the dream,
i dream frequently,
is you,
reciting my poetry,
sitting in that cozy chair,
which belongs only to me,
with your arms on my study table,
in your dappled blue shirt,
with your sleeves half folded,
with your eyes on my words,
and every time you ,
see your name,
you lift your archly eyelashes,
give a glance,
pass a smile,
and start reading again,
i dream ,
you bite your lower lip,
every time i say ,
i love you,
so i keep on dreaming,

without me,
the world would be a better place to live,
don't ever lie to me that,
i belong here,
when i already know that,
for fools like me,
this world isn't a better place,
don't tell me,
it will be alright,
when i know,
it's never getting better,
don't try to convince me that,
everything is going to be perfect.........

now read from bottom to top.

lips that once used to smile,
have started to abuse,
eyes that once used to shine,
are now busy in crying,
hands that once used to paint,
have started writing,
mouth that once used to sing,
has now,
started reciting poetry,
loving the wrong person,
taught her so much new..........

she could feel the time,
passing like grain of sand,
and all she could do,
was to wait ,
for all those grains,
to stuff,
all the cracks,
that he had left.

under the shades,
of those thick,long,black lashes,
were the pearls,
waiting to jump out of the window,
waiting eagerly to roll down his cheeks,
but there was a rule ,
which he should abide by,
that men never cry.......

she lost her sleep,
over someone who was just a nightmare,
she had always been ,
too much for men like him to hold,
she was the queen of hearts,
and he was just a joker,
dressed like her king...........

she has many layers rapped around her
you must peel every layer ,
to reach her heart,
don't skip that part,
skipping will tear her apart,
love her every part,
heal her every scar...

i have heard my elders say,
when someone innocent dies,
the earth quivers,
when something unfair happens,
the sky weeps,
a thousand tears,
the graves tremble,
it rain stones,
on the land of earth,
the hell burst fire,
the heaven shed tears,
the birds stop taking flight,
when an innocent dies,
so i am waiting,
standing on the dead bodies,
of my loved ones,
i am waiting for,
the sky to weep,
i am watching,
the men of my nation,
being massacred mercilessly,
i am waiting for,
earth to quiver,
i am hearing,
the screams of my women,
being torn apart by the,
men masked wolves,
i am waiting,
for the graves to tremble,
coz it's all i can do,
waiting is all i can do............

in the book of her past,
she had pages,
she once wished to be tore down,
but now she knows,
without those dark days,
she couldn't have been,
what she is today.......

while they all were busy,
in praising her beauty,
falling for her looks,
admiring her eyes,
proclaiming those rosy cheeks,
he found her,
collecting the bits of herself,
that were tossed by you,
he found her behind the woods of guise,
offered her hand,
and pulled her out,
out of that fake world,
and that has made all the difference

so she stood there,
watching the rays dying,
watching the sun bleeding in yellow and orange,
the moon ready to take it's place,
and at that time,
she realized,
nothing is irreplaceable,
neither the sun,
nor was she.......

he could see,
the fleeting colors,
fading slowly,
the illuminated quivered path,
trailed on the blue water,
and with those rays,
caressing her skin,
he couldn't decide,
what was more breathtaking,
the sunset or she.....

and when she realized,
he didn't deserve her,
not even she,
could stop herself,
from walking away,
for she knew,
he was just a spark,
and she was the whole **** fire

silly girl,
little does she know,
they believe the smile,
not dare to look in the eyes,
the eyes hiding the lies,
little do they know,
she's been crying all night,
silly girl,
~little does she know~

every night,
i hear your countless chuckles,
echoing in my room,
they are my favourite lullabies,
the reads your stories to me,
the best bed time stories of my life,
the stars tell tale of yours,
in the flickering flame of my candle,
i see only your face,
the white fairies murmur your name in my ears,
and every ruck of my bedspread,
is an attestor,
that all my night,
i think of you.......

