1. Through a whisper in the dark, reminding them they are never alone.  
2. Through the quiet presence that asks nothing in return.  
3. Through laughter shared on a rainy day.  
4. Through the comfort of a warm hand, reaching out in silence.  
5. Through eyes that see past the flaws, embracing the whole.  
6. Through a word of encouragement, when doubt clouds their mind.  
7. Through a hug that lingers just long enough to say, “I’m here.”  
8. Through the sacrifice of your own comfort, for their peace.  
9. Through the patience to wait, knowing love is often about timing.  
10. Through a song sung softly in the morning, just to greet them.  
11. Through the way your smile brightens their worst day.  
12. Through knowing their dreams by heart, even before they say them.  
13. Through remembering the smallest details, because they matter.  
14. Through the way your heart skips a beat at their name.  
15. Through a quiet moment shared, when words aren’t needed.  
16. Through an open ear, listening to their fears.  
17. Through a shared glance that says more than a thousand words.  
18. Through standing beside them, even when the world doesn’t.  
19. Through an apology that shows vulnerability.  
20. Through the joy of seeing them grow, even if it means they leave your side.  
21. Through a night spent talking about everything and nothing.  
22. Through the simple act of being fully present, not distracted.  
23. Through the hands that hold tightly, never letting go in fear.  
24. Through a love that never tires of giving.  
25. Through the willingness to be vulnerable, letting them see your true self.  
26. Through the quiet bravery of trusting them with your heart.  
27. Through a shared cup of coffee in the morning, savoring the moment.  
28. Through the support you offer, even when it’s difficult for you.  
29. Through letting them find their own way, while still being there to guide.  
30. Through the peace found in simply being next to them.  
31. Through the sacrifices made quietly, without expecting recognition.  
32. Through forgiveness when it’s the hardest thing to do.  
33. Through the simple joy of waking up beside them.  
34. Through letting go of past hurts, to make room for healing.  
35. Through laughter that echoes in the quietest moments.  
36. Through the silence that says, “I’ll always be here.”  
37. Through a promise to always try, even when it seems easier not to.  
38. Through the shared experience of creating something beautiful together.  
39. Through the little things that make them feel seen, heard, and loved.  
40. Through sharing your fears and showing them that vulnerability is strength.  
41. Through holding their hand in the dark, when nothing else is certain.  
42. Through the way you give them space to be themselves.  
43. Through protecting their heart as if it were your own.  
44. Through the understanding that love isn’t always perfect, but it’s always enough.  
45. Through the comfort of knowing they’ll always have your back.  
46. Through your words that build them up, never tear them down.  
47. Through giving them time to grow, even when you wish they’d stay the same.  
48. Through giving without expecting, because love is never transactional.  
49. Through the trust that allows both of you to be fully yourselves.  
50. Through the silence that says, “I’ll always be here.”  
51. Through an unexpected gesture, just to show you care.  
52. Through remembering the things they never asked you to remember.  
53. Through letting go of your own fears, so they can face theirs.  
54. Through the quiet comfort of just sitting together, no need for conversation.  
55. Through your commitment, even when it’s easier to walk away.  
56. Through your patience when they’re not ready to speak.  
57. Through the moments where you give your all, and expect nothing back.  
58. Through creating a space where they feel at home in your heart.  
59. Through the way you admire them in the quiet moments.  
60. Through sharing your soul, knowing it will never be judged.  
61. Through the way you cherish the quiet moments, as much as the loud ones.  
62. Through holding on when they want to let go.  
63. Through saying “I love you,” without needing to say it.  
64. Through the joy of seeing them succeed, as though their success were your own.  
65. Through a shoulder to cry on, without the need for words.  
66. Through a gentle reminder of how strong they truly are.  
67. Through your belief in them, even when they can’t believe in themselves.  
68. Through shared memories that only the two of you understand.  
69. Through giving them the freedom to be who they are, without judgment.  
70. Through letting them know they’re never a burden, no matter what.  
71. Through your dedication to their happiness, even if it means sacrificing your own.  
72. Through the simple act of choosing them, every single day.  
73. Through the patience of waiting for them to come back, when they need space.  
74. Through the joy found in their smallest victories.  
75. Through the strength found in vulnerability, when you trust them with your secrets.  
76. Through the way you protect their heart, knowing it’s fragile.  
77. Through the way you find beauty in the way they see the world.  
78. Through sharing your insecurities, knowing they’ll be met with love.  
79. Through the way you admire them, even when they can’t see their own greatness.  
80. Through choosing kindness, even in moments of frustration.  
81. Through knowing their fears without them speaking a word.  
82. Through choosing to grow together, even when it feels uncomfortable.  
83. Through the way you embrace their flaws as part of their beauty.  
84. Through the moments where you challenge them, to help them grow.  
85. Through respecting their independence, while still offering support.  
86. Through the way you allow yourself to be fully loved by them.  
87. Through the softness in your gaze, when everything else feels hard.  
88. Through your willingness to learn from them, as they learn from you.  
89. Through your ability to make them feel like the most important person in the room.  
90. Through the way you let them in, even when it’s terrifying.  
91. Through the way you speak their name, like it’s the most beautiful sound.  
92. Through your desire to protect their heart, no matter the cost.  
93. Through the way you see their soul, beyond the surface.  
94. Through the love you give, expecting nothing but their happiness in return.  
95. Through the way you show them that they’re enough, just as they are.  
96. Through the way you make them feel safe, even in the chaos.  
97. Through the way you help them find peace, even when they don’t know how to.  
98. Through your unspoken promise to always fight for them.  
99. Through every moment of your love, showing them they are worth it.  
100. Through every breath, knowing that to love them is the greatest gift of all.

