I love every single thing about you

The way you smile,
The way your hair drips down onto your shoulders,
The way you are fearless,
The way you love

I wish you saw yourself as I see you

I found you by accident.
two imperfect people,
lost, yet found by each other.
you were a brief moment in my life,
a fragment in time.
we were not meant to be.
but in your arms,
I found a moment of serendipity.

I still see that version of you.
That one night by the water.
I wish I could live it through once more,

Because if I could,
I’d make it last a little longer.

I like it when you call me when you're drunk.
it makes me feel less crazy.
at least I know you think of me,
even if its in the absence of your sobriety.

paintbrush strokes brush the canvas
each bristle individually placed upon a blank slate
nothing but color as an image of her thoughts
put up as a masterpiece for everyone to admire

behind the beauty of the artwork
hides the blank canvas
no bristles, nothing but a clean slate
for the painter to paint away their thoughts

i am the day.
each morning I rise.
new beginnings await me.
the day is me.
we shall rise together.

I've heard that the eyes never lie.
I hope that isn't true.

For every time you watch her walk by,
My eyes are drawn to you.

outside the world is dying
yet all we see is bright colours
and beautiful sights

as we eat pie
and breathe in the crisp air
we can't face the truth,

the leaves are dead

and so are our hearts.

falling for someone

is it meant to kick you down
cut you up and bruise you
coating you
in a
shiny coat of red

pain mixes with emotions of love
hides behind words
feelings
actions
contorting itself into pleasure

blame others
it isn't your fault

but

only your blood
comes out of

your body

when you,

fell.

heavy thoughts race through my brain,
of our perfect love flooded by pain.

now too hard to stop the rain,

i'd die to hear you say my name

Long drives where the sun shines
Crystal clear skies and starry nights
These are moments spent with you
Where the beautiful days
Never seem to turn to night

A love that is forever bright.

images of you fill my mind
the sound of your laughter lingers
you are more than a memory
you’ll live forever inside me

for every day I miss you
every breath one too many,
every thought one too deep,
each touch further away from you,

please don't go,

I love you

I see you in my dreams
your presence seems to forever linger
I wonder if you touch her body
the same way you'd trace me with your finger

I can close my my eyes and let you in.
I can open my mind and push you out.

My heart, oh that *******.
Push it, pull it, not a single twitch.

I am a poet.
I feel emotions deeply but i do not show it.
Words sway my soul as my thoughts roll with the tides.

I feel deeply but it is masked by disguise.

I do not fear the night.
The darkness that fills my surroundings provides me with comfort.

My mind may wonder,
And my thoughts may be consumed,
But I do not fear the night.

I fear losing you.
You are unpredictable.
I fear you.
I fear that if I lose you,
I will lose myself.

I do not fear the night.
I fear losing myself.

You are like the darkness.
I have lost myself in you.
I fear I will never find an escape.

i fell in love with you in july.
bursts of your love shot like fireworks in my soul.
first a hello,
now a goodbye.
newfound love, all a lie.
i lost you in july.

his kiss is like coffee in the morning,
bold and sweet.
each taste leaves me wanting more.

your laugh is truly contagious.
people can say thats a cliché,
yet its not at all that way.

when you smile at me
I cannot help but smile at you
last night thats all we'd do.

each joke, each glare, each smile, each stare.

Its in my mind I choose to ignore .

In my heart last night is what I'm longing for.

*******.

you showed me love,
but you brought me pain.
you showed me life,
but you embodied death.
you gave me purpose,
but you labelled me worthless.
you were nothing but trouble,
how could i have loved you.

I see everything differently. I used to drive down the road and think nothing of it, only noticing the trees and the people walking by. Now, each time I drive down the road I look for your face, hoping that in the crowds of people I would notice you. When I look at the trees I don’t admire their beauty, I search for your beauty in them. When I listen to music, all the songs remind me of you. Because now all of the sudden, each lyric is a note once written from me to you - perfectly describing how I feel for you. The coffee I drink reminds me of you too - I cannot run from you. For with each sip I am reminded of how you only drink black coffee, and with each swallow I take, I think of how if you were here you would criticize me for drinking it with cream. When I walk by the water I think of you. I think of how you kissed me by the water, held me, touched me, spoke to me - each wave that crashes floods my mind with memories of you. When I hear somebody yell, I hear you yelling. I hear your loud, raspy, and tired voice call out to me. I hear you say my name. I hear it all - my mind plays your voice like a record, the sound revolving in my head constantly. When I stare at this page, I cannot stop myself from thinking of you. I wonder what you would think of me if you read this. Would you laugh and call me pathetic or would you love me for it? I will never know. I often question what you are thinking about, and I often hope it is of me. I see life differently, each day when I wake I hope that the day brings me closer to you. I see the sun differently. When its beams shoot into the universe, and the heat touches my skin, I imagine that it is the heat of your skin against mine. You are the sun. As I write this I feel your emotions - I feel your hurt. I know you are no longer mine, however I feel as if I am still yours. When I think of love, I think of you - after all love isn’t easy, it is something you fight for. I will fight for you - I do not have you, but I will not lose you.

pure love is like a rose
it will grow when watered
and wilt when the day runs dry

it wont last forever
but for a moment
it will exist

eventually there will come a time
where thorns so delicate will grow
they will mask themselves
so even the pain resembles bliss

there are some things I wish I could change.
like the way I see myself.

because maybe,
just maybe.

if I saw myself differently,

         so would you.

the night takes over my mind.
suddenly - i am filled with darkness.
my heart, a broken record.
the words spin.
over and over again,
midnight rotates forever in my head.

Nobody knows you like I do.
I hold that thought in my mind.
No matter how hard they try,
They will never see you as I.
You are so special,
It cannot be disguised,
That they will never be me,
And they will never see you through my eyes.

the sun does not choose to rise,
and I do not choose to love.
as the new day begins and sun fills the sky,
your warmth fills me from above.
for you are my sun,
the light of my life.
please don’t go,
I am afraid of the night.

another year gone
only a memory
from now on
a new chapter lies ahead of me

you are so great to me
you are my sanctuary

lost in your arms, there is no place I'd rather be

as the air wisps between the branches of the trees,
I can't help but think of you and me.

how the wind caresses each individual leaf,
and wraps around the stems.

our love is like the air and the trees.

every touch,
every moment,

I am wrapped in your love.

skin of porcelain, dolled up face, and a fabricated grin.
violet painted lips mutter the words, “I don’t love him anymore”.
goosebumps cover her skin once grazed by another,
he holds her, but he is not her lover.
both so broken, shattered hearts expressed in words better left unspoken,
whispers fill his ears.
“put me together,
i am broken.”

you make me remember.
remember what it feels like to let go.
you give me complete liberation.
I am free from the confinement your love once brought.
when I remember you,
I forget all things.

when I remember ..