Y'all ever have two good choices?
When choice one is awesome
And choice two is awesome
but you can't choose one
but you can't choose two
So you're stuck debating on which one to choose
And you have to choose in a day
But you're as indecisive as a mosquito
So you're just like .............
And choice one is waiting on you to choose him
And then choice two is waiting on you to choose him
But really they're both so good and I both like them
But I just can't choose

Stay with me
Is my love not enough?
Do you know that I love you
When I look in your eyes I feel new
You were my spring
You were the river i flowed with
You couldn’t live for me anymore though
I saw your last breath
I saw that you caused it
I felt everything you felt at that exact moment
Farewell

It's a whole different story
About the glory I've been through

Mentally dismantled
Spiritually a bundled
Cranium tasseled
Failed attainment
Craze by the crowds
Oh how I feel demised
Trained by the master
Hidden intellect
Chosen few has heard
Chosen few has experienced
Life changing words
Brain is so superb
Tongue twisters is a love spot for the genuis that is her
She is her
Her is me
Her is you
Her is us
Her is many
Many of the intellects
Many of the power holders
Many of the strong
Many of her

I did it again
I let him back in
He's my Bestfriend
How can I tell him no?
Art is what brought us together
My paintings his graphics
For the love of art

Dark soul
Bright thoughts
Killer words
Dead Thoughts

His heart mimics mines
His hands are soft as mine
His beauty is desirable
His shell is hard but he's soft on the inside
He makes me laugh
He's always there for me

Stuffed up
Fed up
Can't even breath
I just got a cold no big deal

Can I ask you something?
Can I ask you about myself?
Can you tell me what you see when you look at me?
Can you see someone beautiful or ugly?
Can you look in between my skin and see the scars underneath?
Can you feel the pain I've felt?
Can you tell me I'm beautiful?
Can I tell you I'm afraid?
Can I?

Depravation
Deprived of the odds of our stars
Little ***** ****** me and left me
Depravation of the hard time rambling in my old mind
Past coming like the present time
Future dim with nine lines
My ***** ****** me on nylon
The depravation of my mind
Hard to think
Hard to swallow the deprived thoughts
I need some water give me some water
I'm deprived

They think I'm sick
I'm just addicted
Addicted to this life i have
I just need a friend
To help me and help me get stronger
No, I don't need rehab I need trust

Beat Hit Me Like A Punch In My Face
Beat Broke Like My Heart in 00'
Words Lingered On Around My Heart Like A Leech ******* My Blood

Made Me Feel Like I was Real
Made Me Feel Like I was Powerful
Made Me Feel Like I was meant to be here

4 Your Eyez Only

I lay here
Thinking
Poetically thinking
Thinking of words that can flow
Thinking of hard times and the good
Thinking of all the lies I've been told
Thinking of all the times I've been hurt
Thinking of all the times I had to walk past a casket
Thinking of all the times I've been in the hospital when I was a kid hoping you get better
Thinking of the time I walked home and found you dead
Thinking of all the times of watching law and order and I knew the signs
Thinking of the times we traveled
Thinking of your beautiful smile
Thinking of the story when you first held me in your arms
Thinking of the story about when you adopted me
Thinking of your kind heart
Thinking of us on how were intertwined
Thinking of all the love I have for you
I'm thinking on how much I thank you
Thinking of the day, I will reunite with you again in heaven and the stars.

How can I say sorry?
A million of tears
For just one forgiveness
Broken heart?
Can I mend it?

Eyes like Medusa
Heart like Cassius
Strength like Hercules
Power like Zeus
Soul like Cleo

They bickered
They called me flotsam
They thought because i was homeless I didnt have the intellect to know
They called me flotsam
Am I worthless like they say
Am I debris to society
Realizing I can never think like that
Because if I did I would be dead
But I'm trying
I'm trying not to be that so called "flotsam"
Bet you I'm smarter then them
But my circumstances are inevitable
The sad life of a so called "flotsam"

Wish I could tell him
The thoughts that take up my mind
The level of confusion that I feel
The harsh reality of a loveless girl
It’s not the same anymore
My strings has been played
Unsure that they can be renewed
Unsure if I can be that person for him
I wish I could tell him

I inhaled cannabis for the first time
I felt a freedom I felt free from life
I felt that life was nice and I could live
When my high came down I felt my life wasn't real

To be in a different world, a peaceful world
Is a world I want to live in
I want to be free
I want to live
I want to be me
I want peace


Yours truly

She stared blankly at me
Her beautiful bold eyes
Deep down she was in pain
She was rejected by society
Was she good enough?
Her big curly Afro
Her smooth face
The mark above her lip
She stared and I stared back
I wonder what she saw

I fail to realize...
I fail to realize over and over again
I fail to realize everybody is not for me
I fail to realize everybody doesn't want to see me succeed
I fail to realize a lot
I just want to succeed but it's so hard with no supporters
Try waking up everyday trying trying to do right
But to the world they see wrong
So they don't see me
Im an ant to a dog

****** your ears
Reduce the pain
Smooth words
Rough ending

Heard the wind whisper
whispers
Live life a breeze and don't be discouraged"

Let my art be the sound of my soul
Let it reminisce of the good times
Let it scribble the lines of the bad times
Let it bloom with excitement
Let my art be a representation of me
Just let it be me

Broken heart
Shattered feelings
The love is lost
But was it even there?
Were the feelings so closeted it left?


He kept me on delivered
All I wanted was to be read
I wanted him to examine me and my emotions
But could he truly understand me?
Could he understand that I was hurt deep down?
Or was I so flawed he just saw it as another insecurity within myself?

