Visiting Alice's Grave
There was nothing more than her life to save
She was the most brave
She was the good game you wanted to save
That dependent person to rely on
The shoulder to cry on
She was the kindest and most caring friend a human can ask for
She would see the rain and watch it pour
Smiling and dancing with a yellow jacket
She put on a Darth Vader helmet during one of her birthdays
She invented the term "wild card"
You could never predict her
She left behind a legacy
And a Best friend
Who was there until the end
Who she thought was a friend when she was alive
Was something more
Something she accidentally ignored
Roseyln loved her, but never told her
Now her life is under a carved boulder

A Cop who has heard everything in the book
Except this one statement
"I swear to DWI i'm not drunk"
It's a clear example of guiltiness wrapped around incoherent speech from impairment

I think i should apply for a mental health alleviation position
Because I've been making sure these people don't severely hurt themselves or commit suicide
I'm here to help you and i want absolutely nothing in return
It's one of the gifts God gave me
To make people feel better
And to be their vase to store all their tears
Here is to all the years
Of healing and wellness
That i'm bestowing upon them
Because it's an acting role where i'm not acting
I mean it
I love vaporizing the pain
It makes my mind less scorned from my own predicaments

They may be the spawn of all your uncertainty
But you cannot blame them
But we can blame you for thinking a certain way
Or speaking a certain way
You don't have the right to feel the way you feel
In the land of hypocrisy
We can do one thing
And say the other
Without any chastisement
How dare you exist
How dare you persist
In these deep blue thoughts
Turning into purple
A deep dark crimson peeking out of me
I left it to rot
But it's coming out of the lot
Everyone wants to be a despot
When I just want something to be done
Everything leading up to here was far from fun
But my mind will stay on the run
You can't expect me to not be a hired gun
When I can't even see my own Sun
Due to their constant eclipse
I felt it once before
Let me have another glimpse
Of sudden paradise
Very few moments truly felt genuine
The rest were just bland nothings
Contrived and reaped
It doesn't matter how much I wept
It's just a show to them
Let me get some high quality actors
Since my personal battles were never a factor
In this treacherous journey
To be worth something
Devalue me and retract your stance
I'm letting Lucifer dance
While I stay silent
Nobody ever gives me a chance
To speak
I'm unreasonably weak
In your eyes
While you never brought together an idea of compromise
So the best option for you was to leave me paralyzed
I don't care how your words are stylized
It still holds no meaning to me
I think I saw this coming long ago
I never wanted to come to terms
You're the President that should of never got them
That I should accept this
I'm on a road that only I can understand
While everyone else believes that approaching anything with feral verbalization is the key
Oh, what a hell it is being me

I think I;ve had enough.

This road looks like the endless blackness that you see in those games you stay until midnight playing
You think you can fabricate things but all I'm saying is

You could of done a lot better in a world where I always think I have to be.

These colors lose their appeal because I'm swimming in a depression that shouldn't be real
I'm thankful but resentful that I have to feel
I wish this pain wasn't real
Every moment you implement it to my vital signs

I wish the elation was always alive
And never had to be a victim of contrive
Pin me against the wall
All you want
I'm the peace in this elongated firefight
While I stay awake at night
I find reasons to quell the tensions
That this world has

No matter what a living soul says to me
I have every right to feel this
I have every right to say what is on my mind
Purpose is so hard to find
When you always grind
And they just throw you into a bind
The only person I have is me and Christ
More will suffice

I love who I am
But be cognizant that I'm a man who knows he's by himself
I have accepted it.

The path of legends await
I'm ready to walk

Into the depths of Insulation
I smile with confidence
I know you think I don't have it
But I have everything
Let the universe dictate
Where I should go.

If you wanted me to go shopping with you
I would say yes
To every dress
As lovers, I'd want to put them on you
You'll come out of the fitting room and I'll have to cross my leg over my excitement
From how attractive you are
Don't insult yourself
My body and mind thinks the complete opposite

One wish
To be that five star appetizer
On your plate
But you will probably throw me out
In the trash
For seconds
Without realizing it
But don't you worry, I'll climb out and win you over as of yet
I hope you don't forget
How hard its been to be me.

I hear the voices of all the good things people say about me
When i'm at my lowest and not sure if i can keep going
I think that's the main driving force it all.
I cherish those words like a retired vet cherishes his country's flag.
That is the biggest thing me and an retired vet have in common.
We both love our flag and our people.
If i could capture those good statements on a vinyl, i'd never stop playing it.
I would go through several record players within a few years
To only stop my unneeded tears and my most needed confrontation.