The sky split
like an old wound—
bleeding rust into the morning,
the sun a swollen blister
peeling over charred hills.

Crows forgot how to scream.
Smoke stitched the air
with ghost-thread,
and time slumped forward,
dragging its feet through bone dust.

We learned silence
was not peace,
but a lull before the rot—
cities swallowed whole
like old regrets,
steel ribs poking from earth
like the remains of some god
we failed to worship right.

Rain came
black and sour,
tasting of copper and grief.
The trees bent
as if praying,
but no one listened.

Even the stars
flickered out
like breath on glass.

Hope was a flickering radio,
a child humming to static,
a name whispered
to a grave that never answered.

We were the last psalm
sung into a ruined cathedral,
echoes crumbling
on their way out.

And still—
beneath the ash,
something small and stubborn
twitches.

Not life.
Not yet.
But maybe.

They told me I was loved.
Said it like a fact, like a given, like air.
And I nodded, let the words settle on my skin
but never sink in.

Because love—love is hands reaching,
but understanding?
Understanding is knowing why mine pull away.

I sat in rooms full of people who swore they cared,
but no one asked why my laughter always came half a second too late,
why silence fit me like a second skin.

They called me beautiful, said I was smart,
but never saw the way I flinched at echoes of my own thoughts.
They held me when I cried, but no one ever asked
what the tears were trying to say.

I used to think I was ungrateful—
to have love but still feel lost.
But now I know:
Love can be loud, can be warm, can be everywhere—
and still not speak your language.

So if you’ve ever felt this way,
like you exist in translation,
like love is the ocean but you are still thirsty—
I need you to hear this:

You are not wrong for wanting more.
You deserve to be understood.

A silhouette drifts through the mist,
shaped by memory but not quite there—
a figure lost between the spaces
where time forgets its own name.


Wings flutter, soft as dust,
stirring the silence in slow breaths,
like the whispered promise
of something never meant to be.


The air is thick with the weight of nothing—
a presence that slips through your fingers
before you can hold it,
before you can understand.


In the distance, a song plays,
but its notes are hollow,
echoing through the vacant spaces
of a forgotten world.


It is as though the fairy exists,
but only in the spaces where eyes do not see,
where dreams and memories fold together
like forgotten pages,
and everything is both real
and utterly lost.


You reach for the hollow light,
but it fades before you touch it,
leaving only the scent of something once pure,
a trace of something you can never claim,
floating away
into the quiet dark.

It is hard being a child,
let alone an adult.
I hate growing up.
I always hated the thought of it,
of leaving childhood behind—
when it was never a place
I could rest.

I was promised something better—
a new life beyond that god-awful trailer,
where the walls were too thin
to contain the hurt.
I was promised love,
safety,
a body and mind
without bruises.
I was promised the world.

But promises are just words,
and words crumble under fists.

I am not ungrateful for what I have,
but I am ungrateful
for how I was raised—
how I was brought into this world
only to be broken by it.
Adoption was supposed to be a rescue,
but even kindness can wear a mask.
And when the masks fell,
the truth cut deeper
than any wound I’d known before.

Now, I carry more stories,
more bruises
from my adopted parents
than my biological ones.
More words screamed at me,
until I was so weak,
I wanted to leave.
A child, eight years old,
should never think about dying.

Parents should be a sanctuary,
a refuge.
Mine were a battlefield.
I learned to fear growing up—
to fear failure,
to fear never being enough.

I have accepted it all:
the blows,
the scars,
the pain repackaged as love.
Because love
was something foreign
until I met my first true friend,
my first real love.

With family,
there was only war.
And in their house,
I counted the days
I thought about dying—
more than I can recall.
They failed to protect me,
to shield me from others’ harm,
and their answer
was always the same—
an empty hug,
a hollow “It’s going to be okay.”