Do you remember
All the roads we’ve walked together,
With hands in hands,
When you used to whisper my name,
In my ears,
Do you remember
The days
When we didn’t need
Any reason to stay together,
We were happy the
Way we were
When we used to sit in coffee shops
For hours and hours,
When we didn’t need
Any words to speak,
Do you remember?
Because I do,
And the worst part,
I think I always will………

I am the first drop of dew,
That falls on,
Flowers of different hue,
I am the sweetness of tea,
and bitterness of coffee
I am the cloud,
That has both
Thunder and rain,
I am the
Strong wind,
That blows,
I am the sweet whistling wind,
That brings peace,
I am the water fall,
I am the sea,
I am the sky and the stars,
I am the beauty,
I am the beast,
I am no ordinary person,
I am a woman…………..

So you say that you know her,
Roll her sleeves up,
Tell me why are
Those scars there
Look into her eyes,
Tell me why  are they
so sad,
You say you love her,
Then why she cries at night,
So next time don’t ever
Dare to say
You know her,
You don’t,
You just recognize her,
And there is a difference
No?

Take me back to that time,
Epoch of love,
When I used to stand
near your window
Just to hear your
Mellifluous voice,
To hear that silence,
Whisper your name in my ears,
To watch that silver,
Polka dotted brush,
Flow through your
Lush black hairs,
Oh take me back  to that time,
Epoch of love

As the teeny tiny
droplets fall from
the window of heavens,
purifying every soul,
showering its blessing,
providing water to the,
thirsty cracked land,
wetting my cheeks,
oh how lucky are those clouds,
to throw away their burden,
to make it rain,
and oh how hard it is,
for me,
to keep all,
the blistering tears
inside my eyes………………

I like to take,
Showers more than usual,
Not because I am too tidy,
But because,
I like my tears to stay hidden,
I don’t want them to be seen ,
By people who will judge them,
Not understand them,
I like them to be washed away,
With shower,
I stand still,
Until I see every little,
Drop of my tear,
Roll down my cheek,
Get absorbed in
The guise of water,
And I love how
I come out so nicely,
Like everything is
perfect………

They say ,
They know me,
They love me,
They understand me,
That’s not fascinate me,
What intrigues me the most,
Is what will they do,
To themselves,
When they’ll truly understand me……….

And when you
start needing words
to explain your sadness,
that is the time you should
start thinking about
your relation……….

people say,
the person you sketch,
is the person you love,
if that is the parameter to measure love,
let oceans be my ink,
and skies be my pages,
they will not be enough,
but all they say is true,
then sit next to me,
and let me sketch you

with the melody of modesty,
harmony of heaven,
rythm of romance,
texture of thrill,
pitch of perfection,
tempo of trust,
she was the best song,
ever written.....

and when the night falls,
she pulls out a flask,
from the pocket of her thoughts,
add a few drops,
to the cup of her heart,
stir with the spoon of sighs,
sweeten it with sugar of her memories,
and every sip of it, reminds her,
the taste of your lies......

An epmty park,
Sky full of stars,
Crickets were chirping,
Fireflies were blinking,
Fog was dense,
The weather was tense,
I had so much to say,
No one to share,
So I chose silence,
It proved to be the best peer,
I told her my worries,
Asked my queries,
neither did it deny,
Nor did it reply,
No matter what I say,
It always stay,
Hidden in my heart,
Playing it's friendship part........

his love was senescence,
he once lied to me,
the bud of my flower expand,
he didn't notice,
he then lied to me,
my flower's vibrant colors faded,
he overlooked that,
he again lied to me,
and the petals begin to drop,
and the flower of my love,
which once bloomed red,
is now lying on the floor,
it's dead....

i am afraid,
afraid of fire,
oh no, not that one,
not the one that burns outside,
that feed on woods,
i am afraid of fire,
that burns within,
one that feeds on hearts,
that is brought up by hatred,
turning the red lovely hearts,
to thick black ash,
i am afraid of fire,
that burns the love,
whose flames rise from heart,
touch the mouth,
and shred us all apart,
i am afraid of fire,
i am afraid that one day,
we'll be mourning,
not over burning houses,
but burning hearts.....

your memories aren't just memories,
they are the slow poison for me,
which i keep in a crystal flask,
and every night,
before i go to sleep,
i open it up,
and drink a little,
for every poison has an ecstasy,
and in your memories,
i found mine.....