If I am ever anything
I was never to be the man who walks away
Everyone else seem to do so
But I'm the only one left in the line that was on the chopping block
And stayed until the end
I have my pride and my dignity
I think that's the strongest thing
No matter how bad I mess up
I hold my head up high
Trying to coordinate a way to fix the discrepancies that were there
Most people wouldn't care
But I give it my all
I will break this fall
Over and Over again
Don't count me out
Just count me in
I like numbers that penertrate my brain
Like they did before
Don't worry
No more grudges from this heart
Just help given when you've fallen apart
I'm not wasting my time being the same
I'm not doing it for a hot minute of fame
I know what its like to be formerly lame
So I made the cut now
And I'm giving the upcoming ones as much as a chance as the wiser few did when I was young and aimless
They're my motivation now
I hope I can duplicate this notion
Causing so much commotion
That you wake up from your coma
My words should be gradually uplifting, taking it in like meslotheioma
But I heal instead of ravage
Sometimes I get a hit savage
Only when I'm fed up with someone overstepping their boundaries or crossing the line
Or just when I'm upset and flustered
Then that case the fault is mine
Join me this time
Let's look at the Stars
Let's not think too far
Tonight
Drinks on plastic cups are on me

When people ignore me
I think they're making the biggest mistake of their life
Conceited sounding at first
But to quench some thirsts
You have to fill in the gap that most can never fill
I'm one of those for sure
I can count on it
You can count to the numbers given by humanity
But i want to go into infinity
Never ending paths
Never ending chances
Nothing will ever be the same
And i think that's great
You are a meeting and i never want to be late

She wants a release
In her life
So I'm going to throw suggestions
Her way or another way
I hope she likes my ideas
They're not the best in the world
But they work
Not all the time, but let's not worry about that okay?
I want to make today her best day
A day she never gotten before
Preventing her from being bored
But I want to give her the excitement she needs
With the fun things in life to make memories
And the physical bump and grind
She should release stress this way
And possibly down south.

I'm the calmest one in the room
But inside my mind three nuclear wars have already happened
And it's halfway done with the nuclear winter
Getting ready to experience the human splinters
Trying to recreate civilization for the first time in a grand number of years
We have to set an example for our peers
Or the term wasted years becomes relevant
Why end what could be by making rash decisions?
Keep your composure
You'll be a promoted soldier
Fighting for something greater than yourself
And that's more than many people can ask for.
The Nuclear Winter is what we all fear in our head
That's what happens when something major happens to someone i care about
I'm keeping all the straws together in the straw hut
But they keep falling down
Why won't it work for me?
I ask myself repeatedly
Don't worry honey, i'm doing just fine
Just thinking about keeping my sanity from combusting
I can't let your beautiful soul see my internal pain and fear
It will be alright, my dear.

Rome wasn't built in a day
But your influence on me did

If i was here to make you happy
Then we should probably cancel this infomercial because you're never going to be convinced to enjoy my existence
It's in the way you speak
Trying to pillage the core
Make me feel weak
That's the best you got?
We're about to reach extra innings
Come to bat

I like the light overcast
Its not too sunny or too dark
Its just right
The perfect amount of coverage of the scorching sun
I hope you get the best of this and gave fun
Because I know I will.
Overcasts make everything much cooler

A college degree dream
But instead you're taking orders
and filling up from a ****** vendor of ice cream

Sometimes i get lost in other poet's work
That i forget where i am in the current time frame
Am i inside the poem?
I think so
Don't tell Houston, i have enough problems as it is
Let's pull out a lawn chair and watch the beauty unfold
This is the best moment never told
Until now.

You've asked for Cloud Nine
But we don't have to deal with trine
We can get to the prime
Sending you to Ten
Even Eleven
When I think of this, it's a duplicate of Heaven
It dates like a Sweven
But time can't eradicate the value
Peaceful as the beaches of Kahaluu
There's no limits on the elation I want to bring to you
Make love on the soft sand
Saying words only the Motherland
Should hear
These aren't formalities, dear
They're semsuality
Coming from the best place of me.

Crashing economy
Poor job growth
One job, might lose it
Hardly anyone can help out

**** it all to hell
Hopefully my guardian Angel can hear me when i yell
Hopefully she's not drinking that Corona again
When i told her not to
She's a great Angel, she really is
She just couldn't handle the excessive pressure going on within me
Can't sue her for trying
It's not her fault or mine everything is haphazardly and disjointed

A new age needs to be selected, annoited
In order for my breaths to breathe in something healing.