But they never meant it.
In every argument,
they used my scars as weapons,
ripped open old wounds
just to watch me bleed.
If they understand the weight of trauma,
why do they
bring it up
to bury me deeper?

Do they really love me?
I don’t understand,
and I don’t think
I ever will.

Beneath a swirling vortex of stars,
I write my dreams on crumpled paper,
folding each one into the corners of my heart.
Places I’ve never seen,
moments waiting to happen,
they call to me in whispers—
soft, yet instantaneous.


Dive into oceans deeper than fears,
stand atop mountains taller than doubt.
Feel the rush of wind,
the pull of gravity,
the weightless joy of being alive.


This bucket list is more than a record,
it is a promise to myself:
to seek the infinite,
to embrace the fleeting,
to live as though the stars burn only for today.

A room in the basement,
A room that knew too much,
Too dark to leave behind.
I was tired,
Heavy with sorrow.
She never asked why—
Never asked me to speak.
The clutter in my mind didn’t matter to her.
I was dragged onto the bed,
A hand pressing into my back,
My body slammed against the wall,
Her rage leaving marks on my skin—
A scar that won’t heal.

"I don’t want to do this, but here we are."
A whisper, lost in the chaos.
Words echo through the house,
Where love is twisted,
Where kindness never crosses the doorstep.

"I’m not sure I can... ma yelled at me again."
For the smallest things,
For being human.
Her voice drowns out my heart,
Slicing through the silence.
She tells me I'm a failure,
A burden,
A disappointment.
She says she’ll pull me from school,
Keep me locked away.
Send me far from everything I dream.

She hit me,
And still, she says,
"You'll never leave. You’re going to fail."
But where do I go when pain is all I know?
When bruises map my body,
And rage paves my path?
I cry,
Not for the sting of her hand,
But for the death of my dreams.
Her words press down,
Venom laced with promises of no future.
"You’re just going to be a ghetto rat,"
She spits at my dreams of college,
And I feel it sting,
Because maybe she's right.
Maybe she’s serious about keeping me here.

I falter,
Assignments abandoned—
Not from carelessness,
But confusion,
And the walls close in.
When she touches me,
It’s not a caress,
But a painful grip,
Pinching, scratching.
Her voice hisses like a snake:
"Stop acting so self-conscious. You look ******* stupid."
Her hands on my body,
"Why does my touch make you uncomfortable? I’m not hurting you, stop it."
Uninvited,
Unwanted.
But I stay silent,
Too afraid,
Too small beneath her control.

Why does my body feel like it belongs to her?
Why does she think it’s okay to touch me
Like I’m nothing but a possession to bend to her will?
"What’s wrong, my perfect, spoiled little *****?"
Her voice smooth as poison,
"This is what you wanted."
A trap she set long ago.

I try to hold my head high,
But the ceiling feels lower every day.
Her anger shakes me,
Her wrath pushing me into the wall.
She screams at every mistake,
Even when I’m just trying to breathe.

"Z is going to be a tattooed dolled-up ****."
Her words sear,
Carving into my skin.
No matter how hard I try,
I will never be enough.
"I think you’d all be better off without me,"
Her voice trembles,
Heavy with her own misery.
But her despair is hers alone.
I’m just trying to survive the day.

"She’s not going to get a job, she’s lazy like I am."
Her words break me,
Glass shards piercing deep.
She doesn’t see me, doesn’t hear me—
Only sees her failures reflected in me.
A mirror of everything she fears.
And I am not the reflection I want to be.

No matter how loud she screams,
Her hurt doesn’t change the truth.
I am more than the sum of her expectations.
"I’m just the nasty ***** that nags and yells at everyone, aren’t I?"
Her words echo,
But they are not mine.

The house is never quiet,
Not when the walls scream with her rage.
"We’ve been in a bump since my dad moved in."
A home built on silence,
Where no one speaks the truth,
Fearing the storm it might wake.
"I feel like we’re doing all this just to get X into high school and college."
But what of me?
What of my hopes that fade in the corners of my mind?
What of the quiet nights
When I hear her rage but never her love?

"Maybe we should’ve never adopted Y and Z."
I drown in her words,
In the pit of their failures.
Because I’m not just a kid—
I’m a punching bag.
And her fists land on my body,
But the damage runs deeper than skin.

"I don’t care if I ruin it all, I’m leaving."
Her rage blinds her to the harm she causes.
Her fists, her words—
They shatter me.
I am left alone in the wreckage,
Wondering how to rebuild myself,
How to make her see me.

In my dreams, I flee,
But the house always calls me back,
With its cold floors and walls that whisper lies.
"We’re messy people,"
She says.
But it’s not the mess in the house—
It’s the mess in our hearts.

