Ebullient moments touch me like Jesus touched the blind
Curing all the sheer stupidity and dread for just a few seconds
Like it diminished forever
But once these moments are over
The morbid realization comes back into play
Now i'm in overtime and can't score a goal
What number should i roll?
These dice aren't rigged, but i still have my suspicion
What will become of me if i let this get to me?

Don't wait until Halloween
To make her scream
Not from fear
But for more.

We need water
We need food
We need exercise
We need support
But we
Want a partner
Want a new television
Want a new car
Want a new video game
Want a new house
Want a new phone
But we don't need them. Maybe the phone depending on circumstance
But most of it we don't need
Very few things we actually really need
To be realistic about it all

Whisper in her ear
things she wants to hear
don't hesitate, instigate
don't let your promises deflate
let her expectations fill up and inflate
make the ruggedness a clean slate
when she expects to be out of town, take her out of state.

I take a huge step
To be right in front of her
So she's safe and sound

The soldiers who fight for our country
Have a harder job than we ever will
They're getting tired of reading the other wills
Most people would run for the hills
When a bullet gets close to them
But this is another day in the office for them
Merely a realistic training session
But there are no takebacks or redos.
It's all real.
This court can't appeal
Just sit in silence
Silence is harmonic and hellish simatenously
Too hard to explain

You were like the winter's day, only around my light for a very short period of time before my world turned into nocturnal darkness.

To help our fellow Puerto Ricans
Puerto your Ricans
Over to the United States
Where they can abate
The traumaization
There's beautiful girls from every nation
Let's provide their people some elation
They suffered enough abrasions
Already

She's a supermodel without the penthouse
It's a million dollar mistake if you're not careful
The overall outlook seems baleful
It can still be amended
This is a tiring game of pretended
I'm just hoping I've contended
We're in a time where people say whole lots of words but never meant them
Poetry plays a hand in it's crazies, cheaters and wifebeaters
Why are you trying to be her?
She has nothing on you and that's a fact
I care for how we interact
If you're not seeing someone let's have a discussion
You've dealt with and dished out the repercussions
I'm hoping to be the one the curve the stock arrow
Your life, your wishes, your fears, your passion
Each and every inch of your bone marrow
Don't worry about your one room apartment
The neighbors will have to understand
I care about you and your potential
Giving you something you always deserved
If not me, somebody better
They're out there somewhere.

Just like a Hollywood Film
You shot and captured me
Releasing me into the world
For everyone to see
I never knew these scenes could luminate me

I never knew a few years could feel like a few centuries, life is short but feels so long. Are we forgetting the difference? I always wonder. I always wonder too much, but can you find other people who do the same? Good, i don't feel as lonely in this dungeon.

Who the hell said the Woman had to cook and clean all the time?
Who the hell said the Woman had to be the only one to take care of the kids?
People, people
Can't you do a day to day schedule?
Can't you communicate with actual words?
Is what i'm, asking too absurd?
Isn't it time we polish this spherical ****?
We created by creating constant years of misconceptions and misconstrued judgement?
Is this world what we really want it to be?
Maybe personal world have been made, but not overall
Not by a shot heard around the world
The Lexington veterans are rolling over their graves
For my words of mention isn't suitable for all ages
Maybe when they're older
They'll understand
We can't keep it from them forever, you know?
We can't keep the prejudices forever, either.  

Somebody get me a new draft
I don't like this one at all
Write me a new one or i seek another client to do so.
Something has to change, we have to change
I'm counting on all of y'all.

She only has a preference of men
Kudos for her
But i'll quit playing pretend
That i don't have a shot
And give it my all
No time to stall
I'll be there to break her fall
Romantic feelings or not
Civic duties, you know?
Can feel her radiance glow
Onto my vision
I look at her like nobody else
But when she's taken by somebody else
I let her be happy
But when that comes crashing down
(I never hope it would)
I'd be there to end the bleeding
Prevent her faith in men from receding
And show her how i make my swift moves
She's a beat i can't get out of my head
I'd hate to see her full of dread
If she never feels the same
Then there's no shame
But i'll give her a sample of my transparent game
You can take the end of my last name
(You read that right)
Anything for you, my dear
But if you'd like to stay friends
Than those feelings will gradually meet the end
But i'm optimistic in my endeavors
My heart won't accept being severed

I'll show her my side
I hope she'll like
Be the best friend
Be the best man
She's ever seen
I want to give her joyous chills down her spleen
From the enticing nature
Of my love

Her existence fits my needs like a glove
I'm easy to love
You doubt yourself but i like to bounce back
Tu es si grand je ne pensais jamais à quelqu'un d'autre pour être avec
Put those words on a recording and play them back
My loneliness is on the attack
But i quite like that

You don't like guys my type
But have you seen the way i type?
Baby, i can blow your mind
If there's even a slight interest there, i'll make the few inches go for a few vast miles.
At the end of the day, you're going to be wishing you would of found me sooner
Or reject me like a sorry sap i am
But in the end, the results are positive to me.