As the pain just adds up,
I'll be your sponge and soak it in
Feeling it all within
Beneath me and below me
Tired of the Sin
That implements fear into our hearts
Never again will i witness such discouraging misery without having a hand into preventing it.
We're all guilty of pandiculation.
I'm no different, but at least i can attempt to stop some of the ravaging pulses that define our physical state.
We invented habit, but now we're trying to have a ribbon cut to end the ones we dislike the most.

i could be told a worldwide amount of praises
and then be gifted a lifetime of abraises
feeling nearly the same throughout my phases
learning how to collocate the right phrases
i'm prolific in procrastination
hence becoming the opposite of a cation
i hope i can acquire an alsatian
to make me stable
there's no telling
when i will be able
to suffice
and be looked at like gneiss

One small decision
Has left us in terror
With flames in the sky and bullets going into our hearts
This city is falling apart
The reporters are speaking in shock
As they hear sounds of the booming glocks
The angry and selfish have caused chaos in the stores
Tears and sadness is apparent in their faces
Completely still
Stuck
Whispering HELP ME
HELP US
The police are standing in valiant honor
Trying to hold the pain
The horror
That has surcumbed to this beautiful city
They shout the taunts and words to guilt
While fake blood is being spillt
Bringing the racial issues into play
Much to unity's dismay
We will never surrender to violence unless provoked
Peaceful protestors are the lone light
In this raging battle
To save justice
They want body cameras in the future
But I think they should have them now
We must learn our lesson
This is another Rodney King disaster
The United States is never used to this
So we are scared
I pray for the innocents
They never asked for this
The peaceful protesters earn my respect
They emulate the right way to fight
They are willing to stay up all night
To stand for something
Not looting and breaking into buildings
Those are the examples of the demons within us
The peaceful ones are concerned about police militarization
But they need to survive too
Against the ones who misuse the Guy Fawkes Masks
They stand in fear
Shivering in the cold
As the Seasons Greetings sign hangs in the mist by the tear gas
When will this pass?
Help us find peace
And leave none deceased
STAND.
NO
MORE
GREED.
ONLY
SELF
DEFENSE.
PEACE.

My heart
Belongs to you
My mind and soul
Belongs to me
Your mind mind and soul
Belongs to you
Your life comes first
To mine
When we're connected
You will come first
To quench the thirst
The hunger
That humans innately have

I don't mind
Having a grind
I should take pride
Knowing i can be inside
Something as magnificent as you

Just tell me what you want, that's what i'll do
Don't come too soon
I want it to be like a monsoon
You make me high like a balloon
I want to feel that high
All the time
I want to have my head belong
In between your thighs.

I have this hunger
Devouring me whole
I punctured all your holes
And they turned into moles
Which you might find ugly but I think they're beautiful
What you don't know is
That my hunger drives only for you

Life is all about choices
Out of the very many there are
I just hope that i'm Somebody's best one they ever made.

Down on yourself *******
Nobody seems to be behind you
Just remember that Jesus only had twelve followers
And ****** had millions
Who ended up being the better side?
It's not about the numbers, but the actions.

“You’re just churning out words”
Isn’t any story you read just a bunch of words?
They just pass the comprehension test
So why do you detest
Such a fast paced style?
Is it cause you wish you could mimic?
Or is it cause you’re not really a writer?
Writers churn out words to feed their families and their spouses or even themselves
Sometimes people enjoy my “churned out words”
In the end, your churned out words will just be at the same starting level as everyone else's and your discouraging comments will flare and vaporize into nothing
As your name stays behind
And mine and the other ones rush ahead
Because their words mind their own business
And don’t seek destruction
They’re aware of the chances
They’re aware of the equality
So why aren’t you?

I'm like a light beer
I'm virtually harmless in small doses
But when you have too much of me, you go out of control
I'm what they say on those commercials
Please enjoy me responsibly
I mean it relentlessly

Twelve days of Christmas
Your true love should give to you
Twelve of their best traits
The Pear tree is going to have to be empty this year
For what is truly sincere
Excitement of items are so out of here
That something so special, so dear
Will be in
For the rest of times
Santa better skip this house
Because I'd hate for our time together to be interrupted
You have no idea how many times my heart has erupted
Out of endless joy
Being around you

Send me to hell
Cause i have ***** thoughts
Oh wait, i'm already in Hell
But your existence makes it a little worth it
I'm not on that one track mind, but i do like the grind
When we're not referring to work
I'm just a man
With good intentions
Trying to fight off the natural feelings
But i guess you won't mind
Cause it's a bad habit
As out of control as Roger Rabbit
But they constantly nickname me Peter Rabbit
I'd rather be the Richochet
I hope i can into your heart that fast.

A glimmer in my eye
You're the Catcher in the Rye
Everyone warned me about
Making my soul twist and shout
But i know what you're all about
And i'll envy how you pull it off
Envy the skills you possess
It's a little too easy to possess
Me in the light
But at least i can admit to it.

If i had to send a message in a bottle
It would be as long as a constitution
I tend to write an elongated amount
On the most basic subjects.