i see that girl,
she changed so fast,
well maybe that's because,
she had been giving her best part,
to people who weren't good at all,
but they forgot,
even the prettiest dawns,
have scariest nightfalls,
and now its her turn,
naive she was then,
strong she is now............

happiness is
dancing in rain and,
in sun getting tanned,
happiness is
playing in snow and
watching the hot sun glow,
happiness is
falling for purety, and
loving even abnormality,
happiness is
walking at night and
waiting for dawn,
happiness is
not where you seek it,
but where you create it..........
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i see darkness prevailing,
darkness eating every bit of things i love,
darkness veiling happiness,
darkness hiding every lamp of light,
but that's not all i see,
i see a small beam,
beam of light,
coming through the window of heaven,
i see it reaching out to me,
i will not give up,
i will not surrender,
i will run after the beam of light,
for i know,
it'll lead me back to life....

i don't want you to be my superman,
and sweep me off my feet,
i don't want you to be my batman,
and save me from bane,
don't want you to be my king of hearts,
and save me from masked jokers,
and i don't want you to be my romeo,
and drink poison for me,
just be my man and live for me,
with me

let's build a house,
a house for two,
let's build it's walls together,
you bring love,
i'll bring affection,
you bring honesty,
i'll bring loyalty,
you bring trustability,
i'll bring reliability,
let's roof the house with fidelity,
we will decorate it with feality,
let's build a house,
a house for two,
a house for us.........

i remember her,
remember her twirling,
in that white frock,
with the waves of sea,
as the sea waves kissed her feet,
such a lovely apparition,
my eyes still wander,
wander in search,
of those hazel green eyes,
dancing by the tides........

i walked through deserts,
sieved every grain of sand,
i walked through thick forest,
i walked where darkness reigned,
i was brought near to light,
but it was nowhere to be found,
i turned the pages of history,
tried to solve the mystery,
i searched in silence,
searched it in solitude,
but it was nowhere to be found,
the moment i held my pen,
i found it,
i found peace,
i found peace in words,
and from that day,
i bleed in words,
i cry in words,
i scream in words,
at last i can say,
i found it,
i found peace.......

everynight,
a new wolf,
ready to tear my soul apart,
ready to stab a dagger,
deep into my heart,
they say women like us,
belongs to hell,
pity on them,
how virtuous are they,
to spend nights,
with hellworms like us,
they say,
we are disreputable,
how respectful they are,
to be with us for nights,
how can they be white collored,
after darkening our lives,
i always wonder how
we weren't born this way,
they made us .......

and when i try to look,
through the red velvet curtains,
of my murky room,
i see moon,
drenched in blood,
looking as vicious as it could be,
half red moon,
moon tinted with red drops,
drops of her blood,
and no matter what i try,
to look for,
a red haunted moon,
is all i see,
oh i see it......

And when my guardians failed to protect me,
I left myself
On the mercy of these vultures,
I can feel them,
Tangling their beaks
In my warm flesh,
Piercing it,
Feasting on it,
I hear my blood spill
Drop after drop
Sanctifying every grain of Earth,
I can smell,
The sweet metallic smell,
Blending in the air
I hear *****
***** of their wings
Drenched in my blood,
I watch blood dripping from their beaks,
I can see the fibres of my blood
Stuck inside those nefarious nails,
As they tear my carcass
I watch my guardians
The silent spectators
Oh I Want them to make it stop,
To step forward,
Oh I do want them to...........

i am alone tonight,
go tell her,
i am all ears,
tell her to whisper in my ears,
to pour the bitter truth in my ears,
the truth i had been hiding from all,
tell her to come with,
her tongue so sharp,
with her eyes,
so vicious and dark,
with her speed so fast,,
tell her i am all ears,
tell her to
pop off the poison,
into my ears,into heart,
let me listen,
to the words,
dancing in the dark,
go tell my sadness,
i am alone tonight,
go tell her,
i am all ears........

when the sun starts to set,
when the birds take their flight,
on way back to home,
when the stars start
peeping from the curtain of sky,
i replay memories,
your yes and nos,
your do and don't,
you laughter and tears,
your love and loathe,
the only truth is,
i replay you
i replay your memories........