Bébé, ce cœur bat pour vous

To breakout of the relationship mold
You bow down and pull that ring out
And say these words:
*I hope we elope

Honey
I'm just a man
Not a God, not a higher power
Honey, I just want you by my side
While I do what makes me happy
Its really not rocket science
I'm struggling to get out of the defiance
But I will improve my relations with my dreams
You made my heart warmer and warmer
So honey, keep that fire going
You walking towards me like that is enough
It's not hard to get my attention
I'm just a man
It speaks for itself
Honey, don't try too hard
Just be you
And I'll surely be going crazy
Knees weak for you
Knuckles bleeding for you
From all the eczema
Honey don't you know?
It was all worth it.

We stay silent
Because nobody will listen
What did we do to earn a world of silence?
It's like the stone walls implemented itself in their ears
As they prolong it within the years
The more lonely we feel
The more success they feel
Are you happy now?

They accuse me of being a White Knight
But I'm just trying to do the right
I'm not trying to get every woman I meet under my bed sheets at night
Nothing makes less sense to me
Then the quickness to stating the term
How many times do I have to reaffirm?
Explaining myself is for the birds
I know those mindsets are absurd
I talk about love and *** a lot
Because they're both important
But don't get it curved
Don't gather the nerve
To say I only want the ***
When these kind of things get me in a vex
Love alone is the right
But it's missing the spark
It's such a simple concept but people still confuse it
I'm not going to manipulate or abuse it
White Knights help and expect something in return
I'm here to help and leave quietly
They only respect women cause they're attracted to them
I can't possibly fathom that kind of action
We're supposed to respect all kinds of people
And that's what I strive to do
I'll forever be accused of being a White Knight
Just because I have the right
Intentions
But that's something I have to brush off
And let the record play out until the hate party is done and they all go home.

I may be a poet but those words aren't something that loses substance after a while
Or right after i say them
I actually mean what i say
I'm not the boy that says sweet words to you for a disgusting personal reward and to use you
Everything i say is genuine, i live by my words
I hate wasting them

Make her laugh
Make her smile
Make her feel safe
Make her feel like she's everything
Don't make her cry
Unless it's tears of joy
Because her father, brother or friends that are guys will hurt you if you do.

Perpetual war
With my soul
I think its almost done
For now
I'll dial you when it comes back
Just make sure you're ready
For anything

When your self esteem gets boosted
A healthy beer has been brewed
A perfect sowing has been sewed
I'm getting butterflies when I used to get moths
Feeling a little less goth

People think it's the love and the ***
The deep emotional vex
That completes the hex
But it's really seeing the piles of paper
That never seem to taper
Get put into print
In a text size that you don't have to squint
A sense of joy and accomplishment
That's why I get so much elation
An old house always getting renovation
Some of us attempt to deconstruct those walls
But we're invincible with the notepad and pen
I have this giant grin on my face
When I write in a cozy place
And meet the quota I set
No matter what response I get
I shall be happy to be able to hike up the word count
And do what I enjoy
That's what makes this all worth it.

It can be a soft touch on the arm
A strong, commanding smell of perfume
Eyes to surely bloom
Something so beautiful
Hoping the feeling is mutual
I take it slow
The chemistry has to be there
There's so many factors to share
It's going to be awhile before I'll agree to seeing you bare
Not because I don't find you attractive
But because I don't want to disappoint you
Hurt you or disrespect you
If I'm going to share myself with you
It's because I think you're who I love
And not just a body up above
Me giving something I don't deserve
Because I lied
I'm not that type of guy
But that tempting touch
And the questions on what I like
Are flattering
But be cognizant to take it slow and let it flow
There's not much that's worse than forced relationships
A man has to be fully sure
Before he gives her the allure
That plays in her head when she seems me lure
Myself into her vision

Pellets to the gun
I know this night hasn't been fun
Running out of excuses
On why I say no
But if I say anything
I glow
So what do I know?
I can never admit it
But you don't know how many times I've reloaded just to unload.

Evasive words
Just don't matter anymore
I think my brink is switching
This old mod is glitching
The only room for repair is your brain, because it needs stitching
No, i never had a moment i was not human
I've just learned to bulk up the fat in my skin
And love myself within
You can take your disposable words and put them in the garbage fills where they belong
Because that's what it was all along
Throw vile retorts at me
I'll just deflect them into rubble
It means nothing.