**Delivered, Delivered

The heart is in my art

A world
A big world yet it seems so small
While the fat and the rich indulge
While the poor and the helpless loose cautious
While the churches are getting bigger and fancier
While public schools are getting smaller and messier
While the killers are set free
While the victims die
While critics critique to ****
While critics cry because they can't take the heat
While the ball drops on New Years
While the homeless man looks for another chance
While the big and rich are known for nothing
While the small and poor will never be known
While I look at this world
While I see the destruction of
humanity
When will we get better?

I'm going to miss my pink and blue walls
I'm going to miss the squeaky noise
I'm going to miss the nosey neighbors
I was ready to get rid of the pain of emotions of this house
But tomorrow morning it's happening
I'm moving on to better
I cherished the past
But wow my future is so bright
Moving on to better things....

Is it weird I thought the world was mines?
I said I was karma I controlled what happened to people who did my wrong and I made sure of that
The people I loved so dearly betrayed me so I gave them what they gave me, but instead of just a scar from the stab they gave me I gave them a jagger and twisted it inside them, I didn’t just give them a scar but I scarred their mind enternally I made their situation worst
But you know what’s wrong?
I’m not a god so do I regret what I’ve done
Yes at times but a lesson learned is better than doing it again
Vengeance WAS mines

I wasn't taught about the after cry after a break up
I wasn't taught the morning after a break up the sun wouldn't shine anymore
I wasn't taught that music wouldn't sound the same anymore
I wasn't taught that I would shed so many tears that salt water became my ocean
I wasn't taught that feeling of being lost and not being able to find yourself
I wasn't taught about the after cry

Let my paintings become the words that bleed out of my mouth

Y'all ever feel hopeless sometimes
You're around so many people who don't believe in you
Can't see far enough to your dreams
Don't believe in your words or could understand it?
Y'all ever feel alone in a room full of people and feel better alone.
Sometimes I'm ready to go but I can't go just yet
If you're reading this, your reading how I've been feeling lately.
I haven't been writing because I feel uneasy, its just so hard to live your life pleasing others, and its very hard to express it
Anybody who's out there living for others, STOP NOW! And live for yourself

**** this life of mines
My heart hurts
My soul is aching
The disrespect from people is to much
The constant nagging from people is to much
**** my life
I see so much more
It's taking forever to get there
It's taking forever

Let me say this
Familiar feeling
Kindred Spirit
Soul lost
Soul gained
Butterflies
Blushed Cheeks
Warm heart
FAMILIAR FEELING

They say love is real
It's a feeling that you can't describe
I never felt love
I've felt hate
I've felt the feeling
The feeling of pressure on your heart
I've tasted the salty tears from hate
I've felt the punches of hate
I've had the bruises from hate
But how does love feel?
Does it feel so good?
Will the feeling be stronger then the hate I've felt?
Will it?
What's the difference of love and hate?

I fall in love with words
I'm so sensitive
I'm so happy
But it's just words, not actions
He says I'm meant for him
But he hasn't fully showed me
It's just words

The excitement of a child
Is in you when you get a new artist tool
Write,color,paint
It's an artist tool
It's all new
It all you
You figure out what you want to do first
With the new tool
Your a child
Full of joy and happiness
I'm that child with a new tool

**** her
She's like a raisin in the sun
She's all dried up
Can't stand to look at her
All I see is her demon eyes
Can't stand to talk to her
All I hear is trash
Oh she's quite irrelevant at this point
But she did it on her on

Tears fall onto my cheeks
I’m used to that
The illness has taken my soul
Broken pieces
I want to go back to him
But it was better for me to go
To be alone
So now I think of the happiness he brought
But it was too much when I was Ill
If it mattered he would have found a way
But he never did
So I sit here and think about us
But I see it’s just a memory

Pain is inevitable
Bad thoughts are nothing of God
Depression happens because the devil wants to stop your happy thoughts
I can only trust God
No one loves like him
And I had to question if he's there
But when I was alone and by myself near to my death bed
No one was there but him
He brought me out of my pain and bettered me

Who would ever think I would fall in love?
Who would ever think someone would be genuinely intrigued by me?
Who would ever think someone would fall in love with me?
Who would ever think someone would ask me to marry them?
Who would ever think my life would change overnight?
Who would ever think I would be so happy?
Who would ever think I would be so happy by waking up every morning?
Who would ever think I would love each and every day?
Who would ever think?

I break down
I sit down
I feel a hurricane
My eyes rain
I sit in a flood of salt water tears
Eyes red as a blood moon
Head pounds like the drummer
Realizing how easy life can fall apart
It falls apart so easily
Wow

You say you hate me!
We'll **** I hate you to!
You yell "*******"!
I yell "get the **** out my way"
You say "I'm sorry"
I walk away
You pull me
I feel the hate
I try to run away
I blanked out
I wake up
Lying in a pool of blood
I wake up feeling defeated
I wake up and leave why you sleep
And I leave forever
Broken away broken hearted broken forever

I was so busy living in a fantasy
I forgot about reality
My fantasy felt so right
But once it was over reality came with no reguards
I feel so empty, because I'm not where I want to be
My family loves to say they're are here
But in reality there not
Sometimes I wish I can rewind life and start over
Everything will be different

He said he loved me
And I didn't know what to say
He said he loved me
And I looked blank in his face
He asked me if I loved him
But I don't know
I don't know how love is suppose to be
He said he loved me

Ever had love taken away from you?
Ever had breath but could not breathe?
Ever had fools take away something valuable to you?
Ever had something so big that was swiped away from you in an hour?
Ever felt so lonely that you felt like you didn't have anyone?
Ever miss the kisses and the warm embrace you've felt?
Ever miss the sunshine and you wake up to not see your love?

Had my first breakdown at 14
Felt like I didn't have emotions at 15
Had my first heart break at 16
Had my first betrayal at 17
Felt more powerful at 18