I've had the snakes bite me
For far too long
It feels like I'm their giant gong
You're tired of the same old lyrics used for every new song
So i'll save you the headache
I'm trying to be the one who stands out for goodness sakes
I'm looking for a way out of the sewer
Where the legless rule
And take advantage of the lone mule
Which is I
I need you to find a serum
Strong enough to diminish the Venom
Left inside me
After all these years
I can be the reflection of the tears
If only you do your part
If only you were kind enough
But i'm not entitled to anything
If it ends here, it ends here
So be it

Overly sweet
Overly passionate
Overly sincere
Overly poetic
Overly this
Overly that
Just trying to be me
As you're just trying to be you
We're all overly something
I think we can agree that we're overly poetic.

I wish people could see a beautiful woman
And think about all the great things she can accomplish and create
Instead of only seeing her as a means to procreate
She's the one that decides where that transpires
We're supposed to be trained to be on top of our sprires
Not underneath.

I never think about what's underneath
Her clothes
That's only a thought
If she invites me in
And it's not the only thing she's good for, but it sure is a treasure I will hold onto.

Sticks and stones may not break your bones
But a 40 ton truck sure will

I'm looking to open your heart
Not your legs
More men should be following that mentality
But some of us learn the hard way
And feel the emotional fatality
That comes with it all.

Partially this
Partially that
Impartially speaking
I can feel the best weakening
Very little gaining ground
Looking to make myself proud
I occasionally speak too loud
And it always turn south to concentration
All my thoughts are easy into *******
So don't look down on me just yet
I'm trying to turn this decline into a wavering incline
I hope i have enough time
To meet the match, to be successful.

I don't need to purchase a calendar annually
To know that you're my favorite day every day of the year
Twenty four hours, three hundred and sixty five days
Is not enough my dear
Music I will always hear
No instruments needed
All these musings might make you conceited
It'd be well deserved
Your voice is a language I don't have to learn, but i want to
And your doubt is what i yearn
To dismantle
I'll be  gentle
When your soul is mine to help handle
Forget all the other distractions
I want to solve all your fractions
Fix all the contraptions
Woven into you
Thirteen star signs and you shine brighter than every one of them combined.

If you're happy
I'm happy
I can't ask for any more
I tend to be the most frugal person in the room
But that's just who I am
I just want you to be happy cause of me
Girl, I know you have been trying to fend off the gargoyles inside your soul
But I'm here to help
Be happy for me
I want to see that smile
It cures my anger and sadness
And it lightens up the most brimming room.

I've had poems written about me
I guess it's the payoff for writing devoutly
I don't want to be cloutly
But I accept that it's there
I never knew I'd entertain a thought
Leaving anyone awestruck and distraught
What a magic the good lord brought
Upon a fellow like me.

You were like the winter's day, only around my light for a very short period of time before my world turned into nocturnal darkness.

I take a huge step
To be right in front of her
So she's safe and sound

Going undercover
In the sheets
Your pleasure is what greets
Go ahead and drink your wine
As we're on Egypian silk
Relax and don't be afraid
To ask for more
Too bad if I'm getting sore
That's the kind of reminder I want
Remembering a glorious session
Intense harmony
Aggressive is just as great as soft
Dig your nails into my back
My love for you won't crack
But my ability to hold it in will
It gives me chills
Thinking about it
Every glance at your beauty is a Jessica Alba moment in the summer

Whisper in her ear
things she wants to hear
don't hesitate, instigate
don't let your promises deflate
let her expectations fill up and inflate
make the ruggedness a clean slate
when she expects to be out of town, take her out of state.

Some people are survivors
Looking to be liberated
Their self esteem is gone and incenerated
Their downfall has took it's toll
It's not the ones asking for money on the highway
It's the plasma that burns through the most
The lost excerpt of the meaning of life
Is surviving

Ebullient moments touch me like Jesus touched the blind
Curing all the sheer stupidity and dread for just a few seconds
Like it diminished forever
But once these moments are over
The morbid realization comes back into play
Now i'm in overtime and can't score a goal
What number should i roll?
These dice aren't rigged, but i still have my suspicion
What will become of me if i let this get to me?

The soldiers who fight for our country
Have a harder job than we ever will
They're getting tired of reading the other wills
Most people would run for the hills
When a bullet gets close to them
But this is another day in the office for them
Merely a realistic training session
But there are no takebacks or redos.
It's all real.
This court can't appeal
Just sit in silence
Silence is harmonic and hellish simatenously
Too hard to explain

We need water
We need food
We need exercise
We need support
But we
Want a partner
Want a new television
Want a new car
Want a new video game
Want a new house
Want a new phone
But we don't need them. Maybe the phone depending on circumstance
But most of it we don't need
Very few things we actually really need
To be realistic about it all

I never knew a few years could feel like a few centuries, life is short but feels so long. Are we forgetting the difference? I always wonder. I always wonder too much, but can you find other people who do the same? Good, i don't feel as lonely in this dungeon.