All the Single Mothers out there
If he's spending all his time playing Fortnite instead of being interested in being a father
Run like hell
If he keeps getting in trouble with the law
Run like hell
If he constantly brings over people you don't know in your house around your children
Run like hell
If he has you do all the work as he sits on his *** and smoke ****
Run like hell
If he shows signs of abuse towards you
RUN LIKE HELL
Single mothers are off the table for me in this time frame
Because I can't provide financial stability and know I am not ready to be a father
So baby if you're a Single mother and want to date me
Don't take it personal
I just want to give your kids the world and more since they are the most important thing in life
I'm not at that level yet
Don't be upset or think I dislike kids
Just know I want to be at my best
And don't want them to suffer because I still have my own issues to sort out
There's more capable men
Who can be standup father's
And those are the men I tip my hat to
Baby girl you deserve everything and more
God has a special man in store
For you and your kids
It's just not me
And its DEFINITELY not those lowlifes.

It's time we start respecting you and being what we're supposed to be.

I could approach this day with complete sorrow
But I am cognizant that I'm not given tomorrow
So the soft pillow of Mother Teresa
I will borrow
To bask in until my time is finished
My happiness shall never be diminished
At least, not for long
We can't be elated forever
But we can salvage what's been severed
Appreciate the remaining light you have left
Everyone feels that conclave of emotional theft
At its core, life is a beautiful treble clef
Those who seek to destroy and bully are emotionally deaf
Enough with their dreck
They're only a fleck
Of the universe's' massive deck of cards.

You want a romantic poem?
Here it goes
“Baby, I take the e out of e-harmony”
“The E stands for exit”
“Which is what I’m doing right now”
“Cause this isn’t working out”
Taking the microphone
And looking at the news station televising this
“Kids, don’t break up with a woman like this in any way. Unless you hate life.”
I usually think dropped microphones are the best way out
This one is brand new
So I’ll pretend like I’m doing that
Don’t hurt her feelings
Just be transparent and genuine with your words
And hopefully the hurt will be as mild as the spring in Texas

Don't tell me it's natural
To look at a women inappropriately
To excuse your poor behavior
They're already scared and intimidated by thousands of other men like you
Dehumanizing them in every aspect
It is Man's greatest defect
You should only inspect
Her eyes when you are looking at her
It shouldn't matter if there's a drove of women walking down the street naked
Your eyes are not to wander
Anywhere else
It is the greatest challenge for Man
But you must do all that you can
To be abstinent of flawed desires
She is a human
Not a doll
For you to stare down and wither away one by one
I dream of a day
That a Man can resist every time
That will mean he has won the battle
That Women have been fighting
For what seems like forever
The amount of men teaching their sons
The rudiments of respect
Are far lower
Then it used to be
If I ever have a Son
He will know that he cannot disrespect them as such
Or he'll be ridiculed
In every way
Watch what you say, watch what you do and most importantly
Never make her feel blue
Always make her feel good as new
Regardless if you love her or she's just a friend
Because there are way too many lowlifes that only care about her body and their selfish desires
We need to increase our standards higher
I hope that he will be stating this in flyers
He won't be a liar
Either
When he does wrong
He'll look at her in the eye
And face the assessment he proposed upon himself
Like he should
If he's sincere
She'll love him like no one else ever could
Men are imperfect
So am I
But I challenge myself every day to improvise
On the insights and complaints of women today
And work to help these worries go away
I hope I'm a better man today
Only God knows what I truly deserve
I will preserve
My actions
And hopefully I'll be close to our goal
To be the kind of man I aspire to be.

Every day I don't see you

Leaves me a little misted

I hope that you'd come and clear me up

I never liked morning fog

I'd run to you like a morning jog

Seeing you in running gear is a sight

For the morning for sure

Just about anything you wear

Brings my heart upstairs

For every time you think nobody cares

I live to dare

By instantly denouncing your statements

Because they're causing me abatements

With my heart

With my passion for you

Music to my ears

Would be to hear a confident sentence come out of your mouth and mean it

Nothing would elate me more

That pretty voice of yours needs that sparkle

Let me come home
Help finish the chores
Send you to bed
So you can put on that bathrobe you like
And you can clear your head
While I finish up the work
As you get relaxed
I hope you smile with the smell of candle wax
Because this is my favorite part
Even if you don't feel good
I'll slip that bathrobe off and be as gentle as possible
Until you fall asleep
You're only feeling twenty percent but I need to give you my one hundred and twenty
Nothing would make me feel more confident
Knowing I pleased you
You're in a world of Boys and all I want to be is your Man
Sure, I always have a plan
But it would usually mean
Coming home to you and thinking of how good I can give it to you this time
I'm not a magician but I'd sure love to keep the magic going
Not the boringness the ones before gave you
But multiple sheets needing to be cleaned per week
And a quicker pile up of undergarments in the hamper
Your insecurities will try to damper
But let me show you
How my Eve should feel
When I'm in her sheets

I'd grow a lotus
Farm for you and only you
No other honey

All the foundations that were once built
Have seemed to diminish
As i try to find some way to make the finish
I try to find ways to replenish
My sorrowful soul
It always hits me hard and i don't know why
I've gotten better about it but it always seems to smack me full circle
It's not a wasteful existence but my mind is telling me so
And i've done nothing to make myself feel this way
I just do, and it's eating me alive
I want to permanently be happy and thrive
But the shrouds of darkness is trying to take me alive
If you have to put up with this much black
Than i want to come back

I hate change
Not the type you find on the ground
Or the inspiring differences
Just the way things falter, transform and corrode.