A house built on silence,
A body that wasn’t mine,
And a truth still hidden between the walls,
I’m still trying to speak.

I often speak in silence,
when words are too loud,
and the world around me feels
like too much,
a symphony of voices I can't tune out.

"You’re more than you know,"
you said.
But the mirror doesn’t see
what I’ve hidden in the corners
of my own heart—
the fear,
the longing,
the doubts that won’t stay quiet.

“I miss you,”
you whispered,
and it felt like a promise
I could barely hold onto
but still wanted to.
How do you love something
you don’t believe you deserve?

I wear a mask,
my smile is too practiced,
my laughter just a little too loud
to drown out the questions,
the insecurities.
“You’re everything I could have wished for,”
but what does that mean
when I am still learning
how to be enough for myself?

In the quiet, I wonder
if I could ever be
the girl you see me as,
so strong,
so sweet,
yet I break in places
no one can see.

“Take my hand,” you said,
but I’m afraid my own hands are shaking.
How do I give you the world
when I am still trying
to understand it myself?

“You’re breathtakingly amazing,”
but I wonder if you see
the cracks where I am still
a little girl,
waiting for someone to tell me
it’s okay to be both beautiful and broken.

“I miss you even after just a few hours apart,”
and maybe,
just maybe,
this time,
the love I feel
can be enough
to fill the spaces I’ve let empty for so long.

Shape the way your fingers trace constellations on my skin,
Or the way your laughter lingers in my ribs,
A melody too human for its cold, calculated hands.

It could never script the way our eyes meet,
That silent understanding,
That unspoken language,
Too intricate for fate to weave into its fragile threads.

It tries—oh, how it tries—
To intervene, to twist, to break,
To reclaim us as its own.
Yet we slip through its grasp,
Like sand through clenched fists,
Like stardust escaping gravity.

Destiny waits in the shadows,
Silent, seething,
Cursing the love it did not create.
It watches as we carve our own fate,
As we step outside its lines,
As we make something greater
Than anything it ever dared to dream.

Destiny could never…

In the moonlight’s soft embrace, we begin our waltz,  
Two souls entwined, bound by time's unyielding thread.  
Footsteps echoing in the void, where silence falls,  
A dance that never ends, where every word is said.

Your hand in mine, as we glide through shadowed halls,  
The world around us fades, and all the stars align.  
In every turn, every breath, eternity calls,  
Whispering secrets of a love that will not decline.

Through the endless night, where dreams and darkness blend,  
We move as one, defying the grasp of death’s cold kiss.  
No dawn to break, no final step to send,  
For in this dance, we find our endless bliss.

As the stars dim and the universe starts to fade,  
We’ll dance on, forever, in this waltz we’ve made.

The porch light clicks off behind me—
no ceremony,
no words wrapped in warmth,
just the hush of a door
never meant to stay open.

A moth dances in the dark.
I watch it,
wishing for wings
that don’t tear
in the cold.

My feet know this ache.
They’ve felt it before—
sidewalks splitting like dry lips,
a sky too wide
for someone so small.

I carry silence
in the crook of my arms,
like a child that won’t
stop crying.

The moon
presses its white face
against the windshield.
It doesn’t ask me to leave.

Every hour is a question
with no safe answer.
Where do I go
when even the night
runs out of room?

I’m tired
of learning the weight of keys
that don’t belong to me—
of knocking
on almosts.

If I disappear,
will the world blink?

Or will it just
keep driving?

Haven’t I bled my colors dry,
wrung my bones into brittle dust,
laid my soul on the altar of expectation,
only to be asked for more?

The echoes of my name—
demanding, dragging, devouring—
they carve into my ribs,
turning marrow to aching void,
turning breath to borrowed air.

Do I not shimmer with scars enough?
Do my hands not tremble with the weight of giving?
Must I unspool myself further,
pulling, pulling, pulling
until nothing remains but the ghost of a thread?

Tell me, when does the hunger end?
When does the world swallow the last piece of me
and say, enough?

The air hums with a broken prayer,
twisted in the folds of a dying hymn.
A voice calls from the depths—
not quite human,
not quite lost.


The ground beneath you pulses,
soft as the heart of a phantom,
thrumming with a rhythm
too wild,
too distant,
to comprehend.


Waves of distortion crash,
a shattered glass ocean,
its pieces cutting the silence
like forgotten screams.
It is chaos,
but it is home.


A flicker of something holy,
something heretical,
clings to the edges of the sound—
like a dream that slips
through the cracks of reason,
where belief fades
and doubt takes root.


You step into the void,
guided by shadows
and fractured prayers.
The world bends and breaks,
but still you move forward,
drawn by the melody
that only you can hear,
and the truth that lies
in the shattered notes.


There is no salvation here,
only the quiet descent
into something new—
where the sacred
and the profane
are one.