out of love? to be a stranger in the world once more?
its an odd feeling to have memories of a life that doesnt belong to you now.
walking past places and seeing that memory of that place you used to adore.
you look back and while you know what all happened, you dont really know how.

feels like you exist in another dimension, an extension of comprehension that gives you a new intention.
you start seeing everything so differently, you excape the captivity and emerge from invisibility.
its at the point that you knwo you're gonna okay that you have hit the ascension.
you realize your true capability and work towards your own reassembly.

you feel the tides changing and the moon phasing.
with each inhale your thoughts reorganize.
you start walking forward as the path is rearraging.
and you realize that you can visualize the otherwise unrecongnized.

that you've only cut the ties of what suppressed your progress.
but now you possess the equation for success.

Fast cars.
Red lights.
Wrecked hearts.
Goodnight.

I could meet someone and go on dates.
We could exchange ideas and thoughts and our number.
But you’d fall in love and call us soulmates.
And that would really be a ******.

I’m sure you’d be an amazing person.
My hearts already taken, I’m in love.
Then our situation would only worsen.
Because then there would be a feeling you cant get rid of.

The person I love doesn’t love me back.
You tried to change my affection, my direction.
But you couldn’t get me off track.
Because she is my selection of perfection and I’m sure you’d have an objection to my rejection.

Because the emotion of devotion that I feel for her makes time move in slow motion.
And you would only end up broken.

Three years ago I met an angel, an entity who showed me infinity.
I was blessed by her touch, her love, and her voice.
I felt the affinity of her divinity.
I fell in love because I had no other choice.

That angel picked me, despite my unworthiness.
Loved me despite my mortality.
The memories of us are timeless.
Locked in a vault of Immateriality.

I stand before you now as a fragment of a memory.
A piece of the man tried so hard to be, a remnant of time.
Now our love is history, a mystery to people who will see our story for the next century.
I made a mistake that will last a lifetime.

Her grace will not bless my resting place.
Because our paths no longer interlace.