34 hours. Feels like 3400 days

Let's forget this whole meltdown and start over
Reincarnation in the flames
Starting the whole show to Set 1
I plan on changing this course
So my voice doesn't grow terribly hoarse
And i don't become delusional with constant remorse
It's okay to feel bad about the past
But i'm not holding onto it anymore
Let's reenact the day we met
And start this rusted and abandoned marry-go-round once again

Her still state
Is gorgeously ornate
Makes me want to be her personal oblate
I hope my passion is never too soon or late
I want our wants and desires to equate
Your mental health being healthy
Your spirit being wealthy
And your body to be at a constant state of relaxation
Mine is always in a state of taxation
But you can be the difference
I can be your deference
And your protector
You make it so easy when you're an injector of emotions
What an intense devotion
I don't need those potions
Or those spells
She didn't do anything to lure me
I was already there
My heart is spare
Of emptiness
When she's present
You'd be my Christmas
Don't worry about buying me gifts
You already repair my rifts
That's enough by itself
You'll always be enough
By yourself

Tropical depression
Tired of this elongated recession
Needing that moment of egression
I would rather just sleep until the next day
Yet it doesn't put the elephant away
Only making it more obvious
Master of procrastination
No matter how many pilcations
It seems to be the same result.

You call me an artist but i see it the other way around
I want to be at least apart of your pallet
Picking with a blindfold

People have crushes for a few days or weeks
But it goes away
One for me lasted three years
Confusing my peers
I don't give up easily
Not on someone I see myself with for a while
And not for some silly date or two or a sour ending that causes turmoil for everyone
I dont want the classic soap opera
Just her hand as I take her with me
Years into it all.

Mansion
Urban street
Front of a Theater
Back of your yard
In a pub
In the park
Under a bridge
Most of the time it doesn't bother me where we go, but dark alleyways and ghetto-like areas are a no-no even for a lady friend.
Play it safe, or rename the game title
I want us to be safe and sound
Not in a place where we're attacked for making a sound
Your heart is what i found
And now i'm not finding.
The looking glass stopped looking at me.
For now, at least.

I think you're the closest thing to paradise
I've ever laid eyes on
Where did the cool air go?
It's hot as hell in here
But with you here its very manageable
I can cope with this
Just give me some ice

Trying to save you
From all the mess that occurs
In this pleasant world.

I hate rejecting a girl
Who is too great to fathom
But because she’s too young
And you’re at that age where it would be inapposite to date
A younger one by that margin
I have to say no
For the respect of her parents and her herself
I’m not a heartbreaker, most of the time i want to try it
But i know that’s not possible
So i must cloak your sweet temptation to form a stronger connection
By doing what’s right
Even if it means rejection
It must be done
I’m sorry, ***

Tired today
Tired tomorrow
Tired a week from now
Tired a fortnight from now
Tired a month from now
Tired years from now, only more so.

One giant pool
Of bestowed dread
In my head

Rest in Peace Prince
Another legendary musicians lost
Leaving us into frost
Why does it have to
End like this
I just want to ask God this
I'm so curious
Everything suddenly becomes silentv

Karma hits like a wave
You think of me as a 20th century German margrave
Gathering up for a nave
My words of reaction are dried up like the desert of Mohave
I hardly misbehave
I've become pretty tame
Scared of becoming lame
Each day became the same
You needed someone to blame
So you picked me.
No need to get become traumatized by it
I've only become enlightened
Thank you for lamenting your stance
This act is what I''ll be entranced
With
When I take the world by the lungs
By how hard I've swung
And how high I've sprung

The fear of a soldier
Is a Hollow Point
The fear of the government
Is a Hollow Joint .

I don't write because i was told to
I don't write to get richer
I just write because it seems inane
I'm off the grid, off the charts
Just missing every dart
That comes your way
But i will be relentless today
I know everything can make us paranoid
But i'm strong, i can keep up
I will be flamboyant in that notion
My dreams are my truest devotion
You can stare, intimidate and glare
Some of them praise you endlessly and some of them don't even care
That's how life works
If it works at all
Every now and then it slips up
Like a wet floor without a wet floor sign
You see how hard work and success aligns?
Hit that green light

It gets lonely at the top
But not upon me
You should be the only gorgeous elve in the magical canopy
I almost don't want a mortal man out of me
Just to spend immortality with you